Blue Saturday

thread of mumbling to myself. you can play too.

Playlist, shuffled

Popol Vuh - Hosianna Mantra
Actress - Splazsh
Paysage d'Hiver - Kristall & Isa
v/a - Mystic Records Presents We Got Power - Party or Go Home
Alva Noto - Xerrox Vol. 2
Debris - Static Disposal
Pere Ubu - The Modern Dance
Pussy Galore - Exile on Main Street
Decayes - Not Yet!
Ulver - Nattens Madrigal
Edgar Varèse - noise interpolations from "Déserts"
Orbital - Brown Album
The Fall - Escape Route from the Wonderful and Frightening World of
John Beltran - Earth and Nightfall
Celtic Frost - To Mega Therion
Expo '70 - Animism & Black Ohms

add zoloft and low-grade hangover, play freecell, lean back, stir

freecell is fucking tedious tbh.

spent a lot of time this week watching young people going about their business, wondered why the fuck they were bothering for the most part. humans' sense of a worthwhile life/survival is pretty fucking tedious tbh.

i mean we are ape-y and not much imbued with magic or wonder

have been semi-inclined to go to Beverley and get properly drunk and lost today, out of spite and dickishness really, but this feels like a more satisfactory and less damaging way of getting some of that out of my system. damn i love a temporary solution tho. temporary dissolution.

okay, "Remind" is proper classic. lolstalgia. here is a notable story from the annals of Hull history

http://www.thesun.co.uk/sol/homepage/news/article145635.ece

the other weekend we decided there should be a giant animatronic goat-fucker alongside the railway line just before the station, with a neon "Welcome to Hull" sign over it

i missed the last d off of "Edgard", I know

lolstalgia. jaysus

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YMFspaHFl3Q&feature=related

in the service of full disclosure, obv. there's not much more ridiculous than middle age, but youth is probly one of the things

http://www.sabotagetimes.com/wp-content/uploads/Hull-Fair-7.jpg

so in love with the decent past but this picture could've been took anytime, really

city lost to time, city that fell from grace with the sea

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=px5RkcwxkZQ

oh Hessle Road

half fucked now but still classic

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c6bWJd44i-o

best band ever btw

http://bill.terebenthine.free.fr/images/spiders_from_mars.jpg

This is the 2nd best band from Hull ever. They were still Quite Good.

http://bill.terebenthine.free.fr/images/spiders_from_mars.jpg

man this tension between wanting to escape and knowing i won't escape very far, tawdriness in advance, wanting a pub with chet baker on the jukey or at the least Stock Aitken and Watermang's "SS Paparazzi" - lolstalgia again tho - can't even get a pint of Double Diamond anywhere now, not sure they still brew it - or that i want it tbh

not sure how much of this is the medicine flexing its muscles either but

not cut out for another 5 - 50 years of this really and pondering whether maintaining a facade of functional dignity is doing anybody any favours when i shd be beatniking it out in the wilds of this hilarious city

http://www.heritagepubs.org.uk/images/pubphotos/Hull-OldeWhiteHart-MainBar.jpg

Allegedly - tho you know history and publicity make bitch liars and memory is quite rewriteable - this is where we started to win the Civil War. Charles was keen on coming into the city and securing the arsenal and the docks but local capitalist plutocrat guys got together in this pub and told the mayor to lock the gates and tell him to get tae fuck. which he did, against his will. this pub is really cosy and still pub-esque, which y'know is an increasingly rare fucking commodity in the 2K10s. also where i heard some dude being accused of being "racist against gays".

Pubs I have loved: the Piper, the Gardener's, Hockneys when it were old and working man's clubbish, the Golden Ball, the Engineers, the Mint, the Black Boy, the Olde White Hart, the Schnapps Bar, the Empress, the Star of the West RIP you were a beautiful dump, the Station, the Turnpike and that stupid sports bar at the back where I watched us win the play-offs and got so splattered by half time I didn't remember a fucking thing about it, also where I watched Eubank fuck up Watson but missed the fatal punch and said something unfortunate about him not getting tagged that hard

interrupted because our joel just texted to inform me that a pet shop in town is selling bird food labelled "6 fat balls for wild birds"

and I KNOW HOW IT FEELS

http://www.eyorks.com/hullpub/

this virtual pub crawl is kinda sick-making with lolstalgia. the probable siberian wind knifing ice-sleet into yr face is doing a good job of keeping my safe in the house tho. am gonna cheat and make myself a little sump'n sump'n now to tilt the balance. might as well be hung for a whole pen full of sheep etc

honest to god there used to be a fishing tackle shop on Anlaby Rd called "Master Baits"

ginger beer, is there anything you don't mix with?

one can't help but feel that social evolution is something of a pig in that it discards all use for male libido about 30 fucking years before yr male does

NON-ALIGNMENT PACT YES BANG ON TIME

am looping that fucker

don't know when i, when i'll be conte-eh-eh-ent btw

really tho motivation is a funny thing. i dunno that aristotle was right about the unexamined life not being worth living but fuck i seem to see a lot of unexamination going down. ruminants. being a ruminant is plenty cool if you like cud tho. absolutely don't despise peoples alignments with themselves, just am wickedly out of sync and not getting how to get my groove "back" ha like it's been there since what 10? 5? seem to remember being reasonable centred playing army on the grass square at the top of our street but even then i was more of a cloud watcher rilly.

