I'm sad

there are other sads

Sad loris.

(Still loves getting tickled)

I had a dream about a fabulous cell phone that was a wooden banana with elaborate silver framing and woke up with a sore throat. Yesterday felt like an out-of-body experience driven out of my body by crying. And I woke up glued to the sheets with sweat. I stepped on a cockroach but it wasn't a cockroach, it was a gorgeous brown beetle with feather antennae and delicate cream stripes.

This is all too weird to stay depressed.

thats the spirit! go abbott!

The spirit is 'live in a waking dream against your will'

i like waking dreams

uuuugh
I tried looking through the flattering pictures of tennis players thread, I tried looking through the unflattering pictures of tennis players thread. The fact remains I'm listening to sad motherfucker music and the red wine is taking effect. I was accosted not once but twice at the store today while picking up the red wine, both times stuff like "hey white boy, you don't belong here", shit like that. I've been trying to embrace the attitude where you put on peppy music and suspend reality for a few hours and pretend everything's okaydoodle, but some days you just have to let it hit the bottom again, start again tomorrow. Thanks for the bookmark Abbott

don't slip into the vin triste, mon ami

don't be sad

Regardless, I've gotta be up and at'em for a hard day's work of CONTRACT MANAGEMENT.

I remember when I was 8, winning the wishbone and thinking to myself "god, if you exist, please let me do contract management when I get older." Turns out there IS a god

haha, sorry. I should try to take a positive outlook on this. My job is totally meaningless. But last time that happened, somewhere in the dirge of an 8-hour data entry day I really got motivated to go to graduate school and go for something cared about. Next job I go for, I'm going to ensure that it's something that will actually make a difference.

monday nites of long weekends are pretty tough tbh.

have a sweet day at work tomorrow my dude, whatever that entails.

i wd kill to manage a contract right now tbh

I would too, but then the guilt, and so maybe it wouldn't after all be worth it.

you guys your well wishes and subtle lols are really ruining my bad mood, please keep it up :)

i was being serious though, is that ok?

where do you live? I'm intrigued by the racially charged hostility you encountered at the liquor store.

DC. Not a liqour store, just a Safeway. Which pretty much functions as the wine/beer store for me since there isn't another one around.

white people aren't welcome in your safeway? i'm intrigued too

i go to safeway too. sometimes i am the only white person there but i am never made to feel unwelcome at safeway.

I'm from DC. Where in DC? U street safeway?

Yeah, it's not typical. It was just dudes roaming the parking lot, one before shopping and one after. Sometimes when it rains it pours.

Takoma Park safeway on Piney Branch

you should say something like, "what this safeway doesn't have any crackers?"

that would be funny.

lol

what is contract management exactly?

z maybe we could have an all-maryland fap someday. no dc people allowed though

Contract management

http://www.ncmahq.org/files/BannerAds/banner1.jpg

"business success through contract management excellence"

And you implied that your job is somehow void of passion.

no really

I can only speak in terms of contracts relating to the government. Basically whenever the govt. wants to outsource something (and nowadays, they outsource fucking EVERYTHING, from soldiering to cleaning the toilets to IT stuff), some poor schlump has to write up a technical proposal, get the contractor's counterproposal, write up a budget, conditions that must be met, on and on. Then, once the contract is signed and everything, the same poor sadbutt(<<this is me, btw) has to monitor the contractor and make sure they're doing what they're supposed to, deliverables are delivered on time, etc. Trust me, it's a fucking BLAST.

The icing on the cake is that when you get hired, or at least when I got hired, they don't mention anything about working with contracts. Then, sometime in the second week they're like "oh btw, you have to manage the contract for OAP Corp. Ltd. Fund Bros, sorry, it's gonna eat up most of your time now, you got punk'd lol!"

The NCMA website has a "member's only" section. Hot contract management action.

did you go to graduate school for this? like business school or something? it sounds kinda hard.

z maybe we could have an all-maryland fap someday. no dc people allowed though

That sounds GREAT. Although I wouldn't mind including DC people (or Baltimore peeps too, for that matter).

Wiki on contract management:

Contract management or contract administration is the management of contracts made with customers, vendors, partners, or employees. Contract management includes negotiating the terms and conditions in contracts and ensuring compliance with the terms and conditions, as well as documenting and agreeing any changes that may arise during its implementation or execution. It can be summarized as the process of systematically and efficiently managing contract creating, execution, and analysis for the purpose of maximizing financial and operational performance and minimizing risk.

Actually, it sounds like it might be interesting. A little bloodless, I guess, but interesting.

did you go to graduate school for this? like business school or something? it sounds kinda hard.

I went to graduate school for environmental policy. I really want to work with energy/electricity/utilities/energy efficiency/climate. Any and/or all of that. For some reason I thought that at the environmental protection agency I'd be able to do something related to the environment. Somehow I ended up in a Brazil-esque division that really has nothing to do with the environment. I mean, the dataflows we manage are environmental in nature, but to be honest they could be statistics on coat hanger production and the basic job would be exactly the same. It's my fault for taking the job, but I really needed to land something quick to pay the bills.

I also think it sounds potentially interesting, especially if you were working in an interesting area of government.

It could be valuable experience for a job at the GAO or someplace like that. Insider knowledge for government watchdogs and auditors.

Is it easier to land interesting government jobs from inside the government, or does having your foot in the door make no real difference?

That sounds GREAT. Although I wouldn't mind including DC people (or Baltimore peeps too, for that matter).

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ok they can come too. i live in baltimore for the past 3 months btw

i'm not gonna try to convince you that your job is interesting if you don't think it is Z S but at least you're not a high school teacher

yeah i would think it was interesting just because i like boring stuff and i need a job

IM A HIGH SCHOOL TEACHER, and I like my job just fine.

I guess it would be interesting for some people. Maybe it's more exciting in other divisions. The contract I'm "managing" is depressing. The first day I talked to my boss, he's like "yeah so we're giving you a contract that's being phased out over the next two years. We're cutting your budget by 3/4, just keeping the basics of it going until we can replace it with something better. Any questions?"

Is it easier to land interesting government jobs from inside the government, or does having your foot in the door make no real difference?

Way easier, which is how I justified taking the job. There are lots of jobs that are only advertised internally, and preference is given to current govt. employees. And plus you can always take an elevator up a floor to the division that's hiring and say hello and introduce yourself, which helps. Unfortunately I have to serve out a two year term as part of my hiring process, so I'm stuck in hell for months and months to come.

Mainly I'm just worried about someone finding out that I spend 75% of my working day browsing NYT, political and energy blogs.

Harbl, I thought you were an attorney in a Public Defender's Office. Is my memory misfiring?

at least the reading's topical

xpost i'm a high school teacher too and i've been finding it extremely dreary lately

I was reading an article on the NYT the other day titled something like "What do you do if your coworker is slacking off?" and my first thought was "oh shit, that might be me"

daniel esq i don't know how you would know that but i am not a real lawyer yet. i have worked in a bunch of different pd's offices though.