I don't really know what they are. *surprise*
― a Mets fan who gave up on everything in the mid '80s (Dr Morbius), Monday, 5 August 2019 05:22 (four years ago) link
i’m in a slack channel with some of my closest pals in LA and it’s very sweet. it’s paradoxically led to all of us in the group hanging out more frequently in person, and just generally knowing what’s going on in one another’s lives. also i like our chat being in its own messaging app because group texts drive me absolutely nuts
― donna rouge, Monday, 5 August 2019 05:30 (four years ago) link
also thanks for the lovely comments above, everyone ❤️
― donna rouge, Monday, 5 August 2019 05:31 (four years ago) link
don't do the group chat thing, but keep tabs on people and talk back and forth via IG quite a lot.
― blue light or electric light (the table is the table), Tuesday, 6 August 2019 13:15 (four years ago) link
I've got a couple group chats going, never visited more than a couple times a day, mostly to trade wise cracks.
― TikTok to the (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Tuesday, 6 August 2019 13:31 (four years ago) link
i have one going on IG! but like, we're all v close IRL. i miss AIM. i've never tried the sauna bathhouse thing, but one of my friends is obsessed. i just really don't know that i'd have the right countenance for it.
― surm, Tuesday, 6 August 2019 18:51 (four years ago) link
fgti i feel like you could write a song about thisOutrageous images from Classics Illustrated Junior
― Fuck the NRA (ulysses), Tuesday, 6 August 2019 19:13 (four years ago) link
I wish I was in a really good group chat. I had a really good one with a couple of snakes in it and it fucking blew up hard. Then I was in a not-as-good one with a couple of really great people in it (Hi Stevie!) but it also blew up extremely hard.
I'm trying to do one now but I'm just too depressive these days. I need too much emotional support. I should start a group chat with [redacted] and [redacted]. Just sit around complaining all day? Sweet.
Anyway I just don't like the following things about group chats.
1. The feeling that my social circle is a part of one (they are) and that they have excluded me (they have, non-deliberately, I'm just not around as much, but it's hard to ask to join) and that I've been left out of a lot of basic social functions like birthdays as a result (I have, very much).
2. The feeling that my boyfriend is sharing private jokes with his irl circle of friends, who are also my friends, and that I'm missing out on key gossips, and generally feeling left out
3. The feeling that my boyfriend is complaining about me in his long-distance group chat, misrepresenting me when recounting arguments we've had, portraying me unsympathetically, and generally doing so to just "blow off steam", but now I feel like there are six random people in other cities who think I'm the biggest asshole ever
(If I ever seem like I'm complaining about my boyfriend here or elsewhere, please no, I love him he is the literal best, we have issues but we're blissfully happy and he's a deeply good person)
― flamboyant goon tie included, Wednesday, 7 August 2019 03:13 (four years ago) link
Also
Yeah
Sex clubs and gay saunas are really not my thing. Why would I have thought they would be? When I was on Grindr, people would ask me "what are you into" and I'd reply "I'll do anything you want me to as long as you promise to spoon me afterward and have breakfast with me in the morning"
I just don't understand how people can relate to each other sexually without any actual.. conversation? Or something? Reducing one's own body to being just a physical function, and another's body to fulfilling a physical function, idk, it feels like Patrick Bateman or something. That's what it felt like. A Bret Easton Ellis sex scene. I literally don't get it.
I went by a store called... Gear? I think? They had all these shirts with words on them so you could broadcast your kink. "Police". "Sniffer". "Daddy" etc. I think I need to get one that says "Breakfast". I really like waking up to a man and making them breakfast. Kinky af.
― flamboyant goon tie included, Wednesday, 7 August 2019 03:21 (four years ago) link
that's so hotyou know what's interesting is that these days i've gotten so comfortable with asking for cuddles and breakfast that there have been times when i found myself getting TOO intimateand after i was like... woah that didn't feel good either, like too fucking baring my soul is the only way i know how to put it, like emotional vomit weird right? i went to the extreme and it's backing up on me
― surm, Friday, 9 August 2019 14:50 (four years ago) link
for the first time in my storied life I've enjoyed three successive erotic dreams, they were fun
― TikTok to the (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Friday, 9 August 2019 14:56 (four years ago) link
erotic dreams are so fun
― marcos, Friday, 9 August 2019 16:57 (four years ago) link
better than porn that's for sure
― surm, Friday, 9 August 2019 17:19 (four years ago) link
One of which starred a close friend.
― TikTok to the (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Friday, 9 August 2019 17:22 (four years ago) link
*bows*
― flamboyant goon tie included, Friday, 9 August 2019 17:44 (four years ago) link
don't you mean *blows*?
― surm, Friday, 9 August 2019 17:56 (four years ago) link
surm!
― TikTok to the (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Friday, 9 August 2019 18:42 (four years ago) link
i have thoughts about kink and i have a weird relationship with it. i'm definitely in a non-kinky phase of my life atm. i also have thoughts about the appeal of bathhouses and saunas lol. my first sexual experience was in one and for years i gravitated towards them (and cruising). for me the appeal has/had a lot to do with growing up in a conservative, repressed, patriarchal culture. at this point i'm pretty much over all of that though.
fgti i know the shirts of which you speak, they're so bad. i have no idea what clothes to wear these days. i work from home so i don't have to care.
also fgti the thoughts you're having about your boyfriend sound crushing and if i were in your situation and i wasn't dependent in any way on him i would ditch him asap. you deserve to be supported. that's like an entry-level requirement lol.