you reach this point when you think "man i am all ego self-centred aspie not good for people observer only bollocks" and that's a thing that you can be, one doesn't like to think it about yourself but we aren't all cut out for being productive and reasonable and loveable guys really

ginger ale not great with sambuca fwiw

got no real issues with the rest

yeah that seems true, wdn't mix sambuca tho tbh. ginger beer, not ale. I like ginger ale but it's a pretty low key mixer? have an unopened bottle that i might bring into play when the ginger beer runs out unless mrs v comes home and slaps me upside my head

which wd be a dece excuse tbh

we should totally go out on the lash, darragh, it would be most excellent times imo

no issues with that either, but no aristotle pls

i don't do aristotle in the pub, or anywhere else really, dude was shit

most tedious fucking philosopher ever award or maybe leibniz or that twat brother of Henery James's's

i forgot the old fake irish bar appendage to the mainbrace in my list of much loved pubs, and the mainbrace itself, spent a glorious new years eve in there one time off my swede on mushrooms thinking i'd got a glowing sign on my head saying "this dude's on mushrooms"

i miss hallucinogens

booze is a ready, loving, companiable buddy for ALL TIME tho

it was all-encompassing dismissal of discussion of all higher modes of though tbh

For drinking purposes, that is. Time and a place, time and a place

exackly

sport and giant animatronic goat-fucker tableaux are ideal pub convos tbh

don't even take my "oh pity poor me i is so sad" face to the boozer, it is NOT THE PLACE

i wouldnt trust booze with my money or missus but i'll go drinking with him alright.

not that i is so sad, i am kinda focused and edgy and probly not real level-headed but sadness is sort of not there except an impending "i like where this relationship is going" gif sadness and wondering hmmm can i keep up a veneer of not-great for another 10 years or so until the kids are all safely launched

goat fucker convo def has icebreaker value

he is an hull legend. shd definitely feature in the publicity blurb imo, also he is one of those dudes where everybody you meet knows somebody who knows him

but this is like the biggest village in the world so

six degrees of separation in hull = about 3

fond memories of P4ul H34ton allegedly fending off Poll Tax bailiffs with an air rifle from his Grafton Street mansion

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2sNffR-yTA4

our civic anthem

reckon a goatfucker or similar on the sound bridge would put achill on the map

Ok, on phone, in body lotion section of an actual irl fancy dept store, and my full attn is required. Continue at yr own pace will check validity of the remainder of thread later

suddenly I have Depeche Mode's "Just Can't Get Enough" with the lyric changed to "Just Can't Get It Up" stuck in my head as a good idea for a Weird Al song

am not even dressed yet but gotta admit the water on the windows did inspire a bit of "oh sweet (not)..." earlier. mostly just glad to be the not at work though evne if this afternoon fails in my quest to do anything productive 4th week running.

lucky I have the new Radiohead album to listen to, high spirits ahead!

I don't know if people who haven't experienced it realise how physical mental health stuff can be sometimes.

I had a good session with my counselor yesterday. Dunno if it was "productive" but it was grown-up and I felt understood and I feel like I can see the beginnings of a possible path forward.

So after I went to the pub and well I *probably* shouldn't have but I mostly enjoyed it and it was mostly therapeutic but I should probably not do the buzzer in the pub quiz after an all dayer.

And now I'm a bit hungover and my brain if not yet my stomach is hungry and I can't be bothered to put outside clothes on or cook anything but I really want sweeties and I shouldn't spend Just Eat money so maybe I'll sneak up behind myself and go out before I realise what I'm doing.

And the psychic devastation is well down from Monday but I really really have to do stuff and I might be kidding myself about my own capacity to do stuff, we'll see, it's the weekend anyway even if I am a layabout, I will try to try on Monday.

Oh and I don't think my daughter's talking to me at the moment but hopefully that will pass.

Well I’m glad you’re getting something from therapy! And yeah, get something to eat like. I just remembered I have black pudding at home which I can eat tomorrow, which is good cos my iron could always do with a boosting.

Otm re physical symptoms of MH, I wish I had known this 20 years ago because things would have made so much more sense.

Are you doing anything this weekend?

Probably lying around the house playing video games but I've gone out for walks twice this week and enjoyed it, I should probably make the effort if the weather's not lousy.

Storm blowing outside, it was nice listening to the rain last night. Since I've been on the effexor I've had a lot of vivid dreams, which is a mixed blessing. And this morning was the return of a long lost frenemy, the dream of being loved and in love, like being sixteen again.

The worst of that being the real aching loss when you wake up and it's not real and you're alone and old. And I don't have getting drunk money and the storm is blowing outside and the blue is such a mirror image of actual joy that you treasure it anyway because.

I was out in that storm and got drenched to the bone in two minutes, that wasn't rain it was like a wall of water landing on me.

got a nice little soundclash between loud cracks of thunder, howling wind and the colin stetson color out of space soundtrack. please don't fail me national grid, i'm enjoying this!

