i am myself probably unrecognizable from twenty-plus years ago. i had some low points and when scraping bottom i looked at myself in the mirror (literally!) and said fuck it. i had to extricate myself from my rut, and go to places i wasn't comfortable with. geographically and figuratively. which is how i went from rural IL to NYC (without having ever visited the latter.) i had to leave a lot of things behind, i had to get unsentimental and i guess (it sounds paradoxical) stop caring about what other people thought or felt, but also balancing it out with more empathy and patience. it was a long, long process, i tell ya.
a lot of problems stemmed from really not knowing how to interact with people, is the thing.
― nomar, Tuesday, 19 September 2017 16:38 (six years ago) link