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man i know the feeling, a guy kept up to me yelling "hey motherfucker, hey motherfucker" and i bolted fast. Luckily I can run fast.

But if shit really feels too hard to bear, it's never not worth it to seek help. I say this as someone who has been at rock bottom

Everyone on ilx gets slack cut for them. On the whole we are quite forbearing people. There are limits, though. The main limit to remember is 51.

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I tried, couldn't find any relevant therapists, most of them were lazy and incompetent as fuck. I've written about a thousand pages in my own journal figuring this out on my own. I've done research. What I lived through, doesn't exist in any book, or manual, or website. I got some newly invented type of abuse. I haven't been able to find any therapist or counselor who has any clue about this stuff.

I made it pretty damn far on my own, because I'm the one with the key to all this. I'll be alright, I hope.

xxp

Yeah, I'll chill ... I'm passing through some rocky waters here, but I'm still cogent.

Yeah. Sorry for posting this crazy stuff here, I was drunk off my ass last night.

A couple of months ago my grandfather tried to talk me into hanging myself. Because him and my brothers wrecked my entire life ... they gave me all of this terrible advice that ended up destroying my life, and his "help" out of this (conditions they helped cause) was him trying to convince me to kill myself.

I think I'm having some kind of awakening moment here. I should probably go and work this out...

(Tbf, suburbs are wasteful, insular garbage, although I'm not sure the reasons why have much to do with whatever's going on rn.)

And sorry things are so rough, carpet. Hope you're able to find a way out.

If I don't, I'm dead. So I hope so, too. I've actually spent my whole life doing this, without even knowing it. It's like I've been solving my own murder without even knowing it. Crazy shit!

Oh well. I should probably be spending all of my free time getting myself out of this hole, and into safety. It's not even a hole, I don't know what metaphor would work with this shit.

Sorry yr having a terrible time at the moment - have you tried the depression thread? It may not be a perfect fit, but it's a good placce to talk about stuff..

Thanks. Maybe I'll give that a go and not crap up unrelated threads with my weird fucking life.

Get. Professional. Help.

And. Don't. Drunk. Post.

Stop posting in that format

Get. Professional. Help.

I tried, you think I'm an idiot? I've spent my entire life working on these problems, anything that can help, I'm down for.

There's no professional help for what I'm dealing with here. I made it this far on my own, so I hope I can keep it up. It'll probably be easier now that I don't have a family of psychopaths screwing with me.

Like, if I had genuine mental illness, I would 100% be homeless right now. I'm lucky. The emotional fallout I express is directly related to the material that caused it. My beliefs are directly related to my experiences. It's clear and rational, it's just uncomfortable because it's directly related to a source that people find very uncomfortable, and is very uncommon.

I'm way more chill in real life, obviously, because internet posting removes a lot of filters. Whatever. I gotta get off the internet anyway and find some solutions here. Thanks for bearing with me here.

Other thread. Dedicated thread.

Got it.

Other thread yeah but you don't have to be
Homeless to be mentally ill. That's just weird to me.

I don't think that's what he said.

Oh sorry read that wrong

Get. Professional. Help.

this is a bracingly shit post, but I suppose it is on topic

it's a little cold, but it's not off-base. larry, coming from someone who hasn't given you much of a hard time on these boards, please consider seeing someone. and i think a psychiatrist would be better than a therapist, in your case

Why do you think that?

If you respond, do it in the Depression thread, I've made a mess enough of this one.

Tea is better than coffee

controversial opinion: confidently giving psychiatric advice to someone online who you don't know in a curt, smug, hostile way bc you're fed up of their posts is not indicative of high quality thinking

Tea is better than coffee

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FP'd you for this.

(not really but c'mon....)

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that shouldn't even be a controversial opinion, it should just be accepted wisdom.

This kind of authoritative and dismissive way of addressing people is unfortunately par for the course for those experiencing psychiatric issues

Wait, since when do I have a psychiatric issue? I wasn't diagnosed with any when I saw doctors and therapists. I'm sure they know better than any of you.

That's some cold blooded shit, my man. That's why I never talk about this stuff.

Enough, done, no more on this.

