no boys allowed in the room!!!!

Hah or actually maybe it happened to me on that bad date? Not on that level, but not being able to talk past someone who is bigger and louder than you.

WHAT?! ...grrrrrrrrrr

Shout-out to my ex-bf, a bedroom guitarist who has never played in a band, made a record or gone on tour, who told me I was not a musician; as evidence to back this claim, he stated that I did not even know what a scale was. When I started to define exactly what a scale was, ("it's a set ordered by pitch..."), he repeated my words back to me in a voice as incredulous as if I had said "a scale is a butt."
#fuckyou #onblast #yourtremolopickingsux

posted that here to stop myself from posting it on FB

if you posted "a scale is a butt" on fb I would comment "dying"

and the only reason that i'm not posting on FB right now is that ive already publicly shamed like 50 ppl in the last week and i dont want to get too one-note w/it

xp <3

xref'ed with OP of "thread to get over a breakup"

just so that^ doesnt get twisted, im WAAYYYYYYY over that breakup. lol.

is he one of the fine specimens of manhood on the breakup thread?

he's the original! so happy to have run into him again on halloween

kill all men

hahah my former roommate wished me happy birthday!

it was a very pleasant surprise since he didn't wish me happy birthday when he was actually my roommate iirc

when i got out of class this morning my phone notified me that it was time to "Celebrate with Sarah! It's her birthday!" It made me lol. I've never seen one of those pop up. It was from FB.

also HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

let's celebrate here!

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awwwwww

otm

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hb several days ago sarahell!

two things of note to this thread happened today:

1) in the hallway during break, there were three boys standing on one side of the hallway talking with three boys sitting on a sofa on the other side. Anyone who wanted to pass through would have to walk the gauntlet of 6 boys. i laughed on my way through the first time and said something like "this is quite a gauntlet you've made here" and they didn't really react and that was that. on my way back through, i remembered that one of the boys had been bothering one of my students and on the way back, i told them that the way they were standing was intimidating. they were like wha? and i was like yeah, having to walk through a hallway that is clogged with other people who are all staring at her is intimidating. you shouldn't do it. then i went into my classroom. we'll see if they ever do that again. punks! you don't intimidate our students like that. or me, for that matter.

2) you know that thing upthread where a dude tries to tell you something that you actually told him? that happened today with me and my boss and guess what i said after he smugly told me something that i had told him at least a week ago. i said, "i know, i told you that. at two separate meetings." yezzir.

I hate walking through guards of dishonour, the reflexive sanding down you get from all those bored but on-duty eyes.

i was talking to a client, who is 21, on the phone today and he called me "sweetie" twice

unbelievable.
seriously?

such amazing, deluded cheek.

happy birthday sarahell, most excellent and entertaining asker of questions.

I get sweetie all the time from an ex work collegue but hes camp as a row of tents so... I give that a pass? I dont know if I should.

if it bothers you, you should say something
if not, no worries

a similar thing happened today at the same meeting as 2). a female coworker said that she couldn't see past my bangs and she pushed my hair aside just like a couple inches. this didn't bother me at all because i know her and it just didn't bother me. my boss, the aforementioned one, said "now, could that be considered harassment?" and i was like "well, if i'm uncomfortable with it, yes. if i'm not (which i wasn't) then no."

That is true! Harassment is unwanted by definition, at least on the workplace context.

Also: badass approach to rude dudes at work, LL!

Also: hbd sarahell!

Hi, everybody!

I don't know why I said that, I think because this thread feels like walking into a room and it seemed appropriate.

I went on a date, he was dreamy and appreciative and it felt comfortable. I pretty much haven't felt attracted to anyone in...a year? or more? and it's not unusual for me to be on really long cycles but I was starting to feel like that was just gone for me, I don't know, it's a long story, but FINALLY I FELT SOMETHING so that was exciting, it was like spring in November, little birdies flying, etc.

And I got home and Yerac encouraged me to google him and I did and he has a prior arrest for dv lol/sob.

