Look I worded it weird earlier cos pom is a slack denier also I was talking to gyac
You bunch of cunts
― Uptown Top Scamping (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 9 January 2021 19:26 (three years ago) link
I am deliriously happy this week and I feel almost guilty about that but you know I love you all
Cunts
*and pom too
― scampish inquisition (gyac), Saturday, 9 January 2021 19:27 (three years ago) link
xp right back at ya, big man
― mh, Saturday, 9 January 2021 19:28 (three years ago) link
gyac I hate you so much right now
― Uptown Top Scamping (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 9 January 2021 19:29 (three years ago) link
_ _ u t_ _ p_m
― scampish inquisition (gyac), Saturday, 9 January 2021 19:35 (three years ago) link
ffs zing
I am not looking forward to having to leave the house today, but once again we are missing or almost out of lots of groceries (plus missing everyone I didn’t see on the sssooomm)
― sound of scampo talk to me (El Tomboto), Saturday, 9 January 2021 19:41 (three years ago) link
I had enough food today, I need to go tomorrow and I need to do laundry and other delayed chores
You too, pom
― Uptown Top Scamping (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 9 January 2021 19:43 (three years ago) link
Up for Cambridge FAP too. Good thought in dark times.
― xyzzzz__, Saturday, 9 January 2021 20:35 (three years ago) link
Lawks a lawd a ladsSave me from the comedownThe universe is infinitely blueBluetiful
― Scampi reggae party (Noodle Vague), Sunday, 31 January 2021 02:13 (three years ago) link
Drink water before bed, lad
― scampish inquisition (gyac), Sunday, 31 January 2021 02:14 (three years ago) link
^^^
― pomenitul, Sunday, 31 January 2021 02:14 (three years ago) link
Well yeah sure but
― Scampi reggae party (Noodle Vague), Sunday, 31 January 2021 02:16 (three years ago) link
I’ll post Keir to the thread unless you get up and get some right now
― scampish inquisition (gyac), Sunday, 31 January 2021 02:16 (three years ago) link
Look I've drunk loads of fluid today and it's not helping
― Scampi reggae party (Noodle Vague), Sunday, 31 January 2021 02:20 (three years ago) link
Bluetered
― Qanondorf (darraghmac), Sunday, 31 January 2021 02:20 (three years ago) link
The wust of it is I'm not as pished as I ought
― Scampi reggae party (Noodle Vague), Sunday, 31 January 2021 02:22 (three years ago) link
Wustfil drinking
― Qanondorf (darraghmac), Sunday, 31 January 2021 02:24 (three years ago) link
OK when I'm listening to "Sex Weed" on a loop that's bed time
― Scampi reggae party (Noodle Vague), Sunday, 31 January 2021 02:38 (three years ago) link
Playing SAW I in bed as a John Harris tribute
― Scampi reggae party (Noodle Vague), Sunday, 31 January 2021 02:41 (three years ago) link
that thing inside youit were outside youmalavarice eats us up
― Scampi reggae party (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 6 February 2021 06:50 (three years ago) link
the urge to sneak into saturnonymity
― Scampi reggae party (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 6 February 2021 07:06 (three years ago) link
and that's what makes my life so fucking fantastic
― Scampi reggae party (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 6 February 2021 07:12 (three years ago) link
Don't have time to be fanciful, just noting how sweet the sadness is of gazing into the shifting shades of blue at a slight remove
Which is just a way of being pointlessly always a bit sad I guess, always missing some little object, eh?
― Mommas, don't let your scampoes grow up to be bacon fries (Noodle Vague), Tuesday, 9 February 2021 09:03 (three years ago) link
The difference between melancholy and gloom? Perhaps I’ve misinterpreted that first one.
― scampless, rattled and puce (gyac), Tuesday, 9 February 2021 11:00 (three years ago) link
It is, also it's a soft melancholy, like when you're tapped into the universal blue.
Lots of defrosted feelings at my end, tho I believe in the collective blue of the universe
Just needed to whitter and jot it down here, lol havent felt the urge for ages for some reason.
― Mommas, don't let your scampoes grow up to be bacon fries (Noodle Vague), Tuesday, 9 February 2021 11:21 (three years ago) link
twhitter nest pas
― scampsite (darraghmac), Tuesday, 9 February 2021 11:25 (three years ago) link
Well now.
― scampless, rattled and puce (gyac), Tuesday, 9 February 2021 11:27 (three years ago) link
I never really know how to define melancholy. Instinctively i think of it as sort of sadness tinting everything, diluted but pervasive? Sadness itself is almost a pain (at least for someone who feels all their negative emotions physically it is too), stronger and harder to ignore.
