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YEAH! I'm in so what do we do in this here room then?

Fennec fox which does grooming (ENBB), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:22 (eleven years ago) link

talk about makeup and boys and lisa frank stuff

The Neb-U-Taunt Ball (roxymuzak), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:23 (eleven years ago) link

User BIG HOOS aka the steendriver has been successfully banned from the thread

The Neb-U-Taunt Ball (roxymuzak), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:24 (eleven years ago) link

is this where we talk about shoes and dryer sheets

harbl, Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:25 (eleven years ago) link

in a word: y

The Neb-U-Taunt Ball (roxymuzak), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:26 (eleven years ago) link

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

I am down with talking about all those things.

http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_0G0KeGZNnU0/SOkLif0annI/AAAAAAAAAJE/P4llZRVs8yQ/s320/8baeded0.gif

Fennec fox which does grooming (ENBB), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:26 (eleven years ago) link

and swiffers

harbl, Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:26 (eleven years ago) link

i hate the swiffer btw

harbl, Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:26 (eleven years ago) link

You hate the Swiffer? I was thinking of gettin' one tbh.

Fennec fox which does grooming (ENBB), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:27 (eleven years ago) link

i dunno maybe it will improve your life but my mom got me one and it had a neutral effect afaic

harbl, Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:28 (eleven years ago) link

i wish clarissa from clarissa explains it all posted here

The Neb-U-Taunt Ball (roxymuzak), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:29 (eleven years ago) link

i'm glad oprah doesn't post here except i would like to suggest ban her

harbl, Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:31 (eleven years ago) link

MJH was a bitch to me (as covered on another recent thread) so I don't have that much <3 for Clarissa :-(

Fennec fox which does grooming (ENBB), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:31 (eleven years ago) link

JTT <3333333333333333

harbl, Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:31 (eleven years ago) link

I totally had this game btw:

http://collegecandy.files.wordpress.com/2009/01/07/girl_talk_box_cover.jpg

Fennec fox which does grooming (ENBB), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:33 (eleven years ago) link

also we can make those paper fortune tellers and tell each others fortunes, in fact i am gonna make one right now

The Neb-U-Taunt Ball (roxymuzak), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:34 (eleven years ago) link

who are:

lisa frank
mjh
clarissa

where we turn sweet dreams into remarkable realities (just1n3), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:34 (eleven years ago) link

haha what was the other game that was kinda like girl talk but it had men u could date?

The Neb-U-Taunt Ball (roxymuzak), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:34 (eleven years ago) link

x-post OK yeah, am definitely up for doing that.

GOD DAMN:

http://www.styletraxx.com/JamesFranco.jpg

Fennec fox which does grooming (ENBB), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:35 (eleven years ago) link

i recall having this but i don't believe my mom would let me have it so i'm confused
http://www.boardgamesrus.com/images/Mall%20Madness%20G61.gif

harbl, Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:35 (eleven years ago) link

xpost justine:

lisa frank designed crazy school supply items like some of the dolphin-festooned things you see on this thread, she was v popular with middle school aged girls in the early-mid 90s

melissa joan hart is mjh, she played the title role in "clarissa explains it all" which was a popular nickelodeon television show for the same age of girls at roughly the same time

The Neb-U-Taunt Ball (roxymuzak), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:35 (eleven years ago) link

i hate to be gabbneb, but i actually did briefly date a guy who kinda looked like james franco, esp as he is in this picture:

http://news.bbc.co.uk/olmedia/1940000/images/_1944248_mate_pa.jpg

anyways he was mad dumb

The Neb-U-Taunt Ball (roxymuzak), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:37 (eleven years ago) link

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

Fennec fox which does grooming (ENBB), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:39 (eleven years ago) link

right??????

man i so rarely like a pinup type of dude it is kinda cool when i do cause then you can like commiserate about it with other girls

The Neb-U-Taunt Ball (roxymuzak), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:40 (eleven years ago) link

LOL yeah he's defintely just well . . . dreamy.

Fennec fox which does grooming (ENBB), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:40 (eleven years ago) link

dryer sheets?

yes james franco is a universal.

horseshoe, Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:41 (eleven years ago) link

he's 2 years older than me?!

The Neb-U-Taunt Ball (roxymuzak), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:42 (eleven years ago) link

dryer sheets and other products for the home lol

harbl, Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:42 (eleven years ago) link

yeah what's the with dryer sheets? I'm allergic to most fabric softeners so I have to use hippy dippy all natural stuff that doesn't work all that great but is at least something.

