i just want to evolve. the way my personality is i definitely could go the way of the pissed off crank or the hermit in my old age. or i can evolve. and learn. although i suppose the real answer would be to just go to my doctor and get some excellent drugs that would make me love everyone and everything. that's my emergency plan. but i'm going to try to do the work on my own for now.
― scott seward, Tuesday, 19 September 2017 16:06 (six years ago) link
quitting smoking didn't help...
i am taking over the counter lithium every day though. and L-theanine. which seems to help.
― scott seward, Tuesday, 19 September 2017 16:12 (six years ago) link
people mistake my enthusiasm for all kinds of other things, things i do not wish to project, i can understand the need to evolve one's approach to interpersonal communicationfailure to evolve will leave a person behind
― weird woman in a bar (La Lechera), Tuesday, 19 September 2017 16:22 (six years ago) link
i think maybe evolving requires both a goal of how you want yourself to be (or act), and a healthy recognition and patience with the fact that it will require steps and isn't an overnight process. maybe.
― nomar, Tuesday, 19 September 2017 16:30 (six years ago) link
idk about the maybe part ;)
― weird woman in a bar (La Lechera), Tuesday, 19 September 2017 16:31 (six years ago) link
maybe maybe perhaps!
i am myself probably unrecognizable from twenty-plus years ago. i had some low points and when scraping bottom i looked at myself in the mirror (literally!) and said fuck it. i had to extricate myself from my rut, and go to places i wasn't comfortable with. geographically and figuratively. which is how i went from rural IL to NYC (without having ever visited the latter.) i had to leave a lot of things behind, i had to get unsentimental and i guess (it sounds paradoxical) stop caring about what other people thought or felt, but also balancing it out with more empathy and patience. it was a long, long process, i tell ya.
a lot of problems stemmed from really not knowing how to interact with people, is the thing.
― nomar, Tuesday, 19 September 2017 16:38 (six years ago) link