fuck cancer

So I'm kind of grossed out by this, but Casper's in The Sun today. Or, at least, on their website.

https://www.thesun.co.uk/fabulous/9844047/babys-rash-dismissed-eczema-battling-cancer/

Also the Daily Mail, and Metro.co.uk too.

We offered to be a case study for the life insurance company, and they do all their marketing via press. We thought about it, and figured if it raised awareness of the disease that was a good thing, so we said yes. Em did a phoner last week, we sent the press company photos, and now he's a human interest story.

The Daily Mail website managed to mangle all sorts of basic facts (like his fucking age and name) that everyone else got right.

Yeah, not sure how I feel about this. We've got no money out of it. Dunno if the company will sell more critical illness for kids cover. But if it helps someone, somewhere, that's a plus, right?

the Sunday Times did an article about end-of-life doulas and featured my wife in it and got her name wrong, it's par for the course with these scumbags tbh.

just got back from the GP. had to hand-deliver a letter to request they move my wife's anti-nausea medication from the acute list to the repeat list because they won't do it over the phone, or rather they might, but it depends on how much of a jobsworth cunt the receptionist who answers the phone is. they used to accept prescription requests via email but no longer do for some fucking reason. why are they going backwards? only written letters are acceptable, in 2019. we'll see if they actually fix it this time or if we have to go through this rigmarole next time she runs out

Written letters? wtf.

more complete shit from the completely broken NHS:

- my wife had stopped taking the previous chemo because it wasn't working, then went into the hospice, but was supposed to start taking a different chemo when she got out. for unexplained reasons this was delayed, something to do with the oncologist referral not going through. but even when it did go through, they couldn't fit her in at the chemo ward for another 3 weeks, so she would be off chemo for 6 weeks
- so my wife emailed her Macmillan nurse to complain about the delay when it is urgent that she gets back on chemo. she gets an out of office, nurse is on holiday. fair enough people go on holiday. so she emails the other nurse. she is also on holiday. how the fuck are they letting both cancer nurses go on holiday at the same time? I can't even do that at my job. when the nurse gets back from holiday she managed to persuade the chemo ward to fit my wife in a week earlier, so that's something I guess
- a community nurse calls and makes an appointment to visit last Friday. she doesn't turn up. no phone call, nothing. we don't have a number for the community nurses because they don't like giving them out
- today at the chemo ward a nurse realises the pharmacy didn't put the chemo in the fridge, so they have to go back to the pharmacy and get another batch. lucky she noticed eh?

these are the people we have to trust our lives with. just relentless incompetence over and over and over and over

hello all. CP, i'm so sorry you and your wife are suffering so. totally inhuman incompetence, it seems.

an update from me: surgery went well, though i've had two hospitalizations in the six weeks since due to issues with my small intestine, which tend to be the most usual complications following the specific type of surgery enacted upon me.

i went back to work after twelve days, which is as totally bananas as it sounds, but i'm only teaching two classes and they're both going pretty well. only had to cancel one session due to health stuff (knock on wood).

the big news: the pathology reports were negative from all the tissue and lymph and everything they took out of me. so at this point, i am cancer free.

it's my birthday on Friday— i turn 35— and we are going out to my favorite restaurant and i am going to eat a fancy expensive hamburger and drink too much.

thank you for all of your well-wishes and thoughts, they've meant a great deal.

i'll also be around here more now that i can sit down without experiencing massive amounts of pain. (long story).

thats great news table

a great update, ttitt. I hope the remainder of your recovery goes smoothly.

sending out good wishes to Mr. and Mrs. Poo as well.

tabes, happy to hear you are living well, dear fella!

Colonel, wishing the best for the missus and you.

These days my chief medical worries remain paying for care (or rather, everything else, as my family will pay for the care if I can't).

<3 tabes!!<3

update: latest chemo doesn't work. cancer has spread in bones and liver. I'd allowed myself to get my hopes up a bit, but we did know that it was likely the only reason my wife feels better lately is because they put her on steroids a few months ago, and tests have confirmed that is why, not because the chemo was doing anything.

they are out of options. the only thing left is IV chemo, which would severely reduce my wife's quality of life, and she said she wouldn't do it, but now she says she might try it, because she's not ready to go yet. the hospital are going to do a biopsy, because apparently there is a remote chance the cancer could've mutated into some other form that might be treatable by other drugs, but that feels like they are clutching at straws, it is not very likely that's happened

as always wish the best for her, CP

oh fuck fuck fuck cancer. desperately sad news, CP, and I'm so sorry.

oh CP i am sorry. nothing but love for the two of you <3

Well damn. Hoping for the best, somehow.