Fennec fox which does grooming (ENBB), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:43 (eleven years ago) link

how old r u

harbl, Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:43 (eleven years ago) link

i hate dryer sheets, they are pointless

harbl, Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:43 (eleven years ago) link

i don't like anything that makes things smell like anything!

harbl, Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:43 (eleven years ago) link

Mr. Franco and I are 4 mo. and 10 days apart in age and I believe he's currently attending my alma matter.

Fennec fox which does grooming (ENBB), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:44 (eleven years ago) link

damn erica lol

The Neb-U-Taunt Ball (roxymuzak), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:44 (eleven years ago) link

en vaporisateur

harbl, Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:45 (eleven years ago) link

hahahaha touche

The Neb-U-Taunt Ball (roxymuzak), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:45 (eleven years ago) link

yall check out this creepy ad btw:

http://rgh.cc/albums/userpics/10001/%5Bcreepy%5Dloves-baby-soft-ad-c1976.jpg

The Neb-U-Taunt Ball (roxymuzak), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:45 (eleven years ago) link

(wait - I dind't actually know that . . . I looked it up just now. Just wanted to make sure you didn't think I was some franco-obsessed crazy person)

Fennec fox which does grooming (ENBB), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:46 (eleven years ago) link

ew rapey

harbl, Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:46 (eleven years ago) link

xp

harbl, Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:46 (eleven years ago) link

ok yeah, that is exceptionally creepy

Fennec fox which does grooming (ENBB), Sunday, 21 June 2009 01:46 (eleven years ago) link

Himpathy, right. I’ll remember this exact comment the next time you’re demanding that nobody say a fucking word to you about your years of appalling behaviour. What a thing to say. But given who it is... likewise.

scampless, rattled and puce (gyac), Saturday, 20 February 2021 17:41 (one month ago) link

I kinda want to get into how appallingly sexist/misogynistic ilx was in prior years (mostly in terms of posters who engaged in this behavior being tolerated and encouraged) and how Branwell (definitely), and I (to a certain degree) had to deal with that, and you, gyac, are fortunate that there is way less of that for you to have to engage with.

sarahell, Saturday, 20 February 2021 17:48 (one month ago) link

But honestly, it's not worth going there. That's divisiveness. If this were FB I would delete or edit that post tbh.

sarahell, Saturday, 20 February 2021 17:51 (one month ago) link

Weird, I definitely recall arguing with men on here about appalling behaviour, which was why this thread felt like such a refuge from that shit. That it became somewhere for certain people to post bullshit unchallenged is tragic, but definitely not as tragic as your disingenuous attitude.

scampless, rattled and puce (gyac), Saturday, 20 February 2021 17:52 (one month ago) link

I'm sorry you don't believe me, but I am being honest. I've gotten a lot of shit over my 40+ years of life because I am honest and have had to learn when to keep my mouth shut and opinions to myself. Why you perceive a "disingenuous attitude" on my part, I really have no idea.

sarahell, Saturday, 20 February 2021 17:56 (one month ago) link

If there's no other option for me here than to just sit and be a repository for your anger and to hear you out while you tell me all the ways I suck and all the things I have posted that are bad and have hurt people -- then fine. Keep going.

sarahell, Saturday, 20 February 2021 18:02 (one month ago) link

Read your first post itt in this particular line of conversation, read the conversation in the forties thread, see how it comes across. That’s all I’m going to say to you. Not going to waste my breath explaining further.

scampless, rattled and puce (gyac), Saturday, 20 February 2021 18:04 (one month ago) link

It’s such a trip, like being back in Convent School, with Mother Superior coming in and demanding I apologise for how terribly I behaved to those poor boys who were bullying me, like, don’t you know one of those boys hurt his foot kicking your head in, you apologise right now, you sinner!

Like sure, OK, Mother Superior! I’m sorry my knuckles were in the way of your ruler, too!

