Blue Saturday

thread of mumbling to myself. you can play too.

Playlist, shuffled

Popol Vuh - Hosianna Mantra
Actress - Splazsh
Paysage d'Hiver - Kristall & Isa
v/a - Mystic Records Presents We Got Power - Party or Go Home
Alva Noto - Xerrox Vol. 2
Debris - Static Disposal
Pere Ubu - The Modern Dance
Pussy Galore - Exile on Main Street
Decayes - Not Yet!
Ulver - Nattens Madrigal
Edgar Varèse - noise interpolations from "Déserts"
Orbital - Brown Album
The Fall - Escape Route from the Wonderful and Frightening World of
John Beltran - Earth and Nightfall
Celtic Frost - To Mega Therion
Expo '70 - Animism & Black Ohms

add zoloft and low-grade hangover, play freecell, lean back, stir

freecell is fucking tedious tbh.

spent a lot of time this week watching young people going about their business, wondered why the fuck they were bothering for the most part. humans' sense of a worthwhile life/survival is pretty fucking tedious tbh.

i mean we are ape-y and not much imbued with magic or wonder

have been semi-inclined to go to Beverley and get properly drunk and lost today, out of spite and dickishness really, but this feels like a more satisfactory and less damaging way of getting some of that out of my system. damn i love a temporary solution tho. temporary dissolution.

okay, "Remind" is proper classic. lolstalgia. here is a notable story from the annals of Hull history

http://www.thesun.co.uk/sol/homepage/news/article145635.ece

the other weekend we decided there should be a giant animatronic goat-fucker alongside the railway line just before the station, with a neon "Welcome to Hull" sign over it

i missed the last d off of "Edgard", I know

lolstalgia. jaysus

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YMFspaHFl3Q&feature=related

in the service of full disclosure, obv. there's not much more ridiculous than middle age, but youth is probly one of the things

http://www.sabotagetimes.com/wp-content/uploads/Hull-Fair-7.jpg

so in love with the decent past but this picture could've been took anytime, really

city lost to time, city that fell from grace with the sea

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=px5RkcwxkZQ

oh Hessle Road

half fucked now but still classic

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c6bWJd44i-o

best band ever btw

http://bill.terebenthine.free.fr/images/spiders_from_mars.jpg

This is the 2nd best band from Hull ever. They were still Quite Good.

http://bill.terebenthine.free.fr/images/spiders_from_mars.jpg

man this tension between wanting to escape and knowing i won't escape very far, tawdriness in advance, wanting a pub with chet baker on the jukey or at the least Stock Aitken and Watermang's "SS Paparazzi" - lolstalgia again tho - can't even get a pint of Double Diamond anywhere now, not sure they still brew it - or that i want it tbh

not sure how much of this is the medicine flexing its muscles either but

not cut out for another 5 - 50 years of this really and pondering whether maintaining a facade of functional dignity is doing anybody any favours when i shd be beatniking it out in the wilds of this hilarious city

http://www.heritagepubs.org.uk/images/pubphotos/Hull-OldeWhiteHart-MainBar.jpg

Allegedly - tho you know history and publicity make bitch liars and memory is quite rewriteable - this is where we started to win the Civil War. Charles was keen on coming into the city and securing the arsenal and the docks but local capitalist plutocrat guys got together in this pub and told the mayor to lock the gates and tell him to get tae fuck. which he did, against his will. this pub is really cosy and still pub-esque, which y'know is an increasingly rare fucking commodity in the 2K10s. also where i heard some dude being accused of being "racist against gays".

Pubs I have loved: the Piper, the Gardener's, Hockneys when it were old and working man's clubbish, the Golden Ball, the Engineers, the Mint, the Black Boy, the Olde White Hart, the Schnapps Bar, the Empress, the Star of the West RIP you were a beautiful dump, the Station, the Turnpike and that stupid sports bar at the back where I watched us win the play-offs and got so splattered by half time I didn't remember a fucking thing about it, also where I watched Eubank fuck up Watson but missed the fatal punch and said something unfortunate about him not getting tagged that hard

interrupted because our joel just texted to inform me that a pet shop in town is selling bird food labelled "6 fat balls for wild birds"

and I KNOW HOW IT FEELS

http://www.eyorks.com/hullpub/

this virtual pub crawl is kinda sick-making with lolstalgia. the probable siberian wind knifing ice-sleet into yr face is doing a good job of keeping my safe in the house tho. am gonna cheat and make myself a little sump'n sump'n now to tilt the balance. might as well be hung for a whole pen full of sheep etc

honest to god there used to be a fishing tackle shop on Anlaby Rd called "Master Baits"

ginger beer, is there anything you don't mix with?

one can't help but feel that social evolution is something of a pig in that it discards all use for male libido about 30 fucking years before yr male does

NON-ALIGNMENT PACT YES BANG ON TIME

am looping that fucker

don't know when i, when i'll be conte-eh-eh-ent btw

really tho motivation is a funny thing. i dunno that aristotle was right about the unexamined life not being worth living but fuck i seem to see a lot of unexamination going down. ruminants. being a ruminant is plenty cool if you like cud tho. absolutely don't despise peoples alignments with themselves, just am wickedly out of sync and not getting how to get my groove "back" ha like it's been there since what 10? 5? seem to remember being reasonable centred playing army on the grass square at the top of our street but even then i was more of a cloud watcher rilly.

you reach this point when you think "man i am all ego self-centred aspie not good for people observer only bollocks" and that's a thing that you can be, one doesn't like to think it about yourself but we aren't all cut out for being productive and reasonable and loveable guys really

ginger ale not great with sambuca fwiw

got no real issues with the rest

yeah that seems true, wdn't mix sambuca tho tbh. ginger beer, not ale. I like ginger ale but it's a pretty low key mixer? have an unopened bottle that i might bring into play when the ginger beer runs out unless mrs v comes home and slaps me upside my head

which wd be a dece excuse tbh

we should totally go out on the lash, darragh, it would be most excellent times imo

no issues with that either, but no aristotle pls

i don't do aristotle in the pub, or anywhere else really, dude was shit

most tedious fucking philosopher ever award or maybe leibniz or that twat brother of Henery James's's

i forgot the old fake irish bar appendage to the mainbrace in my list of much loved pubs, and the mainbrace itself, spent a glorious new years eve in there one time off my swede on mushrooms thinking i'd got a glowing sign on my head saying "this dude's on mushrooms"

i miss hallucinogens

booze is a ready, loving, companiable buddy for ALL TIME tho

it was all-encompassing dismissal of discussion of all higher modes of though tbh

For drinking purposes, that is. Time and a place, time and a place

exackly

sport and giant animatronic goat-fucker tableaux are ideal pub convos tbh

don't even take my "oh pity poor me i is so sad" face to the boozer, it is NOT THE PLACE

i wouldnt trust booze with my money or missus but i'll go drinking with him alright.

not that i is so sad, i am kinda focused and edgy and probly not real level-headed but sadness is sort of not there except an impending "i like where this relationship is going" gif sadness and wondering hmmm can i keep up a veneer of not-great for another 10 years or so until the kids are all safely launched

goat fucker convo def has icebreaker value

he is an hull legend. shd definitely feature in the publicity blurb imo, also he is one of those dudes where everybody you meet knows somebody who knows him

but this is like the biggest village in the world so

six degrees of separation in hull = about 3

fond memories of P4ul H34ton allegedly fending off Poll Tax bailiffs with an air rifle from his Grafton Street mansion

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2sNffR-yTA4

our civic anthem

reckon a goatfucker or similar on the sound bridge would put achill on the map

Ok, on phone, in body lotion section of an actual irl fancy dept store, and my full attn is required. Continue at yr own pace will check validity of the remainder of thread later

suddenly I have Depeche Mode's "Just Can't Get Enough" with the lyric changed to "Just Can't Get It Up" stuck in my head as a good idea for a Weird Al song

am not even dressed yet but gotta admit the water on the windows did inspire a bit of "oh sweet (not)..." earlier. mostly just glad to be the not at work though evne if this afternoon fails in my quest to do anything productive 4th week running.

lucky I have the new Radiohead album to listen to, high spirits ahead!

