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ok, here goes.
after a long long day i have had a few glasses of red wine, so please bear with me.
on april 6th 2011 my wife was told "in error" that she had stomach cancer.
[long story - but this should have happened in my presence at some later pre-arranged time, but the fact was dropped while i was on childcare duties 30 miles away .. ]
given that my wife had previously been to see her GP for 2 years re ongoing stomach issues this came as no real surprise, but still, 2 years is quite a long time to have such concerns.
[turned out to be a stomach ulcer that had been left untreated .. resulting in the cancerous growth, but still the advise is that it has not spread beyond the stomach]
so after a 3 month stretch of radical chemo, to isolate and focus the growth, the surgeon today removed my wifes stomach, meaning that today is the beginning of a whole new life for us all.
so, the question is : are there ILX'r who have been through this process, as i have no idea as to what happens next !
how will she be able to digest food etc ?
and far more importantly, will red wine be no longer suitable as a method for her to deal with the daily demands of modern life ?
oh, and in the spirit of the original thread (i hate cancer) : fuck cancer.

mark e, Wednesday, 10 August 2011 23:25 (seven years ago) link

as far as i could tell (i looked - honest !) , ile needed a proper 'fuck cancer' thread.

mark e, Wednesday, 10 August 2011 23:26 (seven years ago) link

=( Best of luck to both of you

Elderflower Gimcrax Flores (admrl), Wednesday, 10 August 2011 23:26 (seven years ago) link

Oh fuck, I'm so very sorry to hear that. btw there is a 'curse cancer' thread but fuck anyone who holds this thread against you.

ceci n'est pas une witty dn (Schlafsack), Wednesday, 10 August 2011 23:27 (seven years ago) link

mark e, I am so sorry you and your wife are facing this. I know a few people who have had some or all of their stomach removed, for various reasons - each has certain foods that aren't processed well and so those are avoided, but digestion starts with chewing and nutrients are absorbed in the small intestine. One friend takes an additional enzyme with each meal, but the others eat smaller meals more frequently. They all are able to still enjoy alcohol, though I'm sure that can vary. See if you can find a support group locally or on-line that can help with the questions/concerns you will both be confronting. I wish your wife a rapid return to health and strength.

Jaq, Wednesday, 10 August 2011 23:52 (seven years ago) link

while i understand and appreciate the concerns, can i just state the following : today is a great great] day.
the surgery went well, my wife is ok (as far as i know), and that is a massive, repeat massive thrill-buzz.
oh, and while red wine is not the answer to most of our daily stresses it can form part of our occasional parental release ..
(i would prefer a very loud listen-n-dance session to kylie, but hey, cant have everythintg ! )

mark e, Wednesday, 10 August 2011 23:59 (seven years ago) link

others eat smaller meals more frequently. They all are able to still enjoy alcohol, though I'm sure that can vary.

have heard this from others.
only time will tell.


mark e, Thursday, 11 August 2011 00:28 (seven years ago) link

Fuck cancer indeed, so many of my relatives are dead from or are have contracted some form of cancer.

Super Villains With Drum Machines (MintIce), Thursday, 11 August 2011 13:39 (seven years ago) link

My paternal grandmother had her stomach removed for the same reason back in the 1960s. Although her meal size was reduced, she still very much enjoyed food and drink; one of the first things she taught my brother and me when we used to go and visit as wee lads was how to make a "proper" gin and tonic for her. She lived until she was 90.

I really hope your wife can continue to enjoy life in a similar spirit, and that she's making a fast and full recovery from the op.

that mustardless plate (Bill A), Wednesday, 17 August 2011 12:01 (seven years ago) link

cheers bill.
cant believe that its only 7 days since surgery given that yesterday she was looking so good, and up and walking (aka "thank f*ck for the nhs").
and yes, the advise seems to be that she can eat-n-drink whatever.
there may be some food types that may cause issue, but hopefully, the main impact will be that meal times will be a lot more relaxed as opposed to gobble-and-go.

mark e, Wednesday, 17 August 2011 12:06 (seven years ago) link

I guess it must not be too major to have your stomach removed since lots of people get their stomach removed who have a gastric bypass. I mean not too major compared to having your pancreas removed or your colon and getting an ostomy or something. I hope it goes well, I'm sure you will adapt in time and you will be just fine. SOrry to hear it

I love obscure members of the Athrotheiria mammal genus and... (Latham Green), Wednesday, 17 August 2011 13:34 (seven years ago) link

four months pass...