🤣🤣🤣

mysterious nonbinary sea creature (Branwell with an N), Saturday, 20 February 2021 18:08 (one month ago) link

I sincerely apologize to you and anyone else that felt that my post in this thread was in response to CP's post in the 40s thread, rather than the posts that followed from about a half dozen cis-men whose posts did not indicate the awful circumstances of CP's post. The other posts were what inspired my line of discussion here, because when there are FB threads about one's 40s that are mostly women/non-cis-men -- you end up with a long thread of "actually I felt way better about my self in my 40s than in my 30s" -- and a lot of "50 is the new 40!"

sarahell, Saturday, 20 February 2021 18:14 (one month ago) link

Yes, I share that general perception that I hear more from men that they feel they're in decline, and I hear from women that they're experiencing relief from a lot of burdens as they age. I'm sorry that posters were hurt by talking about it here and now.

Ima Gardener (in orbit), Saturday, 20 February 2021 18:19 (one month ago) link

I apologize for any offense I've given, too.

38 was when I realized I wasn't young anymore, and 47 was when I realized that my bad planning and tendency to throw away every opportunity I've ever had was catching up to me.

Christine Green Leafy Dragon Indigo, Saturday, 20 February 2021 18:22 (one month ago) link

I don’t apologise - Mother Superior is genuinely detached from reality when it comes to misinterpreting the motives and intentions and behaviour of Sarahell and myself, for the worst possible outcome.

None of you did anything even remotely wrong and it actually bothers me that you feel you should have to apologise for liking your lives too loudly.

mysterious nonbinary sea creature (Branwell with an N), Saturday, 20 February 2021 18:29 (one month ago) link

I saw your post, sarahell, and then the 40s thread, and I've got to say I was pretty shocked because it definitely looked to me like you were following on from CP's posts, and that was... really fucking shit. It did feel crass and dismissive of real problems, and it did upset me. Obviously I believe you when you say that you didn't intend it that way, but I'm not surprised that other people were also shocked by the conjunction of topics. I mean, I don't know that this post is helpful and I'm not asking for you to self-flagellate about it, but I just wanted to note that it wasn't only one person who felt that way.

emil.y, Saturday, 20 February 2021 18:31 (one month ago) link

Sarahell I believe you when you say it wasn’t your intention.

But I can’t look at this thread and what it has become without being really uncomfortable about the line of conversation here, like it’s ok to mock certain posters because they’re cis men, with the implication that their pain matters less. Again, it’s cowardly to use this thread and the post above is probably supposed to be cutting but it really just comes across as so much projection. Am I a bad person because of the things I say? Perhaps. But frankly I’m not going to feel bad about saying that the cruelty that has been on show itt for far far too long - and it’s not a great feeling being the only person speaking up against it because people don’t want to deal with fallout - is inappropriate and absolutely out of line and I shouldn’t be expected to tolerate that. Nor should anyone else. Oh btw sarah I don’t mean you when I say this, it’s Branwell, though enabling their behaviour isn’t doing anything good.

End post before I go full Fizzles.

scampless, rattled and puce (gyac), Saturday, 20 February 2021 18:34 (one month ago) link

I don’t apologise - Mother Superior is genuinely detached from reality when it comes to misinterpreting the motives and intentions and behaviour of Sarahell and myself, for the worst possible outcome.

None of you did anything even remotely wrong and it actually bothers me that you feel you should have to apologise for liking your lives too loudly.


Bit of anti-Catholicism to top off this round of covering yourself in glory? Lovely stuff altogether. How would you react to someone telling you you are detached from reality, I wonder? Strictly rhetorical question, I promise.

scampless, rattled and puce (gyac), Saturday, 20 February 2021 18:40 (one month ago) link

, I don't know that this post is helpful and I'm not asking for you to self-flagellate about it, but I just wanted to note that it wasn't only one person who felt that way.

― emil.y, Saturday, February 20, 2021 10:31 AM (five minutes ago)

I didn't assume that gyac was making up other posters also being upset; I had no reason not to believe that part. I really do apologize. There is so much horrible awful shit that people have dealt with and are dealing with, and I don't want to add to that. And I know that I have a tendency to do the "it only hurts when I laugh" type of coping with suffering and the pointlessness and misery inherent in living in this world. And I know that not everyone copes that way, and that to some, it comes across as insensitive and I am truly sorry.

sarahell, Saturday, 20 February 2021 18:45 (one month ago) link

And for the record, if gyac wants to not be reminded of my existence, I will refrain from posting positive comments about the very attractive cat photographs she posts. I also sincerely appreciate yr cat.