"body lotion section" is boggling and lol

dude are you stuck in Dublin now I forget?

i am inspired by people's not liking of the new Radionhead, and people saying it is all low key and tune-light, those are excellent qualities in a Radionhead rekkid to my mind

toothpaste aisle? I kind of love and hate Big Tesco

Big Tesco has some great shit in it but I hardly go in any more, also it feels like a chore to trek all the way to the back of it, also the bastards took the pork and pickle pies off the deli counter

conventional pork pies don't do it for me any more, i need pickle in there or i need to be at home where i can smother that shit in mustard

something 50 Cent-ish about that last line

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lQR0JgJO74s

This, btw gentlemen, is a FUCKING TUNE

is there much C&W on the Queen's jukebox, i don't remember and i feel a need? also lol my wife is gonna kill me hooray

jesus no not in dublin ffs

Tho i have days, god help me, it almost tempts as a final surrender

Pringles don't seem to do Wasabi flavour or Lime and Chilli flavour any more, I am a bit heartbroken, bastards

Marty Robbins fucking rules

wot big city u exiled in then D?

and why have we got no ice cube bags in the house bollocks

so tempted to text my eldest boy for a sesh but ah hell i'm gonna fuck this

i'm gonna. full stop. fuck this

nearest big city is an hour south, not sure galway is as big as hull tho?

not been to galway. i wd guess not, seeing as how Letterkenny is a teeming metropolis and it's about the size of the pit village i grew up in

it's what saturday is for! x-post...boozing i meant.

am about to get up and cook an omelette with some pancetta. might hold off boozing till this evening. have a lovely bottle of wine in the fridge tho...

dammit my eldest has gone to his mother's for the weekend the twat

the boy, not his mum. we get along fine

just made a Snowball, feels mad decadent in February.

think it's Merle Haggard time

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6XeBn3AXeUc

suspect that having a drink is gonna be took for being drunk, may need to flee the scene when i've done this snowball, badly need somebody to txt and give me an excuse

the fact that there doesn't seem to be a Youtube of Merle's version of "Wishing All These Old Things Were New" is sort of a national disgrace.

it's funny, in my head i'm 20 but in the mirror i'm a fat old cunt

OH THE IRONY OF MORTALITY

there's something out there that's not in here, but i don't think anybody knows what it is, for two gross of broken statues, for a few thousand battered books. it's a poor do really. don't think we've made the best of the situation as a species

Hi Noodle. John Terry tried to do a stepover in the corner a minute ago, kicked the ball onto his standing leg and out for a goal kick. Blue Saturday nothing.

:D

there mayn't be a god, but karma has a sharp sense of humour sometimes

thx for inspiring me to start my day with some non-alignment pact

i used to have a thing about how people from hull should fuck off our philip larkin but i have recently begun to wonder if hull needs him more than cov does. yr thoughts?

i think cov probly needs him a little more, i've never found it an inspirational place whereas hull wd be hull with or without big Phil Silvers. they put a statue of him up in the train station now. to be fair he did all his useful work here and he seems to have felt at home in the place whilst still feeling not at home. only Cov poem I can remember is based on the train station platform i think? could be wrong.

Hull already has a decent claim to Douglas Dunn, Peter Didsbury, maybe Seaon O'Brien and now David Wheatley. Think Cov needs Larkin more tbh.

thing is, as i say, he's obviously a Hull poet in a way that he totally isn't about Cov

yeah, tbh he was rid of cov as soon as he could be and never looked back.

triggered a memory of some 'celebrating coventry' bullshit that the city put on, the main element of which seemed to be putting up lots of those lampost banner things in town with pictures of famous coventrians. the highlight of the whole thing was an oversized poster with an artist's rending of sir frank whittle with one arm around pip larkin and the other pointing to the skies. i loved my city that day.

ah, we sure do love us some engineering in the midlands

"artist's rending of sir frank whittle" - typo would've been even better than the real thing

things I remember about Cov: weird elephant-shaped gym by the bus station, some kind of car museum nearby too, heavily graffitied Specials-era train bridge on the way out of town, ring road, cathedral, couple of Tudor houses and a plaque, pubs not great tbh

the train bridge out of town into earlsdon is still there and still the same as far as i'm aware, although of course there is also a shopping centre underneath it now. v entertaining graffiti, one of the main cultural achievements of the city. fragment of my childhood. elephant-shaped sports centre with olympic sized pool i have found to be the main reason that people from elsewhere have been to cov. pubs still shite.

did you actually live in cov or juss lemmy spa?

neither, my first wife grew up in Leamington and lived in Cov for a couple of years after we broke up, used to travel there to see the boy on the reg

you always lived in hull, noodle vague?

does grandways still exist?

good thread btw

nah i grew up in a small town called Rugeley in Staffordshire, my fam are almost exclusively Black Country based, i came to uni in Hull in 87 and have stayed here since.

Grandways changed back to Jacksons, or was bought out by them, and then Jacksons sold the shops to Sainsburys a few years back, kept the Jacksons brand on the shop signs until last year and now they are just shitty Sainsburys. Jacksons bakery is still going strong tho.

y/n: lenny henry has propelled you thru a canal tunnel with his legs, the quintessential experience of black country life

tragically no, i have never even been to that Banks's Bitter 19th Century Aynoch and Ayli Museum Experience thing

oh it's Aynuk and Ayli apparent

ah. uni took me there too, in 1985. it didn't keep me there tho.

my old man had his 70th birthday dinner on a barge restaurant tho, lol you can take the boy out of Darlaston but

Have not read this thread but do tell me about the dapper young men in the first youutube.

MEGA-GIG

lol my tragic youth

today could've gone worse tbh

Stoned guys with long fringes doing the saggy-arsed shuffle in broad daylight = A++ nostalgia, would lol again

so much scrumpy

Yeah, I thought it was gonna be one of those government health warning films when it started. Half expected a hooded figure to appear stage left and shank one your dancers.

that's a rly good set of records

good hangover music. alarming thing is I have no memory whatsoever past about 8.30 last night and either I didn't spend that much or I mugged somebody at some point

i mean I lose chunks of time after a bender now I'm approaching dotage but man this is totally erased from the record with not even a peep of remembering

nah i grew up in a small town called Rugeley in Staffordshire

omg is this something I knew and forgot, or never knew!? Cos guess where I spent te 3-4 weeks I visited England in 1998? Haha.

