oh man i remember NOTHJING before 5. My father was an alcoholic. My first real memory is of my mom throwing my brother and I in the car at 3am and never going back home. Recently I made the mistake of casually asking my brother if those years had been really bad. His answer was a short 'Yes.' but his tone implied so much more and my whole body felt like it iced over. I know I'll never be asking anything about those days again.
― Analyzing metrics on my cheapness and whorishness (sunny successor), Saturday, 11 February 2012 14:11 (nine years ago) link
apparently there was a point when i wanted to note progress, but really i no longer have any interest in discussing my progress or providing updates to my emotional state.it remains a horrifying idea to even consider tbh.
the difference is that i no longer care. i think mookieproof suggested that maybe it's ok to not want to be an open book. that's what i'm going with atm.
― La Lechera, Tuesday, January 24, 2012 12:59 PM (1 year ago) Bookmark
I just got a strong wave of this feeling again and noticed the date on this post -- maybe I'm just tired of emoting after the holidays?
― mambo jumbo (La Lechera), Friday, 17 January 2014 20:35 (seven years ago) link
this thread is like endorphins to me
― mustread guy (schlump), Friday, 17 January 2014 20:59 (seven years ago) link
hate to bump this thread but re: emotional regulationhttp://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2014/11/the-science-of-laughing-through-the-tears/382824/
― i give up (La Lechera), Monday, 17 November 2014 17:08 (six years ago) link
got to corpse pose today and just started bawling in the middle of the class. it's happened a few times before; generally some ichor that needs an outlet. kinda embarrassing but I figure if it gets to that point idgaf.
― thrusted pelvis-first back (ulysses), Friday, 16 September 2016 17:00 (four years ago) link
ugh it's like springing a leak! but better than exploding.
― weird woman in a bar (La Lechera), Friday, 16 September 2016 18:57 (four years ago) link
― thrusted pelvis-first back (ulysses), Saturday, 17 September 2016 05:34 (four years ago) link