oh, and i finally finished a large painting i posted versions of upthread:
https://i.imgur.com/Abz0Uyi.jpg
― z_tbd, Tuesday, 8 August 2023 00:04 (nine months ago) link
that tree makes me smile
great stuff as always
― corrs unplugged, Tuesday, 8 August 2023 06:30 (nine months ago) link
thank you so much corrs! and it's funny, a friend of mine i hadn't heard from in a long time ago said something similar about the tree - he said he was in a bad mood and it made him feel better. which makes me feel better, too. :)
― z_tbd, Tuesday, 8 August 2023 14:28 (nine months ago) link
Zach upon your return to ilx i almost bumped this thread myself just to see what you'd been up to. awesome as always.
― Lavator Shemmelpennick, Tuesday, 8 August 2023 15:35 (nine months ago) link
oh that's so nice, thanks! fwiw i usually post most of my paintings on instagram (@zach_tbd)these days. sometimes i wonder whether it makes sense to post them here anymore (the redundancy of posting the same images in multiple online places, not wanting to exhaust anyone who has to see it more than once), but i feel an attachment to the thread for many sentimental reasons. i've gotten so much encouragement over the years on this thread and it's helped to get me through some hard times etc <3
― z_tbd, Tuesday, 8 August 2023 20:26 (nine months ago) link
enjoy when you update this thread so please keep doin it
― budo jeru, Tuesday, 8 August 2023 20:58 (nine months ago) link
you got it budo, thank you :)
― z_tbd, Wednesday, 9 August 2023 15:03 (nine months ago) link
energy radiating from those canvases
― assert (matttkkkk), Wednesday, 9 August 2023 20:42 (nine months ago) link
glad you feel that! <3
― z_tbd, Thursday, 10 August 2023 17:26 (nine months ago) link
took a time out to make this version ("copy" feels not good and inaccurate) of cezanne's the bather (1885)
https://i.imgur.com/eYO04u2.jpg
it's hard to get the colors of oil with gouache, at least for me, but it was more fun to have a bunch of time to think about his composition and stuff like outlining
― z_tbd, Thursday, 10 August 2023 20:03 (nine months ago) link
oops, forgot!
https://i.imgur.com/hatLnfy.jpg
― z_tbd, Thursday, 10 August 2023 20:09 (nine months ago) link
callback to op
https://i.imgur.com/iCO9mwJ.gif
― z_tbd, Thursday, 10 August 2023 23:41 (nine months ago) link
what are you doing version
https://i.imgur.com/FivQKkt.gif
― z_tbd, Thursday, 10 August 2023 23:50 (nine months ago) link
soundtrack by Argent: 🎵 "Hold your head up! WOOOAH" 🎵
― budo jeru, Friday, 11 August 2023 00:01 (nine months ago) link
*power electronics plays outside*
― z_tbd, Friday, 11 August 2023 00:03 (nine months ago) link
https://i.imgur.com/vHAq447.jpg
― z_tbd, Saturday, 12 August 2023 20:45 (nine months ago) link
not wanting to exhaust anyone who has to see it more than once
^that made me chuckle, z. god forefend anyone gives your art a second look!
― more difficult than I look (Aimless), Saturday, 12 August 2023 21:03 (nine months ago) link
ah, thanks but that was a self-loathing comment of mine, wish i hadn't said that! just the other day i was complaining about a friend of mine who always announces he's anything he's involved in with such an array of self-loathing apologies that by the time he's done it feels more like a charity of event in honor of the friend who feels bad for making it not good enough...etc etc. so much better to not bring that element in, but yet i do it all the time! (working on it though)
anyway thank you aimless <3
― z_tbd, Saturday, 12 August 2023 21:39 (nine months ago) link
i am playing some music in a few hours, and this is the secret to everything i will do
https://i.imgur.com/hV13uGJ.jpg
― z_tbd, Saturday, 12 August 2023 21:40 (nine months ago) link
https://i.imgur.com/CCBvb3p.jpg
― i really like that!! (z_tbd), Monday, 28 August 2023 03:00 (nine months ago) link
EXTREME CLOSEUP!!!