Oh ugh. :(

I would like to have something that's just mine, some corner of my emotional life that lights things up for me. It's okay being steady and even-keeled and I thought that was good enough for me (in the cynical drawer of my mental filing system I think it's the best I can hope for) so to have hope again suddenly and then feel like I just cannot get ahead, at all...it's got me down for a few days.

Last night my eccentric 70-something neighbor told me I should get my nail tech license "before you get married." I pointed out that at my age there was no clock ticking and no prospects either, and she said, "Oh honey, you're young! Young!" I mean I guess I am if you're 77.

I would call you young from my 40yo perspective, too, especially as it pertains to marriage timelines.

Also neighbor OTM about your nail tech license. I think you should do that!

I'm trying! Touring a beauty school in a couple of weeks b/c they won't tell you anything about the cost or payment plans until you go in person--but it's also going to cost like $1500-1700 so I have to find other work first and save up.

I know I'm not old, it's all in my head that I feel dried up and uninteresting. I used to be everyone's big sister, now it's like I'm their MOM.

my best friend back home is going through some v difficult emotional struggles atm wrt age, singledom, dating & children

she is single & has been for some time, and just recently found out that she is (v possibly) infertile, which sent her down a pretty big spiral of i will die alone i am unlovable all i wanted was children etc

the thing is, she's my age, 37...which, idk. there are so many ways to have children, the way you planned isnt nec the only way, you are comparatively young, the world is not even close to ending...all these things go round my head for her

but it's hard to counsel too hardcore bcz i'm mindful of being the a) married, b) happily childless friend saying brightly "it's not so bad" bcz fuck that friend yknow

those feelings are legit when you feel them, is the thing. they're not wrong, they're just so final. it's hard to convey to her that none of this is indicative of how her story will play out.

idk.

my heart sunk when i read about the googling. that sucks.

i think all a person can do is find joy/brain light wherever possible. your neighbor otm. i just gave my mom a huge pep talk because she was feeling bummed about writing her bio/looking back at her life. i mean, you gotta take it where you can find it!

I partly faced up to getting out of my horrible relationship by accepting that if that was my "last chance" to have a normal husband and children, then I was going to have to give it up for my own good and close the book on that idea. Since then I've mostly been fine with my choice, but I seriously feel what your friend is saying in that area.

Sorry for inflicting this on everyone, I just feel really sad today and I know it was indulgent to put it here, but I was tired of being fine.

I used to be everyone's big sister, now it's like I'm their MOM.

Ha! I remember when that happened to me!

VG, you are kind to recognize that "it's not so bad!" may not be what your friend can hear from you now. I've been in semi-similar shoes (37 and declared infertile at least) and it felt pretty melodramatically, end of the world awful for me, too, despite my life being pretty damn ace in almost every other respect. If you can find a gentle way to convey that this isn't indicative of how her story will play out (HI BABY ON BOARD) while validating how crappy she feels now and recognizing it as justified, that might help. Otherwise, just sympathetic listening is probably pretty welcome, too.

Oh man, io, I wish I could perform psychic surgery and take that "last chance" business out of your head and replace it with how awesome and worthy of love I think you are.

There's no such thing as a "last chance." We live in a chaotic system. Anything can happen.

io - i think you're right to let it out! seeing things in such severe terms (this is the end of the road) doesn't seem like the path to happiness imo, but i am generally pretty happy to live in a state of medium delusion about my potential in life. like if being realistic means feeling bad about myself for the rest of my life, i'll choose a less realistic approach rather than face down the grim "reality" of what i might look/seem like to other people. result: i can still wake up in the morning. otherwise? not sure about that. that's just me, you gotta do what you gotta do.

carl otm

D'awww.

My realistic approach is "Be prepared for long-term solitude" and usually I feel like life security and autonomy are a good return on my investment in myself. (I'm off-balance right now partly because my lyfe security is getting low, so that's one thing.) I forgot that the spike in FEELINGS is like a drug, though, and it got hold of me for a couple of days and now is like the come-down.