no boys allowed in the room!!!!

<3

i love that whole speech so much!

I do, too! Amy Schumer's speech at the same event is getting a lot more attention (from my friends (on facebook (so scientific))) and it's not nearly as good; her's is like "a guy tried to fuck me once in college and he didn't even like me and he couldn't get a hard on! live life to the fullest and don't feel ugly!" NB tho I really don't dig Schumer's schtick.

i srsly got tears in my eyes just reading it when she got to the part about giving the fist-in-the-air to the picture every day

also that story totally reminded me of abbott's story about intentionally staying in the "men only" room of that one party and insisting on having a good time and talking about whatever she wanted to

My friend sent me this link saying "I was looking for saguaro lamps on etsy and found this very NSFW thing that made me think of you"
https://www.etsy.com/listing/186933292/leluv-7-inch-cactus-dildo-double

Like, that kind of warms my heart. FEAMEL FRANZ RULE!!

In other news pertinent to this thres, last night I had a dream that I was getting a checkup at my PCP. He asked me about my nexplanon implant I got a few months ago. "Did you put in the batteries when it got inserted?" I looked in my purse and found a baggie w/two teeny tiny batteries. "Is it too late to put them in now?" I asked, and he just snorted, like "oh you poor lady." I woke up like "nooo I'm sooo pregnant"

So it's been the norm lately to wake up at 4 a.m. from an anxiety dream but at least this one wasn't work related??

haha -- i woke up at 5am DYING for a slice of pizza from the pizza place at the mall where my friends and i used to hang out
like i was rabid for pizza
then i went back to sleep for an hour

end of the year is so hard and stressful -- i really work at not letting it get to me, and it still gets to me

You need pizza!

gah i need pizza so bad
there's a place on the way to work that makes similar pizza to the mall pizza
maybe i will just pick up a pizza on my way there
…this is starting to sound like a great idea!

pizza pizza pizza

It's Friday! Friday is pizza day. You've had a long week and you deserve a pizza treat.

I have been making pizza on Friday's because Friday is TOTALLY pizza day but we're getting a Homemade Pizza Company pizza tonight and I am super excited. PIZZA.

My own homemade pizza game is getting pretty tight, though. I'm currently mastering toppings but am working my way up to my own crust.

I Went to a pizza party last weekend at ytth's boss' place and it was delicious! We had like four different kinds.

I want to try pizza on the grill (now that I am reunited with the grill) but first I have to find every last kitchen thing that we put in storage. Jeeezus why was a not more organized about this--every box I open has contained everything EXCEPT anything I want/need in the short term.

Like I have to start my internship tomorrow and atm it looks like I will be doing so in a bikini and cowboy boots???

by tomorrow I mean next week but still

Made a homemade pizza for lunch and ate it while it stormed. Perfect!

is it worth investing in a pizza stone?

Yes! If you love making pizza...I had one and miss it.

there is one on my wedding registry, ive wanted one for 10000 years but its the kind of thing that you never want to buy for yourself cause its boring to buy

What's a good bathing suit to wear when you are out of the bikini club that still looks cute not like you are trying to hide, youthful etc...ugharghhhhhh!???

I fucking hate swim suits now. Use to be so easy, had tons of them, never a thought, now it's an ordeal, want to live wear no one can ever swim. I actually feel better naked but swim suits take your body out of context and ugh.

swim suit... i mean.

You mean you don't want to wear a bikini? I would go with something vintage/retro looking. Go for 40s glam. It provides coverage if that's what you want but you can swan around like a fabulous starker.

Bwahahaha STARLET

http://www.modcloth.com/shop/search?keyword=Bathing+Beauty+One+Piece?

Maybe something like this?

You could also look for a bikini that's got a more modest cut with that same retro look.

http://www.modcloth.com/shop/twopiece-swimwear/fave-denim-swimmies-two-piece-swimsuit

Anyway, I feel you. I'm not too worried about swimsuits but after years of a solid truce, I'm feeling some animosity towards my body. Part baby, part getting old, part catching every cold that comes within 50 yards of me, part some kind of hormone induced joint pains. Bleh.

I have a halter neck tank-top bikini thing with kind of shortie shorts. Thought it would look really mom-ish but it's cute. I've never felt comfortable in a normal bikini although i'm happy with my body - just feels like i'm walking round in me underwears.

I have the one piece that Carl linked to and it's very cute but I think it runs a bit small just FYI.

i have not worn a swimsuit in over a decade.

i have had the same cheap JC Penney swimsuit for 10 years & as long as it keeps stretching enough to fit me, it'll do fine. vintage style full coverage low leg-cut with tummy panels etc

aka grandma swimsuit if you wanna go there lok

Thanks, Gals! My fave seems to be the Modcloth Marilyn Monroe looking suit.

I owned a '60s vintage one piece that was incredible! But I was stupid (20 something) and cut it in half and turned it into a high waisted two piece. I would LOVE to have that suit today, in either incarnation in fact.

The day got worse when I ventured into American Apparel and tried on the "Skater's Dress" with low cut sides. I was super curious and on days when I had strong body positivity (which was one day last month) I thought I could sport this with a simple bra...all summer. Uh....no. All day today I have felt like I am heading towards midlife or something. I also tried on high waisted jeans, one pair. Shot out of that dressing room so fast.