― cheese canopy (map), Friday, 9 August 2019 18:43 (four years ago) link
In the first dream I'm in the back passenger side of a full cab, my friend pressed against me. He massages my knee, arm, neck, says I'm cute. He's on molly, I think. Then he gently massages a pill between my lips. "You asshole!" I said. "It IS molly." He assures me it's a small hit.
I haven't touched the stuff in more than a decade, nor have I ever lusted after this friend.
― TikTok to the (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Friday, 9 August 2019 18:44 (four years ago) link
i'd much rather dream about Adam Dr*ver than anyone i know, but that never happens
― a Mets fan who gave up on everything in the mid '80s (Dr Morbius), Friday, 9 August 2019 18:57 (four years ago) link
I've never dreamt about Jake :(
― TikTok to the (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Friday, 9 August 2019 19:01 (four years ago) link
@ map, we have been having a weird month, some adjustments being made, but as I said, we're blissfully happy and he's a really good person :)
― flamboyant goon tie included, Friday, 9 August 2019 19:05 (four years ago) link
This week has pushed me closer to contemplating if not accepting the end of this relationship than I’ve been for years.
― Pauline Male (Eric H.), Friday, 9 August 2019 23:00 (four years ago) link
To put it bluntly, I’ve been listening to the Eagles’ “I Can’t Tell You Why” damned near constantly these last couple days.
― Pauline Male (Eric H.), Friday, 9 August 2019 23:01 (four years ago) link
It must be pathological then
― TikTok to the (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Saturday, 10 August 2019 02:19 (four years ago) link
Yeah, we're both basic dumb bitches
― Pauline Male (Eric H.), Saturday, 10 August 2019 03:02 (four years ago) link
best kind
(w/out the Eagles)
― a Mets fan who gave up on everything in the mid '80s (Dr Morbius), Saturday, 10 August 2019 03:09 (four years ago) link
We're def both melancholy types
― Pauline Male (Eric H.), Saturday, 10 August 2019 03:12 (four years ago) link
I admire the bravery of anyone plunging into an intimate relationship
― Dan S, Saturday, 10 August 2019 03:13 (four years ago) link
And this is the longest we've spent apart since being together, so ...
― Pauline Male (Eric H.), Saturday, 10 August 2019 03:14 (four years ago) link
Ry is asleep on the couch before he comes and cuddles me for one of the last times before he moves out of my house
Every moment is really special, there are no hard feelings, just a love that needs to change, and it will be miserable when it hits me
But for now it is what it is
― surm, Saturday, 10 August 2019 03:55 (four years ago) link
sending love and late-night golden girl hugs to everyone in relationship transitions
― cheese canopy (map), Saturday, 10 August 2019 05:39 (four years ago) link
Yes I will need the girls no question
― surm, Saturday, 10 August 2019 16:44 (four years ago) link
Wow, booze definitely helped take me there last night. Embarrassed.
― Pauline Male (Eric H.), Saturday, 10 August 2019 21:03 (four years ago) link
What happened???
― surm, Friday, 16 August 2019 05:21 (four years ago) link
you guysss i'm finally getting my tennis game back, like a little
― surm, Friday, 16 August 2019 15:54 (four years ago) link
Fuck August really is quietOk who's got a life update cuz I got a lot
― surm, Wednesday, 21 August 2019 16:22 (four years ago) link
I cut back on the drinking considerably since the lake, partially because it was getting out of hand, and also I'm getting a new puppy!!!
― Pauline Male (Eric H.), Wednesday, 21 August 2019 16:33 (four years ago) link
(Provided he survives cleft palate surgery.)
I got nothing, just domestic bliss and a lot of music writing. Swimming every day, too.
― flamboyant goon tie included, Wednesday, 21 August 2019 16:35 (four years ago) link
I'm eating a sandwich and reading Typee, the latter queer enough.
― TikTok to the (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Wednesday, 21 August 2019 16:36 (four years ago) link
Interviewed for a teaching position this morning that we frankly need if we are going to keep our house. Did recently get an article accepted for publication, though.
― Herman Woke (cryptosicko), Wednesday, 21 August 2019 16:36 (four years ago) link
wow, congratulations
― TikTok to the (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Wednesday, 21 August 2019 16:39 (four years ago) link
Thanks!
― Herman Woke (cryptosicko), Wednesday, 21 August 2019 16:40 (four years ago) link
medical treatment being rejiggered, gonna be a copay September
so much for getting a staff job somewhere, as i continue to bleed money
going to lots of films while i still live in New York
― a Mets fan who gave up on everything in the mid '80s (Dr Morbius), Wednesday, 21 August 2019 16:42 (four years ago) link
Obamacare sux btw
I will take u to ifc anytime morbs
― Fuck the NRA (ulysses), Thursday, 22 August 2019 07:51 (four years ago) link
I got too drunk last night, but I managed to grope and lightly make out with a theoretically straight boxer.
― TikTok to the (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Thursday, 22 August 2019 16:38 (four years ago) link
No "but" needed, the one follows the other
― Pauline Male (Eric H.), Thursday, 22 August 2019 16:54 (four years ago) link
like a hangover
― TikTok to the (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Thursday, 22 August 2019 17:00 (four years ago) link