My grandfather is in the last stage of leukemia. I am trying to keep in mind he had a long and healthy life so far. But given that his life wasn't too great, it's difficult...

nathom, Friday, 13 January 2012 13:51 (seven years ago) link

two months pass...

exactly one year on and shit gets raised to a new level of emotional chaos.

we weren't even able to get away for 7 days for some well deserved family time without a mad midnight 250 mile dash to a&e.

oh, and all the positivity and hope i displayed earlier in this thread proved to be fucking worthless.

outcome post chemo/surgery : stage 4. terminal. no more treatment.

we currently live in waiting rooms dreading the test results.

fuck cancer.

mark e, Friday, 6 April 2012 20:47 (seven years ago) link

i'm really sorry, mark. my best wishes and support to you and your loved ones. and fuck cancer.

dayo, Friday, 6 April 2012 21:13 (seven years ago) link

mark, I'm so sorry. fuck cancer.

that mustardless plate (Bill A), Friday, 6 April 2012 22:29 (seven years ago) link

I am at a loss for words. I... I wish I could take some of the pain away. Fuck FUCK FUCK cancer. I am so so sorry.

Nathalie (stevienixed), Saturday, 7 April 2012 13:51 (seven years ago) link

How terrible. I wish you love. Fuck cancer.

World Congress of Itch (Dr Morbius), Saturday, 7 April 2012 14:07 (seven years ago) link

Mark, I'm really, really sorry. My best wishes to you and your family.

God, Music and Romeo and Juliet (DJP), Saturday, 7 April 2012 14:17 (seven years ago) link

Echoing the above. Utterly terrible news.

Ned Raggett, Saturday, 7 April 2012 14:18 (seven years ago) link

two weeks pass...

emsley clan : -1

cancer scoreboard : +1

fuck cancer.

mark e, Thursday, 26 April 2012 13:27 (seven years ago) link

Mark, I'm so sorry; my condolences to you and your family.

I'M THAT POSTA, AAAAAAAAAH (DJP), Thursday, 26 April 2012 13:29 (seven years ago) link

oh Mark I am so sorry. sending you love and support in this time.

cosi fan whitford (underrated aerosmith bootlegs I have owned), Thursday, 26 April 2012 13:31 (seven years ago) link

echoing the above. my sincere condolences to all of you

dayo, Thursday, 26 April 2012 13:35 (seven years ago) link

A hug and kiss for you, Mark.

Exile in lolville (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Thursday, 26 April 2012 13:37 (seven years ago) link

echoing the above. my sincere condolences to all of you

― dayo, Thursday, April 26, 2012 8:35 AM (1 minute ago)

^^^ So sorry, Mark. Fuck cancer.

improvised explosive advice (WmC), Thursday, 26 April 2012 13:39 (seven years ago) link

Sending you love and the tiniest lightening of this burden. I'm so sorry.

how did I get here? why am I in the whiskey aisle? this is all so (Laurel), Thursday, 26 April 2012 13:40 (seven years ago) link

i'm so sorry mark.

diafiyhm (darraghmac), Thursday, 26 April 2012 13:42 (seven years ago) link

Horrible news, very sorry to hear this, good thoughts to you and family Mark.

ooooiiiioooooooooooooooaaaaaaaaoooooh un - bi - leevable! (LocalGarda), Thursday, 26 April 2012 13:46 (seven years ago) link

ta for the wired tlc ..

this just goes to prove that even in this day and age of techno miracles, in the majority of cases, the powers that be really dont have a grasp on this evil disease.

we were told back in december that there was a good chance of 12 months of settled life.

to say the last 4 months have been a living hell of health related shyte would be an understatement.

we have no let up from the hospital/a&e chaos, so in some ways, i'm glad that she is now no longer suffering, but damn, its heavy on those of us left behind.

mark e, Thursday, 26 April 2012 13:49 (seven years ago) link

how horrible, Mark. RIP, & I hope you too are able to find some peace in this.