(so if you know a guy called R0b P0rt3r I am going to die laughing)

nah I've told you before and you've forgotten! and I don't know the guy afaik, but then I was long gone by '98, except for visiting mom and dad. never see anybody I knew when I go back there. am cool with that tbh

Hah don't blame you tbh

how'd all this work out btw

stayed pretty sober Saturday in the end so things were quite placid really, didn't go out, no harm no foul. the stuff in my head and my heart well it comes and it goes

interesting thread

the thread of disquiet

there's a lot of those

how is rugely anyway? i was going kinda wtf at trayce's idea (in the miserable american cities thread) that the british midlands could be worse than american ghettos, but i've never spent 3-4 weeks in rugely

/rugeley/

sometimes it's good to let that stream of consciousness flow downhill.

Rugeley is small and ugly and stultifying but is surrounded by Cannock Chase and other prettiness which makes up for it.

My first love was from Chasetown. That sounds recognisable.

yeah from what I know of Chasetown it's true

+ i salute this thread, wish i'd been around ilx on saturday, was trapped with can't-take-it horror thoughts on cosy-away-trip to devon. No, dorset.

we didnt end up buying any body lotion, but went on a four hour drive thru connemara after that. No complaints. Should have taken camera prob.

been trying to work a scooby rooby roo joke around rugeley but fuckin mondays yknow

when yr most famous son is a 19th century poisoner you know you've gotta be a great place

was that a ref to ye or us?

wait our dudes wasnt a poisoner carry on

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/William_Palmer_%28murderer%29

as played by

http://image.dealoz.co.uk/image/uk/277/99277.jpg

that scottish dude that managed derby?

that wouldn't even rank among the dozen most depraved things billy davies has done

Apparently Nicholas Winterton was born in Rugeley so poor old Palmer isn't even the evillest dude to come from there

openings that make you regret giving up 'ur mum' jokes xp

Cannock Chase was nice yeah. I saw some deer.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g-1hH0rqeRA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u2PxsHBv0ps

The band rapidly fell out of favour. Paul Heaton of Hull's more well known band The Beautiful South heavily criticised them as being middle class pretenders, and the rot set in thereafter. Their third album To Hell with Humdrum had only a few new songs and mostly featured BBC sessions of tracks from Sleepwalking.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1rcYBP0FdL8

feel like i get seppuku as a desperate/despairing shout of sincerity, but the having of children prohibits it.

booze is the slow motion version, really.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OcEYW90SrHg&feature=related

can't view youtubes on phone. Feel as limited as mark halsey.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yWTfRiICB2U

soz

it's all dreamytime Drambuie head-stroke music today, for those of you watching in black and white

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R5prT2qiiWY

Pretty sure this is a Tune. God knows why. video is hysterical.

best song i ever heard,

i was born in the 90s yet when i heard this song, it wrentched my heart bad, not like crying, just the pull of the music, makes you go all tingly

weirdly this bell-end is not far off, either

http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2282/2219010875_907123f85c_z.jpg

This dude taught me 9 tenths of everything I know about club singing, and is also a bit of a legend.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5_NWwUB6Dis

if u don't dig Stockhausen well fuck u

probly won't kill myself today but am wondering how to get out of driving lesson/life

this is where I talk myself out of shit don't fret

yesterday's diary was good. selected lowlights

"Aboulia

bliss-y descent into trance, laying in front of the TV dipping in and out always something to stay up for

drift thru day the same way floating down see-sawing like a feather swinging thru the air gently to ground silence and calm music and no conversation no words of no importance

FECKING CHATTER OF CLEANERS IN THE LIBRARY MY REFUGE

i have a store of names
skylight
peace that passes out of understanding voices of complaint make me bristle but then what am i?

moaning judging interfering voices of petty petty
- diseased aesthete -
build yr marble tower on the bones of the peasantry
alles gut

touch of fingers lips
missing
THAT hurts
still felt something, idiot

we write each other off?
we write ourselves off?
Generations :// de/generate"

etc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QAOMY4OThUA

THIS

The House of the Prince keepeth festival, and the sound of those who rejoice is in the mighty dwelling. The gods are glad when they see Ra in his rising; his beams flood the world with light. The majesty of the god, who is to be feared, setteth forth and cometh unto the land of Manu; he maketh bright the earth at his birth each day; he cometh unto the place where he was yesterday. O mayest thou be at peace with me; may I behold thy beauties; may I advance upon the earth; may I smite the Ass; may I crush the evil one; may I destroy Apep in his hour; may I see the abtu fish at the time of his creation, and the ant fish in his creation, and the ant boat in its lake. May I see Horus in charge of the rudder, with Thoth and Maat beside him; may I grasp the bows of the seket boat, and the stern of the atet boat.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rOH1w8iGCtg

did u smite the ass on that one

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AwIj23FP-E4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Xwl4oVnbhU

http://s0.geograph.org.uk/geophotos/01/31/50/1315094_f2125c90.jpg

going down the road later

thread makes me wish i wasn't on a text-only browser. No doubt i'd have hugely insightful and helpful comments on everything

called in sick on my driving lesson. gonna see my daughter's easter play this avvy but don't wanna be too effed up plus her headmistress is an utter psycho bitch

thread of finding myself a flat tbh

aw man

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FyCg-Bft4KY

i dunno dood i'm pondering if this is the booze talking its own way to self dissolvement or if i'm just done, enough, couldn't cut the mustard again

booze dissolution time prob not the clearest of reflective spaces tbf

order the complete coldplay ouevre the day of live 8 after they did bittersweet symphony with ashcroft, that was def the night before jamming my signals

Thats just a for instance tho

lol my one piece of advice for anybody is never buy somebody's back catalogue if you heard them stoned last night

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DwMc0TjW_6Y

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Solval-5Yjs

wasnt stoned but i have three separate strands of a tragic food poisoning tale from that night that could be the irish 'go' if i could only get the backing

oh noodle vague <3

estela that made me smile and lol a little bit . it's not so much that i'm unhappy but i'm unhappy at the prospect of making the peeps around me unhappy with my fecklessness which i'm personally comfortable with. ish.

i would have posted 'oh noodle vague <3' but on my phone < is very hard to get to

<3 u both too :D

well i'm feckless too
i bet i could outfeckless you. xp

aw<3

cd start a competitive fecklessness thread. will up the ante by starting on the drambuie and wandering off to the pub in half an hours time when they open. tho properly feckless peeps hang around outside tapping their feet for fifteen minutes or so

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EoAbj6gO7jE

not bothered to do any of that

#uppingthante

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KHaOul8gVVc

still miss eazy :(

http://www.drinkemporium.com/images/drambuie.jpg

shit brings it imo. testament to lost yoot

fecklessness and drambuie are both on the list of things that put me in rehab.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U6K7dB3T6ho

antem for doomed yoot

xpost they tried to make me go to rehab. i said no.

my boss has tried to call me twice now lol

3 times. But I'm gone baby gone. Let's all party tonite ILXers.