sarahell, Saturday, 20 February 2021 18:46 (one month ago) link

I have two cats, you can enjoy them the same as anyone else :)

scampless, rattled and puce (gyac), Saturday, 20 February 2021 18:47 (one month ago) link

and I hope this doesn't sound disingenuous, but I really do respect the way that you assert yourself and stand up for what you think is right and aren't afraid of people getting angry.

sarahell, Saturday, 20 February 2021 18:49 (one month ago) link

Me? Well I’m not sure it’s one of my better qualities but it makes me me and at this stage I’m too old to change entirely.

scampless, rattled and puce (gyac), Saturday, 20 February 2021 18:50 (one month ago) link

i respect that too. i am extremely resistant to getting involved in these conversations but the posts did not give me a good feeling, to put it mildly. she and emil.y are not alone here and it shouldn't be assumed that they are just because they're the only ones saying so.

superdeep borehole (harbl), Saturday, 20 February 2021 18:51 (one month ago) link

Me? Well I’m not sure it’s one of my better qualities but it makes me me and at this stage I’m too old to change entirely.

Yes, you! ... and I think it's that "at this stage I'm too old to change entirely" feeling that is what a lot of one's 40s are focused on and some people are like, "you know what, fuck it, that's me, I can try to be my best self, but I'm not going to become a different person." and others are like, "fuck ..... just fuck ..."

sarahell, Saturday, 20 February 2021 18:53 (one month ago) link

she and emil.y are not alone here and it shouldn't be assumed that they are just because they're the only ones saying so.

thanks for that, harbl. I would rather work things through with people who are bothered by my behavior and who I also really respect and like.

sarahell, Saturday, 20 February 2021 18:54 (one month ago) link

Also--and I hate to bring class issues into this--most of the 40+ women I know are either still pretending they're teenagers or they're dealing with their grown children's problems and/or raising their grandchildren.

Christine Green Leafy Dragon Indigo, Saturday, 20 February 2021 19:17 (one month ago) link

(Know in RL, I mean.)

Christine Green Leafy Dragon Indigo, Saturday, 20 February 2021 19:18 (one month ago) link

most of the 40+ women I know are either still pretending they're teenagers or they're dealing with their grown children's problems and/or raising their grandchildren.

honestly, I know a fair amount of these too --

sarahell, Saturday, 20 February 2021 19:29 (one month ago) link

You're right, Christine, and I've been wanting to validate your sharing here without assuming anything about you. I wanted to say...the economic precariousness and/or straight poverty that a lot of Americans live in crosses a lot of other intersectional lines.

Ima Gardener (in orbit), Saturday, 20 February 2021 19:30 (one month ago) link

Kate Manne has written extensively on what misogyny is for: a system of sorting Men (people) from Not-Men (women).

Misogyny doesn’t work by “hating all women” - what it does, subtly but powerfully, is sort “women” into “Good Women” who comply with the (conflicting and impossible) needs of patriarchy, and “Bad Women” who don’t - and punishes the latter, the most harshly.

Under a misogynist system, a woman can only gain power by positioning themselves as “Good Women” and weaponising “Bad Women’s” badness against them. By harshly punishing the “Bad Women”, she gets both power over other women, and the respect of men.

It’s win-win for the “Good Woman” and the system of patriarchy. Once you realise that, you understand why some women do this! But ultimately misogyny hurts all women, non-men, and “Men” as well - and you have to work to dismantle the entire dichotomy to destroy the system.

mysterious nonbinary sea creature (Branwell with an N), Saturday, 20 February 2021 20:25 (one month ago) link

Imagine having to believe this instead of thinking about your own behaviour.

scampless, rattled and puce (gyac), Saturday, 20 February 2021 21:01 (one month ago) link

I disabled killfile for a while, and clearly that was a mistake. I've The "No Boys" thread has always functioned (as well as a kind of social club) as a space where we could talk freely, without worrying about offending the everpresent ~feelings of men~. That was how I, and I think a lot of the people who responded to Sarahell, were using it. A collective sigh of "it does get better". To then have someone come screaming in, that the conversation is inadequately taking into account feelings of men and the feelings about men? It's a derailment.

To bring this back to the topic of conversation at hand, for me there are (at least) two streams both running in parallel and interbraiding, in many ways.

