Blue Saturday

Sitting outside vets with a naughty kitten, sky’s darkening rapidly and it’s not even 3.30, and I can see a GET BORIS GONE tactical voting billboard. That’s pretty blue, right?

it's been dark all day round here

i thought naughtiness was a design feature of kittens?

The kind of naughty where she ate a sharp piece of skewer and is frisking around like I’m not stressing over it! Feeling like a bad kitten owner rn.

the moral here is to eat all the souvlaki as quickly as possible

good luck naughty kitten tho

yeah that's a bit much. frisking is good tho surely. you don't get these issues with a doner.

she is cuddled up to me and purring. looking forward to the next two days of examining every shit that comes out of her

Bless her. And gl with the latter...

Spent half of a very long catch-up sleep dreaming about waiting for a pub that refused to open. God my unconscious is basic.

I had a dream about being excluded out of a FAP the other day

(ctd from politics thread)

...also not drinking is hard i guess, facing this month sober...shudder

too fucking much, it's like a pit at the base of a mountain, there's no way i can get up from here

❤️ when’s the last time you had a drop?

last Tuesday/early hours of Wednesday

the craving is mostly a 30 minute blast that comes occasionally, i just have to ride them out, obviously the internal argument "hey why not have a drink? fuck it" is the tough bit too, it's like gawping into the void which is there whether i drink or don't drink tbf

right now it will just not help, that's my mantra, feeble as it is

and i really like booze/pubs. maybe buy a lottery ticket.

i mean really why be sober or together or anything in a nation owned and cheerleaded by cunts cunts cunts

I mean yes I struggle (not very successfully) with my various vices and this all the time, but that’s what those cunts would want most.

Here I am in the middle of the dark I'd like to be

I get the spleen at 3.15

I'll take both of YOU on

Hi Jim this is a note to remind you that you really don't enjoy these hangovers when you think you're about to die so maybe let's not have them any more OK?

Did you end up getting pizza?

hbd NV! may your coming year be hangover free

No I'd already had some tea and when I'm this poorly it'd only be wasted. I've had a couple of sips of rum to try and steady the panic but it's not working, best thing would be sleep really but I'm stubbornly hanging on for Rick and Morty

And thanks mh! I hope so too

Out to everyone who’s struggling today. NV - hope you’re staying above water

Black Friday.

i'm ok. taking all my effort not to fuck myself up, and i don't want to talk about politics until these feelings have settled down a bit. love to everybody. we're gonna need a lot more love.

<3

Much love, NV.

(And everyone else, of course.)

Love to you man, and all <3

Hold tight, NV

<3 what everyone else said

Legit got Chinese & thought of eating it off my bin Fizzles-style.

I’m around 85% sure I vomited blood in the early hours of this morning. Resolved to get on the sober train again (not tonight tho) and go get some free at the point of use care

Ahhhh look after yourself mate. They’d want you to suffer.

<3

Already contacted the mental health service on Tuesday - only took me 5 months to get on with it. I thought about starting on the booze last night and then again this morning but I've stayed off, don't think i'd've been able to stop if I hadn't. I've ate a stupid amount of sweet stuff today tho :D

Hope you get as much help as you want.

Proud of you NV. We are here for you if that means anything. I’m doing the same.

Yes you are inspiring me Jim

Be interesting to see some science on the sugar thing, I was totally unbothered by cake until I started quitting (and now I do both ffs)

I don't know if there is actual science but it is rare I've heard someone quit drinking and NOT note the sugar cravings. I'm like you, wins. Subsided in intensity after a few months, but for a while there I was averaging a big cupcake and a big cookie and a big slice of cake every day!

Also kudos NV for contacting the service. I've almost asked about it but didn't want to seem the nag.

How’s it going NV?

ok really, haven't heard back from mental health service yet, brain function is definitely a bit clearer the last week or two, hard to say if that's a product of new meds or just the ebb and flow of mental health - it's always hard to work out what's what in my experience.

still struggling to go to sleep at night, just want to stay awake doing not much, playing games or puzzles or reading or just vegetating - even not posting on ILX i end up reading quietly more than i intend to - LOL THIS IS PROBABLY A VIRTUE

woke up this morning and couldn't wake up or get on with the stuff i really really need to get on with. pleasant time in the company of my children (and ex) tends to give me a backwash of regret and sadness afterwards which is just

i mean i'm still a marshmallowy passive blob of not wanting to do anything but sprinkled with increasing anxiety about money and debt and oh shit what am i gonna do to fix this and be able to still have a home and a life

impoverishment is going a way towards keeping me off the booze which is helpful even if for wrong reasons

clear-headed but mostly empty would be the short answer, dazed and unenthused would be the shorter one

but kind of ok until the next crisis

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Adele_King

Adèle King (born Adèle Condron-King, 4 April 1951) is an Irish entertainer better known as Twink.

Twink's marriage ended after 21 years, in October 2004. In 2006, David Agnew (aged 45) had a baby with clarinetist Ruth Hickey (29). This prompted an infamous phone call from King (54) to ex-husband Agnew. She recorded a hostile message on his answering machine which appeared afterwards on the internet. The recording contained coarse and abusive language, such as "zip up your mickey" (Irish slang for penis), and Twink insulted Hickey and the newborn infant, repeatedly calling them "whore" and "your whore's bastard" respectively. King went on to threaten Agnew with denial of contact with his daughters if photographs of his new family appeared in public.

Twink described the Irish singer, Linda Martin, as a "cunt" during a tirade in May 2010. The two had been friends for 30 years but both said afterwards that they had no plans to speak to each other again.

In September 2014 it was widely reported across major Irish media outlets that Twink's dog, Teddy Bear, was kidnapped. Commenting on the events, Twink was quoted describing Linda Martin as being "a very powerful woman in the dog world" and that the kidnapping marked her own personal "Erin Brockovich moment". On 24 September Twink was reunited with her dog after a public tip-off led to the police arrest of a man in Dublin.

(patriotic tear in my eye)

i feel like i dimly remember this whole story but a friend showed it me this afternoon and i also have tears in my eyes

xxp this is iconic af, how did you stumble across it? I am happy to link you to other incidents if you’re in need of distraction!

like i say i feel like i've seen it before but i mean even the stage name, absolute tears

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Maxi,_Dick_and_Twink

This is less legendary but still great

https://gcn.ie/aoife-mcgregor-voicemail/

yesss