My new controversial opinion is Taylor Swift's new album should have been called "Sounds of the Oligarchy"

fuck i didn't mean it that way, i was at loss for a better word..yeah i'm done with this thread too

Sigh. xp to Larry

Larry/Carpet, you might not have a "psychological issue", but you shouldn't be surprised at people on here thinking you need professional mental help, seeing what you shared with us about your atrocious family and the abuse they gave you. While we are probably all very sympathetic, there is probably nothing we can do or say about that to help you forward. Which is why we wish you seek help, to get out of that sad mess stronger. We can listen, offer support, but can't help you move on/away from such a devastating history. This is why we recommend professional help. To help you, not to say you have an issue.

But please try and get help. Your posts about your past reflect a great willingness to get better, to move on. Try and find someone to help you along the way.

Shooting from the hip at people meaning well and wanting to help you, like Ross, isn't beneficial to anyone. Might sound harsh but you can't come in this particular community (one you were banned from, earlier) and get angry at what someone says, failing to understand we all mean well and just want you to get better.

Geez, thanks. I guess I'm a little paranoid because my grandfather (the guy who talked me into killing myself) was a public relations specialist, so him and my family were excellent at character assassination. Why do you think this shit has lingered so long? No one in their right mind would ever stick around crap like this...

I just haven't found any professional help willing/qualified to deal with this. I've been doing it all on my own. I have an entire library of books on sociology, social psychology, and psychology research that I've been using. What I lived through is something no therapist I've talked to has any clue about.

Maybe I'll try again once I find a new job, cuz I'm in yet another wacky situation! I'm working for a former French legionnaire who tricked me into taking a fucked up marketing job. Oh isn't that so funny.

Thank you for that.

You seem to have a personality disorder and it's unlikely you will ever find a LICSW who is able to break through your self-centered melodrama enough to make real progress.

Keep throwing your angry-drunk potshots at random strangers that are trying to be nice to you and you'll be banned again soon enough.

I've been through the system, I don't have a personality disorder. You know what this "melodrama" is? It's a desperate attempt to survive with very limited resources.

I post this bullshit here because I want a social mirror to reflect what I think is normal back to me, and show me what it really is, done by people who are familiar to people I've known in my life. This probably isn't the BEST forum for that, but it's one I have the most simpatico with due to interests and background, hence why I'm here and doing this. I'm doing this because of my desperation to survive and have a life worth living, because I don't believe in an afterlife, and I know what's tat the end of this.

There's a very intricate "alchemical" reason why I'm doing this. I'm not a stupid guy, Tomboto. I didn't make it this far in life from my background because I'm an idiot.

I apologize again because I know it's selfish, but I'm a desperate man with my back to the wall.

Also, I apologize for being a dick to you.

And thank you.

Lads

chicken is boring

I think Marc Bittman called chicken a "blank canvass" or something like that.

chicken is the lettuce of the meat world

i dunno if this is controversial or not but chicken is a bad pizza topping

It's definitely true. Maybe it's controversial based on how many NJ/NY pizzerias have some kind of dried out chicken pizza available at any given time, including (barf) bbq or buffalo chicken pizza. I imagine there has to be some kind of demand for it.

I think it's the California Pizza Kitchen chain that popularized barbecue chicken pizza (barbecue sauce, cilantro, onion, gouda).

Prior to that I think I only saw chicken pizza on trying-too-hard-to-be-healthy white pizzas with broccoli or whatevs. An unwelcome gift from the West Coast.

Most of NY Pizza is in a pretty sorry state today tbh. The Ray's type places have really promulgated the concept of pizza as stale garbage pile.

There is sort of a new wave of good places but they are pricey, and there are only a few really good slice places left scattered around, probably more in the boroughs than manhattan.

i know this is not the kind of pizz you're talking about but each time i go to nyc my friend brings me to saraggina in bed stuy and it's really good

Yeah I mean I like that kind of sit-down wood-fired pizza a lot too, I just wish good slice places were easier to find. I'm partial to Joe's but never make it there. In my neck of Queens we do have a couple decent ones though, nothing I'd hop on a subway for but good for local.

Ey, NYC, your pizza friggin SUCKS, I gotcha controversial opinion right HEAH!

Tea is better than coffee

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