no boys allowed in the room!!!!

i am gonna make 2 sweet potato pies today. after i get butter.

i just read a thing about how women overapologize

― carpathian florist (roxymuzak), Sunday, June 28, 2009 8:55 AM (1 hour ago) Bookmark

I am sooooooooooooo guilty of this. Should work on not doing it.

Sweet potato pies!

i don't feel like the proper amount of reverence is being shown for clueless but it is okay for women to have different opinions than each other, i suppose.

the overapologizing thing is a thing. i hate it and do it.

i do it too. i'm sorry. please don't hate me!

i burnt myself on the oven

fried green tomatoes +++++++

<3

i have eaten my weight in salt and vinegar potato chips today iirc

those are my favorite of all the chips

yes they are a true challenge and reward to eat

I just housed the biggest blueberry pancake I've ever seen. Waited nearly 40 mins. for a table and another 30 for the food so by the time it got to me I was STARVING. So good but I think I'm going to vomit and then die now.

the overapologizing thing is a thing. i hate it and do it.

I have been thinking about this all morning because it is and I do it a lot but don't know why. I do it mainly when I'm unsure if a person is upset or angry with me esp if someone is being uncommunicative. I guess I do it a lot in general too. I don't know. I wish I knew why I do this or how to stop because even I know it's annoying.

can we talk about food that we crave when we're on our periods?

I have been thinking about this all morning because it is and I do it a lot but don't know why. I do it mainly when I'm unsure if a person is upset or angry with me esp if someone is being uncommunicative. I guess I do it a lot in general too. I don't know. I wish I knew why I do this or how to stop because even I know it's annoying.

― ☺☻☺☻come on ppl now smile on u brother☺☻☺☻ (ENBB), Sunday, June 28, 2009 3:45 PM (1 hour ago) Bookmark Suggest Ban Permalink

sometimes when i do it i think it is kind of a game where i'm trying to see if the person i'm apologizing to is going to dismiss me or see through the apology and credit whatever it is i'm apologizing for? (if that makes no sense, this happened a lot in graduate school when i was making a comment in class/at a lecture/in a workshop.) this is a pretty self-defeating and fucked up game, needless to say. there's some weird kind of vindication when people do dismiss you, though. lol i sound like a crazy person.

Sorry, I don't think I really do this too much.

lol

no i have that xxp

also impostor syndrome, where you feel like everything you've done is like a joke because everyone else has been working hard and you're just pretending to be smart, and people will find out any minute

I just always felt smarter/superior bc I didn't have to work as hard lol.

yeah i think that is probably related! also, harbl you seem v accomplished, especially for someone who is five years old!

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I just always felt smarter/superior bc I didn't have to work as hard lol.

― tehresa, Sunday, June 28, 2009 5:08 PM (26 seconds ago) Bookmark Suggest Ban Permalink

i kind of have swings of this sometimes, it goes back and forth but i think they reinforce each other

like when people say "aren't you gonna study" and i'm thinking fuck that who cares and then i do fine and i subsequently feel like an impostor

yeah, i think the apologizing thing, at least when i do it, is a mix of superiority and insecurity. the superiority comes from secretly knowing that you're not as dumb/insecure as you've made yourself sound by apologizing.

girls only thread causing me to overshare.

I never really feel impostory but sometimes I would get pissed off if someone I thought was dumb or had stupid ideas/projects got a better grade than I did even if they put more time into it which I guess is silly but maybe not because more time spent on a project does not necessarily mean better quality but whatever that's life I guess.
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people i think are dumb often get better grades than me but that's what happens when you think everyone is dumb

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I just always felt smarter/superior bc I didn't have to work as hard lol.

that was me, too ... until I got to college.

i felt smarter for other reasons

i think i thought i had extrasensory perception or something

(read too much "girl with the silver eyes")

omg that book!

did you love it?????????????

books

girl with the silver eyes +
karen kepplewhite is the worlds best kisser +
all rl stine and christopher pike trash +
otis spofford et al +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

actually cant think of any stupid YA book that i didnt like at least somewhat

argh i can't find the cover from my old copy on GIS, but even just the cover is super-evocative.

xpost it obsessed me! so scary/awesome!

karen kepplewhite is a fave!

girl with the silver eyes +
karen kepplewhite is the world best kisser +
rl stine = chris pike +++++
is otis spofford one of the beverly cleary characters?

i wonder which cover you had. i have a collection of different editions lol.

i had this one:

http://logan.com/loganberry/solved-girlsilvereyes.jpg

im so glad you knew karen kepplewhite

yes! otis spofford was the redhead who lived in the shitty apartments, the "working class" one. he was probably my favorite though i loved them all. he loved ellen tebbits and so did i

the one i had was all blue + purple and the "girl" on the front barely looks human? spooky.

xpost oh ellen tebbits! loved her! some cleary books i loved, but some have not stuck with me.

when I was in 4th grade my favorite books were Harriet the Spy and The Spy's Guidebook ... I figured that utilizing the professional techniques described in the latter book that I wouldn't get caught like Harriet did. In actuality, no one really paid any attention whatsoever.

harriet the spy got me into tomato sandwiches.

+ is a great book.

How do you guys feel about sweet valley high and the babysitters club?

i definitely loved them in fourth grade; SVH in particular--so racy! though i have tried to reread the babysitter's club when a mood for YA fiction comes on me a couple times and those books are so boring!

the beginning of all those SVH books is weirdly mesmerizing, with the details of how Jessica and Elizabeth have identical dimples and identical lavalieres that were given to them on their sixteenth birthday. i was never clear on what a lavaliere was.

I know what a lavalier microphone is. It's the kind that clips onto your collar.

All the YA novels I read made me want to live in NYC - those girls were always going to museums, and literary circles, and doing investigative reporting or something exciting, and had cool boys that liked them even if they were pudgy and plain. For the life of me, I can't remember a single title, but I want to say they were all from the 70s.

paula danziger wrote books like that, sarahel!

yeah i read like a hundred babysitters club books and i always skipped chapter 2 because it was exactly the same in every book. not sure what i got out of them at all--they were mega boring. sweet valley high were better i guess but i don't remember them.

http://jezebel.com/assets/resources/2008/02/catgreen022208.jpg

^^ Yes! Thanks!

though i wanted to read what boys were reading in 4th-5th grade so i read goosebumps more, even though my teachers hated them for some reason

http://ecx.images-amazon.com/images/I/51N9SNK8SBL.jpg

this cover is wack, though

i vividly remember this
http://www.fantasticfiction.co.uk/images/n2/n11692.jpg