Euler, Thursday, 26 April 2012 13:50 (seven years ago) link

mark i'm so sorry for you and your family's loss, i hope you all get all the love and support you need

seapunk run. run punk run! (Noodle Vague), Thursday, 26 April 2012 13:55 (seven years ago) link

Oh Mark, I'm so sorry to hear that. Wishing you all the strength in the world over the next few days and weeks.

btw didn't i braek ur heart (NickB), Thursday, 26 April 2012 13:57 (seven years ago) link

That is horrible to hear, take care of yourself, man.

Andrew Farrell, Thursday, 26 April 2012 13:58 (seven years ago) link

Also: fuck cancer.

Andrew Farrell, Thursday, 26 April 2012 14:06 (seven years ago) link

Oh my God. I am so so sorry to read this. I can't imagine how horrible the past year must have been for you. My best wishes go out to you and your family.

wolf kabob (ENBB), Thursday, 26 April 2012 14:10 (seven years ago) link


My condolences.

Ned Raggett, Thursday, 26 April 2012 14:27 (seven years ago) link

mark, I'm very sorry. words on a message board don't do it justice.

this just goes to prove that even in this day and age of techno miracles, in the majority of cases, the powers that be really dont have a grasp on this evil disease.

I switched oncologists recently, going to the big medical center named after one of the Rockefellers. My new guy is the teacher who taught my two old guys.

We went down the list, talking about the medications I had been given, what my diet could be, drawing a DNA helix on the paper of the examination chair and saying 45 minutes of exercise based on my age x 5 - 2 or something. That last one, "What does running up and down stairs have to do with cancer?" made him literally stroke his beard and say "We don't know. Everything I've told you is basically an educated guess at best."

Now, this guy is pretty educated, but every honest doctor would be the first to tell you that plugging tubes of poison into people's veins and blasting them with radiation is witchcraft at best.

pplains, Thursday, 26 April 2012 14:51 (seven years ago) link

Now, this guy is pretty educated, but every honest doctor would be the first to tell you that plugging tubes of poison into people's veins and blasting them with radiation is witchcraft at best.

i have an uncle who is a highly qualified doctor in canada - and he basically told me this back last year, so while we were getting the 'we will cure you' story from various folks here, i've been quietly preparing for this outcome due to the insider information from him.

still, doesn't make dealing with the fallout any easier ..

good luck with your battle pplains - you have my heartfelt wishes and hopes for a more successful outcome.

for us, the big reveal was the discovery of an evil lump weeks after the completion of premium grade chemo that she underwent as that confirmed just how aggressive the fucker was.

(uncle confirmed that she got the best that was available .. so no complaints on that score)

mark e, Thursday, 26 April 2012 15:08 (seven years ago) link

Heartfelt condolences, mark. I'm so sorry that things turned out this way.

that mustardless plate (Bill A), Thursday, 26 April 2012 19:03 (seven years ago) link

i'm so very sorry, mark.

estela, Thursday, 26 April 2012 19:13 (seven years ago) link

Found out yesterday that mother in-law likely has pancreatic cancer. She got sick the day after we left for vacation, but apparently her doctor's been all kind of amazing and has run 6 months worth of tests in 2 weeks. From what I understand they think it's still in early stages, and possibly slow-growing though I'm still trying to make sense of everything so I don't exactly know all the details.

the worst part is that her Mum died of cancer when she was quite young, and her brother died of pancreatic cancer a couple of years ago, so it's just like AAAAAGGGGH FUCK YOU CANCER SERIOUSLY

the gallows-humor lighter side is that because of a blocked bile duct she now has a major case of jaundice. She said over the phone that she was pretty green, but when she answered the door mr Veg and I were like, 'Whoa. you weren't kidding.' Wicked Witch of the West level neon green. It's really weird!

We visited with her yesterday - she's very scared, tired, etc, but still very much herself. I love her so much...it just fucks me up that she's dealing with all of this. Ugh!


Peppermint Patty Hearst (VegemiteGrrl), Monday, 30 April 2012 20:17 (seven years ago) link



hope they caught the fucker in time peppermint.

mark e, Monday, 30 April 2012 20:30 (seven years ago) link

I know. I'd like to have her around for a lot longer :)

Peppermint Patty Hearst (VegemiteGrrl), Monday, 30 April 2012 20:38 (seven years ago) link

btw, my condolences to you, mark...a big DOUBLE FUCK YOU CANCER

Peppermint Patty Hearst (VegemiteGrrl), Monday, 30 April 2012 20:42 (seven years ago) link

cheers pepper.

borderline alcoholism + v. loud music helps.

