Blue Saturday

Acting like I wanna die, terrified of eternal nonexistence, I feel you bud.

Drinking is a terrible, dumb way of stopping time. And it doesn't stop it, it eats it.

Otfm. It's like Schrödingers cat with an added Catch-22. When stopping or eating time cancel each other out and are nullified. And the 'null-ness' of nullify sounds way more appealing than it should.

Schrödinger's catch-22 is good

I feel like lying in bed listening to Eliane Radigue and shitposting might be a good plan for the rest of my life.

Hey yeh! Shit posting is something to do

I wonder how lucrative shitposting is financially

Might look into that, a job you can do from bed sounds like a plan.

have you considered becoming a camgirl

hi and <3 to all, sorry about yr weeks gyac and NV, sorry about your twilight zones LBI

here is a space for you to imagine whatever emoji is most appropriate after that sentence

sorry for wrong kind of shit posting

ILX ate my emoji contemplation space but I guess you didn't need any more than that anyway

I do have the boobs to be a camgirl

There's no wrong way to shitpost unless you're Laura Kuennsberg so fire away spacey

otm, please comment more <3

Can't tell what's "this election is foregrounding how evil and stupid vast swathes of people are" depression and what's "I've fucked everything up very badly and absolute crisis is closing in" depression and what's "depression is eating me up and distorting all perspective" depression any more

It's like climbing a mountain getting out of the house to get food, really rather wouldn't, I just lie here watching the waves of apathy and anxiety alternating over me

sadkins diet

if it's a little from all 3 columns, fight column three first and fuck column 2 a bit for now and fuck col 1 completely until you've mental feet under you again, whenever, if ever

"sadkins diet" is good :)

it was a long-winded way of saying "in sooth i know not why i am so sad" i guess but i really *really* know not, i mean these are the operating conditions

whats special about short winds tho

"depression is eating me up and distorting all perspective" is the foundation all the other bad feeling builds on ime, and keeping that at the forefront of my mind when i'm really struggling is key to getting at least some way back on track

it's fuckin hard tho, i feel you

tears, idle tears, i know not what they mean.

a job you can do from bed sounds like a plan

it's actually really hard to sustain motivation at these!

I can imagine, but the point feels moot.

"the operating conditions" I meant this is life, unexceptional, general.

3 o'clock in the morning hanging onto this thread to the world outside counting the isolate slow thoughts

Shd read and shut up, fold up, fold away to forgotten pocket paper.

Ha I just read your post in the other thread j yeah reading thank god

"Invitation to a Gunfighter": Yul Brynner is fucking KILLING IT

i feel - on days like this, which are shitty and hungover and stupid - like i'm always the one who has to reach out to my children. they never initiate a meet-up. and they live with their mom and then kvetch about her to me when it suits and sometimes, mostly, i think well this is normal and its ok but sometimes it just makes me feel very very nobody writes to this colonel

in the buccaneer yul has a good bad wig it's very disorientating

i think i remember that

"Invitation to a Gunfighter" was pretty excellent but you can see Hollywood struggling to rein in his sexuality

https://3.bp.blogspot.com/-ghIIUKIUEWE/UbaiC-gD9vI/AAAAAAAAI5U/6sukTwbR4SM/s1600/The+Buccaneer+2.png

yeah this is wrong

i think i hated Chorlton Heston even before i knew he was a total douchebag

There is a hipster in a canal boat on BBC4 and it's actually the least worst thing on atm

He's just used the word boaters to refer to co-bellends and he's about to explore Stoke ffs

I can't do this to meself there must be a Nazi documentary on somewhere

u-boaters

Ah it's finished thank fuck oh god it's a documentary about the Queen's sister

Insert coke joke here

John Cooper Clarke was on celebrity antiques road trip pissing all the money away

masterchef notwithstanding i've quit terrestrial for netflix and LA REINA DEL SUR and then ANCIENT ALIENS

I think Ancient Aliens gets played on one of the high number terrestrial channels but that stuff hurts my head

I found a good Chinese series of "Romance of the Three Kingdoms" on Youtube the other week but I'm too befuddled for subtitles today.

i mean yes it's brain-corroding garbage but have you seen "factual" TV recently

erich von daniken did brexit

Yeah I enjoy terrible factual TV but lately Jamie Theakston has been too much for me

I can't do this to meself there must be a Nazi documentary on somewhere

Nazi documentary on ITV at the moment

i'm always the one who has to reach out to my children. they never initiate a meet-up

NV, I spent a few minutes earlier today realizing I haven't reached out to my own parents for a while. I think it's a parent/child dynamic and I've actually asked my parents if they'd want me to call/meet up more often. It's totally legit for you to say "hey, it'd really help if you called or visited a bit more often"

maybe set up a regular evening or whatever

I do take both of them out on the reg and I think you're right, it's what children do. That's what I was pondering.

Both of them. The two that live down the road. The eldest is in Essex, poor lad.

Couldn't decide on an appropriate thread to moan about it being Guy Martin season on Channel 4 again

I don’t know who that is. But this is always the appropriate thread!

Sitting outside vets with a naughty kitten, sky’s darkening rapidly and it’s not even 3.30, and I can see a GET BORIS GONE tactical voting billboard. That’s pretty blue, right?