I believe the thing behind a lot of introspection at the moment is the constant overhanging threat of the pandemic. The pandemic has been this omnipresent tsunami of death and grief and fear, which has flattened everything in its path, but has dealt out burdens in different ways and different magnitudes. That I've noticed, even in my friend group, that the structure of our societies and the ways lockdowns have been constructed, mean that the burden of the pandemic has overwhelmingly been shifted onto mothers, gestational parents, and caretakers / carers. Who are overwhelmingly not-men. (While very different but no less real troubles have been shifted onto those who live alone, disabled people, LBGT/Queer people who don't necessarily have conventional family units that are protected by lockdown regulations. For me, it's not just the people who have died, it's my entire in-person, away-from-screen support network that I spent the previous few years building.) Everyone is coping with their tsunami of grief, including me, in different ways.

The other is this large-scale, cultural shifting of the narratives around "Women" (non-men) as we age. That 40 is not the traditional ending of one's life, it may be a rebirth and a beginning. I, personally, have a very long, multi-generational line of women and female role models in my family who went on to long, fruitful and rewarding "second acts" after their children were raised and their husbands either dropped dead of sudden ailments and/or dramatically left the family. 4 generations of women that I met, telling me that their lives *began* in their 40s and 50s. (Funnily enough, including an Edwardian relative who, after her husband died, cut her hair, started dressing like a man, took over the farm and asked her neighbours to call her "Tommy". I've always wondered about that!) That was my expectation for how my life would unfold, and I was finding it true, pre-pandemic. But I also think that many women are questioning the narratives around ageing in women automatically meaning a shrinking and narrowing.

I don't think that's *just* a middle-class narrative, it's just that the stories of, e.g. older women fighting for their pensions, class narratives about the feminisation of poverty hitting older women and child-rearing-aged women particularly hard, those stories are just not seen as glamourous or even political. All of the political and economic forces that are driving the feminisation of poverty, are coming from conservative male-supremacy-white-supremacy, about driving women back into family structures that best support capitalism, rather than being good for women. Discussions of ~patriarchy~ are not a distraction from 'class issues' - patriarchy *is* class issues.

Anyway. For me, personally, the narratives of "your life will get better in your 40s/50s" and "a global pandemic has changed everyone's lives to be unrecognisable in oppressive ways" are a huge collision.

Getting vaccinated on Friday was the first glimmer in a full year, where I felt like there might be an "After Times", rather than the smashed-up debris where the "Before Times" used to be.

I'm interested if other folks have started thinking about their After Times, how you think they will change, or if that's just not a thing yet in your countries?

mysterious nonbinary sea creature (Branwell with an N), Sunday, 21 February 2021 10:34 (one month ago) link

In case my questions weren't overt enough in the wall-o-text:

What expectations were you raised with, within your families (mothers, aunts, grandmothers) as to how women should age? Did your female elders have "second acts"? Are your experiences similar to / different from them, and how?

Also, the thing that kept coming up while I was showing, is... What does "acting like a teenager*" look like, for a generation where the traditional markers of adulthood have been rendered inaccessible by economics?

*(I generally know what "acting like a teenager" means, in terms of, the person who does this in my family is my Boomer father, who has decided to spend his 70s doing all the funstuff he was too busy studying/working to participate in when he was young. I'm guessing you mean something else?) Please explain?

mysterious nonbinary sea creature (Branwell with an N), Sunday, 21 February 2021 11:08 (one month ago) link

It’s a shame they’ve killfiled me again* because this

where we could talk freely, without worrying about offending the everpresent ~feelings of men~.


Thought I was done, but alas. No, not having this. Your attempts to cast my response as unreasonable by saying I’m screaming - wow, an uppity woman screaming, where have I heard that one before? - while deliberately erasing the fact which was so objectionable: these are real, not-abstract people who you were mocking when you were mocking my anger at the discussion yesterday. They are real people suffering real pain and you couldn’t stand having your bad behaviour pointed out to you because this thread, which you try to paint as a space where you can talk freely, has actually become - for quite some time now - The Branwell Show, where you’ve squeezed the life out of it by complaining about ilx beefs (ancient and current) while knowing the people you’re talking about can’t respond to you directly. You’re a bully, and like most of them, a coward.

I’m not saying this for your benefit, by the way, because you cling to your bad behaviour as relentlessly as your use of tildes, but for anyone else who is throughly sick of you, and of how your behaviour passes unchallenged. I’m not ok with it, and none of us should be. Frankly, if you feel less comfortable in posting here and using this thread in the way I’ve just said, that’s a net benefit.

