body positivity!!

ok, barf, no

Oh man, I'd love to see my appendix but I'm into medical stuff and everything behind OBOS etc. Also, I have totally done the spectrum thing and looked at my cervix.

it's not even that i think it's gross; i think it'd be marginally cool but mostly boring and physically uncomfortable. they usually give me photos anyway.

What are the countervailing benefits of unconsciousness?

Well, if you have a casual interest in human cognition, coming out of twilight sleep is pretty interesting. It's pretty amazing to be sitting there having a conversation with someone and all of a sudden being "back" as if a memory needle had stopped skipping.

I loooove twilight sleep, I have to get a colonoscopy every year bc I have crohns and it's basically my annual groovy drug experience

i like the tingly feeling but it also feels like a sneak preview of death which makes me a lil uneasy

Eh, I feel like that about going to sleep half the time anyway

i have been thinking a lot about how yoga helps me feel good about my body/self and i would like to propose a moratorium on the phrase "yoga bitch" -- just bc someone enjoys yoga, that person is not a bitch. if someone bitchily flaunts his/her yoga-ing, it's not because of the yoga, it's because that person is bitchy fundamentally. i dunno, it makes me feel bad when i think that people would call me that; doing yoga alone in my basement can't possibly be a bitchy activity.

I have never heard that phrase
it's rotten!

One time I ran into this toned trapeze yoga bitch at the co-op & she was all "oh! You don't look well!" I think what I hated about it more than her saying I looked like shit was the condescension, like I'm some baby who can't take care of myself & I need her fucking vedic tips or whatever.

― emilys., Thursday, July 25, 2013 5:46 PM (1 year ago) Bookmark Flag Post Permalink

Lol @ toned yoga bitch

― free your spirit pig (La Lechera), Thursday, July 25, 2013 5:50 PM (1 year ago) Bookmark

like, i loled, but then i thought about it for a year

that is from this thread btw

you reminded me of this piece: http://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2014/oct/11/fat-girls-do-yoga-too

Yoga isn't strictly exercise (although you can take that element from it) but I mean Iyengar (if you look at some footage) wasn't really skinny or anything, and you can be fat and do yoga because its about aligning your body in a certain and using the breath to ease your body.

I can't speak for other types like Bikram or hot yoga. It was never appealing, and don't sound like yoga to me.

I live in the desert so any time I do exercise outside I think of it as 'bikram' form.
I assumed 'yoga bitch' was some phrase like 'basic bitch' I'd just never heard.

N-e-way on the body pozi front I have been playing basketball. I was way delayed in my gross motor skills (to the point where they talked about holding me back every year for my first few years of school). I spent most of elementary getting a lot of occupational therapy. I guess I finally caught up to 'average person' levels of skill, because I have been playing a lot of basketball lately and can actually throw, catch, pass, etc. Though it really hits a lot of musskels I haven't been using and I am sore all the time. It feels AWESOME to do a competent job at it, though!

fwiw playing basketball

Kim Gordon ‏@KimletGordon 8h8 hours ago

Yoga is bumming me out

:-(

yoga for me has almost always been a private practice i do at home. there was a one-year period when i was going to a studio almost everyday doing mysore-style ashtanga (which is a self-led practice anyways) or iyengar. iyengar imo is really the best school of yoga and the most accessible to all body types. ashtanga claims to be accessible to everyone (you just modify the series to what you can do) but ime it really seemed most appealing to people with really athletic physiques (i just happened to be a super skinny flexible dude that found it somewhat doable, i've never been athletic). i support people going to studios and my wife teaches yoga (mostly prenatal) but i really prefer doing it at home at my own pace.

btw i feel like i have come a super long way in feeling positive about my body. growing up as the only hispanic kid in a school and neighborhood full of blondish white irish german "all-american" kids can fuck with you. there was ONE other kid in my class with black hair, he was filipino (we were tight). it was fucked. in the all-male high school i went to, which was a little more diverse, was still so many hairless white athletic bodies and i was super skinny and hairy as fuck. i hated it back then. i did for a while. i finally started making peace with my body about five years ago or so and i'm feeling pretty positive about it these days. i love being hairy. this is totally an anti-hair culture right now for both men and obviously and especially women and it is such bullshit. fuck that noise. i'm hairy and idgaf.

I have been practising Iyengar for nearly a year and you need correction from a good instructor. The only way to learn. In every class at least something will click. Plus doing it with others is interesting, you get to share in the struggles people face.