a little.

mark e, Monday, 30 April 2012 20:48 (seven years ago) link

<3 <3 <3

Peppermint Patty Hearst (VegemiteGrrl), Monday, 30 April 2012 20:58 (seven years ago) link

my mother in law was diagnosed with terminal cancer on Friday. Somehow the fucking doctor she has been getting x-rays and cat scans from for the last five years completely missed the huge tumor crushing her heart. My wife had to take an emergency red-eye last night and fortunately made it home before her mom died. now they're waiting for more tests.

fuck you, incompetent doctors, fuck you cancer, etc.

sleeve, Monday, 30 April 2012 21:31 (seven years ago) link

Somehow the fucking doctor she has been getting x-rays and cat scans from for the last five years completely missed the huge tumor crushing her heart.

due to the time, i am assuming you are US based pepper, cos this scarily similar to our situation.

3 years of 'problems' that were ignored cos it would have cost a few quid to send bh for a CT scan ..

so, yes fuck you incomp. doctors and fuck you tory policy to make doctors even more important in the decision making process.

once bh was escalated to the next level of care then it has to be said, the care was absolutely fantastic, but the fact of the matter is that he problems were ignored by the the GPs for 3 years .. and the GPs defence : 'bh is too young to get stomach cancer'

ok, time for more wine ..

mark e, Monday, 30 April 2012 21:39 (seven years ago) link

hang in there, also check out the revive on the Steve Albini thread, very inspiring.

sleeve, Tuesday, 1 May 2012 00:36 (seven years ago) link

I was told just today that my aunt was in the final stages of her cancer, so I feel you. It's amazing how much money + resources gets pumped into research and how it's still such a crapshoot of who survives and who doesn't.

musicfanatic, Tuesday, 1 May 2012 00:47 (seven years ago) link

hi tabes… had 10 sessions of radiation myself 2 months ago. glad things look good long-term, honey.

a Mets fan who gave up on everything in the mid '80s (Dr Morbius), Wednesday, 29 May 2019 03:20 (one month ago) link

hey morbz, hope yr doing okay and things are looking up for you, too!!

blue light or electric light (the table is the table), Wednesday, 29 May 2019 10:52 (one month ago) link

also, hi everyone, thank you for yr well wishes. it is good to be back here.

blue light or electric light (the table is the table), Wednesday, 29 May 2019 10:53 (one month ago) link

Good luck, welcome back, and I'm glad things are going well.

It's been a couple of months since I gave a Casper update, here or on the blog, so here's one: https://sickmouthy.wordpress.com/2019/05/29/basically-a-normal-baby-right-now/

Hey Bob (Scik Mouthy), Wednesday, 29 May 2019 11:18 (one month ago) link

oof, scik, that is some difficult stuff right there. i am cheering for you and yr fam and Casper, especially, at this very moment.

it's all very senseless.

for example, yesterday i had a conversation with my surgeon's assistant who gave me a different potential timeline for surgery than all my other doctors have given me. normally, no big deal, but since i teach at a university, his dates essentially would have fucked up my fall semester and made it so that i would be without any income for half of the goddamn year. let's just say i had a total freakout meltdown, but then after contacting surgeon directly, he assured me that there were other options for pushing potential surgery up so that i'll still be able to teach come fall.

it's wild how things that seem small to a doctor can legit seem like the end of the world to the patient. it's one of the biggest takeaways from all of this, in my mind.

(that said, i'm not switchin surgeons, because the guy is one of the most highly awarded and excellent in the country for his field).

blue light or electric light (the table is the table), Wednesday, 29 May 2019 20:17 (one month ago) link

Dunno if it;'s the done thing or not, but thought I'd stick this here: https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/neil-harrison30

Hey Bob (Scik Mouthy), Monday, 3 June 2019 15:18 (one month ago) link

finished radiation therapy and chemo for now!! surgery probably coming in late July. very excited to have some time off meds before the big event.

i went to the gym yesterday— yes, i had a membership to the local climbing gym lol— and can still get to the top of some pretty hard boulder problems! i climbed for about an hour before i had to stop because my wrists were getting a bit sore.

slowly but surely.