*PS it’s news to me that you had me killfiled ever since not only were you responding to posts of mine not directed at you - since you are blocked on Zing and I have not read you in quite some time - but were tweeting about me as well. Add that to my list of observations about you above.

scampless, rattled and puce (gyac), Sunday, 21 February 2021 11:13 (one month ago) link

I'm sure that the despair of a middle aged cis man whose wife recently died of cancer is really about how he never became a patriarch in the patriarchy.

Zelda Zonk, Sunday, 21 February 2021 12:12 (one month ago) link

Exactly, it’s deliberately disingenuous because the men of ilx aren’t the abstract patriarchy, they are real people with real pain and the only way BB can look at those posts they made yesterday (in reply to me) is by removing all context from the matter.

scampless, rattled and puce (gyac), Sunday, 21 February 2021 12:15 (one month ago) link

Zelda, I made it clear before posting that, that I had not read the thread - and even before my second set of posts, that I had read only a bit of it, which was... not that.

The idea that we should have to check the feelings of everyone in the room, including people who aren’t even in the room (and in fact are not even who the room is designed for) before having conversations about our own lives? That’s structural misogyny.

(That’s not even getting into the ableism of presuming that everyone is *capable* of pre-emptively doing that checking or understanding when and how it’s supposed to work. That goes double when that kind of sympathy-checking is seldom exercised on your behalf. Do I need to remind you how ILX reacted when I found out my mother has cancer? It is ableist to hold autistic people to these highly gendered neurological standards around the management of other people’s emotions.)

mysterious nonbinary sea creature (Branwell with an N), Sunday, 21 February 2021 12:30 (one month ago) link

And yes, I do think the disparity between “how cis men are raised to believe their middle / old age is gonna look like” and how “people raised as women are taught to believe their middle / old age will look like” DOES contribute to the stuff that Sarahell was talking about.

And that I *would* like to talk about.

mysterious nonbinary sea creature (Branwell with an N), Sunday, 21 February 2021 12:35 (one month ago) link

It is ableist to hold autistic people to these highly gendered neurological standards around the management of other people’s emotions.


Just marking this down for the next time someone in another thread says something that you take to be about you and you come in here to complain about literally decades-old ilx beef again. And yet again, dishonest all the way down, wow wow wow.

scampless, rattled and puce (gyac), Sunday, 21 February 2021 12:35 (one month ago) link

To be clear, I’m sorry someone’s wife died of cancer. That’s awful.

As far as I know, he’s never read or posted in this thread. I don’t see how these discussions connect. Sarahell moves the conversation to a different topic!

mysterious nonbinary sea creature (Branwell with an N), Sunday, 21 February 2021 12:37 (one month ago) link

About as ungracious as you’d expect. Incredible how everyone else was able to see how it came across and acted accordingly, whereas you doubled down, mocked me (in some fairly misogynistic terms, no less) for even bringing it up, and now finally have squeezed about the most terrible excuse for an apology that you can bear now that it’s become clear that you’re alone on this. It’s such an indictment of ilx that you haven’t hit twenty yet.

scampless, rattled and puce (gyac), Sunday, 21 February 2021 12:41 (one month ago) link

Having known and interacted with Sarahell for a long time, her action of “there’s a grieving widower in here, I’m going to take this conversation about gender to another thread” absolutely 100% WAS an act of consideration and being sympathetic.

It’s *bizarre* to me that anyone could read that act of consideration as inconsiderate or hostile.

It seems to me, to be about the complainers’ hostile views towards the poster(s), rather than anything she said it did.

We need to talk, again and again, about he gendered expectations of emotional labour. How this emotional labour of “anticipating and managing the emotional needs and reactions of other people, and always putting them before their own” is something disproportionately placed on people raised/treated as women.

Maybe because of my autism, maybe because of my unconventional upbringing, I honestly did not realise that this was something expected of me/women until I was in my late 30s. It’s one of those aspects of ~performing womanhood~ that I absolutely suck at because: autism - and I really chafe at the idea it is only *expected* of “Women” (cis men who can do it, will be rewarded for it, as the *skill* of emotional intelligence.) It’s OK for cis men to put their needs and emotions first. But if “women” don’t do it - RAGE!

It wasn’t until I was in my 40s, and in therapy, that I connected the ragestorms and clusterfucks of people being intensely angry at me for reasons I could not figure out - with this “transgression”. I had failed to anticipate someone else’s needs or manage their unexpected emotions; I had put my own needs first.

