Blue Saturday

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yWTfRiICB2U

soz

it's all dreamytime Drambuie head-stroke music today, for those of you watching in black and white

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R5prT2qiiWY

Pretty sure this is a Tune. God knows why. video is hysterical.

best song i ever heard,

i was born in the 90s yet when i heard this song, it wrentched my heart bad, not like crying, just the pull of the music, makes you go all tingly

weirdly this bell-end is not far off, either

http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2282/2219010875_907123f85c_z.jpg

This dude taught me 9 tenths of everything I know about club singing, and is also a bit of a legend.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5_NWwUB6Dis

if u don't dig Stockhausen well fuck u

probly won't kill myself today but am wondering how to get out of driving lesson/life

this is where I talk myself out of shit don't fret

yesterday's diary was good. selected lowlights

"Aboulia

bliss-y descent into trance, laying in front of the TV dipping in and out always something to stay up for

drift thru day the same way floating down see-sawing like a feather swinging thru the air gently to ground silence and calm music and no conversation no words of no importance

FECKING CHATTER OF CLEANERS IN THE LIBRARY MY REFUGE

i have a store of names
skylight
peace that passes out of understanding voices of complaint make me bristle but then what am i?

moaning judging interfering voices of petty petty
- diseased aesthete -
build yr marble tower on the bones of the peasantry
alles gut

touch of fingers lips
missing
THAT hurts
still felt something, idiot

we write each other off?
we write ourselves off?
Generations :// de/generate"

etc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QAOMY4OThUA

THIS

The House of the Prince keepeth festival, and the sound of those who rejoice is in the mighty dwelling. The gods are glad when they see Ra in his rising; his beams flood the world with light. The majesty of the god, who is to be feared, setteth forth and cometh unto the land of Manu; he maketh bright the earth at his birth each day; he cometh unto the place where he was yesterday. O mayest thou be at peace with me; may I behold thy beauties; may I advance upon the earth; may I smite the Ass; may I crush the evil one; may I destroy Apep in his hour; may I see the abtu fish at the time of his creation, and the ant fish in his creation, and the ant boat in its lake. May I see Horus in charge of the rudder, with Thoth and Maat beside him; may I grasp the bows of the seket boat, and the stern of the atet boat.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rOH1w8iGCtg

did u smite the ass on that one

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AwIj23FP-E4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Xwl4oVnbhU

http://s0.geograph.org.uk/geophotos/01/31/50/1315094_f2125c90.jpg

going down the road later

thread makes me wish i wasn't on a text-only browser. No doubt i'd have hugely insightful and helpful comments on everything

called in sick on my driving lesson. gonna see my daughter's easter play this avvy but don't wanna be too effed up plus her headmistress is an utter psycho bitch

thread of finding myself a flat tbh

aw man

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FyCg-Bft4KY

i dunno dood i'm pondering if this is the booze talking its own way to self dissolvement or if i'm just done, enough, couldn't cut the mustard again

booze dissolution time prob not the clearest of reflective spaces tbf

order the complete coldplay ouevre the day of live 8 after they did bittersweet symphony with ashcroft, that was def the night before jamming my signals

Thats just a for instance tho

lol my one piece of advice for anybody is never buy somebody's back catalogue if you heard them stoned last night

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DwMc0TjW_6Y

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Solval-5Yjs

wasnt stoned but i have three separate strands of a tragic food poisoning tale from that night that could be the irish 'go' if i could only get the backing

oh noodle vague <3

estela that made me smile and lol a little bit . it's not so much that i'm unhappy but i'm unhappy at the prospect of making the peeps around me unhappy with my fecklessness which i'm personally comfortable with. ish.

i would have posted 'oh noodle vague <3' but on my phone < is very hard to get to

<3 u both too :D

well i'm feckless too
i bet i could outfeckless you. xp

aw<3

cd start a competitive fecklessness thread. will up the ante by starting on the drambuie and wandering off to the pub in half an hours time when they open. tho properly feckless peeps hang around outside tapping their feet for fifteen minutes or so

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EoAbj6gO7jE

not bothered to do any of that

#uppingthante

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KHaOul8gVVc

still miss eazy :(

http://www.drinkemporium.com/images/drambuie.jpg

shit brings it imo. testament to lost yoot

fecklessness and drambuie are both on the list of things that put me in rehab.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U6K7dB3T6ho

antem for doomed yoot

xpost they tried to make me go to rehab. i said no.

my boss has tried to call me twice now lol

3 times. But I'm gone baby gone. Let's all party tonite ILXers.

Not you ILXor

24-7, Dre, Snoop and Devin

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mTm6FOpmp8s

i enjoyed rehab, there were so many gruesome stories, also meals which i'd missed quite a few of in the preceding months, also i persuaded an earnest hippy to shave off his beard by telling him it was 'a mask', also a washed-up nz rockstar was in there due to exhaustion and he was made to play softball and he was hopeless. i had a dear little bed in a wood panelled room and the rehab was in a thermal resort town near some mountains so in the evenings we'd sit in these lovely thermal pools while it snowed around pretending we were romantic olden days tb patients taking a cure in the alps. when we got there we had to sign forms agreeing that the government would pay for everything plus give us a $200 cheque every week to pay for extras. and by the end i was used to not drinking which was good because the tra-la days were over and i couldn't ever enjoy drinking anymore. of course if i still enjoyed it i wouldn't have gone near the joint.

http://www.coverbrowser.com/image/american-book-jackets/159-4.jpg

i've always thought rehab would be like being cuddled all day and told you're loved no matter how much of a lie that might be, same fantasy i have about being a monk except with less of the cuddling. i get this urge to lie down on the pavement and be picked up and repaired but in all honesty here u don't get repaired you just get hosteled and down down. which is cool too but don't want kids visiting Sally Army hostel plus i don't know so many philosophers in the park bench drinking posse

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aeuuB2lQPOw

love this so hard

i would prefer to try estela's rehab, if it's a choice btwn the two.

same fantasy i have about being a monk

i went on a retreat to a monastery in ireland when i was about 17, me and two other students in my class. we spent 3 days in a vow of silence and then on the final day we could talk. i went for a huge walk in the mountains and met one of the monks and had a big chat, he seemed honestly one of the happiest most relaxed people i've ever spoken to.

reckon there would be huge boredom though, if you don't have the whole faith in god thing.