I have been thinking about this all morning because it is and I do it a lot but don't know why. I do it mainly when I'm unsure if a person is upset or angry with me esp if someone is being uncommunicative. I guess I do it a lot in general too. I don't know. I wish I knew why I do this or how to stop because even I know it's annoying.
― ☺☻☺☻come on ppl now smile on u brother☺☻☺☻ (ENBB), Sunday, June 28, 2009 3:45 PM (1 hour ago) Bookmark Suggest Ban Permalink
sometimes when i do it i think it is kind of a game where i'm trying to see if the person i'm apologizing to is going to dismiss me or see through the apology and credit whatever it is i'm apologizing for? (if that makes no sense, this happened a lot in graduate school when i was making a comment in class/at a lecture/in a workshop.) this is a pretty self-defeating and fucked up game, needless to say. there's some weird kind of vindication when people do dismiss you, though. lol i sound like a crazy person.
― horseshoe, Sunday, 28 June 2009 20:57 (fourteen years ago) link
Sorry, I don't think I really do this too much.
― tehresa, Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:04 (fourteen years ago) link
lol
― horseshoe, Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:05 (fourteen years ago) link
no i have that xxp
― harbl, Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:05 (fourteen years ago) link
also impostor syndrome, where you feel like everything you've done is like a joke because everyone else has been working hard and you're just pretending to be smart, and people will find out any minute
― harbl, Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:06 (fourteen years ago) link
I just always felt smarter/superior bc I didn't have to work as hard lol.
― tehresa, Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:08 (fourteen years ago) link
yeah i think that is probably related! also, harbl you seem v accomplished, especially for someone who is five years old!
xpost
― horseshoe, Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:09 (fourteen years ago) link
― tehresa, Sunday, June 28, 2009 5:08 PM (26 seconds ago) Bookmark Suggest Ban Permalink
i kind of have swings of this sometimes, it goes back and forth but i think they reinforce each other
― harbl, Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:10 (fourteen years ago) link
like when people say "aren't you gonna study" and i'm thinking fuck that who cares and then i do fine and i subsequently feel like an impostor
― harbl, Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:11 (fourteen years ago) link
yeah, i think the apologizing thing, at least when i do it, is a mix of superiority and insecurity. the superiority comes from secretly knowing that you're not as dumb/insecure as you've made yourself sound by apologizing.
girls only thread causing me to overshare.
― horseshoe, Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:12 (fourteen years ago) link
I never really feel impostory but sometimes I would get pissed off if someone I thought was dumb or had stupid ideas/projects got a better grade than I did even if they put more time into it which I guess is silly but maybe not because more time spent on a project does not necessarily mean better quality but whatever that's life I guess.Xpost
― tehresa, Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:16 (fourteen years ago) link
people i think are dumb often get better grades than me but that's what happens when you think everyone is dumb
― harbl, Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:19 (fourteen years ago) link
ob tampons
― carpathian florist (roxymuzak), Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:31 (fourteen years ago) link
that was me, too ... until I got to college.
― fistula pumping action (sarahel), Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:41 (fourteen years ago) link
i felt smarter for other reasons
i think i thought i had extrasensory perception or something
(read too much "girl with the silver eyes")
― carpathian florist (roxymuzak), Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:42 (fourteen years ago) link
omg that book!
― horseshoe, Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:43 (fourteen years ago) link
did you love it?????????????
― carpathian florist (roxymuzak), Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:43 (fourteen years ago) link
books
girl with the silver eyes +karen kepplewhite is the worlds best kisser +all rl stine and christopher pike trash +otis spofford et al +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
actually cant think of any stupid YA book that i didnt like at least somewhat
― carpathian florist (roxymuzak), Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:44 (fourteen years ago) link
argh i can't find the cover from my old copy on GIS, but even just the cover is super-evocative.
xpost it obsessed me! so scary/awesome!
― horseshoe, Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:44 (fourteen years ago) link
karen kepplewhite is a fave!
girl with the silver eyes +karen kepplewhite is the world best kisser +rl stine = chris pike +++++is otis spofford one of the beverly cleary characters?
― horseshoe, Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:46 (fourteen years ago) link
i wonder which cover you had. i have a collection of different editions lol.
i had this one:
http://logan.com/loganberry/solved-girlsilvereyes.jpg
― carpathian florist (roxymuzak), Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:46 (fourteen years ago) link
im so glad you knew karen kepplewhite
yes! otis spofford was the redhead who lived in the shitty apartments, the "working class" one. he was probably my favorite though i loved them all. he loved ellen tebbits and so did i
the one i had was all blue + purple and the "girl" on the front barely looks human? spooky.
xpost oh ellen tebbits! loved her! some cleary books i loved, but some have not stuck with me.
― horseshoe, Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:47 (fourteen years ago) link
when I was in 4th grade my favorite books were Harriet the Spy and The Spy's Guidebook ... I figured that utilizing the professional techniques described in the latter book that I wouldn't get caught like Harriet did. In actuality, no one really paid any attention whatsoever.
