Blue Saturday

Out to everyone who’s struggling today. NV - hope you’re staying above water

Black Friday.

i'm ok. taking all my effort not to fuck myself up, and i don't want to talk about politics until these feelings have settled down a bit. love to everybody. we're gonna need a lot more love.

<3

Much love, NV.

(And everyone else, of course.)

Love to you man, and all <3

Hold tight, NV

<3 what everyone else said

Legit got Chinese & thought of eating it off my bin Fizzles-style.

I’m around 85% sure I vomited blood in the early hours of this morning. Resolved to get on the sober train again (not tonight tho) and go get some free at the point of use care

Ahhhh look after yourself mate. They’d want you to suffer.

<3

Already contacted the mental health service on Tuesday - only took me 5 months to get on with it. I thought about starting on the booze last night and then again this morning but I've stayed off, don't think i'd've been able to stop if I hadn't. I've ate a stupid amount of sweet stuff today tho :D

Hope you get as much help as you want.

Proud of you NV. We are here for you if that means anything. I’m doing the same.

Yes you are inspiring me Jim

Be interesting to see some science on the sugar thing, I was totally unbothered by cake until I started quitting (and now I do both ffs)

I don't know if there is actual science but it is rare I've heard someone quit drinking and NOT note the sugar cravings. I'm like you, wins. Subsided in intensity after a few months, but for a while there I was averaging a big cupcake and a big cookie and a big slice of cake every day!

Also kudos NV for contacting the service. I've almost asked about it but didn't want to seem the nag.

How’s it going NV?

ok really, haven't heard back from mental health service yet, brain function is definitely a bit clearer the last week or two, hard to say if that's a product of new meds or just the ebb and flow of mental health - it's always hard to work out what's what in my experience.

still struggling to go to sleep at night, just want to stay awake doing not much, playing games or puzzles or reading or just vegetating - even not posting on ILX i end up reading quietly more than i intend to - LOL THIS IS PROBABLY A VIRTUE

woke up this morning and couldn't wake up or get on with the stuff i really really need to get on with. pleasant time in the company of my children (and ex) tends to give me a backwash of regret and sadness afterwards which is just

i mean i'm still a marshmallowy passive blob of not wanting to do anything but sprinkled with increasing anxiety about money and debt and oh shit what am i gonna do to fix this and be able to still have a home and a life

impoverishment is going a way towards keeping me off the booze which is helpful even if for wrong reasons

clear-headed but mostly empty would be the short answer, dazed and unenthused would be the shorter one

but kind of ok until the next crisis

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Adele_King

Adèle King (born Adèle Condron-King, 4 April 1951) is an Irish entertainer better known as Twink.

Twink's marriage ended after 21 years, in October 2004. In 2006, David Agnew (aged 45) had a baby with clarinetist Ruth Hickey (29). This prompted an infamous phone call from King (54) to ex-husband Agnew. She recorded a hostile message on his answering machine which appeared afterwards on the internet. The recording contained coarse and abusive language, such as "zip up your mickey" (Irish slang for penis), and Twink insulted Hickey and the newborn infant, repeatedly calling them "whore" and "your whore's bastard" respectively. King went on to threaten Agnew with denial of contact with his daughters if photographs of his new family appeared in public.

Twink described the Irish singer, Linda Martin, as a "cunt" during a tirade in May 2010. The two had been friends for 30 years but both said afterwards that they had no plans to speak to each other again.

In September 2014 it was widely reported across major Irish media outlets that Twink's dog, Teddy Bear, was kidnapped. Commenting on the events, Twink was quoted describing Linda Martin as being "a very powerful woman in the dog world" and that the kidnapping marked her own personal "Erin Brockovich moment". On 24 September Twink was reunited with her dog after a public tip-off led to the police arrest of a man in Dublin.

(patriotic tear in my eye)

i feel like i dimly remember this whole story but a friend showed it me this afternoon and i also have tears in my eyes

xxp this is iconic af, how did you stumble across it? I am happy to link you to other incidents if you’re in need of distraction!

like i say i feel like i've seen it before but i mean even the stage name, absolute tears

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Maxi,_Dick_and_Twink

This is less legendary but still great

https://gcn.ie/aoife-mcgregor-voicemail/

yesss

Cocaine is a helluva drug

They’re some family

https://youtu.be/OZPx708ip8U

i mean don't get me wrong they're adequate if you're with somebody and/or you're on a crawl. also Han likes eating there because it's straightforward food she likes (going veggie so this may change) but more importantly she's really into using the app to order from your table, it feeds her control freak instincts

deems I have to say this is a rare occasion where I have a better dn than you, yours physically hurts me

Han likes eating there because it's straightforward food she likes (going veggie so this may change)

quite a few vegan options on the menu last time i was there, but the pizza i had was really fucking awful

yeah i think Tim Spoon doesn't want to serve anything tinged with Europeanness

this dn?

its brilliant tbh

the first two á sounds so close together though

but you have to pronounce it like mná innit

Oh you should see the Heaney doc Gyac, I thought it was brilliant. A pastoral portrait of the poet through the eyes of his wife and brothers. Slow poetry readings. Images of peat and bogs. How handsome he was! Winning doc imo, hope you recorded it.

Shit, wrong thread. An Irish takeover of Blue Saturday will do that to one.

"All I know is a door into the dark."

- Bob Marley Seamus Heaney

Lol it’s fine, we had the Twink voicemail to revive this thread. I will look now that you’ve reminded me. I was thinking about Heaney today actually; I have had bits The Harvest Bow floating around my head all week.


And if I spy into its golden loops
I see us walk between the railway slopes
Into an evening of long grass and midges,
Blue smoke straight up, old beds and ploughs in hedges,
An auction notice on an outhouse wall--
You with a harvest bow in your lapel,

Oh Mad Friday, you are the finest day of the year

It was 12 years ago today, that I broke my ankle on mad friday by trying to jump up some steps rather than sensibly walking up them after supping a skinful at work. Dud imo!

It's my favourite religious festival and altho I've had a couple I'm not too bad yet and it's classic catching up with mates in Yulestep Back mode

I had to look up mad Friday. Never heard of it before.

I had to look up mad Friday. Never heard of it before.

Thanks Zing, that really added to that post.

also known as Black Eye Friday

anyway, hangover, drank more than i shd've but it was ok in the circumstances, most of the remorse was chemical. i've actually had to do a bunch of grown-up sorting my life out phone calls the last couple of days and alongside the usual pre-Christmas chores every ounce of me wanted to retire under the duvet but shit i made it i feel well not strong but y'know :D :D :D

You (legitimately) love to see it. What are you doing for the Christmas?

https://i.imgur.com/vXs33ii.jpg

going to mom's which means no Playstation and overexposure to bad TV for a week but hey, Christmas, it's all part of the occasion

What do you play on the PS4? Also I didn’t realise people outside the Midlands said “mom”!