― scampless, rattled and puce (gyac), Tuesday, 9 February 2021 11:34 (three years ago) link
Melancholy = there is a fundamental sadness underpinning existence and it's beautiful so that's ok
(nb there is also a fundamental joy underpinning existence probably but joy feels much more atomised/personal)
I can bask in melancholy but joy is more unsettling idk
― Mommas, don't let your scampoes grow up to be bacon fries (Noodle Vague), Tuesday, 9 February 2021 11:48 (three years ago) link
melancholy is the pretty rainbow colours shifting across the surface of the dark petrol gloop of sadness
― you are like a scampicane, there's calm in your fries (bizarro gazzara), Tuesday, 9 February 2021 13:38 (three years ago) link
That’s a great way of putting it
― scampless, rattled and puce (gyac), Tuesday, 9 February 2021 13:52 (three years ago) link
A little bubble of black nihilism stuck in my lungs today for no obvious reason.
It's good to observe this stuff calmly until I can cough it up
― The Scampo Fell to Earth (Noodle Vague), Tuesday, 23 February 2021 10:03 (three years ago) link
There's a feeling I get sometimes when the sun's coming out, it's very nebulous and complicated and of course blue, it has wistfulness and hope and nostalgia for hope and possibility in it, unfocused memory maybe, awareness of the seasons changing in time, I get it in the Persona games sometimes too, it's like being 18 somehow or wishing I was
Lockdown spoils it tho
― A bot scamping on a human face, forever (Noodle Vague), Thursday, 11 March 2021 12:34 (three years ago) link
I'm living in a sleepy fog of netflix and biscuits. Sometimes the biscuits are good.
― Suggest Banazir (onimo), Friday, 19 March 2021 22:50 (three years ago) link
there isn't much good to say about netflix, apart from that it has all 7 seasons of Voyager!
― calzino, Friday, 19 March 2021 23:00 (three years ago) link
New last chance u dropped tbf
― Marry and Neghim (darraghmac), Saturday, 20 March 2021 00:47 (three years ago) link
Having a bacon
― calstars, Saturday, 20 March 2021 01:49 (three years ago) link
Yet another curfew Friday night before Blue Saturday #419432490.
― pomenitul, Saturday, 20 March 2021 01:50 (three years ago) link
I thought about trying to sketch my blueness but fuck it, silence and diversion is easier.
I'm here to listen and nod along to all of youse tho
― Call of Scampi: Slack Nephrops (Noodle Vague), Thursday, 22 April 2021 07:29 (three years ago) link
This probably isn't the place for it but I drank far too much on Saturday night. It was with good company, round a fire in a garden; there were cigars and glorious peaty whisky. But I didn't eat enough and had an appalling hangover and jesus do I still feel wobbly today. This always manifests, particularly when the end of the night is hazy (to say the least), as me thinking I was probably a prick and have offended people/changed their view of me. I know it's ego and guilt and booze (a heady mix) and I've checked and everyone seems fine but I can't shake it and mostly I think 'just give this shit up already' or 'why can't I have some self-control?'.
― Vanishing Point (Chinaski), Tuesday, 4 May 2021 17:30 (two years ago) link
feeling that. be gentle with yourself imo.
― John Cooper of Christian rock band Skillet (map), Tuesday, 4 May 2021 17:41 (two years ago) link
"the fear" is a real thing the few days after exactly that situation and i used to think i knew what it was when i was in my twenties but at some stage over the last few years its an absolutely predictable mood that lingers after im out with a group and have had more than is good for me- and its never related to anything ive done (unlike, say, in my twenties)
― flagpost fucking (darraghmac), Tuesday, 4 May 2021 18:05 (two years ago) link
I have that all the time after social events, even (especially?) ones I was completely sober for.
― Lily Dale, Tuesday, 4 May 2021 18:08 (two years ago) link
Oh yeah, hate that fear, though a reprieve from it has been one of those rare pros of the pandemic. I too get it even after big social events where I'm sober, but if I do imbibe that just adds an extra layer of "what dumb things did I possibly say" anxiety to the mix. And, yeah, as I've aged it's never really anything I did do, it's more just stuff like "damn, did I really talk about to that guy about Sopranos for as long as it seems like I did? that must have been insufferable".
― soaring skrrrtpeggios (jon /via/ chi 2.0), Tuesday, 4 May 2021 18:13 (two years ago) link
i have this fear about ilx often enough
― mookieproof, Tuesday, 4 May 2021 18:19 (two years ago) link
its never related to anything ive done (unlike, say, in my twenties)
This is key. My hangovers are predictably longer than they used to be, but they're nowhere near as panic attack-inducing.
― pomenitul, Tuesday, 4 May 2021 18:20 (two years ago) link
Solidarity! Mine is more 'stuff I did in my 30s' rather than anything I do now but yeah it's very much part of any social occasion, pissed-up or otherwise. And I totally get that 'god, did I talk to them for 2 hours about...?!' cringe thing. Awkward bastard.
― Vanishing Point (Chinaski), Tuesday, 4 May 2021 18:59 (two years ago) link
I know those heebie-jeebies, crawling-in-my-skin fear, and as I've aged I've learned they can be managed somewhat: less or no whisky/rum/gin/etc., stick to milder (sub 7%) beers. Even if I drink eleven of them, I can still remember most everything and don't feel as godawful
― Andy the Grasshopper, Tuesday, 4 May 2021 19:08 (two years ago) link