The weirdest thing was, that the biggest explosions of anger at my failure to perform this expected emotional labour were NOT actually from the men who tried to throttle me, or pulled over CD shelves on top of me, or threatened me and tried to physically hurt or discipline me.

It’s similar to the way that the biggest explosions of rage and hatred about female fat don’t come from angry men - they come from thin women who are FURIOUS that they have spent their entire lives hungry, on diets, and how dare we SHIRK our female obligation to be attractive by being so unapologetically fat while they work so hard at it.

It’s the same with these explosions of RAGE that I cannot (or as they have it, WILL not) perform this gendered emotional labour. The RAGE is about their fury and frustration and anger that *they* feel about having to do it, when here am I in my unapologetic autistic transmasculinity saying “this gendered labour is unfairly distributed. No one should have to regulate other people’s emotions as much as women are expected to do.”

This anger isn’t about me refusing / being unable to (delete as to your level of ableism) - it’s about their own resentment at still forcing themselves to. Hence why it’s Sarahell or me that end up as the punching bags for this rage. Other people’s rage is... not my job to manage.

mysterious nonbinary sea creature (Branwell with an N), Sunday, 21 February 2021 14:07 (one month ago) link

Absolutely fuck this. Fuck this blasé attitude about real people who we really care about. FUCK YOU. Your refusal to care about other people has NOTHING to do with rejecting patriarchal standards and everything to do with the fact that you don't care about other people and can't be bothered to.

That's my fucking FRIEND. Fuck off with your idea that people getting upset are in service to the patriarchy. Funnily enough, I consider sarahell my friend also, and I STILL got upset. It isn't about ilx beef, it's about CARING ABOUT PEOPLE. If other people's rage is not your job to manage, then don't even think about attempting to manage HOW MUCH RAGE I AM EXPERIENCING RIGHT NOW. FUCK OFF.

emil.y, Sunday, 21 February 2021 14:16 (one month ago) link

I’d settle for them managing their own shoddy behaviour, but all they ever have in the tank is “no u” and “actually here’s why my terrible behaviour is your fault. It’s unacceptable.

scampless, rattled and puce (gyac), Sunday, 21 February 2021 14:20 (one month ago) link

I'm angry, too. I've always been angry at how everyone excuses Branwell's behavior, but I always just held my tongue and left any thread that they were in. Now I can speak my piece.

I'm neuroatypical (probably autistic, but I've never been diagnosed. I was diagnosed as mentally ill.), non-binary, and was bullied pretty heavily when younger. We are painfully similar people. I was clueless when I was younger, and I probably hurt some people. The difference? I was willing to admit that I was wrong sometimes. My self-centeredness and selfishness has been a burden that I fight against every hour of my life. I don't seek out social issues to validate my self-image, I seek them out to try to change things. Also, "acting like a teenager," in rural Floridian underclass terms, means that you drink and heavily and get arrested all of the time. I'm crying in RL right now and getting incoherent, so I'll say
one more thing. Go away. Please go away. Stop seagulling us, by which I mean swooping down periodically, shitting on everything, and leaving. You are as bad as Dom ever was.

Christine Green Leafy Dragon Indigo, Sunday, 21 February 2021 16:29 (one month ago) link

I apologise when I have done something wrong. The idea that I should have to apologise for the absurd fantasies that people build up around their intensely negative interpretations of what I say?

Nah, mate. Not on.

mysterious nonbinary sea creature (Branwell with an N), Sunday, 21 February 2021 17:00 (one month ago) link

Can we go back to the conversation we were having?

Because it’s not me that shits up threads at the moment - it’s people’s bizarre inability to ignore me or mute me rather than carry on feuding like this.

mysterious nonbinary sea creature (Branwell with an N), Sunday, 21 February 2021 17:02 (one month ago) link

Dom used to go around saying things like “sometimes I fantasise about punching women in the face”.

I say things like “cisheteropatriarvhy oppresses ‘men’ and ‘not men’ in different and unequal ways’.

These are 100% exactly the same thing!!!!! Are you kidding me?

mysterious nonbinary sea creature (Branwell with an N), Sunday, 21 February 2021 17:27 (one month ago) link

are you now Whitney G Weingarten?

sarahell, Monday, 22 February 2021 03:05 (one month ago) link

omgggggggg!!! lol

sarahell, Monday, 22 February 2021 03:50 (one month ago) link


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