Not you ILXor

24-7, Dre, Snoop and Devin

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mTm6FOpmp8s

i enjoyed rehab, there were so many gruesome stories, also meals which i'd missed quite a few of in the preceding months, also i persuaded an earnest hippy to shave off his beard by telling him it was 'a mask', also a washed-up nz rockstar was in there due to exhaustion and he was made to play softball and he was hopeless. i had a dear little bed in a wood panelled room and the rehab was in a thermal resort town near some mountains so in the evenings we'd sit in these lovely thermal pools while it snowed around pretending we were romantic olden days tb patients taking a cure in the alps. when we got there we had to sign forms agreeing that the government would pay for everything plus give us a $200 cheque every week to pay for extras. and by the end i was used to not drinking which was good because the tra-la days were over and i couldn't ever enjoy drinking anymore. of course if i still enjoyed it i wouldn't have gone near the joint.

http://www.coverbrowser.com/image/american-book-jackets/159-4.jpg

i've always thought rehab would be like being cuddled all day and told you're loved no matter how much of a lie that might be, same fantasy i have about being a monk except with less of the cuddling. i get this urge to lie down on the pavement and be picked up and repaired but in all honesty here u don't get repaired you just get hosteled and down down. which is cool too but don't want kids visiting Sally Army hostel plus i don't know so many philosophers in the park bench drinking posse

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aeuuB2lQPOw

love this so hard

i would prefer to try estela's rehab, if it's a choice btwn the two.

same fantasy i have about being a monk

i went on a retreat to a monastery in ireland when i was about 17, me and two other students in my class. we spent 3 days in a vow of silence and then on the final day we could talk. i went for a huge walk in the mountains and met one of the monks and had a big chat, he seemed honestly one of the happiest most relaxed people i've ever spoken to.

reckon there would be huge boredom though, if you don't have the whole faith in god thing.

yeah, that's my issue. i want being a monk to be sitting around reading books and chilling all day but i couldn't fake the god stuff

don't do boredom tho.

"a leaf's otherness" - i cd ponder shit like this all year

right, pub's been open for ages, am going to walk into my destiny and get mad Ted Hughes

trying to think of a euphemism for drunk that rhymes with laureate. Help me out here

There's a paragraph in the Barthelme story "Lightning" which always makes me want to become a monk, for about 5 seconds:

talked to a Trappist monk who had been struck by lightning in 1975 while working in the fields at the order's Piffard, New York, abbey. Having been given permission by his superior to speak to Connors, the small, bald monk was positively loquacious. He told Connors that the one deprivation he had felt keenly, as a member of a monastic order, was the absence of rock music. "Why?" he asked rhetorically. "I'm too old for this music, it's for kids, I know it, you know it, makes no sense at all. But I love it, I simply love it. And after I was struck the community bought me this Sony Walkman." Proudly he showed Connors the small device with its delicate earphones. "A special dispensation. I guess they figured I was near-to-dead, therefore it was all right to bend the Rule a bit. I simply love it. Have you heard the Cars?" Standing in a beet field with the brown-habited monk Connors felt the depth of the man's happiness and wondered if he himself ought to rethink his attitude toward Christianity. It would not be so bad to spend one's days pulling beets in the warm sun while listening to the Cars and then retire to one's cell at night to read St. Augustine and catch up on Rod Stewart and the B-52's.

fyi:

The Geir Hongro listening club

dammit i pick our Hannah up from school and i lose all will to disappear

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jcV0uaigGx8

did you watch the play?

yeah it was excellent but a bit jesus-y

hope your day picked up nv.

your post about picking your daughter up is beautiful

my day came down which is a necessary bit of picking up i guess. tomorrow i start to try gluing rubble together. again. gee drama is dull when you're the dramatist.

Your Hannah is possibly my most favorite Made People from all of ILX, mostly because she just looks like THAT MUCH trouble and glee. Big ups today.

:) I enjoy her sociopathy more than I let on to most people

little miss chief

a little vague

Hey Noodle V I think you're great and just wanted to stop by and say that I'm thinking of you and hope today's a better day for you.

yeah

Also Estela's rehab sounds a hell of a lot better than the ones my mother's been in but maybe that's sue in part to diffs between US/AUS healthcare sys? In order to go to nice ones here you have to pay out the wazoo.

yeah i'm not fucked up enough for NHS rehab and i'm not really on speaking terms with any higher powers so i have horrible feeling i will just have to tough this sobriety thing out by myself/get chained to the bed every few days when the thirst kicks in

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v165/noodle_vague/DSCF80043.jpg

well bad news champ we p much did that with our mum and it was a disaster, i think you should consider nz tbh

NV you may not know many philosophers in the park bench drinking posse but you know some here & you're one of my fav posters so keep your head high & we will have your back as much as we can.

also if i can hardson for a bit, the self-dramatizing drunken philosopher setting the world to rights thing was pretty much played circa malcolm lowry

i think my grandfather was like that before he decided to let a lucrative business fail and just become a fulltime drunk

ah i like it, brings a bit of character to the place

oh she's adorable!

she looks like noodle! in a great way :-)

i notice u dont over-advertise the pic i seem to recall of ur brood and c ronaldo????????

sounds good

it was cute i said it was cute he said sound i believe it may have been our first civil exchange in my 2 yrs on ilx or w/e.

She is the best, THE BEST. Maybe she's growing out of the monster photos that I remember but her teeth used to be sharp and pointy and her curls go everywhere and are RED and she always struck me as someone who would get close to you and then bite and relish it completely without any attack of conscience and you'd never see it coming.

So basically I was otm w/r/t adorably cheerful sociopathy.

You know, if your kids are your best work in life, you're not doing too badly there, nv.

exactly

great kids and a relevant internet forum to contribute to is better than what, 96% of the world's population?

it's a sunny day, I had a dentist's checkup and got away with a polish and a replacement filling, yeah i know in the grand scheme of things life is pretty good.

ilxchatz humbly requests the presence of valuable senior poster nv

sorry guys, can't stay up til 4 on a school night

It's a grand day to take two days off IMO

ha

that wasn't a time-specific request, just in general

this song is a'ight, until the ridiculously brilliant coda kicks in around the 2'50 mark.

http://www.zshare.net/audio/89408524febc514e/

ooh found it again

http://a4.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/photos-ak-ash1/v151/196/49/548376874/n548376874_413490_7049.jpg

you look different without your specs on. BACK O TH NET.

a second after that photo was took he elbowed joel in the face and went in studs up on hannah

looool hannah

supremely unimpressed, rightfully

think she looks happier on the Ronaldo one but i can't find it yet

that is the best part of that photo. both kids look like they couldn't care less. top marks kids.

joel has the same control over his glasses as i do

http://a1.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/photos-ak-sf2p/v151/196/49/548376874/n548376874_413488_6524.jpg

yeah she does

i am very happy and i say thanks to my teammates and we play good photo so i am very happy

<3 those little vagues.

chillvagues

oh man they're so cute. hannah kills me - those curls

also yeah the rooney picture is hysterical

the curls are growing out a lot now and she has conducted the odd experiment with straighteners :(

Awwwww.