https://i.imgur.com/OyGF9Si.jpg
i really wish i could change the title of this thread but i think it would make it the 4th time i've asked. but i am not drunkenly or animating
― i really like that!! (z_tbd), Monday, 28 August 2023 21:55 (nine months ago) link
and despite the title, not your photos
i would like to keep the Hey, though!
https://i.imgur.com/7uVGQAy.gif
― i really like that!! (z_tbd), Sunday, 3 September 2023 23:22 (nine months ago) link
still got it
― karl...arlk...rlka...lkar..., Monday, 4 September 2023 02:50 (eight months ago) link
https://i.imgur.com/MeSCBWF.jpg
― i really like that!! (z_tbd), Sunday, 10 September 2023 17:58 (eight months ago) link
thought i was done but ended up working on it a bit longer. as i was finishing up, a chess timer i ordered in the mail arrived. i'm going to start clocking in when i'm actually holding my brush and standing and painting, and working, and turning it off when i wander off or make tea or just stare distantly like a mule.
https://i.imgur.com/E7qSBZL.jpg
― i really like that!! (z_tbd), Monday, 11 September 2023 02:28 (eight months ago) link
looks extremely good, z
i would buy that one if i had any $
― budo jeru, Monday, 11 September 2023 02:57 (eight months ago) link
Thank you so much budo, really appreciate it!
― i really like that!! (z_tbd), Monday, 11 September 2023 06:02 (eight months ago) link
i like the painting but i reaaaally like the chess timer idea. i would love to be a place where i felt comfortable doing something like that.
― sell cigs to kids (a hoy hoy), Tuesday, 12 September 2023 09:07 (eight months ago) link
haha, yeah definitely! i need to start using it for other activities too -- it's amazing how often things, for me at least, come down to just focusing and paying attention, or not. distraction is the mindkiller, and yet, *wanders off*
― i really like that!! (z_tbd), Tuesday, 12 September 2023 16:26 (eight months ago) link
fingers crossed but i might be selling that last painting (last 3 sales have fallen through so i'm just jinxing myself again)
all ten of my fingers are crossed now, though, so 5 different crossings of 2. i've finally woken up from my yearslong slumber and started applying to things for the first time - a couple contests/juried exhibitions, a gallery, and an upcoming residency. plus, i managed to go out and see an opening at a "real" gallery on friday, to see a local artist i really like that's managed to make a living out of it. i introduced myself and he offered me (fingers crossed) a spot in an exhibition at his space in a couple months!
what's hilarious is that all of this is hitting right as my savings hits $0, like, exactly after working my ass off and going through my life savings trying to become better for the last 2+ years. i know i need to get a source of steady income, even if it's just taking tickets at the art center, but i'm also filled up to the brim with music and art activities and obligations right now, in the very best way. never really understood wanting there to be more hours in a day, until very recently
― i really like that!! (z_tbd), Tuesday, 12 September 2023 16:31 (eight months ago) link
anyway, that might be oversharing, sorry, but i figure anyone still reading this thread might be interested in hearing about some irl progress. i also made made this timelapse (not really a timelapse - more just taking a quick pic after significant changes) of the last painting. i had to make it tiny and reduce the quality to get it down to a reasonable filesize, shades of 2009 internet
https://i.imgur.com/daSW9oT.gif
― i really like that!! (z_tbd), Tuesday, 12 September 2023 16:34 (eight months ago) link
4th and final post in a row, sorry, but what's hilarious is that it took me about a week straight of painting to finally realize that the hand on the left was ENORMOUS, like way the fuck too big. i didn't use a model or a pictorial reference (although it very much resembles reagan on the front of perlstein's Invisible Bridge hardcover), and apparently my idea of a hand is just to make them cartoonishly large. i finally realized, on the second to last day of painting, that making it a normal size would improve things. kinda miss that giant hand though :D
― i really like that!! (z_tbd), Tuesday, 12 September 2023 16:36 (eight months ago) link
Stop apologising for sharing Zach. We all have this page bookmarked to support ya skinny ass. Share your feelings, your work, your experience, whatever the hell you want, you’ve more than earned it here
― sell cigs to kids (a hoy hoy), Tuesday, 12 September 2023 18:36 (eight months ago) link
lol <3 thank you a hoy hoy
― i really like that!! (z_tbd), Tuesday, 12 September 2023 19:25 (eight months ago) link
a hoy hoy to
sounds like you're in a good place, hope it all works out
loving the paintings AND the animations
― corrs unplugged, Tuesday, 12 September 2023 19:30 (eight months ago) link
a hoy hoy otm*
Here here, a hoy a hoy!Zach, this one has a real Chagall vibe to me. Hopefully they has positive associations for you. Me likey.
