no boys allowed in the room!!!!

I’d settle for them managing their own shoddy behaviour, but all they ever have in the tank is “no u” and “actually here’s why my terrible behaviour is your fault. It’s unacceptable.

I'm angry, too. I've always been angry at how everyone excuses Branwell's behavior, but I always just held my tongue and left any thread that they were in. Now I can speak my piece.

I'm neuroatypical (probably autistic, but I've never been diagnosed. I was diagnosed as mentally ill.), non-binary, and was bullied pretty heavily when younger. We are painfully similar people. I was clueless when I was younger, and I probably hurt some people. The difference? I was willing to admit that I was wrong sometimes. My self-centeredness and selfishness has been a burden that I fight against every hour of my life. I don't seek out social issues to validate my self-image, I seek them out to try to change things. Also, "acting like a teenager," in rural Floridian underclass terms, means that you drink and heavily and get arrested all of the time. I'm crying in RL right now and getting incoherent, so I'll say
one more thing. Go away. Please go away. Stop seagulling us, by which I mean swooping down periodically, shitting on everything, and leaving. You are as bad as Dom ever was.

I apologise when I have done something wrong. The idea that I should have to apologise for the absurd fantasies that people build up around their intensely negative interpretations of what I say?

Nah, mate. Not on.

Can we go back to the conversation we were having?

Because it’s not me that shits up threads at the moment - it’s people’s bizarre inability to ignore me or mute me rather than carry on feuding like this.

Dom used to go around saying things like “sometimes I fantasise about punching women in the face”.

I say things like “cisheteropatriarvhy oppresses ‘men’ and ‘not men’ in different and unequal ways’.

These are 100% exactly the same thing!!!!! Are you kidding me?

are you now Whitney G Weingarten?

omgggggggg!!! lol

So I sometimes get a one or two big hormonal zits around my period but I just got my period midway between my two vax shots and JESUS CHRIST my chin/jaw are an absolute mess, like, just the worst acne I’ve ever had. Anyone else having hormonal issues after their vax?

now that you mention it, i did break out after my first vaccine and i usually don't

Interesting you say so, because I’ve had the same. I also missed a period but that could have been stress related.. but that’s usually a delay, not a complete skip.

i had an unusual forehead breakout after my first dose that i thought was due to increased peanut butter consumption since i discovered you can add powdered peanut butter to anything. also really weird small, painful zits on the end of my nose. i thought it was getting better, and it mostly has, but i got a few new pimples on my forehead during period, plus a huge cyst near my upper lip, though i usually get hormonal cysts. i'm not ready to say it was caused by the vaccine but it's possible. either peanuts or vaccine could have increased inflammation in my body. good news is i can try eating peanuts again?

Which vax did you all get? Mine was moderna

moderna

Pfizer. Didn't have any discernable breakouts and my periods were already deranged.

Sorry yall, I got the Pfizer and I experienced no side effects, I haven't had a period in ages and I didn't have one then, and my skin is excellent right now especially considering my personal habits which are not the healthiest. But I did pick up a new cleanser and moisturizer from TJ Maxx's sale section so I credit cosmetic science.

I got moderna and my period was same as always, maybe the mood symptoms were a little worse? Hard to say why but I doubt it was related to vaccine tbh. Prob just good old me.

i also got moderna

fucking period fairy brings me my menses 2 weeks ahead of schedule today wee
it’s the turd in the punchbowl that has been this week

but explains the terrifying/crazy mood swing i had on monday, like fully at my desk crying at 10am for no reason, SOBBING watching bobs burgers at lunchtime, knowing there was no reason just thinking “ok THIS now!?!”

i have had a couple really bad ones usually a week or so post-period too

old lady hormones are just gonna be semi regularly one on now i guess yay

I had the first full period I've had in 3 or 4 months last month. And it was a heavy but painless one, like I always had. I'm 50. This should be over by now.

i apologize for the fact that the period fairy was trash

also apologize for acknowledging "it's the turd in the punchbowl" can be sung to the tune of "It's the eye of the tiger"

lmao that just cheered me up infinitely

I AM TOO GODDAMN OLD TO BE FEELING LIKE AN INSECURE ADOLESCENT.

