ecstasy

ah it wasn't so much the entirety of it, more the "oh hey so this is what it's like to not be socially anxious at all times" aspect. which i imagine was pretty extreme compared to any prescription drugs, but still.

The only drug whose consequences were important and holistic. My last time was in 2003 but in 2000-2001 there was a period when I dropped a roll every weekend. Best times ever: dancing with friends, return to the apartment, put on cool music, pass a joint, make out a bit, watch the sun rise. Man.

:-)

I learned about 'colon rollin'' this week. FTR did not put it into practice.

I resisted the urge to google that work. Decided to use my imagination instead, then wished I hadn't.

To perform colon rollin' you need a rollin' hand...
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i have 2 b honest that today would be the perfect day to do E

also lagoon i get the feeling that we have a camaraderie that has yet to be fully capitalized on

The only drug whose consequences were important and holistic. My last time was in 2003 but in 2000-2001 there was a period when I dropped a roll every weekend. Best times ever: dancing with friends, return to the apartment, put on cool music, pass a joint, make out a bit, watch the sun rise. Man.

― a regina spektor is haunting europe (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Thursday, July 5, 2012 3:34 PM (3 years ago) Bookmark Flag Post Permalink

bring me here please

def enjoyed reading this thread

only done e a couple of times a long time ago when i was a teenager, it was super fun but tbh suburban high school parties are probably the shittiest places to do e

e + weed though is a wonderful combination

yeah i've been there Alfred. just got my hands on some recently and will go back for more. also really good for writing music.

don't even get me started on suburban HS parties and substance use

booz+e is the sloppiest situation imaginable tho not imho unpleasurable

― lag∞n, Saturday, March 10, 2012 11:37 AM (3 years ago) Bookmark Flag Post Permalink

fun thread read, and this is quite accurate

only did mdma once 3 years ago while seeing sleigh bells, was pretty great, then had like a single beer at a bar after and shit went 100-200 real quick

into this drug

I am from the uk it's a thing here, like tea

i haven't done ecstasy in... 9 years? but out of all the times i took it or injected it (seriously the best way to do it) there were only maybe 2.5 x that i woke up the next NOT completely embarrassed/ashamed. although one of, if not THE, most joyous nights of my life was on ecstasy: fun night which ended with me and 5 of my close friends piled on my bed at dawn, listening to 'earl grey' on repeat.

sometimes i think about doing it once more, not here in the US bc ytth is totally not into that kind of thing, but maybe with friends back home. but i can only think of one friend who would still do it.

i fucking talk too much on e, like an embarrassing amount, and repeat myself a lot. basically, if you don't know me really well, i'm probably the most annoying person to get high with.

someone hook me up tbh

The first time I did e, I got paranoid about not drinking enough water..so I drunk a ton of water, which I then threw up in an impressive arc formation. Much more an acid girl tbh

I miss it.

acid is ace too. but yea i've heard E is bigger in the UK. here you have to dig for your connEctions.

surm, forget the rye Manhattan. I know what's a good Sunday afternoon treat.

i kind of miss this but the truth is there are only so many times it can really give you the innocent high - it feels more cynical each time. even if i don't do it for years and then do one, there's a part of my brain that is still sentient and knows the feeling is artificial, and a part that can only think about the next day's hangover etc.

having said that, i'm going to ibiza on saturday :)

! you need to do ecstasy in Ibiza. i mean, where else would one do it tbh?

oh yeah for sure - it's a trip with three of my oldest friends, we are all 100 per cent doing ecstasy and i can't wait!

hahaha awesome

! you need to do ecstasy in Ibiza. i mean, where else would one do it tbh?

― surm,

suburban west Miami.

truth.

with sunglasses obv.

i basically did e once a week or more from about 2002-2005 (lol mental health), so like i've had my share. but more and more as i get older (and maybe attitudes become ever more liberal) i see that many many people have an ecstasy phase, like even people who would have prob thought it was like some dangerous habit when i was 18 - like jock types from school you'd suddenly see out in dublin some christmas and they've all discovered this magical thing and are dancing badly etc, or different people from where i grew up. i have started to see drugs more as a sort of well that you can draw from, with a finite amount of joy in it. my sister has a phd in drug abuse (i mean diff to my one lol) and when i was 19 and doing drugs all the time she used to worry and wonder if i would ever stop etc, or if it would get worse, which even then i found mostly ludicrous, though i wasn't able to see a future in which i wouldn't be doing ecstasy every weekend. i know now that that's crazy because of this well idea - there's only so much you can draw from the well. i mean everyone's is a little different and has a different combo of substances in there, but equally it doesn't surprise me, and kind of has a nice life symmetry to it, to see people who were more straight-laced or under control are now having their wilder time.

agreed on those comments. i have like definitely had my share too and the regular use is no stranger to me. i went through a phase where i would have just a weeeeee bit daily. the well analogy is a good one: you have to know yourself, and the possible dangers.

i came to the same conclusion, though i never did e nearly that often, even. perhaps my well is just not that big... though i kind of saw it as my mind learning to adjust to the rush of happy feelings and no longer interpreting them as "real joy," so while a lot of the pleasurable effects were there, particularly in regard to my experience with music, i could no longer participate in the wide-eyed positive social vibes--it's like my tendency toward a melancholic, apathetic disposition learned to see through the drug and was like no way, self, you don't get to have fun that easily. i still love the stuff, and i'll do it again in the future, but i'll prob keep it to once a year at most.

relate to what you say a lot - some deeper more reticent self became so assertive before and after taking it that it cast a shadow over whether to take it at all, so when it used to be an automatic yes if someone offered it, it became an automatic no, eventually. and that was kind of the end.

even if it's not as good now - i still can enjoy it if i pick the right times. also i can stay out at clubs pretty late/early without need for drugs...

Ah here it is

here you are!

you go to your hometown. you watch a game with family and friends. you learn nicky siano is playing at a club in the city. you go. you get home via an awkward and maybe eventually kind of delightful cabshare - all australians. and then home. having been rejected right at the door of a party of friends' friends *strangers"

it's a what might have been - a real global communication time.