― Lavator Shemmelpennick, Tuesday, 12 September 2023 22:39 (eight months ago) link
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― budo jeru, Tuesday, 12 September 2023 22:49 (eight months ago) link
i'm not very familiar with Chagall but i quite like what i've seen, thank you lavator!
― i really like that!! (z_tbd), Wednesday, 13 September 2023 22:54 (eight months ago) link
taking another hiatus! if anyone wants to say hello i'm (hopefully) easily findable on instagram, and my ilxmail should be current
― i really like that!! (z_tbd), Thursday, 14 September 2023 22:14 (eight months ago) link
i should honestly do the same. take care z
― budo jeru, Thursday, 14 September 2023 23:07 (eight months ago) link
This place ain’t the same without you but I can only imagine the impetus to take breaks and the experience of them as a healthy thing, so good on you Z!
― Lavator Shemmelpennick, Friday, 15 September 2023 00:24 (eight months ago) link
busy 2 months!
https://i.imgur.com/uO7mh8W.jpghttps://i.imgur.com/e6BGo68.jpghttps://i.imgur.com/s5POtFa.jpghttps://i.imgur.com/heNprrg.jpghttps://i.imgur.com/a1MNv9q.jpghttps://i.imgur.com/Mvv1eYM.jpghttps://i.imgur.com/QLBhBgE.jpghttps://i.imgur.com/BSmkNzY.jpghttps://i.imgur.com/wWDdEs0.jpghttps://i.imgur.com/1jzJZdr.jpg
strangely, music is taking up a lot more time too! there's hardly time to paint because of music practices, and then...i'm out of money. so i'm in the middle of a job application right now. in the end, i was able to go almost 2.5 years without working a job, completely obliterating my savings. After rent on the first i am down to about $200 in my bank account! but I have boxes of records to sell, a part-time job taking tickets coming in January, and I've had some luck in selling some recent paintings and still have a kindling of hope that I can make it that way some day. i had money, i have zero money, i have zero regrets, i would do it again in the exact same way if it led me here
― i really like that!! (z_tbd), Friday, 17 November 2023 02:10 (six months ago) link
great to see you back zach, and to see your work evolving! love a lot of these
― Lavator Shemmelpennick, Friday, 17 November 2023 17:59 (six months ago) link
cosign, so many things going on!
if I were on your continent I would invest!
― corrs unplugged, Friday, 17 November 2023 19:51 (six months ago) link
thanks so much!! :)
― i really like that!! (z_tbd), Friday, 17 November 2023 21:49 (six months ago) link
really enjoying the work in wip right now, it's the best place to be
https://i.imgur.com/TGJjsBp.jpg
― i really like that!! (z_tbd), Saturday, 18 November 2023 00:08 (six months ago) link
https://i.imgur.com/OPjAPlw.jpg
― i really like that!! (z_tbd), Saturday, 18 November 2023 02:16 (six months ago) link
https://i.imgur.com/z5cgVIa.jpg
― i really like that!! (z_tbd), Saturday, 18 November 2023 03:12 (six months ago) link