A lot of love for you both, man.

So sorry, CP

so sorry to hear, hope you have better news soon

oh man, much love cp

CP I wish I could hug you.

So sorry to hear that, CP.

I'm very sorry CP

sorry to hear, CP. sending love to both of you

Sending loads of love to you and Mrs CP.

So bad for you both. I hope if she goes for chemo it’s not as bad and debilitating as expected.

I am so sorry, CP. Wishing you and your wife the very best.

Really sorry to read this CP, hoping for the best.

:( i'm sorry. she seems to have been hanging in there very tenaciously though in the face of both cancer and medical incompetence so i hope that is a source of strength. may you both endure the next step

So sorry to hear that. All best wishes to you both.

Oh fuck. So much love and sympathy for you.

Much love to both of you

so my wife has decided she doesn't want to have IV chemo as it's too debilitating, would only prolong her life by months and she doesn't want to spend the rest of her life in a hospital ward

yesterday she had a biopsy procedure done on her liver to test if the cancer has mutated which might open up new chemo options. because she doesn't want IV chemo, last week she emailed the Macmillan nurse asking what these chemo options are, because if it's IV-only she doesn't want to have to go through the biopsy for no reason. she got a response back from the nurse saying she would talk to the oncologist. this week my wife chased up the nurse again. no response until today, as in after the fucking thing's been done already, saying yes it's IV only, so don't do the procedure if you don't want to.

so my wife just had someone drill 2 holes in her liver for no fucking reason at all. more excellent work from our outstanding National Health Service

ah christ

I'm sorry to hear every part of that, man. Take care and love to you both.

that’s terrible, and i’m really sorry for both of you having to go through this

Stay strong, CP.

I’m really sorry, CP.

I'm fuming on your behalf CP. as if cancer isn't shit enough on its own.

we got the results of the biopsy yesterday. the results were there were no results. they didn't get a big enough sample. but there were no signs the cancer has mutated. so they're taking it as no change. this is what we were expecting - it was a remote chance and we knew that up front, and didn't really change our circumstances at all. so that's it, no more treatment, end of chemo. which my wife is happy about. just palliative care from now on. and the hospice nurses are much more on the ball than anyone at the hospital. the oncologist said he couldn't find any fault with her decision but the door is open if she changes her mind and wants to go on intravenous chemo, but there are very few options. one of the drugs he had in mind she's already had an allergic reaction to.

it looks like we get through this year, which a year ago I wasn't sure would happen. it's progressing pretty slowly at the moment. this could change at any moment though.

I seem to be missing an unhinged rant about the state of the NHS so I'll just say the Macmillan nurse didn't say a word during this, not even to say she was there if we needed any help. which we would've probably just laughed at anyway. there is no position more useless in the NHS than the Macmillan nurse. they're supposed to be there for support but provide none.

Colonel Poo you and your wife have my sincerest wish for days ahead of comfort, peace, togetherness, and relief. And fuck cancer.

Best wishes to you and your wife, Colonel.

Wishing you guys a happy and peaceful time together for as long as possible. Fuck cancer by enjoying life.

aye, all the best to you and your missus CP.

My mum's twin sister has just found out she has something like what A A Gill described as the "full English breakfast of cancers" shortly before he died and it isn't looking good for her. And in the same week my uncle with an aversion to seeing doctors nearly died with urine and blood leaking into his stomach because of his undiagnosed prostate cancer. And then my mum who is the only one of her clan with a driving license to help her siblings get places at bad times like this, slipped on a rainy surface and broke her arm last week. Fucking hell!

Love to you and your wife, CP - and good luck to the clan calzino, too.

<3 <3 <3 cp

thanks everyone and echoing AF to you calzino, hope you are doing OK

sending love and best wishes to you and your wife, CP

and best wishes to all your family too, calz

Much love to all! x

Wishing you all the best, CP (and the calzinos too).

Good wishes to everybody dealing with this stuff <3

love to you & yr wife CP, and calzino