oh wow, that's nifty. would be curious to glance through.
thanks for the updates, everyone. tabes I don't think you've been an ass. I mean, no more than we all get to be, sometimes.
MAP! I am doing the EXACT same thing with weed. it had to crescendo I guess before I could understand exactly what it was doing to me. I took an edible one day and the anxiety machine inside my body skyrocketed to another level. it was surreal. so for the moment, I'm off weed and caffeine - weed, specifically in work and social situations, as you say. feels great. curious to see how it'll go once I start indulging for music and alone time etc.
I like to hear of everyone's travels, and respective breaks from work. how lovely. I unfortunately have not had much of either, and work is a relative disaster at the moment. it's fairly useless going into it, other than to say that this year is going to be a slog and I have no hope for a raise until next, at a time when 2 rolls of paper towel cost $8 and a coffee $6. what is happening. I'm trying to remain grateful - it's my New Year's resolution - but I haven't been succeeding much lately, instead focusing on sequestering myself off from the world and writing in my journal. lol I don't mean to sound so nihilistic, it's just ... a dark tunnel at the moment. we'll see how a week off next week plays into my mood.
― Swen, Monday, 23 January 2023 17:07 (one year ago) link
oh a week off! it sounds like you really need it - glad that's coming your way.
i've been on an emotional rollercoaster lately which is business as usual lol. i was very tired last week. feeling somewhat better this week. the whole hook up / play on the side thing .. sometimes feel like i'm just too much of a mess emotionally to manage that tbh. feel like it's cutting back / cutting things out season for me.
we went to an opera yesterday! (daughter of the regiment.) surprised by how swept away i was, and how comfortable the whole experience was (except for opera queens sizing me up during the intermission haha). i'm definitely going to more symponies, operas, etc. this year, much more enjoyable for me than a movie i think.
― ꙮ (map), Monday, 23 January 2023 18:00 (one year ago) link
that's awesome. i work at an opera house! :D
emotional rollercoaster ... is pretty much my MO. lol.
hyd today?
― Swen, Tuesday, 24 January 2023 18:32 (one year ago) link
hey swen, feeling pretty darn good, and yourself?
― ꙮ (map), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 18:36 (one year ago) link
awww good! yeah i dunno i'm taking things very calmly today - waiting for the other shoe to drop lol. beautiful day here which is perking me up. listening to livin' on a prayer radio haha :P :P :P
― Swen, Tuesday, 24 January 2023 18:44 (one year ago) link
lol i love that for you, sorry to be saying that cliche but it's true! i feel ya on the 'ambient anxiety about looming stuff' situation. taking things calmly sure helps. i've been thinking about a negative interaction i have to deal with on a weekly basis and i've resolved to take the heat out of it and set a firm boundary instead.
― ꙮ (map), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 18:52 (one year ago) link
love it. i'm doing something similar psychologically today - realizing that there's always going to be a deluge of work and stress so there's no point in rushing it. one step at a goddamn time. :D
what have you been listening to lately (besides opera, which i love for YOU!)? ;-)
― Swen, Tuesday, 24 January 2023 18:54 (one year ago) link
haha, i've been listening to metal and sort of vibing to the religious aspect of it, like magical beliefs and stuff but all directed towards evil and death. it's a good way to process pain XD
― ꙮ (map), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 19:00 (one year ago) link
can i namedrop for a second? i got propositioned on scruff by a4r0n of h0nch0, the dj / dance music group out of p1ttsburgh. he lives in s4lt l4ke 6 months out of the year i guess, to ski afaict. he's pretty hot but idk seems wisest to keep 'nsa' and 'dj' separate. also probably rich and i don't rly like hooking up with rich dudes, it leaves me with sour grapes. i had a good jo thinking about it though lol.
― ꙮ (map), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 19:12 (one year ago) link
hey y'all
happy to read about some measure of peace here
― Malevolent Arugula (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 19:13 (one year ago) link
and piece! lol
― ꙮ (map), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 19:16 (one year ago) link
whhat! you have to hook up with him! he's hella cute.
also love your metal music catharsis, right there wit u
― Swen, Tuesday, 24 January 2023 19:23 (one year ago) link
hmmmm ok girl you are 'tipping' me the other way
― ꙮ (map), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 19:26 (one year ago) link
i MEAN come on what are girlfriends for, thicc beard boy + music is an easy win
― Swen, Tuesday, 24 January 2023 19:29 (one year ago) link
man y'all
stop talking about pieces and tips
― Malevolent Arugula (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 19:32 (one year ago) link
I've two hours left in the office before I go home
What's a piece?
― عباس کیارستمی (Eric H.), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 19:33 (one year ago) link
a little bit o’ cake
― donna rouge, Tuesday, 24 January 2023 19:36 (one year ago) link
donna!
with some rose hip herbal tea to wash it down.