I realize it is because I am an actual mom now that things that are momish bug me (my midlife symptom) because I was embracing styles I should be embracing now, years ago. Anyway, this is all a bigger mess in my head than I am letting on...the whole aging, no working out n months and months, living in a college town etc...I feel I need to cross over to a better place in my head and once I do, smooth sailing. Starting with a return to some sort of exercise, maybe Callanetics.

It's funny because at 18 I had a similar experience. All my friends started wearing bikinis and I loved my one piece, felt sexy in it. They laughed at me. I tried a bikini and felt naked. I bought one and wore it with denim shorts (in the original high waisted/ cropped shirted era) and slowly worked my way into the comfort of a bikini. Now it's time to return to the one piece.

kinder: I looked for a tankini with boy short combo but never found one :(

Tera have you looked at http://www.swimsuitsforall.com

Oh haaaayyy actual plus-sized models!

Working out is so key to my happiness. I had to let go of my membership at the fancy gym near our apartment because I stopped teaching and no longer qualify for their generous teacher discount and can't afford it anymore. I try to make up for it by taking a lot of walks/bike rides, and that is helpful but it's not the same as 45 minutes of sweating my face off on the elliptical machine (running is out of the question as I have terrible knees, and also I fucking hate running, in case anybody was going to suggest it). I hope you can find time to exercise and I hope it makes you feel better, tera!

gah, me too -- i was just thinking that i exercise/stretch/move around in order to feel good. exclusively, really. it helps me stay limber, energetic, and positive.
my exercise routine got me through this awful winter for sure. also it was fun to develop a workout routine. it occurred to me that i tend to just like to do things my way and that was a concept i needed to apply to exercise as well. it worked!

this is totally in response to carl's post -- the swimsuit body stuff is a conversation i avoid entirely these days! like even online! if i start to go down the road of spending my time typing about how i feel about my body in a bathing suit, it leads nowhere. better to do something else. nothing personal! just a thing i need to do in order to feel alright.

except i did like that slim goodbody one piece!

Thanks for that website!

I did start walking hills to get my hear rate up and then Callanetics for an hour. Now on day 2 and feel better. I did Callanetics 14-28 and then stopped. It was my religion all those years and worked great. Once I started living with someone else it was harder to keep up. Decided to commit to it and see where it takes me.

*heart

I'm going to bust out my Jane Fonda workout record.

She reminds me of Jazzercise and that reminds me of Fosse...high waisted pants and leotards also...Fosse.

Remember Denise Austin? I had a few of her videos, too.

I wonder if Netflix or Amazon have anything streaming... we're about to get new downstairs neighbors and maybe they would enjoy listening to me jazzercise.

I used my years of dance classes and aerobics vids to make up my own routine and it's like 500% more fun than any video!

oh man Mum had a pile of Jane Fonda, Denise Austin, Jazzercise, all the hits on vinyl when we were kids. And she had this awesome aerobics video called Aerobics Oz Style and this gawky man in Australia flag jogging shorts was the instructor

I love Denise Austin!

I wish Callanetics vids weren't so boring. I own one DVD but never use it, I know the workout. The pilates videos I had were also boring.

I wanted to buy this thing:
http://www.fluidity.com/
Been looking for a good price or giveaway on Craigslist and at garage sales.

I was doing K. LaShae's vids all last year but stopped in August because we moved and the new place had no space for workouts.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_dJkiRE0ymw

They were effective...

I LOVE KEAIRA LASHAE.

Hi, girls.

Wondering if it would be OK to suggest a line of discussion I feel is pretty appropriate for this thread? It came up on another thread yesterday, and has been rattling around in my head, but the original thread seems to have just disintegrated into puns and "jokes bruv". BUT, it involves talking around issues of food-policing, body-shaming, food as control issue, food as means of boundary-setting or boundary-violating. And I recognise that this line of discussion might be upsetting or even potentially triggering to anyone struggling with body issues or disordered eating. But I also recognise that this is something that is very gender slanted, so I thought this thread was more appropriate than others.

Would anyone like to talk through this stuff with me? Or would anyone really rather not discuss this stuff here? I'd be OK with taking this stuff elsewhere.

It's talking about the stuff *behind* the jokes on the "bread shaming" thread. That this is something I know exists, in my life (and also has been confirmed that it's not just me, it happens in other people's lives, from reading around the "fat-o-sphere") that family members, acquaintances, even complete strangers all feel like they have a right to comment on or even police one's food choices, if you are a woman living life in a larger body. But also about how exercising control over one's own food choices (even food choices that may seem spurious to others, like veganism or gluten free lifestyles) can be a way of exercising control that one feels one has "lost", over one's body or one's life or other aspects of it. And about other people's boundary violations with regards to one's food choices (there was a story on that thread which pretty much horrified me, and a couple of other people called it out, but at the same time, it's brought up a whole raft of unpleasant acts of food-based aggression, and what it's like to be on the receiving end of it) being an act of control or aggression. Sometimes it feels like my life is a steady stream of trying to sort people into "safe" and "unsafe" but that's a really giant guarantee of "unsafe" status.

Anyway, please forgive me if this is an inappropriate place to raise these discussions, but I just thought I'd throw that stuff out there, and see if there were any takers here.