hope everyone here is doing okay. <3

blue light or electric light (the table is the table), Saturday, 15 June 2019 23:49 (one month ago) link

mazel tov, tabes

a Mets fan who gave up on everything in the mid '80s (Dr Morbius), Saturday, 15 June 2019 23:52 (one month ago) link

my very best wishes to you, table. it’s nice to see you here again

estela, Sunday, 16 June 2019 03:58 (one month ago) link

so my wife's palliative care nurse has been on long term sick for nearly 2 months now. you'd think they'd assign her another one? fuck no, this is the NHS, you're just fucked. they say go to your GP. GP says GPs aren't fit to handle pain medication because as usual GPs are just totally fucking useless for anything whatsoever*. Nation Buck Passing Service in full effect.

fuck this country and fuck the NHS and fuck all "doctors" and fuck everyone who "works" in the "healthcare" "profession"

*my 80 year old grandmother has finally been diagnosed with arthritis after having to go to a different GP because her regular one refused to refer her for an x-ray saying she definitely does not have arthritis. turns out not only she does have arthritis but it's a severe case. fucking GPs. fucking scum

Colonel Poo, Thursday, 27 June 2019 15:31 (three weeks ago) link

I forgot to include pharmacists in my list of cunts who do everything in their power to make things worse for people with terminal illnesses

Last week I took a pile of prescriptions to the pharmacist. They filled half of them and the rest were on order. Some of the owed prescriptions turned up in the post after a few days. 8 days later with 2 still outstanding my wife noticed they put the wrong name on all the pills we got 8 days ago. That's right, the incompetent fuckwits sent the outstanding pills to some other woman. I took the whole lot in and got it sorted out, but seriously what the fuck is going on with these people. Luckily they put the right name on her morphine pills! Then in the pharmacy while the pharmacist was trying to figure out how this happened, he accused a technician who denied everything saying that's not my signature, turned out she also had her name in the computer. Busted! you stupid piece of shit

How do these cunts still have jobs?

Colonel Poo, Friday, 5 July 2019 17:16 (two weeks ago) link

Many sympathies to everyone contending with cancer. A good friend of mine just got his second cancer diagnosis in the last two years. The first time around, surgery seemed to control it. But now he has multiple cancers, which could mean metastasis. Doctors are trying to figure out now if they need to do chemo before surgery. My friend is of course very upset, we've formed a small support network to help him, but it's a very scary thing. I've lost two friends to cancer already.

xp isn’t that a serious data breach? You should report them for that, if they’d given you someone else’s info as well as their pills, that’s pretty awful.

Sorry about having to deal with this shit.

gyac, Friday, 5 July 2019 17:30 (two weeks ago) link

Yeah, I'm shocked by that, I always assumed (naively) that the reason there's a whole production about getting prescriptions was that they were careful about this shit for decades.

Andrew Farrell, Friday, 5 July 2019 20:05 (two weeks ago) link

nothing should really shock me any more dealing with the NHS and it's associated services

it'd be a miracle if I encountered someone who wasn't a completely incompetent cretin

the stupid fucking pharmacist cunts were out of stock of my wife's antidepressant last Friday (after sending it to the other woman) so they said they'd order it and deliver it on Saturday. nothing turns up on Saturday. my wife now only has 2 days left, so I call them today. the stupid cunts ordered the wrong strength. the pharmacist was "meant to call us, but must've been waylaid". so they are allegedly going to deliver it this afternoon

we won't be using these arseholes again but this is at least the 3rd pharmacy we've used because they are ALL fucking incompetent morons, it's just endless mixups, delays and bullshit wherever you go

Colonel Poo, Wednesday, 10 July 2019 15:06 (one week ago) link

Feel like I've blown any goodwill I had on this thread by my admittedly aggressive hatred of NHS cunts but in case anyone is interested in the latest farce I feel like this is a noteworthy addition to documenting what it's actually like dealing with the absolute scum that allegedly are supposed to help sick people in our godforsaken country.

I've mentioned several times the battle getting repeat prescriptions from our GPs/pharmacies. What has actually worked and I can't quite believe this is the situation we are in, is that my wife has to beg for her prescriptions. Our GP actually told us to do this, but it works. My wife has to write a note with her prescription requests pleading for the scum that fills it to please actually accept the prescription request because she has terminal cancer. Since she started doing that we haven't had any denied. Now we just have to deal with incomplete pharmacies.