― ꙮ (map), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 19:40 (one year ago) link
:D :D :D
― Swen, Tuesday, 24 January 2023 19:44 (one year ago) link
mm best song about cake
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XlI7FzN8Pcw
― Malevolent Arugula (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 19:46 (one year ago) link
https://media.tenor.com/5Qwph1nu5GcAAAAd/labyrinth-david-bowie.gif
― عباس کیارستمی (Eric H.), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 19:48 (one year ago) link
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=leK4eoqwmfU
― Swen, Tuesday, 24 January 2023 19:51 (one year ago) link
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CRxViRWEaSE
― donna rouge, Tuesday, 24 January 2023 19:53 (one year ago) link
https://flxt.tmsimg.com/assets/p11069125_p_v8_ab.jpg
― عباس کیارستمی (Eric H.), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 19:55 (one year ago) link
oh lordy that sugar & cake track is very sweet
― ꙮ (map), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 20:08 (one year ago) link
so are you bb
― Swen, Tuesday, 24 January 2023 21:13 (one year ago) link
awwwwwwwwww *blush*
― ꙮ (map), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 21:19 (one year ago) link
The week's best thread.
― Malevolent Arugula (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 21:26 (one year ago) link
I don’t have much to add here beyond I looked up the dude map mentioned and uh yeah hit that, regrets are for tomorrow
― castanuts (DJP), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 21:26 (one year ago) link
Although they found super-gonorrhea in my state last week so I’m not following my own advice
― castanuts (DJP), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 21:32 (one year ago) link
oh no. reminds me i'm about due for some testing. the admin work supporting non-monogamy is not insignificant lol.
― ꙮ (map), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 21:42 (one year ago) link
would yall believe i got chatted up by a guy who i think is even hotter though, who also likes running trails. i was pretty fast on settling the coffee date logistics with that one. like i was chatting with him at the same time i was chatting with mr h0nch0, and h0nch0 was taking second chair. he is going to find this thread isn't he. well that's enough boy chatter from me *wraps phone cord around finger*
― ꙮ (map), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 21:48 (one year ago) link
i feel like your name should be Kristy rn!!!
― Swen, Tuesday, 24 January 2023 21:58 (one year ago) link
oh what a coincidence, i just filed a name change request for "Kristy"!!!
― ꙮ (map), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 22:01 (one year ago) link
no last name, just Kristy
― ꙮ (map), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 22:02 (one year ago) link
map i don't think he's rich but i do think he has a nice lifestyle in that city. if that matters
― J0rdan S., Tuesday, 24 January 2023 22:05 (one year ago) link
map, ya pushed me into starting a Scruff account
― Malevolent Arugula (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 22:06 (one year ago) link
j0rdan! thanks for the tip. i won't go into the nitty gritty but i guess i'm a little jealous. sometimes best not to hook up with the guys you secretly want to be. my emotions might kick me in the ass. maybe i can set all that aside and have a little fun but i'm not sure. think i'll at least ask if he wants to meet for coffee and go from there. right now though i'm also kind of into feeding the home fire. husband needs extra support while looking for a job. i might need the outlet though. neway.
xp to alfred best of luck chasing the pogonophiles!
― ꙮ (map), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 22:15 (one year ago) link
h 0 t m 4 s s is a great party tho if you ever end up out there. i had a wonderful bathhouse experience
― J0rdan S., Tuesday, 24 January 2023 22:23 (one year ago) link
omg h0nch0 guy is dreamy 4 real! but i also feel “sometimes best not to hook up with the guys you want to be” makes a lot of intuitive sense (as someone who’s made that mistake before lol)
― donna rouge, Tuesday, 24 January 2023 22:27 (one year ago) link
― ꙮ (map)
I hunt pogonosauri!
― Malevolent Arugula (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 22:31 (one year ago) link
Hookup or no hookup, I feel it makes sense for the two of you to meet regardless, if for no other reason than the job you both do. If it happens, it happens. If it doesn’t, you might have met someone well worth knowing?
― mike t-diva, Tuesday, 24 January 2023 23:09 (one year ago) link
(I love meeting other DJs. They are almost always more successful than me, but there’s still so much common ground, and I’m able not to let the status gap get in the way. Geeking out over our shared interest just seems to trump that!)
― mike t-diva, Tuesday, 24 January 2023 23:11 (one year ago) link
(He does look quite nice though. Ahum.)
― mike t-diva, Tuesday, 24 January 2023 23:13 (one year ago) link
ah that's a nice perspective mike, i aspire to have that attitude
― ꙮ (map), Tuesday, 24 January 2023 23:24 (one year ago) link
wow this is too much :D
― The field divisions are fastened with felicitations. (Deflatormouse), Wednesday, 25 January 2023 07:27 (one year ago) link
― J0rdan S.
heh, caught myself imagining this severe hottie whisking map away to his chalet in the alps on a private jet, managing his dance music empire from there, phone constantly going off.
― The field divisions are fastened with felicitations. (Deflatormouse), Wednesday, 25 January 2023 07:35 (one year ago) link
it sounds like there's a magnetic attraction/repulsion thing happening with this guy that you owe it to yourself to investigate.
focusing on sequestering myself off from the world and writing in my journal.
have i got a playlist for you!
if you find yourself in that mode don't fight it imo, or worry that you should be in some other place, decorate your cocoon and enjoy
what do you wear to the opera??
― The field divisions are fastened with felicitations. (Deflatormouse), Wednesday, 25 January 2023 07:46 (one year ago) link
Clothes usually, preferably clean ones unless you’re known to be very rich
― castanuts (DJP), Wednesday, 25 January 2023 13:46 (one year ago) link