no boys allowed in the room!!!!

Actually I'm not even sure I dreamed of being kissed, I kind of got stuck on the part of that fantasy where boys liked you back and THEN what did you do?!?? Horrors. Jesus would not approve.

In 7th grade I asked out a boy I was friends with, he said he'd think about it and then avoided me forever. So I didn't ask out any more boys after that ;_;

I was crushed on a couple of times by guys I liked but too freaked out to do anything bcz OMG so I did nothing

i had a very very hard crush on a dude since 8th grade, it lasted all the way through high school when we became friends and after when i found out he had a crush on me too but by then i already had a boyfriend who was terrible

Oh us.

here let me add to the stereotype in terrible fashion

my favorite crush was a guy in the year below me, we met on a school trip when I was in 10th grade. totally best buds, and then my friends and his friends all got together and figured out that we liked each other and decided to set us up. like coming to my tent one night and dragging me over to his tent in a shitty version of that Sandy/Danny thing in Grease and I was so freaked out by the pressure and audience of it all that I told everyone to get fucked and ran off. And avoided him for the rest of the trip. And then made out with a horrrrrrrrrrrrrrible guy in the back of the bus on the way home, and got caught by the teacher so everyone knew including my crush.

a few years later we met up at a party and holy fuck he had gotten even more smoking hot than he had been then, took me up to his attic and showed me all these sketches and gave me a kiss and told me that he had always been in love with me and then my friend caused a calamity by being super inappropriately drunk and terrible and I had to leave.
I totally missed the boat on him and I still kick myself about it to this day. he was a sweetheart.

daaamn

I had Esprit platform sneakers. I bought them on clearance at the Willowbrook Mall.

velvet blazer wearing grouch who people found "hard to talk to" and "standoffish": check (omg velvet jackets)
wanted to be a boy really really bad: check
stuck on the part of that fantasy where boys liked you back and THEN what did you do?!??: haha also check

wanted to be a boy really bad but real boys wdn't talk to me; went within a year or two from being the tomboy whose friends were all boys bcz they were the people I had interests in common with, to being the weirdo that all the boys roll their eyes at and leave the room after about 3 words if she starts talking, bcz ugh no we don't have anything in common with her, cooties etc

puberty, huh?

watched a recent film with former teenage crush Jonny Lee Miller in and spent the whole thing going "that totally isn't JLM, he doesn't even look like JLM, that is not the back-of-neck I spent most of Hackers harbouring a sudden irrational desire to lick aged 15" etc

(damn, VG)

(reposting bcz i brainfarted & put this on the wrong thread)

school trips seemed to be my steez tho, that's how I met my bf in my final year of hs. also a year younger than me. also similarly complexioned to the other crush, and was kind of good friends with him except I didn't find that out til later. lol. so we got all bff-y and I crushed super hard, and THEN, I found out when we got back from the trip that he was kind of seeing a friend of mine. I had no idea about that at all until we all got drunk at a party, and ended up sitting in her driveway, her, him, and me basically roundtabling who he should go out with. O_o

we were together for maybe 6 months but then I got accepted to uni and was moving out of home and 2 hours away, and he wanted to call it quits so I could sow my wild oats. which never got sown except when I was drunk so it was kind of a pointless exercise.

he was cool tho. probly the first guy i ever felt like i loved? he told me in a teary drunk phone conversation the night before I moved to the us permanently that I was the only girl he had ever loved. which is maybe cliche to say out loud but felt v true at the time. we stayed friends, and still keep in touch in a very vague happy birthday once a year way. oddly enough he ended up marrying a girl with the same name as me

I went to an all-girls' HS so didn't have must interaction with guys in during the school year. There were boys that we sort of hung out with on Fire Island who were total assholes to me. On of them, Austin, used to shout "HUGE ERECTION!" whenever I was around because this was somehow mocking me in an "as if i'd ever get hard because of her her" sort of way. Somehow I wound up with a "boyfriend" named Carlos out there in the Spring of my freshman year. I let him go up my shirt and he dumped me the next week.

I lost a bunch of weight and gained a bunch of confidence my junior year and when I went back out to the beach that spring people sort of lost their minds. I didn't go a day without hearing multiple comments about how great I looked or how I should model. People who had either ignored me or outright made fun of me wanted to be my friend all of a sudden. While it was all very nice to hear it was yet another thing that reinforced the whole being thin being thin = being a better person in every way. Fucked up. I briefly dated a guy named kevin who had sandy hair and amazing dimples. He sang me a NIN song and then broke up with me when I wouldn't let him finger me.