If you know anyone who claims to be a doctor, please punch them in the face and tell them it's from me

Colonel Poo, Friday, 12 July 2019 23:19 (one week ago) link

I have made an official complaint against the pharmacy that sent my wife's prescription to the wrong woman. For all the good that will do

Colonel Poo, Friday, 12 July 2019 23:21 (one week ago) link

i can only speak for myself cp but its just a gobsmacking litany and but for the terrible circumstances would be darkly comic

if understandably vexed venting helps itt then go nuts imo

phil neville jacket (darraghmac), Friday, 12 July 2019 23:24 (one week ago) link

I dunno it sometimes feels like the NHS is some sacred cow. I get all this oh well they're overstretched you know. Try being on my side and see how much you care if some cunt GP has to see a few more patients or some absolute leech calling themselves a surgeon is whining they aren't getting their cushy pension so they won't look at your CT scan

Colonel Poo, Friday, 12 July 2019 23:33 (one week ago) link

start a fuck the nhs thread ill back ya

phil neville jacket (darraghmac), Friday, 12 July 2019 23:42 (one week ago) link

It doesn't take much to get horror stories out of other people either. I was just at the pub with a friend who told me the NHS basically killed her grandpa by injecting him with dye he was allergic to. The fucking scum surgeon tried to shake her dad's hand at his funeral. They nearly electrocuted my wife last year - it's expected that no departments actually talk to each other, but this was the same department. The radiology department put metal tipped stitches in my wife's chest, then the same department were going to scan her until she mentioned she had metal stitches in her, which would have burned her, so they cancelled the scan

Colonel Poo, Friday, 12 July 2019 23:54 (one week ago) link

I don't know what can be done about this.

Hopefully obviously I want a viable socialised medical system - none of my "criticisms" such as they are are arguing against a national health service as such, that's what I want - an actual national health service, not this absolute farce that we have now.

Colonel Poo, Saturday, 13 July 2019 00:11 (one week ago) link

The radiology department put metal tipped stitches in my wife's chest, then the same department were going to scan her until she mentioned she had metal stitches in her, which would have burned her

argh! ouch, wtf

sorry you're having such a bad time - I've seen some annoying doctors and found 95% of chemists (pharmacies, before an American who studied chemistry gets cross) to be utterly useless but you really seem to be repeatedly dealing with shit no matter where you turn

a passing spacecadet, Saturday, 13 July 2019 19:15 (one week ago) link

I was drunk and angry last night. tbh I'm angry a lot of the time, but drunk and angry is an ugly combination.

I don't really know what can be done about the state of the NHS at the moment. kinda think mass sackings of incompetent people is the only way forward, but then there would be nobody left. I don't know why the people who study medicine seem to be so terrible at actually practising it. there's something really badly wrong here

Colonel Poo, Saturday, 13 July 2019 22:27 (one week ago) link

maybe some form of system encouraging skilled medical practitioners from Europe to move to the UK would help

quelle sprocket damage (sic), Saturday, 13 July 2019 22:58 (one week ago) link

CP, i'm so sorry this is happening to you and especially yr wife. just awful.

blue light or electric light (the table is the table), Monday, 15 July 2019 23:25 (six days ago) link

Got my date for surgery today.

They're going to take out my whole rectum, sew me up, and I'll have a permanent colostomy. The tumor has shrunk, and I feel great (I ate tacos at South Philly Barbacoa (the one from Chef's Table, yes) and then went to the gym for an hour and a half after the appointment today, ffs), but it's kind of sinking in how much shit is going to change beyond just feeling like garbage because of treatments.

Gonna get TMI for a sec, but as many of you know, I'm gay...and not being able to have anal penetrative sex again again is really getting me down. I've had a good run of dicks in my ass, but it's still an enormous bummer, and I'm not sure how my husband and I are going to deal with it.

blue light or electric light (the table is the table), Monday, 15 July 2019 23:31 (six days ago) link

That’s unimaginable.

El Tomboto, Tuesday, 16 July 2019 00:03 (five days ago) link

I mean everything on this thread is to me, frankly, I don’t know why that struck me as more uff da than anything else.