But yes eventually a good home practice will be incorporated.

I was diagnosed with stress-related IBS a couple weeks ago and my main symptom is bloating. Severe I look 15 pounds heavier or 6 mo pregnant bloating. I've also been working with a nutritionist on body positivity and mending my relationship with food but it's been super hard to deal with while walking around feeling like a stuffed balloon. I want to cry.

I went through that when I quit smoking. Digestive mayhem. I ended up drinking Ginger tea and eating yoghurt everyday. Not sure if it was that or if my body has simply readjusted on it's own but I'm much better. My acid reflux is gone too.

I look 15 pounds heavier or 6 mo pregnant bloating.

Girl, this is my life. I feel this. Some days I go without eating for long stretches just to get things emptied out and feel flat and not have any discomfort--it's not great but when I often don't know exactly what will set me off, it's just one little thing I can do. The last couple of days it appears a few mouthfuls of APPLE have been enough to make me one of http://www.compupawn.com/Newsletters/images/CompuPawn-beach-ball.jpg

:( it's the worst!!!!

Oh no you too? I'm so sorry. It's so uncomfortable!!! I don't think mine is food related though and if it is I haven't found any correlations. I tend to have a flare the day after I'm really stressed out about something and then lasts for about three days. By last night I felt like if someone poked me in the stomach with a pin I'd fly away like a balloon. Even though I haven't made any direct food connections yet I'm scared to eat! I hardly ate at all yesterday because I was afraid it would just add to the bloating which is also bad because part of what I'm doing with the nutritionist is all about not restricting my eating in any way. The whole thing sucks.

Ime I just have to be ABSOLUTELY RIGID about cutting out certain foods. Even if "whey" is the second to last ingredient, even if you can't even see the cream in the sauce, even if I'm hungry, or someone nice made it. Apple pie has long been one of my favorite foods and when I stopped eating wheat, I was v v happy when I worked out a gluten-free pie crust dealie. Now I can't have the apples in it either. It is suck, as my friend from Venezuela would say.

I SORRY, THRAED. FOOD SPECIFICITY IS SO BORING. I hate that my body makes me be this way.

I HATE IT TOO! But it's hard to be body pos when your body is doing things that make it not the normal shape I guess is what I was trying to say.

I have that problem too because of Crohn's. It's one of the reasons I've cut back on drinking :/

I totally understand. You're not alone! xp Or you either!

Me too because of crohns. I feel all u pain on this. With me it's not exactly bloating but more like these unbearable pockets of air that can only be wheedled out one at a time with great strain and stress.

The yoga bitch quote reminds me, how is Emilys these days? She used to post on depression thread and I don't think I've seen her on ilx in a while

So I'm still doing a lot of work on being body posi and it's been great though I still struggle as it's a journey. Anyway, my nutritionist showed me this today and it's pretty awesome.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H89QQfXtc-k

that's good

I was just thinking about this thread today!! I have had some disconcertingly positive experiences w/ my body lately and it is leaving me confused but also nice-feeling. Bodies are really quite wonderful things.

Stevie yr fb pic I last saw was idk topless dungarees or s/t and u looked great

ah thank you!! I appreciate that. I made it my profile pic on "the apps" and I have been getting nonstop attention and it is kind of alarming but also kind of cool.

I've spent today working through chapter 2 in "The Body Image Workbook". I determined to beat this voice in my head. I've lived enough of my life worrying about my appearance and what other people think of it. Too much. Yes, I'm totally faking it until I make it in terms of this stuff at this point but hopefully it'll help.

well just be glad yr not leg disabled I spose

I've lost a cpl pounds and am in better shape than I've been in a while lately, and still it's hard to be body posi because it's impossible not to notice how much better the world treats me when I am thinner (nb. never been 'thin') and losing/keeping weight off is so draining 😥. Hard to just not worry about it and say 'well, fuck having noticeably more opportunities open to me at all times'. And it's hard to blame society because I'm just as judgemental as anyone out there. Reading this thread helps sometimes tho. Good luck y'all.

Have consistently done an ab workout with one of my best friends for the last 16 days. For a while I really, really was struggling cos my core is weak but I'm starting to be able to ratchet up the intensity. I've dropped five pounds, but it's less about that and getting in shape and feeling better about myself.

It's helping with so many things and I've never had an accountability partner so I may actually see this out.

:)

That's great to hear. As I've heard someone say, it never gets easy, but it does get easier, and results come faster than you might expect.

i am fatter and hotter than ever