I will never understand the whole obsession with straightening. I would kill for curly (even wavy) hair.

Anyway, she's still awesome.

haha WOW I never realised exactly what a haggard old man Rooney these days until now

like, I thought that was your three kids there for a second

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4foq4HcQdpg

awful feeling i'm gonna maunder on today. sorry if so

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LCbaaviiNoE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JIuep-pOS0U

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IXdteqEjuyw

sometimes when the void calls i forget why i'm supposed to not answer

fucker always reverses the charge ime

This thread articulates dark corners of my life w' a luminous commentary and makes me well up w' tears of sympathy and obscure pleasure. God Bless NV.

i feel like a major douche when i rev this up again but on the other hand it's more positive than my other impulses i guess so hey

sometimes playing "Madame George" on a loop for hours seems like a real viable plan

always been scared to listen to any other Van than Astral Weeks cos it's so perfect and the only other one i know is "Brown-Eyed Girl" which is kind of a wee bit pish and a lot bit played

also worried he might not do Joyce references on his other albs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aN-h_K86_zA

I have never heard that Washington Phillips before, what is that instrument? It's...er...ethereal?

it's beautiful innit? i think there's still some debate about exactly what he used: an instrument that sounds like a fretless zither. This instrument, which has been variously identified as a Dolceola, a Celestaphone, two Celestaphones tuned in octaves attached side-by-side, or a Phonoharp (and also is considered by some to be an instrument entirely home-made by Phillips) creates a unique sound on these recordings that makes them immediately recognizable.

about 16 or 17 extant tracks and every one of them diamond dust

ah man, how did I miss this thread? fucking Schnapps Bar :D

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PgXPWNhK0W8

oh btw

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v165/noodle_vague/b.jpg

Thread and Washington Phillips really, um, set me up for the day. No, 'set me up' clearly the wrong phrase, but chimed so exactly with the general drift of my moods over the last few months? year? that it makes it feel less debilitating.

'here comes the night' with them is p great but i've never been a van man tbh

always been scared to listen to any other Van than Astral Weeks cos it's so perfect and the only other one i know is "Brown-Eyed Girl" which is kind of a wee bit pish and a lot bit played

― Deeez Nuuults (Noodle Vague), Friday, May 27, 2011 9:01 AM (1 hour ago) Bookmark

You are right to be afraid

thanx for confirming my prejudices.

man, i managed to complete and send a job application that i thought i was too hungover to do, especially since i have a mortal fear of forms. pretty sure this justifies me in doing knack all for the rest of the day.

i definitely agree it justifies it, i also have a mortal fear of forms and a mortal fear of sending things off so the completion and sending off of a form in a single session is a good day's work in my world of form fearing people.

just think, you could be a proud part-owner of 100,000,000,000 debt right now if you'd only fill out the forms

suspect that yr addict isn't so much addicted to a chemical as they are addicted to the imaginary possibility of love

is that the same thing as the possibility of imaginary love, or is the latter what you just settle for in the end

good point. does anybody actually go for the possibility of the imaginary? that feels even more defeated i think

leo dicaprio to thread

i'm already on record as calling that movie over-rated gash

which one? cos shutter island is gloriously nuts

nah i wanna see that, i thought u was talking Incepticons

a real mindfuck of a double bill, under the right chemical circumstances i'd say

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GjWZcTqWrEI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LUJJhELHfvY

my surfing on the phone at work leaves me at some loss itt imo

ah sometimes it's just some song that's taken me fancy. also i'm just piling into the ouzo my friends brought me back from Zante

cant get ouzo on the phone, it's only a cheapish nokia

one day i have a dream

it's like an antidote to nultness, that sentence

Full of that "just on the brink of tears" maudlin happiness today, been floating like an ambivalent ghost for months. Okay years maybe. "Percy's Song" keeps looping round my head and filling me up with...something.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2C5EPmR7YdY&feature=fvwrel

My line manager is a lovely woman who takes care of me and puts up with more of my bullshit than is reasonable tbh, but sometimes when we're liaising with tutors or other professionals she just comes out with these well-meaning but crass cultural stereotypes and I cringe a little bit inside and I feel bad for cringing a little bit cos I know she's on the side of good really. But it's tiring and niggly to always be around people who don't quite get it, whatever "it" might be.

Of course maybe I'm just a control freak. You stare into the unknowable cave of Other People's Brains for a while and man does it stare right back into you.

Think the difference between happy maudlin and bleak depression is when you realise that whatever feels like its missing was probably never really there in the first place and you stop chasing and enjoy the alien but familiar surroundings.

never mind that we sent our grace off to school this mornin

TOO SCHOOL FFS

TOO SCHOOL FOR COOL

Isn't Friday a funny day to be starting school?

also i love y'all ilx, but y'all need to learn that crass (cultural or otherwise) generalisations are gonna issue from the mouths of good people, maybe not even that infrequently, and deal accordingly.

I mean you know this, you're still talking to me ffs.

hahaha but I have the remnants of professional pride - outside of work i can be as crass as any fucker

also it's kind of the well-meaningness of the comments that makes me cringe up. shit gotta go do some "work".

friday at the end of term to give them all summer to deal with the knowledge that we've been lying to them about it being fun tbh

lol excellent plan

four and a bit, welcome to the system. What a woild.

patience is a virtue
virtue is a grace
grace is a little girl
with a dirty face.

that was in a book i liked when i was little, grace was secretly a fairy who was not obsessed with hygiene or other pedestrian matters.

the poet was jealous of her.

tell your grace if she can kiss her elbow it means she's a fairy. i learned that rule from that book and i tried and tried but no dice.

Ah my mom used to tell us to go kiss our elbows when she wanted to keep us busy, I believed it was possible for quite a while only I couldn't quite reach....

i'm afraid i'm not talking to grace atm, she decorated the living room table yesterday and my feedback did not ingratiate me

i'm mad at you too now.

laurel, i was so sure i would reach one day but i never could. shamefully, i even tried it again recently and got the same old disappointing result.

it was a very lackadaisical job, in my defence.

Cant reach my elbow either fwiw, neither can either co-worker

there must be some secret physiological trick to it.

i liked school a lot mostly, which is ironic considering the balls i made of it.

as an outside observer, i enjoyed it immensely. I understand the standard experience is somewhat more unsettling

i want a full description of grace's slapdash table setting.

ah, i think i see where i'm coming across as overly harsh now.

I mean decorated, with paint etc. It was a red cat, or so i was informed.

i like the sound of this grace character.

a bad workman always blames that boy next door, the fox from dora and my gf, in that order.

<3<3<3

i'd have had to hide my head in a cupboard so she wouldn't see me laughing.

my face grants me few enough advantages, but luckily enough fierce disapproval is a specialty

if you neglected to say "Swiper No Swiping!" then you're at fault afaik

it's not rly my place to learn the code or do any actual disciplining, as far as i can work out i'm only there to do the driving and provide fresh furniture.

and to admire red cats.

up until yesterday anyway

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0As0mgeRHbg

oh hai

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C8Oqo_2ddq4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBRQM0vErH8

:D

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q-wGMlSuX_c

sometimes people (i.e. mostly Mrs V) tell me the drinking is a helpless brain disease that's got me in its pincers but on the other hand you just get bored of dullards y'know?

also some kind of "Ravers Binge" and "Black Velvet Band" mashup wd be number one for a couple of months

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XMuh6YP0g7c&feature=related

i have been free of the curse of the drink for about a month now, an unhappy accident of schedules.