Later that summer I went away to a creative writing workshop program for HS students at a college in The Berkshires. While I was unpacking my stuff I looked out my window and saw a boy with floppy dark hair, glasses, a Jesus Lizard tee shirt, army shorts and docs waling across the parking lot. His name was Chris and a couple nights later we held hands on bus during a field trip and I thought my heart was going to beat its way out of my chest. The next morning he knocked on my door and told me he wanted to be with me. We ended up dating for a year and a half and he was my first everything. We split briefly during our first weeks of college and I still remember the last lines of an email he sent me when we got back together. It said:

May the simplicity and complacency of our past return and flourish under the lights of a new era. And shit.

classic post

^^^^

jesus lizard shirt + floppy hair guy otm

http://www.ultimatesistersguide.org/images/misc/80ies_204.jpg

my late teens were all about trying to look like this

was deeply ambivalent about the hat-wearing tho' - lots of unfortunate hats at that time. i never went there personally.

http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m9xp6nIH1D1rplwk3o1_1280.jpg

sarahell otm

oh god I had a terrible hat fetish

rewatching freaks and geeks

god

that first episode first glimpse of franco under the bleachers talking about being kicked out of church for wearing a molly hatchet shirt should legitimately be illegal

like i think if i drove a car right now i would wreck it

lol <3 show is so good and, yeah, he's too much!

i am impaired

i think im incapable of developing new celeb crushes so i apologize for how boring it is that i talk about albarn and franco, but ill probably keep doing it til ilx world fap 2020

as if that event denotes the end of the world

http://i2.listal.com/image/2997661/400pxfull.jpg

I have never seen that show. Should i watch y or n?

YES.

yyy it is one of the best things ever.

My bff said mean things about franco last night and i was almost gonna be upset w her but then i remembered all her other awesome qualities

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S8G0m0D1y3w

<3

i say mean things about franco all the time tbh, imo he is kind of insufferable!! haha. but i love him too.

how is the female lead in freaks and geeks not enjoying the same career as james franco, seth rogen, et al? i think this is a huge injustice. her character is the most relate-able ever for me w/r/t high school gals in transition, moreseo than claire in my so-called life, or whatever other touchstones.

nothing has ever transported me to high school as much as that moment early on in freaks and geeks when daniel's GF dumps her purse out on the floor and daniel is like "whats wrong with you, are you on your period?" but doesnt really care that the purse has been dumped out, or doesnt really act appropriately, perhaps because he is more concerned about being cool and standoffish. then he kind of half-heartedly helps her pick up the last of her stuff. "don't you have to go to class too?" "i'll survive." and she's still in love with him, cause.

my <3 was pounding during that. also all the scenes showing lindsay outgrowing her old bff - the girl dancing to "come sail away" while she stands there in her army jacket, etc. i feel that. that actually might have been covered better in mty co-called life though and in less of a caricatured way, though. both shows are great. freaks and geeks, and particularly lindsay/her relationship to the guys in her life, speak to some deep part of me though, i don't know.

the scene where she finds daniel looking through her pics and trophies, omg

"you win a lot, dont you?" - so in character, like that is a sentence that could only be uttered by someone who has never won anything ever. scene is so crammed with teenage tension. also i wish i could adopt sam, he is the ideal dream son imo

yeah, sam brings out some intense maternal feelings in me iirc.

i don't know what happened to linda cardellini

She was on ER for a while.

Wasn't she blonde on that? It was NAGL.

i remember listening to a f&g dvd commentary where cardellini was all uncomfortable watching it because to believably inhabit lindsey the show creators had asked her to wear minimal/no makeup and she found it hard to look at herself, and i was like are you crazy you're the prettiest.

that's ridiculous, she is the prettiest girl

god yeah. she was gorgeous.

That's not an inoculation against wanting to hide behind makeup though! Makeup is complicated, IMO.

yes you are right! i realize my post kind of reads like some clueless dude saying "women are so much prettier without makeup," which wasn't quite what i meant. it just made me a little sad, when i was listening to that commentary.

it's a little bit different when there's, what, 15 years remove between the show itself & the commentary tho

esp when she's looking at herself as a young girl as an adult woman

it would be kind of a bummer to hear that from her, regardless of how u feel about makep.

i think the commentary was recorded not long after the show, tbf. the dvds came out shortly afterward iirc.

really? then nm :)

yeah obv makeup is not a tool intended to remedy ugliness, or w/e. i wear makeup and i don't think i'm ugly. feeling like you look ugly strictly because you're sans makeup is hard to wrap my mind around. hollywood people are notably weirder about this stuff than normal people tho

that's how it seemed to me, like an in-the-hollywood-bell-jar distorting her image of herself type thing. she was a young woman at the time.

I admire F&G but mostly find it impenetrable. Probably not surprisingly.

Bill Haverchuck is my favorite. Also not quite enough girls on the show to have a character I identified with personally (although the show was p accurate representation of my hs experience from a few perspectives)

I understand what everyone's saying about makeup, and I wear it/have no prob with it whatsoever. I just felt like it was weird to say that she was pretty and therefore should be confident about her face. Sad fact is I think everyone I know quietly hates something about her own face, pretty or not, and that makes me sad. Not excluding myself here.

Wait before you start thinking that I am an asshole -- I don't think that attractiveness and prettiness are the same thing.