― fistula pumping action (sarahel), Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:49 (fourteen years ago) link
harriet the spy got me into tomato sandwiches.
― horseshoe, Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:50 (fourteen years ago) link
+ is a great book.
How do you guys feel about sweet valley high and the babysitters club?
― tehresa, Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:53 (fourteen years ago) link
i definitely loved them in fourth grade; SVH in particular--so racy! though i have tried to reread the babysitter's club when a mood for YA fiction comes on me a couple times and those books are so boring!
― horseshoe, Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:55 (fourteen years ago) link
the beginning of all those SVH books is weirdly mesmerizing, with the details of how Jessica and Elizabeth have identical dimples and identical lavalieres that were given to them on their sixteenth birthday. i was never clear on what a lavaliere was.
― horseshoe, Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:57 (fourteen years ago) link
I know what a lavalier microphone is. It's the kind that clips onto your collar.
All the YA novels I read made me want to live in NYC - those girls were always going to museums, and literary circles, and doing investigative reporting or something exciting, and had cool boys that liked them even if they were pudgy and plain. For the life of me, I can't remember a single title, but I want to say they were all from the 70s.
― fistula pumping action (sarahel), Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:58 (fourteen years ago) link
paula danziger wrote books like that, sarahel!
― horseshoe, Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:59 (fourteen years ago) link
yeah i read like a hundred babysitters club books and i always skipped chapter 2 because it was exactly the same in every book. not sure what i got out of them at all--they were mega boring. sweet valley high were better i guess but i don't remember them.
― harbl, Sunday, 28 June 2009 21:59 (fourteen years ago) link
http://jezebel.com/assets/resources/2008/02/catgreen022208.jpg
^^ Yes! Thanks!
― fistula pumping action (sarahel), Sunday, 28 June 2009 22:00 (fourteen years ago) link
though i wanted to read what boys were reading in 4th-5th grade so i read goosebumps more, even though my teachers hated them for some reason
― harbl, Sunday, 28 June 2009 22:00 (fourteen years ago) link
http://ecx.images-amazon.com/images/I/51N9SNK8SBL.jpg
this cover is wack, though
― horseshoe, Sunday, 28 June 2009 22:00 (fourteen years ago) link
i vividly remember thishttp://www.fantasticfiction.co.uk/images/n2/n11692.jpg
― harbl, Sunday, 28 June 2009 22:01 (fourteen years ago) link
looooool that is not really a "saying," r. l. stine!
― horseshoe, Sunday, 28 June 2009 22:02 (fourteen years ago) link
xp harbl - I got in a fight with my bff at one point because I liked boys' sci-fi stuff and she liked Anne McCaffrey girly dragon sci-fi stuff, that just seemed to me like the girls-with-horses genre but translated into sci-fi/fantasy. Our relationship never completely recovered after that, though we're now pretty good friends on facebook.
― fistula pumping action (sarahel), Sunday, 28 June 2009 22:02 (fourteen years ago) link
i forgot:
http://mrselderkinsclass.com/images/Basil_E_Frankweiler.jpg
A++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
― carpathian florist (roxymuzak), Sunday, 28 June 2009 22:06 (fourteen years ago) link
that is one of the best books ever tbh
― horseshoe, Sunday, 28 June 2009 22:07 (fourteen years ago) link
i was into SVH for sure, but it was a completely voyeuristic thing, like look at these girls who have everything i'll never have and who are completely perfect and enviable but essentially unrealistic
babysitters club were trash but i read all of them anyway! i remember one of the special edition ones (double thick) that was about going away to camp that i liked in particular. they hiked and stuff throughout, maybe thats why i liked it.
― carpathian florist (roxymuzak), Sunday, 28 June 2009 22:08 (fourteen years ago) link
ive got to reread it!!! xpost
i remember that one and the one about winter vacation that was really thick. i dropped it in the bathtub.
― harbl, Sunday, 28 June 2009 22:10 (fourteen years ago) link
i am about to go find my copy because i'm trying to remember a scene where claudia gives jamie a list of instructions for their plan to runaway and he reads it and then eats it! because he "likes complications," i think? <3 <3 <3
― horseshoe, Sunday, 28 June 2009 22:10 (fourteen years ago) link
also maryann was the only one in the club with a "steady boyfriend" (age 13)
― harbl, Sunday, 28 June 2009 22:11 (fourteen years ago) link
claudia kishi had some clothes
― horseshoe, Sunday, 28 June 2009 22:11 (fourteen years ago) link
i know i read all these high-quality YA books but i can only remember babysitters' club
― harbl, Sunday, 28 June 2009 22:12 (fourteen years ago) link
yeah stacey was diabetic
jessie was black
― horseshoe, Sunday, 28 June 2009 22:12 (fourteen years ago) link