I'm an alcoholic

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not wrong tbh

mine's nice

don't harsh bodies like that, I mean have you seen my glorious penis

the protuberances can be beautiful... the overall system is gross and disgusting. the shit moving (or not moving) through the intestinal tract, etc. the food stuck in the gums and putrefying there. the slavery to gravity.

unidirectional faces

yes bodies have some issues, most of the alternatives are worse though

such as?

think of what sort of karma we must have incurred to be embodied (presumably!) in these literal shit machines!

xp jacking in to cyberspace—what if ukrainians ransomware your unattended meatslab??!

can we not give james cameron any more ideas pls

this is where I say that I don't get most movies bc i don't identify w the body. but true! what do i reasonably have to do with my body or my thoughts? they all arrive unbidden, and then fade away. the greatest sinner of all is the mind, which claims identity with the ephemeral body. look into it. what truly exists? upon inspection not the body nor the mind.

what truly exists?

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your mom

Bodies kick ass, fuiud

xpost

that was actually my default answer for years when ppl would ask me "where are you from?"

but now I know that it's wrong. where I am from is now. taken further, where ~I~ am from, nowhere. all of this is because of me.

however beautiful yr precious mind is, you can’t get a badass tattoo on it

the fourth great turning of the wheel xxxp

,/del/];

look into it. i gave up everything and have no interest in anything except as sandcastles that children play with. i wouldn't say it if i didn't live it.

Bodies are cool and poop is pretty cool too, don't get it on yourself or anything but it deserves respect

What the hell has happened to the boozer thread

it's a shambles

Should not have expected otherwise obv.

I'm just sobering up from a day of drinking--things have been very emotionally tough the past few months, and I started therapy for the first time about two weeks ago. I was open with my therapist about my binge drinking habits, but I sort of sidestepped the fact that while I just enjoy the feeling of being drunk, sometimes I get drunk when I don't want to be. She tried to ask a clarifying question a number of times, "but do you ABUSE alcohol?" And I kept saying that I don't know what she means by "abuse," but if it means what I think it means, then yes. I don't know why she had to ask more than twice, but she insisted on the question. I couldn't tell if she didn't believe me or if I wasn't clear.

I don't always know how to reconcile that I want to drink even when I don't want to drink.

Should be a full day of drinking tomorrow, an annual barbecue I attend is happening.

Love lawn games and beers.

As an aside

Jesus Christ boys, the fuckin acid reflux.

thats the fuckin truth but

sorry thread turned to shit

ianaa but im on passing filial terms or have been bytimes with a few doozies and sincere good luck to all dealing regardless of inclination to discuss bodies/poop itt

I am glad bodies shit out most of the mass they consume instead of growing and growing until they are stars. Stars for my mean dad, the king.

being sick is not a bad thing. it's ok to be diseased.

Other del, this seems like an irresponsible and insensitive thing to post on a thread that was only bumped because one of our own, some guy named sleeve, felt strongly enough about his sickness that he would go to this channel for some support in fighting it. It's sort of the whole point of this thread. No one using it for their intended purpose needs to know about gut flora research, read drunk peoples thought experiments, or hear excuses about how we can be one with everything, including sickness. Just, no. Knowing what I know about recovery-seeking among the powerless, they want literature pertinent to that mode of thought. Is it too much to ask that we resist the impulse to channel the shittiest imitation of kerouac we can muster, and instead simply support (or simply not not support) someone we may want to pretend is our friend?

Been having a rough go of it, and things are slated to get harder--hoping for recommendations on managing urges when in a minefield of triggers.

What are your triggers?

"Stars for my mean dad, the king" this is my favorite GYBE/Mogwai collaboration album!

Let’s stay focused ppl

I know this won’t seem like a big deal maybe but I am 48 hours smoke-free— down from 10-15 a day overnight

I know that at hour 73 it’s like angels singing and I feel like I can run 10 miles so I’m holding on through it

Weird how stress/anxiety alleviation brings back your capacity toward discipline

xps yo del griffith thanks for that supportive post, really appreciate it. sorry for late response.

9 days, things are good, 12-step is good and I'm lucky I clicked with the 1st group

I'm even more of a soda snob than I was before, was always a fan

had lime-coriander bitters in soda with simple while I DJd last night at the local bar, hell yeah.

Get it, dogg. I will never not like hearing success stories about people setting and respecting limits for themselves.

The butters and soda trick is revelatory it’s like “ok hanging out in bars while sober isn’t so bad”. A few places in LA used to assume I was DD and give them to me for free

what is the protocol re: n/a drinks at bars? on the rare occasion that I'm in one these days, and order a club soda, I expect not to be charged. Esp if I'm among a group of boozers. Am I out of line?

I always get charged for bitters and soda but it's $2, don't care.

plain water i would not pay for but anything else -- even water with lime -- i tip a dollar at least. someone has to wash that glass and it beats paying $8 for a beer.

otm

good luck / strength re smoking, flambo!

Thank you! I have a craving every minute or so, and then a “what could be wrong with just one” subroutine, followed by a “no, no, you are so happy right now without them”, and then a dopamine rush of self-righteousness

grab that rush, it’s how I quit smoking

sleeve, you may like this article. It's about a master somm who has been sober for 25 years. He does a lot of current work on the physiology and cultural differences of tasting.

https://www.forbes.com/sites/cathyhuyghe/2017/08/09/alcoholism-and-addiction-in-the-wine-industry-a-candid-perspective-from-a-master-of-wine/#3e8f46b76ce7

derp, he's a master of wine not master somm.

haha like I would know the difference

thanks :)

This is a thread for ILXors ON THE WAGON (and for the Wagon Curious)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ibx8JpIIq28