It's gonna get ugly next weekend, is my gut feeling.

got a friend of limited musical imagination who keeps telling me that Blackout are a deliberate parody. When you worry about this stuff it's always a spectacular missing of the point imo

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0WXeZwe-1Zk

the bits of this that don't feature the slightly Pound Shop-looking Shamen themselves are my fave video ever

Advice to new MC's
Be original most new MC's all sound the same and copy other MC's stuff. The only way u will get recognized is if u are original and bring the scene something different to any1 else. This is why blackout is a big success, all the MC?s have got there own style's which certain types of people adapt to. So go home and get your note pads out and your pens and get to work!
posted by Blackout Crew

FACT: all the best UK MCs have had a kids in the community element to their work

my old man is gradually coming out to me about his depression, which secretly i've known has been there for a long time. but the unspeakable truth between us is he's scared of decaying and dying, i know exactly what it is because it's the same fucking gene he's passed down to me, and we talk about football and argue about politics cos neither of us wants to tell each other we're scared - him because he's a big hard practical dude and me because i've got nothing to tell him that can help

which is the unbearable secret fuckery of life - nothing any of us can do can help

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IMPMiLddsuE

reasons i moved to Hull #6 in a series

hi nv, sorry to hear about your dad stuff. i've got something similar going that way and then i look at my two children and wonder what i'm passing onto them behaviourally and have passed to them genetically. she's starting to show the introspective side but i hope that's just a teenage phase. anyway don't know if you've heard this but it's good.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RMTKb-pgxGI&feature=related

i haven't heard that but Warren Z is always good yes thank you :)

meanwhile, easy sadness of when some fuckers deja vu yr life 15 years before the moment

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-xVs4I_VfVY

...and on the bass guitar, sex.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3PU1pIJJGeM

heartily recommend that final zevon album. it's sad going but a great statement.

oh shit i do know that song, i'd forgotten. good move for a drunken maudlin sunday afternoon, lol

here's another (cracking open the carlsberg)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mCh3fdO6vZk

subtle combination of 'ow my head' and 'oh shi i need to find somewhere to live' this morning

good luck with all of that. I'm seriously thinking about quitting the drink but, what then?

serious, nv?

:(

i dunno i need to have long chats but i don't think carrying on as is will work

like one of us is peeved that the other one hasn't changed and one of us is peeved that the other one has :)

least appropriate emoticon ever, imo

Hope it 'works out', whatever that means, yknow

sorry if my good luck above seemed flippant, didn't think through the implications properly. But, hope whatever happens is the right or acceptable outcome - this sorta stuff is often surmountable if you both want it to be (otherwise there's no way me and L would still be together)

no i didn't take it the wrong way. probly shouldn't be going on about this really but hey sometimes you need to vent.

hang in there nv

3 parts ouzo
1 part creme de cassis
3 parts 7-up
ice
let's go :D

tastes like the best Benylin ever

imagining what that tastes like is like trying to imagine a new colour

it's a winner believe me. syrupy, slightly cough-mixturey, shd be wearing a dressing gown and smoking a hookah with it tbh

sceptical, quite frankly

tho i admire yr suggested alcoprops

mood is important imo

actually i meant smoking jacket rather than dressing gown but i couldn't remember the right name

drinking jacket a criminal sartorial oversight imo

how did this go btw

nicely mellow, got me thru the housework

iwanttobreakfree.jpg

get drunk bunk off listen to Peter Hammill all day?

tempted

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_rEReYBOnC8

ah well

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lSjP2GBTr9U

happy to help

the youtube procrastination

ludlum e-book

:D

in the big picture you have to remember that days like this are fucking awesome and the sour tint of the stupid world outside just adds some zing to the flavour

in the big picture you have to remember that days like this are fucking awesome and the sour tint of the stupid world outside just adds some zing to the flavour

^^^

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XprkIbphGf8

hungover and heart diseased and loveless and fuggit

aw shit man, if this was brought on by my posting andy johnson in an england lineup i'm sorry

it's been one fuck of a month

but i'm a'ight really...weirdly still and freefalling...taking a ride up to cottingham this afternoon, crumbling burb that still wants to be a village and it's not raining and fuggit, praps this is what middle age is and praps game over is kinda liberating

are there people in cottingham that are trying to maintain the pretence of a village aesthetic through support for or possible engagement themselves in trade of expensive local artisan goods etc?

lol yeah but surprisingly few. there used to be an awesome shoe shop that had nothing but jackie collinsesque blinging gold in the window tho

COTTINGHAM HIPSTERS

wait, gold shoes or just random bling in a shoeshop

gold shoes ceiling to floor. y'know women of a certain age who inhabit a jackie collins world in their heads? this was they shoe shop

nb why not inhabit a jackie collins world? i aren't judging, it's a place to be

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cwYI3U7pkE4

it's a question of extent i suppose, no harm in it as long as you don't actually expect every stableboy to be a hung poet bodybuilder who likes em big.

thought that was jilly cooper tbh

tbf cott is probly more jilly c than jackie c

couldn't claim to recognise the distinction tbh

i am kinda into potboilery fiction

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQdDjy1UtW4

Keep yer chin up NV!

A primary school teacher has been suspended after allegedly labelling locals as "thick" and "inbred" on Facebook, according to Sky sources.

The female teacher at Westcott Primary School in Hull is reported to have posted the statements during an online conversation with other members of staff.

When one of them said he was in town and fed up with bumping into children, the teacher apparently responded: "do you mean top end of holderness road?

"that's bout as far as anyone in east hull goes! no wonder everyone is thick...inbreeding must damage brain development."

Hull Council has launched an investigation and the chair of the governors Mary Wallace has written to parents to offer them a "sincere apology".

;_;

heard about it last night. uncharitable people might suggest that the teachers' position at that school is a bit untenable now.

but y'know shock horror middle class teachers consider themselves above the families they work with etc

(whoever outed the Facebook comments printed them up and plastered them over the school gates apparently :D )

tbf, tho

eh i meant to come back and soften that with w/e but work called, lol i'm a bollix now

ha i was trying to think of a measured response but fuggit i have to work with dicks like these, i'm not gonna write a eulogy to the saintly people of East Hull but tbf Westcott isn't even in that rough a catchment area

i hear that /public housing/

sleepy, full a port, can't view youtubes

Other'n that, i'm here

not just port but mainly port

Someone post an appropriate youtube for 'desperately wanting sleek electronic goods you can't afford'

:)

port ain't a bad place to be

not finding a taste for it tbh but the bottle's been winking at me this long 6 month now so

'that bottle' said i to the portrait of behan 'will finish me, or i it, begod'.

apparently pubs hide bottles of low-quality port so they can make "Cheeky Wimto"s, apparently

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PInNrFZQEwk

i think Dick G is a bit of a drama queen sometimes but he can't half nail a tune

always the youtubes, always

I come to this thread as a vagrant comes to the champs-elysees, possibly tolerated but ignorant, excluded and taunted

darragh if i cd express myself clearer than the casual youtube i wd do that but alls i have is the occasional comment and other people's talent

anyone the port's three-quarter finished and i'm only half-kilt so by any odds the strong money's backing me and behan's pure vexed.