It looks like I'm going to be treated as an adorable lost child for the rest of my life. I feel like one always.

So there are, what, half a dozen of us left on ILX?

i think so, yeah

o we doing a non-boy roll call? i now formally announce that i am not a boy

it is actually a scientific fact that cats are not boys and dogs are not girls 🌠 ~the more u kno~

So there are, what, half a dozen of us left on ILX?

xp - uh, no offense, but we know you're not actually a cat. If you're a non-cis male human IRL, then welcome here.

Plenty of dogs are girls, to say otherwise is nonsense!
I guess I’m still here.

"I am not a cat."
(I'm bigender, male and female. So I guess I still belong here.)

every so often I seriously re-consider my life choices ... it used to be in a "what a waste of time" way, but now it's more like, "if I had done x, then it would be easier today to do y, but if I wanted to do y now, could I?"

So there are, what, half a dozen of us left on ILX?

― mom tossed in kimchee (quincie)

2020 was fucking _rough_

I'm still here. But yeah.

I'm here too, but mostly lurk anyways.

i was horribly forming a "joek" abt how felis catus & canis familiaris ≠ homo sapiens and this joek has landed, not on all fours, but on its big dumb face

but ye, +1 cisgirl

if i'd had the vocab during my teen years i might have gone with non-binary bcuz of not identifying with any of the standard """woman""" archetypes, but now it's whatever

there was a time there when i'd shaved half my head and kept my hair long on the other side and the panic/confusion/dismay on the faces of occasional squares who couldn't immediately categorize me was v. gratifying

here's hoping the girlxors of yesteryear have found more fulfilling timewasters

Sometimes I read a thread here and there. But they are always disappointing. I just don't have the patience to sift through inane one-liners about serious topics or to read some thought dump that isn't actually engaging with anyone else. It's super aggravating.

feelin so called out right now, lol

This was totally about the rest of the board, I honestly just skimmed your posts and thought you were making a random gme-related joke not really seeing your name in ().

Sometimes I read a thread here and there. But they are always disappointing. I just don't have the patience to sift through inane one-liners about serious topics or to read some thought dump that isn't actually engaging with anyone else. It's super aggravating.

― Yerac

i try but some of the cis guys here can be... challenging to engage with

go to the gay thread and see a bunch of guys talking about how much they love balls

i mean don't get me wrong i'm happy for them i just can't really relate?

xp I don’t remember writing this post

(This is also not a dig at poster cat)

I just don't have the patience to sift through inane one-liners about serious topics or to read some thought dump that isn't actually engaging with anyone else. It's super aggravating.

preach

But that's all that I post.

I'm here but also only a lurker on a handful of threads

I took a brief look at the Roe thread, did not see any people-who-can-become-pregnant posting on it, and was like uh nevermind i am tired of bloviating dudes

woke feminist dudes of ilx posting everything EXCEPT any interest in where the sixish women of ilx are in all of this

so fucking otm

still lurking here but mostly for updates on things I’m interested in, rather than the conversations

cis men are authorities on everything, they can speak on everything, speak for everyone. it's their _responsibility_, their _burden_ if you will.

i wanted to write something about it my perspective when one of my friends got beat down by terfs on twitter for talking about how the ruling is also being weaponized against trans people, to talk about understanding how medical gatekeeping works, that abortion was already de facto illegal a lot of places. i don't think that talking about these aspects of it erases or invalidates the ways people who can become pregnant are hurt by it. kind of ties in with an essay i'm sort of maybe writing involving the question of whether anne frank was a lesbian.

but really i just need to run these reports and find a new place to live. this... i'm tired of performative outrage by, you know, particularly by cis men that isn't backed up by anything. they draw a line in the sand it gets erased and they draw a new one a little farther back and they can do that, they have _plenty of room_. we're the ones drowning 50 feet behind them. if i don't want to drown, _they're_ the ones i have to fight, not the people they say they're _protecting_ me from.

when i was at pride i got a pin from the satanist booth that said "bodily autonomy is the right of every human". it was printed over the trans flag but trans people aren't the only people whose bodily autonomy is under attack.