Rolling Maleness and Masculinity Discussion Thread

I'm having a little trouble with this narrative and especially the "faggy"/but I'm masculine part. If you're trolling uh fuck you

The "faggy" is what was forced on me. The "masculine" is what I personally identify with. I was a bare knuckle boxer when I was kid, my dream was to go to West Point and be one of those great generals from WW II I'd read about, maybe a captain of industry like Carnegie.

I was a fierce, terrible motherfucker. And they put that shit on me because they're the same way, just beyond psychopathic. I'm telling this because I think it's darkly hilarious, and I also consider it a badge of victory I survived that shit and made it out better than most people make out of their normal, healthy lives. Apple doesn't fall from the tree...

No, I'm not trolling you. This is real shit. There's way worse out there, and I've seen it with my own eyes. Ex. a case I worked on where a father chopped up his family and threw them out in garbage bags on garbage day. That one didn't make the news.

A - it's not darkly hilarious
B - claiming that a body in garbage bags didn't make the news is not helping your case

It wasn't "a body", it was an entire family. I think it's darkly hilarious, because if you lived through it and didn't, you'd blow your brains out.

note: my story as darkly hilarious, not that awful case I worked on...

ILX 2017, where someone opens up about being molester and abused and is immediately shouted down because it wasn't PC enough, kudos

*molested

uh Whiney are you familiar with carpet_kaiser?

Beyond politics threads, not really

Aw hi whiney, go fuck yourself and your new leaf of convenient concern troll bullshit.

I think the issue most of the time is kaiser appleton's posts tend to be phrased just about as melodramatically as possible, not so much that he isn't sufficiently PC or whatever. he's mellowed a little since his first handle got banned but that's not a high bar, and after a whole thread of guys opening up about rough, ugly experiences growing up, to be like "yo yo but my ENTIRE FAMILY is PSYCHOPATHS" is at the very least a technical foul

Guys whiney is here and he's worried about everyone's feelings as usual

finally we can talk about our feelings

seriously this thread has been good so far, KIU, KIP, etc.

There's no reason to disbelieve kaiser's claim that he suffered trauma and abuse but his way of talking about it has concerned a lot of posters over a long period of time. The specifc details he's shard seem a little unbelievable but unbelievable things happen I guess. I don't know how to phrase this without sounding condescending, but I really, really hope kaiser has someone to talk to about all of this in real life, hopefully a mental health professional.

Ahahahahaa. Sorry dudes. I forgot once again I can't talk about my life under any circumstance ever. I know the deal, trust me.

Melodrama. Fuck you. Fuck you all! Now you see why I think this is darkly hilarious.

I'm with whiney on this. Kaiser has talked about his family's abuse and his trauma before and I know he annoys you guys and he's over the top, but I think we should treat him at least as if we take him at his word, even if what he says isn't 100% true. not everyone is gonna communicate like the quintessential ilxor and this in fact seems like the source of most of the conflicts around here, because most of us don't communicate like quintessential ilxors all of the time.

Fuck you too! It is hilarious.

"That modifier is always hilarious, by the way," he posted, darkly.

It's definitely not hilarious. Carpet kaiser is clearly a person in distress. Shouting him down or insulting him is definitely not the right thing to do.

like, say instead, "that's terrible, I'm sorry that happened to you, btw it makes me uncomfortable when you say 'faggy' as if that were a bad thing."

I think you mean darkly shouted down

anyway moving on:

Lads

Yes I'm sorry, it was insensitive to react with disbelief when you said you found a garbage bag full of people and no one ever noticed, obviously you are a reliable source in all those other cases silly me.

even if what he says isn't 100% true

Here's the thing: this is 100% true. There are witnesses you can talk to, who are very real people, respectable people, who've told me to get the hell out of dodge from that scene.

The fact that you all can't even bear to think this could possibly be real... yeah. How do you think I feel having lived through it. Ahahahahaha! That's all I can say to that. Just laugh.

Yeah, moving on. I keep forgetting this stuff is like this...

fwiw I just think you're probably in your cups just a little whenever you post, thus the OTTness. your previous incarnation was insufferable on the politics threads though. since this is a thread about maleness, consider my feedback the equivalent of a friendly punch in the shoulder that's intended to get you to take it down a notch.

If I come across as OTT, it's probably because I use language like knives to take out my anger, and I do that on the internet. Cuz ya know, I'd be living in a dumpster if I did any of that in real life... I'm probably going to take up a combat sport to deal with that particular issue.

you use language like melon ballers

don't take up a fucking combat sport, find a decent therapist that's "on network" and stick to it. goofy ass mindfulness exercises and talking through stuff with a trained LCSW might do you a world of good.

The combat sports is because I have a nuclear level of energy inside of me, and no therapist can do anything about that! I mean dude, I come from a family of military people, entrepreneurs, boxers, and more, who lust after destroying people, and the world, in total warfare.

I'm a decent guy with a conscience, but I have so much energy inside of me I could destroy a fucking city. That's how it feels, at least. I need an outlet for that.

If I can find a therapist who has fuck all about what I'm dealing with, all the better, but I haven't found one yet. The best I've found are authors like John Le Carre who sort of get it.

Okay, punching people in a ring with pads and helmets might be a worthwhile outlet, but a lot of people here that care about angry internet randos have suggested you keep plugging away on the talk-to-a-professional front.

good mourning!

https://24.media.tumblr.com/a16a78dc124f5b249276aa292e81307b/tumblr_morqmcKh6p1qakh43o1_250.gif

I'm fine with what carpet_kaiser has posted here given it closely parallels my upbringing except that my (much older) brothers were nice to me, though unfortunately too far from my life to be of much help. Sleeve and man alive's accounts also very relatable for me. I don't have the time or inclination at the moment to share my story and I don't want to be 'that guy' who drifts the thread. I'll add though that years of therapy didn't help me much (hurt additionally by the unfortunate passing of the therapist I saw for two years and didn't keep her file on me to give to someone else to continue where we'd left off). I found online and IRL support groups for people who were molested as children or teens to be far more useful.

Carpet Kaiser
Have you looked into men's group therapy?
If you can find a good group I think it might be very helpful and is usually cheaper
It's definitely a different dynamic than one on one and great if you find the right group

K

Kinda bummed this thread turned into a clusterfuck a little

tbf I assumed it started that way, just looking at the title.

It was destined

Sorry for ruining your thread Marcos

u didn't! also man alive is the thread starter

i do think a certain thing happened to this thread and that what exactly happened to it should be fairly obvious to a dedicated reader. i'm not going to say anything more than that.

p much

Def but I don't think it's too late to get it back on track tbh

possibly, but it's difficult without addressing the underlying cause.

I read The Girls and Nugent Miller by Robert Sheckley the other night and it reminded me of this thread. It has such a bleak and scary ending. It basically ends with the idea that all men become monsters under the right circumstances. Kind of an insane story to find in the middle of an old space rocket SF magazine!

https://www.amazon.com/Girls-Nugent-Miller-Robert-Sheckley-ebook/dp/B002JIN6PW

Did I ruin it? Sorry if I did

no, fgti, you didn't ruin it.

Does anybody else mentally pronounce my username as "faggoty"?

I mentally pronounce it "lovely."