What d'you mix to uncloy this stuff iyo?

sleep

the occasional comment and other ppl's talent is good enough for dunpy and so not to be sniffed at by the likes of you nor i

sleep is a copout and btwn dunphy and behan and the accusatory quarter-bottle i'd fain raise my eyes in the parish again

it's funny my old man is a horrible celtophobe but has a burning love for Borstal Boy

he may have his priorities the right way round tbh, i should start a thread listing the negative traits of the celt

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BNmCUoMthqU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vOO0AQMIbkg

this is the best song, i think

it sounds a bit like Peter Hammill's "Candle", strangely enough

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QGXxcSdsXJ4

Cheer up boo <3

THERE died a myriad,
And of the best, among them,
For an old bitch gone in the teeth,
For a botched civilization,

Charm, smiling at the good mouth,
Quick eyes gone under earth's lid,

For two gross of broken statues,
For a few thousand battered books.

Oh mother my mouth is full of stars
As cartridges in the tray
My blood is a twin-branched scarlet tree
And it runs all runs away;
Oh cooks to the galley is sounded off
And the lads are down in the mess
But I lie down by the forward gun
With a bullet in my breast.
Don’t send me a parcel at Christmas time
Of socks and nutty and wine
And don’t depend on a long week-end
By the Great Western line.
Farewell Aggie-Weston. The barracks at Guz,
Hang my tiddley suit on the door
I’m sewn up neat in a canvas sheet,
And I shan’t be home no more.

Oh mother my mouth is full of stars

Sorry to hear that NV :-( You moving out?

how do

know anything with john terry?

dunno, trying to think of a word that rhymes with "front"

LBI not quite yet but i'm looking :(

'national'

John Terry has never publically supported the policies of the National Front.
He's still a cunt.

don't scan

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Clerihew

tsk, philistines

just cos some cunt named a thing don't make it a thing imo

eh apologies lapsed into the c-word vernacular there

so we're back here are we?

i live in a new house now.

work internet filter wouldn't let me open this thread cos of "adult content".

too hungover to be useful today but the hangover is a hangover from old me cos i swear leaves have been turned. and today feels too early to be back tbh.

oh and it feels nice to have SB back :D

i remember when sb etc etc

wb imo i never really warmed to julie lagger tbh

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ESdn0MuJWQ&ob=av3e

guilty pleasure but the sky's so blue today

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E2UriAMDuwA

also feeling this, fucking ludicrous 80s video aside

fucking blue moon saturday

ridin solo owns!!!

Tiredness is a constant I could do away with if I slept more regularly. But the hours I’d have to put into sleep come out of my hours, the precious stuff that I don’t sell to somebody else for the means to live.

Four hours of possession in a partied house, bar-tending or gigoloing as required.

The potency of cheap music and old adverts and no imagination. Reading about the Zulu nation at a loss, really. In weak sunshine and massive arrears of chores and a fragile sense of grubby peace that cd pop like a soap bubble any moment now.

otm

trying to ignore the gnattering that hums inside my own discontent, however much I want to hear it outside me. Ever feel like there is something utterly significant hanging in the air around you whilst people – peg-sized from up here in my overlook window – just follow oblivious insect trails around the city?

At least a misanthropy that recognises it’s wrong. Sorry if you’re annoying me I know really somewhere I’m annoying myself.

But only because I could eat up all that space, own the stillness and futility if I didn’t have to eat sometimes, stay warm, show up where people need me.

I guess I don’t need to broadcast this but I don’t know why/not

ah shit sometimes gnomic is easier than working out what you want :-)

http://s0.geograph.org.uk/photos/01/97/019779_bf851ae7.jpg

feel like Scott Street's dead, unlowering bridge is doing solid metaphorical work here

"academic language" made me realise that there is an unlowering bridge between some of us that no experience will ever close? similar-looking creatures living in parallel worlds that superimpose over each other so we look like we're moving in the same space but from our own vantages we're just looking outwards at peg-sized Sims following invisible clockwork ley lines

There’s a book from which one can learn many things, entitled Sexual Life in Ancient China [by Robert H. van Gulik (Leiden: E. J. Brill, 1961)]. This book shows clearly that manuals of love and manuals of military strategy are indiscernible, and that new strategic and military statements are produced at the same time as new amorous statements.

a life boiled down to eroge and hangovers is at least still a life

"For me, gothic art (art gothique) is simply a corruption of the word argotique (cant), which sounds exactly the same. This is in conformity with the phonetic law, which governs the traditional cabala in every language and does not pay any attention to spelling... Moreover, dictionaries define argot as 'a language peculiar to all individuals who wish to communicate their thoughts without being understood by outsiders'. Thus it certainly is a spoken cabala. In our day, cant is spoken by the humble people, the poor, the despised, the rebels, calling for liberty and independence, the outlaws, the tramps and the wanderers. Cant is the cursed dialect, banned by high society, by the nobility (who are really so little noble), the well-fed and self-satisfied middle class, luxuriating in the ermine of their ignorance and fatuity. It remains the language of a minority of individuals living outside accepted laws, conventions, customs and etiquette. The term voyous (street-arabs) that is to say voyants (seers) is applied to them and the even more expressive term sons or children of the sun.
Tradition assures us that men spoke it before the building of the Tower of Babel, which event caused this sacred language to be perverted and to be totally forgotten by the greater part of humanity. Today, apart from cant, we find its character in a few local dialects, such as Picard, Provençal, etc. and in the language of the gypsies."

Fulcanelli: The Mystery of the Cathedrals

donnez-moi une autre pétard...

so blue.

Harold Budd - By the Dawn's Early Light
Various - Starving But Happier!
(The) Pentangle - Basket of Light
Lal & Mike Waterson - Bright Phoebus
June Tabor - Abyssinians
Tangerine Dream - Stratosfear
Joni - Clouds & Song to a Seagull
Hood - Cold House
Bonnie Prince Billy - Beware
Vinicius Cantuaria - Samba Carioca
Thanksgiving - Cave Days and Moments
Philip Glass - Mishima
Various - Katawa Shoujo Enigmatic Box of Sound

and here i am, frozen aged 17. which isn't a good look in yr head for 43. fixating on things that are almost certainly not out there, or unreachably far and unlikely like travelling to another star.

i shd weed the little ugly patch in front of the house. i shd go and buy rum. i shd move away from the computer, ma'am.

blue, blue saturday.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v165/noodle_vague/home.png

you can (just) see my house from here

ha, I have pissed against that wall. sorry :-)

but if next time I'm passing I hear Basket Of Light, I'll surely tip my hat in that direction.

oh i'm further down no worries

the last couple of weeks i've become obsessed with the sadness of not being 20, unhealthily sad about it i think. because of wanting the romance that's possible when you're young, but feels insurmountably difficult when you're 40-something.

i'm kind of amused by the subtle refinements my brain seems to find to re-express its horror at mortality. and there's just the faintest tinge of pleasure to this overwhelming sadness, something to do with at least touching the shadow of what i can't have. but still this isn't great, to be this sad every day.

dunno what i'm saying, i just had to try and read that in black and white.

