I'm sad

hey the fuckin hey, i (me) started this thread & now here i am 1,00,000 years later in approx the same situ. except worse. life's awesome!!

i shan't let it bring me down

1,00,000 isnt a real number, you know that

hey man andrew l here, great to see you back, soz to hear you're sad :-(

except this time it's springtime

oh hi, how you. actcuually i wouldnt describe me as sad, its sorta good, im gettin out of a fucked up thing & it'll take time & $$$$ but its great

GREAT

Postive Mental Attitude

yeah

ok i gotta go smoke cigarettes

Think of butterflys

― Mike Hanley, Wednesday, July 18, 2001 8:00 PM (8 years ago)

sadbbott

Abbott - the dvd came in the mail today ... will try to get your copy off in the next day or two.

yr a sweetie

Is anyone else in this bitch having a bad time of it lately? I mean, maybe I'm paying too much attention to the news, or maybe I'm working too hard or not taking care of myself well enough, but man...the last three months have been an absolute BEAR.

Like, so much so that I really just want to go to bed, and wake up 6 months from now after I've done all the work I need to do between now and then.

UGH. SO just...overwhelming.

feeling you on this one,bro.

definitely. i feel very overwhelmed and frustrated.

it might help to not think in terms of what needs to be done 6 months ago and maybe set smaller goals achievable in shorter increments. more encouraging.

I have been dealt stress event after stress event lately and I've been fighting the blues like a sonovabitch.

it might help to not think in terms of what needs to be done 6 months ago and maybe set smaller goals achievable in shorter increments. more encouraging.

See, this is totally true. And, on a day to day, I'm pretty successful. Work is going pretty well, I'm losing weight healthily, I've quit smoking (over 5 weeks) ... but man, I just need a few days where I don't have to think about shit and don't have to do shit, and am just left the fuck alone.

And this is VERY odd for me, b/c I tend to be a pretty social, outgoing guy who thrives on social contact.

I'm feeling like my own worst enemy at the moment, perpetuating the very things that are making me feel so depressed, but somehow that's easier than making a break away from them.

It's like I can't make changes at a sensible point, but have to let things slide all the way into a dreadful crisis where something cracks right at the very bottom of it all.

Ooh I'd love to wake up six months later: I so badly want to avoid my driving exam, I get mad crazy anxiety attacks just thinking about setting a date. My friend advised me to take some herbs (no, not weed) like Valeriaan but I'm afraid nothing will help me to relax. Also I think I'm doing way too fucking much which is tiring me the fuck out and results in me feeling very MEH (and in the long run will result in burn out yet again).

I'm feeling like my own worst enemy at the moment, perpetuating the very things that are making me feel so depresse

You just spoke my mind, man. I'm going through some extremely grave crises of faith and self-worth at the moment for reasons I don't wanna go into (though its partly just to do with aging, I guess). I've also had poor health and its all my fault, and I'm just fed up with feeling like everything is a battle instead of a beauty.

'm just fed up with feeling like everything is a battle instead of a beauty.

Goddamnit, this.

I'm feeling like my own worst enemy at the moment

Feeling this too atm.

and me too.

I'd say "fuck you DC", since I've been feeling this way since I moved to this town a few months ago, or "fuck you job" for the same reason, but in the end I have to say "fuck you getting older and having all my friends spread out across the country", because that's really what it is. All of my closest friends are hundreds or thousands of miles away.

Ah the close friends being thousands of miles away sucks Z S. I've dealt with that for years now and it's just really tough. I'm sort of used to it but it still sucks. I'm sorry you're experiencing that too.

Damn. We're all feeling this, too. Its to the point where one of my family or friends says "I miss you," and I'm reduced to a sad ball of bummer.

Ugh.

I'm just tired of always being unwell, and... other stuff.

long time sad bastard here; won't go into details except to say not being able to get health insurance is pretty uncool

anyway, here's a photo of pears shaped like buddhas (kinda cheered me up)

http://whatimg.com/images/54652288986724905949.jpg

damn pear buddhas

http://whatimg.com/images/54652288986724905949.jpg

fuck it i give up

what is it the time of year to mope? i have this sadness thing too.
you skel: this?
http://mutateweb.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/09/buddhapears.jpg

in the end I have to say "fuck you getting older and having all my friends spread out across the country", because that's really what it is. All of my closest friends are hundreds or thousands of miles away.

yeah :(

yeah ;_;

also, newsflash, taking care of a depressed person for 15 years is a good way to become one.

Hugs all round, my sombre peeps x

multiple xpost: that's them, but i had a different pic! thx!

i'm sad that i may have to change my display name already

there we go

I'm going through some extremely grave crises of faith and self-worth . . . (partly just to do with aging, I guess).

I understand. I've felt the same way, on-and-off, since I turned 40 last year.

Yeah I'm 38, and starting to feel less healthy and... I dont know. With it? It doesn't help I have a much younger partner. It sometimes just makes me even more self conscious. Oh well, bed, lie in it, etc.

I'm finding that procrastination + laziness + low self-esteem all just happily feed on each other and leave me in this constant state of feeling like shit/beating myself up/can't be arsed to fix it. My sister wants to get Skype with a videocam so we can talk more often, the video cam my nephews can see me and not forget who I am...but I have told so many friends that I won't do videocam...and this is so shit, but the reason is I don't want everyone to stare at me and see how badly i've let myself go. And I should just say fuck it, who cares, but I do care...but I'll still happily sit on my arse and feel like I've earned the right to do sweet FA...and I'm just sad. Because I don't really talk about this to anyone. Years are literally whizzing by me and...gah. This is the sad thread, not the whine thread. I need to shut up.

n the end I have to say "fuck you getting older and having all my friends spread out across the country", because that's really what it is. All of my closest friends are hundreds or thousands of miles away.

yeah :(

― holosystolic murmur and the thrill (gbx), Friday, September 25, 2009 8:33 AM (1 hour ago) Bookmark

yeah x2 :o(

its a bummer :(

and you forget how hard it is to make new friends. i mean, it took me my whole life to gather up the excellent group of friends that I left behind...it's taken 7 years to establish that there's one chick I work with who is actually an actual captial F friend. My husband has seen many many great floods of tears from me over the fact that so many people are so superficially nice but not actually friendly. It's like reliving my childhood all over again.

stop bummin me out

xpost

for real. Only instead of 7 years it's only taken a few months.

Be a nazi about friends.

And a kitty cat too.

sorry...again, don't really talk about this much so it comes in a big flood.

this will sound like a cheesy 'make lemonade' 180, but the thing I have found in the past 6 months that really, really makes that distance between me and my friends so much less is, dare I say it, Facebook. My brother and sister are both on there, and some of my best friends in the world, who sometimes late at night I can chat back and forth with on FB and kind of 'find myself' again. i also managed to find the phone number of my oldest and best friend who moved...we ended up doing a party line together with another super-close friend, and honestly, that 45 minutes was like I'd jumped in a teleporter and been whisked back home. You just have to find a way to have those moments with the people you miss, to remember not only them but who YOU were before you left them, and hone in on that to get yourself out of the sads. I mean, if distance from your friends/homesickness is really bringing you down.

Z S, being in a city people become really competitive about friends, don't they? And it's like, if you like someone and have a lot in common with you, they might not give a shit because they say to themselves, "I've got millions of people to choose from. I don't need this guy." And so: superficial friendships.