Blue Saturday

Fuck, it’s bad though isn’t it

Dunno whether to vent in here or mostly apolitical or ukpol or usLOL or the_slack or just shut my debbie downer mouth but anyway thinking of y’all you lot and hope you are finding ways to cope (I am doing a self care by not caring for myself at all) & stave off the blues. Much love, and that goes for all of you, plus pom

I mentioned to a beloved ilxor earlier (plus pom) the idea some brane genius hat of Cambridge fap and i think that’s still a great idea whenever. Maybe I could bring you a new Christmas card?!

FAPs anywhere and everywhere when it's possible IMO

love to anyone struggling or not struggling atm. it's fucking shit and never ends. I'm off the booze at the moment so can't even drown my sorrows. tbh if I didn't have weed I don't think I could manage it.

Much love to you Colonel, we will meet at some stage and in the meantime please cuddle lovely Dottie and her happy tail ❤️ Just awful shit the whole time.

Monocle dropping out at it taking 4 hours to get from Edinburgh to Peterborough, and a further hour to get from there to Cambridge?

Just stay overnight, fool, almost everyone will be travelling from somewhere anyway. It will surely be worth it to meet some of us irl you haven’t met before? You too, pom.

Yeah definitely up for FAPs wherever once we come out the other side. I have been to hastings once but didn't get a chance to sample the pubs. gyac I have still not ruled out the first card arriving!

I should be back in the UK some time in May – I don't know exactly for how long but, worst comes to worst, I'll be back again after that. Either way, a Cambridge FAP is a lovely prospect and I do want to meet you all in meatspace (plus gyac).

Hang in there, Colonel. It's not quite in the spirit of a Blue Saturday, but I'm doing dry January at the moment and so far it has been a (mild) boon to my morale.

No no I'll definitely be at the FAP, just a bit o_O that 'the direct route' isn't significantly quicker than going in to King's Cross and out again.

I never do dry january or new year's resolutions so last year I made a point of going to the pub on Jan 1 but after that I didn't drink for the first quarter of the year - until lockdown basically

(plus gyac).

fwiw I am not doing Dry January. I just drank way too much over xmas/new year and felt like I was going to have kidney failure. they only stopped hurting yesterday after being sober for a week. it may end up being Dry January anyway although I drank all day on the 1st so have already broken it tbf

Oh I also drank on the 1st but fuck that, let's not make it more onerous for ourselves than it already is.

I am pro drinking on the 1st, i) it is a good day to drink ii) it makes not drinking in the rest of jan/the year less of A Thing

I have had the throbbing kidney feeling too many times, sometimes I tell myself it's just backache but yeah giving it a rest a good idea

Look I worded it weird earlier cos pom is a slack denier also I was talking to gyac

You bunch of cunts

I am deliriously happy this week and I feel almost guilty about that but you know I love you all

Cunts

*and pom too

xp right back at ya, big man

gyac I hate you so much right now

_ _ u t_ _ p_m

ffs zing

I am not looking forward to having to leave the house today, but once again we are missing or almost out of lots of groceries (plus missing everyone I didn’t see on the sssooomm)

I had enough food today, I need to go tomorrow and I need to do laundry and other delayed chores

You too, pom

Up for Cambridge FAP too. Good thought in dark times.

Lawks a lawd a lads
Save me from the comedown
The universe is infinitely blue
Bluetiful

Drink water before bed, lad

^^^

Well yeah sure but

I’ll post Keir to the thread unless you get up and get some right now

Look I've drunk loads of fluid today and it's not helping

Bluetered

The wust of it is I'm not as pished as I ought

Wustfil drinking

OK when I'm listening to "Sex Weed" on a loop that's bed time

Playing SAW I in bed as a John Harris tribute

that thing inside you
it were outside you
malavarice eats us up

the urge to sneak into saturnonymity

and that's what makes my life so fucking fantastic

Don't have time to be fanciful, just noting how sweet the sadness is of gazing into the shifting shades of blue at a slight remove

Which is just a way of being pointlessly always a bit sad I guess, always missing some little object, eh?

The difference between melancholy and gloom? Perhaps I’ve misinterpreted that first one.

It is, also it's a soft melancholy, like when you're tapped into the universal blue.

Lots of defrosted feelings at my end, tho I believe in the collective blue of the universe

Just needed to whitter and jot it down here, lol havent felt the urge for ages for some reason.

twhitter nest pas

Well now.

I never really know how to define melancholy. Instinctively i think of it as sort of sadness tinting everything, diluted but pervasive? Sadness itself is almost a pain (at least for someone who feels all their negative emotions physically it is too), stronger and harder to ignore.

Melancholy = there is a fundamental sadness underpinning existence and it's beautiful so that's ok

(nb there is also a fundamental joy underpinning existence probably but joy feels much more atomised/personal)

I can bask in melancholy but joy is more unsettling idk

melancholy is the pretty rainbow colours shifting across the surface of the dark petrol gloop of sadness

That’s a great way of putting it

A little bubble of black nihilism stuck in my lungs today for no obvious reason.

It's good to observe this stuff calmly until I can cough it up

There's a feeling I get sometimes when the sun's coming out, it's very nebulous and complicated and of course blue, it has wistfulness and hope and nostalgia for hope and possibility in it, unfocused memory maybe, awareness of the seasons changing in time, I get it in the Persona games sometimes too, it's like being 18 somehow or wishing I was

Lockdown spoils it tho

I'm living in a sleepy fog of netflix and biscuits.
Sometimes the biscuits are good.