El Tomboto, Tuesday, 16 July 2019 00:05 (five days ago) link

<3 you table

Dan S, Tuesday, 16 July 2019 00:14 (five days ago) link

thanks y'all.

it's pretty...yeah, hard to think about. but so is dying, which i'm not quite ready for, so i'm taking what i can get.

blue light or electric light (the table is the table), Tuesday, 16 July 2019 02:30 (five days ago) link

I'm not really sure if people just think I'm a dick or if they just don't know what to say. I spent about 15 minutes ranting about how literally everybody is failing us to my therapist yesterday and he just said I suppose that must be difficult to deal with. This week my wife's oncologist "forgot" to put her anti-nausea meds on her chart so when she got an injection that causes nausea the chemo nurse refused to give her anti-nausea medication. If she had a non-jobsworth cunt nurse they would just give it to her anyway, but this nurse just said sorry not on the chart fuck you. Her palliative care nurse is back from sick leave. Tbf she had a reason to be off sick, some fucking scumbag set fire to the hospice 4 years ago and she had PTSD from it. The cunt died before he could be charged but killed 3 people on his way out. So that's good I suppose. She had a scan yesterday which will determine if she continues chemo or just stops treatment and we see what happens

Try not to get ill, nobody will help you

Colonel Poo, Thursday, 18 July 2019 18:46 (three days ago) link

in terms of in the thread at least (imo), its so genuinely hard to know how to respond that wouldnt seem so totally inadequate CP

thats no excuse not to acknowledge the horrific situation you're in and what a shambles it all seems and how nightmarish it has to be for you

im so sorry youve to deal with this, any of this, all of this, and i hope that the venting helps even an iota, you deserve any outlet and relief you can get

phil neville jacket (darraghmac), Thursday, 18 July 2019 22:26 (three days ago) link

^^^This is very well said. No one does or at least should begrudge you feeling the way you do. I would likely feel the same way. I wish you and your wife any momentary relief you can get.

Mazzy Tsar (PBKR), Thursday, 18 July 2019 23:47 (three days ago) link

CP, been thinking of you and yr wife.

blue light or electric light (the table is the table), Friday, 19 July 2019 00:50 (two days ago) link

Indeed so. And you as well, table. What a collective misery.

Ned Raggett, Friday, 19 July 2019 01:06 (two days ago) link

yeah, it's pretty awful!

i'm looking at the bright side, which is that now i get to get another cheeky tattoo: "Rectum? I nearly killed him!"

blue light or electric light (the table is the table), Friday, 19 July 2019 01:53 (two days ago) link

(one friend i said this to was like, "that's horrible!" and i couldn't really make them understand that the joy of a dumb but true joke like that is what keeps me going )

blue light or electric light (the table is the table), Friday, 19 July 2019 01:55 (two days ago) link

Thinking of you, table.

Montgomery Burns' Jazz (Tarfumes The Escape Goat), Friday, 19 July 2019 02:01 (two days ago) link

sorry, and thanks everyone

table, what's happening to you is also horrible and I do feel for you, and everyone else going through this

Colonel Poo, Friday, 19 July 2019 06:17 (two days ago) link

Good thoughts to you and your wife CP, the amount of shit you have to endure is staggering.

Table, please be well <3

Le Bateau Ivre, Friday, 19 July 2019 07:27 (two days ago) link

<3 CP and table.

pomenitul, Friday, 19 July 2019 07:32 (two days ago) link

Yeah both of you <3

jou're much too jung, girl (Noodle Vague), Friday, 19 July 2019 09:00 (two days ago) link

Same here.

Andrew Farrell, Friday, 19 July 2019 10:48 (two days ago) link

<3 to cp and your wife, and also to table (i completely appreciate the joy of the joke)

cancer is such an asshole

estela, Saturday, 20 July 2019 02:36 (yesterday) link

Indeed it is.

xyzzzz__, Saturday, 20 July 2019 07:32 (yesterday) link

Damn, Nick. Brutal. But also I'm so so glad things are - at the moment - ok. ish.
Arrival's on telly on Tuesday, btw.
How's Em - going back to work is a big deal.?

kinder, Saturday, 20 July 2019 22:36 (yesterday) link

Nick that was so powerful and hits on so many feelings I'm also experiencing - suicidal urges, anger at religious sentiments. our situations are quite different but so much is the same. I am OK, mostly, too, it might not seem like it on here sometimes and on those occasions I'm not OK, I am trying though.

Colonel Poo, Sunday, 21 July 2019 00:07 (three hours ago) link

love to the Colonel and table

a Mets fan who gave up on everything in the mid '80s (Dr Morbius), Sunday, 21 July 2019 00:11 (three hours ago) link

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