Maybe you're growing up, again? Things that changed direction at a certain point in life have to go back to that fork in the road and take the other path. You see the familiar surroundings, differently now, but you'll pass them in some kind of order, I imagine, and end up somewhere new eventually.

That's probably indefensibly twee. Sorry.

no i've pondered the same thing myself. like i've rewound to the point before my last relationship began. i'm feeling indefensibly twee about 80 percent of the time right now *bitter lol*

i dunno. i pontificate a lot about change but i ain't changing very much.

I've been hanging out with earth mothers, I can't help myself. Give yourself some credit and some space for the journey that you're on, is all I'm saying.

:) thanks

You have rewound! Because in relationships each person cedes things to the other one, each one becomes the keeper of certain kinds of things, memories, tasks, ways of being. You're remaking yourself, you know. It's not a small thing.

There's probably a rebirth story in there somewhere but now I'm just making up a mystery religion based on a walk in the woods.

i'm just hungover enough to be too fuzzy-headed to concentrate on anything, and just sad enough to not know what to do with myself, feel lumpen and old and ugly and pondering the mysteries of how do you meet people and how do you make life move forward without going to a pub because the only person i meet in the pub is drunky noodle and his shambling amnesiac decline, and now to take the piss "Endlos...Endlos" is ringing out of the speakers...and it's a sunny day and i can do whatever the hell i want and the world is outside and i am stuck, stuck

Europa Endlos
Wirklichkeit und Postkarten Bilder
Europa Endlos
Eleganz und Dekadenz

end. loss. hahahaha ffs

A man that builds a prettie house in sweete and holsome ayre,
With goodly rowms and choise of place, and windows large and fayre,
Shall heer his neighbour streight disprayes the seate and eek the fraem;
Yet hee that praets wants wealth and wit, and cannot mende the seam.

At the High Crosse, in a disguised manner, stood FAEM, very orderly set forth, and spoke as followeth, by an excellent boy:

tendency to follow rabbit holes further and further down for want of anything better to do but at bottom not so much wonderland as earthworms and rabbit shit

lookit now

There's plenty lumpen and ugly (and getting there, oldwise) of us that do ok. And we do it without being brilliant- an advantage you have, afaic. Sure, maybe not as cranky, tbf, but i mean cranky works for lots of ppl ito friends/lovers. Not saying 'gtf out there' or w/e but i might be hinting at 'don't be an ass'

it's a sheer question of practicalities rather than moxie, i fear

moxie, afaict, seems to be an ability to ignore the odds

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q0ZBaZoBCaA

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v165/noodle_vague/431577_10150795255683696_566688695_.jpg

i don't even

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v165/noodle_vague/420323_10150795381993696_566688695_.jpg

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nCq8jx49nDU

fucking love this so hard

was gonna post brenda lee's im sorry and then evan lurie's track on the trees lounge soundtrack but you know

this

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fCG26OvcMP4

seriously this is prob nowhere near the best ron trent record but the piano at 3:41

i enjoyed that

such a religious hangover today, the world so vivid and tactile around me as i secede from it. booming around work evidently still hammered and surfing on warm "one of us" tolerance tho i'm fully aware i need to start topping the booze tank up asap because when this wears off and i sink into properly hungover it's gonna hurt hurt hurt...i am gonna sail like Bas Jan Ader until you and you and you can't see me but krishna it's so beuatifullll

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m-cJm7-M7Bc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fYSVJ7zOabQ

Friday night = David McCallum in The Invisible Man and a Pink Panther candy bar and the comfort of nothing and it's all a million years ago

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UEVrRHXxxL4&feature=related

bang bang bang

feel like i'm gon' bowk if i touch alcohol today.

off to touch alcohol.

i suppose the real world is okay but i'd much rather go and sleep in the sea today

Xeristar, y'are y'are y'are

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-HcLLi6MXKg

i mean we are ape-y and not much imbued with magic or wonder

― Elmer Fuiud (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 11:22 (1 year ago) Bookmark Flag Post Permalink

i've got nothing to do today but smile

http://www.swldxer.co.uk/staks.jpg

Why should I let the toad work
Squat on my life?
Can’t I use my wit as a pitchfork
And drive the brute off?

Six days of the week it soils
With its sickening poison -
Just for paying a few bills!
That’s out of proportion.

Lots of folk live on their wits:
Lecturers, lispers,
Losers, loblolly-men, louts-
They don’t end as paupers;

Lots of folk live up lanes
With fires in a bucket,
Eat windfalls and tinned sardines-
They seem to like it.

Their nippers have got bare feet,
Their unspeakable wives
Are skinny as whippets - and yet
No one actually _starves_.

Ah, were I courageous enough
To shout, Stuff your pension!
But I know, all too well, that’s the stuff
That dreams are made on:

For something sufficiently toad-like
Squats in me, too;
Its hunkers are heavy as hard luck,
And cold as snow,

And will never allow me to blarney
My way of getting
The fame and the girl and the money
All at one sitting.

I don’t say, one bodies the other
One’s spiritual truth;
But I do say it’s hard to lose either,
When you have both.

chilled in blazing sun with pensioners and loblolly-men yesterday. will wrngle my liver thru same again today goodbye goodbye goofbye

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mfQMqbRrDJs

tonight we die in hull

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gRPk9QWhWQc

can still feel my grandmother's bedroom, the light and the dust and the smell of oil of ulay and the window over the road and the books and the seventies

Cyders

http://bighugelabs.com/onblack.php?id=5493122269&size=large&bg=white

http://www.flickr.com/photos/49469560@N07/5504445249/lightbox/

http://farm4.staticflickr.com/3101/3168427036_4fd8a3346f_o.jpg

http://www.flickr.com/photos/13296226@N02/3948985466/lightbox/

sweet pix

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m3vfCRb_9ho

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oospWucgxac

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cl4pJwcE7JI

seriously this is prob nowhere near the best ron trent record but the piano at 3:41

― coal, Saturday, 14 April 2012 02:35 (1 month ago) Bookmark Flag Post Permalink

i think it's my favourite.

its become mine too

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=okWs-O0AyJQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xzg8EprUFrI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GgwRC6ZzQGY

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=endscreen&NR=1&v=Bvt5YnocRp8

thought of this thread while reading about these wronguns

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Skeleton_Army

thanks for that land of green ginger hadn't heard of that particular one will watch soon

Skeleton Army, now there's a vocation

Skeleton Army vs Salvation Army? pfft... try Guy Rioters vs police and cavalry
http://www.open.ac.uk/Arts/history-from-police-archives/RB1/Pt1/pt1GuyRiots.html
A long way from...
http://www.spelthorne.gov.uk/pic_surreypolicelogo.gif

http://images.borders.com.au/images/bau/97818431/9781843106869/0/0/plain/aspergers-syndrome-and-mindfulness-taking-refuge-in-the-buddha.jpg

need to read this, AS and mindfulness occupies a lot of my thoughts