Blue Saturday

i feel - on days like this, which are shitty and hungover and stupid - like i'm always the one who has to reach out to my children. they never initiate a meet-up. and they live with their mom and then kvetch about her to me when it suits and sometimes, mostly, i think well this is normal and its ok but sometimes it just makes me feel very very nobody writes to this colonel

in the buccaneer yul has a good bad wig it's very disorientating

i think i remember that

"Invitation to a Gunfighter" was pretty excellent but you can see Hollywood struggling to rein in his sexuality

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yeah this is wrong

i think i hated Chorlton Heston even before i knew he was a total douchebag

There is a hipster in a canal boat on BBC4 and it's actually the least worst thing on atm

He's just used the word boaters to refer to co-bellends and he's about to explore Stoke ffs

I can't do this to meself there must be a Nazi documentary on somewhere

u-boaters

Ah it's finished thank fuck oh god it's a documentary about the Queen's sister

Insert coke joke here

John Cooper Clarke was on celebrity antiques road trip pissing all the money away

masterchef notwithstanding i've quit terrestrial for netflix and LA REINA DEL SUR and then ANCIENT ALIENS

I think Ancient Aliens gets played on one of the high number terrestrial channels but that stuff hurts my head

I found a good Chinese series of "Romance of the Three Kingdoms" on Youtube the other week but I'm too befuddled for subtitles today.

i mean yes it's brain-corroding garbage but have you seen "factual" TV recently

erich von daniken did brexit

Yeah I enjoy terrible factual TV but lately Jamie Theakston has been too much for me

I can't do this to meself there must be a Nazi documentary on somewhere

Nazi documentary on ITV at the moment

i'm always the one who has to reach out to my children. they never initiate a meet-up

NV, I spent a few minutes earlier today realizing I haven't reached out to my own parents for a while. I think it's a parent/child dynamic and I've actually asked my parents if they'd want me to call/meet up more often. It's totally legit for you to say "hey, it'd really help if you called or visited a bit more often"

maybe set up a regular evening or whatever

I do take both of them out on the reg and I think you're right, it's what children do. That's what I was pondering.

Both of them. The two that live down the road. The eldest is in Essex, poor lad.

Couldn't decide on an appropriate thread to moan about it being Guy Martin season on Channel 4 again

I don’t know who that is. But this is always the appropriate thread!

Sitting outside vets with a naughty kitten, sky’s darkening rapidly and it’s not even 3.30, and I can see a GET BORIS GONE tactical voting billboard. That’s pretty blue, right?

it's been dark all day round here

i thought naughtiness was a design feature of kittens?

The kind of naughty where she ate a sharp piece of skewer and is frisking around like I’m not stressing over it! Feeling like a bad kitten owner rn.

the moral here is to eat all the souvlaki as quickly as possible

good luck naughty kitten tho

yeah that's a bit much. frisking is good tho surely. you don't get these issues with a doner.

she is cuddled up to me and purring. looking forward to the next two days of examining every shit that comes out of her

Bless her. And gl with the latter...

Spent half of a very long catch-up sleep dreaming about waiting for a pub that refused to open. God my unconscious is basic.

I had a dream about being excluded out of a FAP the other day

(ctd from politics thread)

...also not drinking is hard i guess, facing this month sober...shudder

too fucking much, it's like a pit at the base of a mountain, there's no way i can get up from here

❤️ when’s the last time you had a drop?

last Tuesday/early hours of Wednesday

the craving is mostly a 30 minute blast that comes occasionally, i just have to ride them out, obviously the internal argument "hey why not have a drink? fuck it" is the tough bit too, it's like gawping into the void which is there whether i drink or don't drink tbf

right now it will just not help, that's my mantra, feeble as it is

and i really like booze/pubs. maybe buy a lottery ticket.

i mean really why be sober or together or anything in a nation owned and cheerleaded by cunts cunts cunts

I mean yes I struggle (not very successfully) with my various vices and this all the time, but that’s what those cunts would want most.

Here I am in the middle of the dark I'd like to be

I get the spleen at 3.15

I'll take both of YOU on

Hi Jim this is a note to remind you that you really don't enjoy these hangovers when you think you're about to die so maybe let's not have them any more OK?

Did you end up getting pizza?

hbd NV! may your coming year be hangover free

No I'd already had some tea and when I'm this poorly it'd only be wasted. I've had a couple of sips of rum to try and steady the panic but it's not working, best thing would be sleep really but I'm stubbornly hanging on for Rick and Morty

And thanks mh! I hope so too

Out to everyone who’s struggling today. NV - hope you’re staying above water

Black Friday.

i'm ok. taking all my effort not to fuck myself up, and i don't want to talk about politics until these feelings have settled down a bit. love to everybody. we're gonna need a lot more love.

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