Blue Saturday

maybe we should introduce school lessons on how to shut the fuck up and just be at peace

These sessions will focus on;
 How to conduct a job search
 How to market yourself
 CV writing
 Interview skills
 Competency based interviews
 Managing online profile

what if i don't want to market myself?

card in a phone box or gtfo imo

just sat in a maths class having long complicated thoughts about teenagers, education, the cultivation of discipline, the possible intrinsic dickery of a sizeable proportion of human beings, my own relationship to all of this and to life and to what the point of anything is

primary conclusions were it's time to get out and i need to have a long deep meditate to work out where my head's aligned to the rest of humanity. secondary conclusions were a version of shrug emoji.

teenagers and classrooms will do this to you.

it knots together i guess, there's a self-centred willful stupidity and dickishness to others but then they're bored and lost and empty and why the hell is the universe making them sit there bored hour after hour anyway, perhaps nobody is expected to be a winner, perhaps they're the meat in a grinder that keeps turning to no purpose except the need to keep cranking its own handle

also tho teenagers are disgusting savages let it not be forgotten

i am certainly not disavowing that possibility but to what extent are they innate savages and to what extent do they have savagery thrust upon them and is the savagery taught by the people who don't care about them or by the people who actually somehow think they're trying to make them better and then of course they're not all abject savages, there is a definite scale to this

i'm sticking to my line that teenage savagery greatly exacerbated by concentrating them all together in institutions esp when their parents engage in vicarious 60s cosplay

actually the thought i keep returning to is that maybe in fact this is the smooth trundling of the best of all possible worlds and the only issue is me processing it thru a sick, jaded brain

xp Is this about the Thurman-Fiennes Avengers movie again?

certainly thats the part i latched onto

unless he meant corbynism idk

i was thinking maybe it was uniforms and other nostalgic mechanisms of control

right, school uniforms' performative anachronism is a good example of how childhood/youth is constructed by adults to fulfil their weird retrogressive fantasies

or alternatively a method by which kids are protected from the tyranny of consumer-culture oneupmanship

yeah cos they don't compare their phones or their shoes

school uniform is no protection. it's bullshit

dress codes are entirely ample

to be clear I'm not against school uniforms in general

what would you say the case for their continuation is

remembering the anxiety of non uniform day at school

cheap functional uniforms are not a bad idea, just no fucking ties or hats or brass buttons or whatever

maybe. certainly no ties feels important

to add to nv's point btw, last week i was teaching four kids who'd been expelled from their school aged 13/14 for a drugs offence. they were happy to do the work as long as i let them piss around. a teacher of 30 years' experience also tutored them and apparently things deteriorated so quickly that they discontinued the entire arrangement over the weekend. one of them filmed footage of this man yelling at a kid, who was yelling back - finger pointing, threats etc. he'd made the cardinal error of calling the big bully kid a twat to his face, and underestimating the power of the quiet, mature-seeming machiavelli operator beside him

what lesson do we learn from this? idk but unless teenagers see the point in the work they're set then i can see them becoming, culturally at least, increasingly intransigent, and maybe that's a good thing. the education system needs a total overhaul and this can only accelerate it

the one thing these kids were doing that i hated was bullying the girl in the group, and i told them as much

they were rich posho kids, yes, but i can see the intransigence becoming universal

yeah wherever the personal/social interplay lies i'm definitely not saying that the kids are just inherently fallen. the way we teach and what we teach is so much bullshit and its purpose is only to create malleable drones.

well yes. it needs to change and nobody's seriously trying to change it

because society needs malleable drones!

itt a defence of the rights of posh kids to be cunts

lol yeah sure

i don't think anybody has "the right" to be a cunt, if rights are meaningful in non-legal contexts

on the other hand i think if you mistreat animals they tend to not be better behaved for it.

the questions are really about the most effective methods of either not creating terrible behaviour or of training people not to exhibit it if you think it's an original component of human nature.

whether you could come up with answers to that without picking a side in the nurture/nature argument is an issue too i think

hmm fair

also an option to creating a system that works well for most and executes the other tbh

my head's a gajillion miles away from here. i don't know what i want to do, yet.

struggle bowl

this morning filled with a great blue sadness reflecting the sky, like the dignified calm sadness of the universe, sadness at the immensity of the great work of time that's like a calm joy. so different to depression, i feel as functional as i wanna be, like i could fall up off the face of the earth and disappear into the blue above and that would be just great.

slightly wrecked by reaching the office and having to deal with my colleague's hyperactive chatter (to nobody) but never mind, not for much longer all being well. looking out the window and the blue's disappeared too.

still love Fridays.

already slightly regretting my anti-drinking decision to leave tobacco and skins at home tho.

Every night this week when I dream my past wives are flashing before my eyes

It's good they flash by instead of dragging by, lingering limply tbh.

I've a future past wife flashing before my eyes rn, and I very much wish it was a dream, but it's not. (hence this lame response 2U feeling like I can somehow relate...)

It's the thought that counts bud

It just occurs to me that everybody in The Big Bang Theory bar Sheldon is a complete cunt

Took me a moment to stop wondering where on earth the 'the Big Bang Theory bar' is

Every night this week when I dream my past wives are flashing before my eyes

― bad left terf nut (Noodle Vague), Friday, March 30, 2018 3:12 PM (yesterday) Bookmark Flag Post Permalink

yeah this happens, fuck love

dude I've been such a cunt, I deserve to die alone

OK I could tone down the swears, I blame my drinking buddies

assholes

imagine Arab Strap jamming with the Bad Seeds after a wild night in some dive bar they’ll never find again. Think of a tighter Birthday Party reeling elegantly from chorus to verse yet smashing the furniture up in the process. Iggy struts and Jacques Brel drains the optics. Pure White Speed will keep you awake. And knock you out.

i've imagined it. fuck off.

Is that a London band by any chance?

I have this theory that only bands from London ever try to look and sound like Nick Cave, they'd get laughed off the stage anywhere else.

lol yes they are

It goes deeper. It cuts, it bleeds, it hurts, it soothes. It gives a sudden rush then introspection follows, it tells you to fuck off then wants you in its arms. It has poison on its lips but it makes the pain go away. Try it once. Then take it again.

what the actual fuck

oh man i switched off after the first paragraph.

i suppose it's good that there are things for middle-aged goths to do.

The Cesarians are not a pop band. They could never have been manufactured, manipulated or otherwise pre-masticated for public consumption.

NEVER!

The Cesarians are a magnificent triumph of the electric eclectic, a bunch of renegades who live on the river, tapping the source of London’s eternal energy.

Stick a fork in me NV I'm done.

;_;