Pretty windy here, haven’t been out in it. The kittens aren’t fans of it.

<3 to all

fabulous weather noises; should go out as I barely left the house y/day and 2 days without much fresh air or exercise or variation in real not-on-screen things to look at will not be good for my mental health throughout the week, but don't want to be out in this

cat was meeping constantly, possibly because of the wind/rain noises but perhaps just because, but has now settled down on her cat tree to glare at everyone and fall asleep (cat otm)

before previous big storm warnings i've always taken in the various flowerpots and herb-pots and little trees on my window sill, in case they blow off. This time I left it too late -- tho London is threatening 30mph rather than 80mph so fingers x-ed it will be OK. The tree is "safely" tied, and anyway no one will be out and about in the garden below to be brained by anything

actually i might take this opp to dig up all the invasive chickweed and let it blow free (and away) lol

Not much signs of any storm here, that's London for you, nothing interesting ever happens weatherwise.

... God heard me, thunder! Yasssssss!

... and now the wind shaking the trees. It's like "Night of the Demon" all of a sudden.

i was just listening to the commentator at Millwall, sounds like they're not short of weather right now

Bit of my fence has blown down, that's fun

I am in Corbynland, we are sheltered from storms by our preening self-righteousness.

Blew Sunday

It’s taken me from 11.15am to get from Bath to the outskirts of London, and I’m still approaching Paddington now. But the unusual weather, Blitz spirit and trusting to fate nature of the journey have been quite entertaining in their way.

LOL, the storm has definitely reached Islington.

xp ironic that it's slowed you down heading east, apparently a passenger jet broke the subsonic transatlantic record today thanks to the storm

I was hoping it would reach France in time to cancel the Six Nations match so I could sit in the pub quietly without the advertised big screen blaring and tossers in rugby shirts elbowing me at the bar - match went ahead but it did stop anyone else turning up except one other couple who also weren't watching, so the sound was thankfully on mute and no injuries were sustained

(apologies to those of you who actually enjoy that stuff)

some hefty lower branches of the tree out front have come down, hope the council won't take this as an excuse to cut the whole thing down, they already cut down a row of mature trees opposite

Fence tipped over here too, and the recycling bins with it. One for the Real England thread? Or so I like to picture it.

those Hebden Bridge pics/vids from today are grim watching. Glad I live on top of a huge mountain, well sort of a hill but locals call it a mountain.

^^ Calder Valley suffers every single time. It was really bad in Mytholmroyd, too.

In Todmorden they were using ww2 air raid sirens as a flood warning!

I need to change the litter trays and I am not looking forward to it!

I love that this is turning into the de facto Storm Ciara thread

its pronounced ciara

apparently extensive draining of grouse moors so toffs can go shooting is one of the factors that has worsened Calder Valley flooding. Maybe because Hebden Bridge is such a bohemian mecca for gays, eccentrics and lefties this is another front on the culture/class wars battlefield!

In Todmorden they were using ww2 air raid sirens as a flood warning!

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In H B as well iirc. I never had to hear them when I lived there, thankfully. Well and also, like you, living up on a hill helps a lot.

xp lol

Wind has died down here but still a bit rainy - waiting to see before I go out and try to avoid getting cat litter blown everywhere.

i was gonna say before Hebden Bridge is like the Portland of England, maybe the flood water is being deliberately targeted

Hebden Bridge's reputation as incredible edible hippy nirvana is way bigger than what it's actually like there tbf (though the chai latte places do their part to amplify the stereotype). It's a good sell I suppose. Still don't wish them people any harm though. Well not most of them anyway.

oh i don't wish them harm, i was thinking of the ill intent of local landowners/county councillors

Oh I see, yeah. I've not been keeping close track on if the millions that were promised this to counter this were paid out, and what they did with it.

I went out in the worst yesterday, and was rewarded by one of the few people in Homebase being the LOTO - unsurprisingly he's got a good line in waterproofs, not clear whether it includes the cap.

it is easy to laugh at people in waterproofs but it sure beats the hell out of getting drenched!

I could imagine him having very good advice on the best affordable brands of outdoor gear.

https://i2-prod.mirror.co.uk/incoming/article6921467.ece/ALTERNATES/s615b/Labour-party-leader-Jeremy-Corbyn.jpg please say he was wearing something like this

No, but there was a respectable amount of red!

Red Sunday

green monday

apparently so

Grey grey grey.

after the weekend storm updates itt I hope someone will have some snow to report

just refreshing https://uksnowmap.com/ repeatedly, I am bored and require fluffy white things to look at

Kinda looks like Corbz has pissed himself there, poor auld fella.

all I want is legal soma, is that so much to ask?

Sorry, wrong thread (wouldn’t joke about this behind your back to your face, so to speak):


The new government will have your back on that

In which case I welcome our alpha overlords

Lately I'm forgotten here
Isolated, feeling queer
When you were looking in the mirror
Did you see the future's lies
They march right on in time
And straight into the pool
Oh so quick and cool