This Is The Thread Where I Say.......Part Seven!

(still leaning towards taking it, though)

back at school. i've basically stopped trying. i'm giving half ass lists and letting the kids talk and be off task. i just can't care anymore. my basic goal is to get through the day with no drama. no showdowsn with kids, no worrying and stress as to if i'm ckeeping upt with the curriculum and district demands. i jus tworry about the kids being bored.

i've also being taking xanax twice a day while in school. it makes me kind of loopy and a minute ago i tripped and fell hard my side and hip hurt now. :(

I'm just thinking if I can stay mildly doped up I'll be able to live through the day. my moms gave me the xanax and when I see my p-doc today I hope I'm going to be able to give a prescription of my own.

l8r

this is sad. must find a new job.

the xanax is making it better actually. And my new anti-psyhotic, Zyprexa. it makes me not really get irritated by the acting up and, so far, me not hollering and getting on their case seems to make them act better.

Except for the hard fall I took a minute ago when I tripped my out-of-it ness is amusing. I keep forgetting things. And ask the kids the same damn question over and over again. Me,Is Tomineka out today? them: she's not in this class anymore. Me: Oh yeah. Fast forward 10 minutes, Me: where's tomineka i saw her in the hall! Them: she ain't in this class no more. Me: oh yeah. Repeat with different subjects. heh.

i have no idea if i'll be able to find another job. *sigh*

short of that i'd like to work in another bar, or some kind of retail/temping. honestly something with flexible shifts. i'll have more money problems but i thikn it will be worth it.

Dunno where to start but:

*Congrats, Mark! I'll keep my fingers crossed! Finally, one of us can earn the pound....

*Pink: Hang in there, missus!

*Sammy: I hope your meds will help you get a better hang on your emotions. The top idea is to do anything to take care of your emotional self. With that, you will have the strength to do anything to get through each moment.

On another note, because my company is completely fucked up I may have to get on the phones and start trading again. Apparently they are understaffed and can't seem to find any licensed help, which means they call in the corporate reserves. I haven't been on the phones or traded in 5 years. This sucks. In addition I of course will still be responsible for my daily work. Ugh.

Do we get time and a half, though?

I don't think you could break the stockmarket.

Yes, you do need to sell your soul and technically study for about 6 months. Worst time of my life.

Is it multiple choice?

(x-post)

The perks of having a heart attack at 23 yrs old!

or, fill out 'b' on every answer. bound to get some correct!

Ever taken the LSAT, Chris? Now, THAT is confusing shit! Which was when I started to reconsider going to law school. Should have listened to myself earlier than I did.

Never taken the LSAT, but I have two friends who have recently passed the bar and said the LSAT was harder than the bar exam.

I am all delighted because I hadn't realized that there was a new OC on tonight. Yet another instance of upcoming television making my day! (Wooo my life ROCKS)

Oh! Thanks for reminding me Julia about the OC!