Blue Saturday

thx nv

this life is ridiculous

maybe 50cent can adopt me or something

the discreet charm of lying down on the pavement in the sunshine and going to sleep forever

when I lived in the suburbs I thought some of the more sumptuous lawns looked very appetising for an ultimate doze

However many species of living beings there are - whether born from eggs, from the womb, from moisture, or spontaneously; whether they have form or do not have form; whether they have perceptions or do not have perceptions; or whether it cannot be said of them that they have perceptions or that they do not have perceptions, we must lead all these beings to the ultimate nirvana so that they can be liberated. And when this innumerable, immeasurable, infinite number of beings has become liberated, we do not, in truth, think that a single being has been liberated.

diamond sutra?

yes :)

i love each phrase is unraveled by the next. it's like reading water.

love how*

drunk and stupid is no way to go through life, son

or the only way, I don't know

Google Maps doing a beautiful Greenland spread today

https://www.google.com/streetview/#greenland-highlights/glacial-lake

wish I was here

same

due to algorithms youtube dot com simply will not stop recommending me 'violet' by seal

i listen most times tbh but it's been at least six weeks

idk it seemed the right thread

it's on the spectrum, yeah

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nowadays waking up battered wondering how much money i wasted and where i was yesterday is a very very rare occurence, so i should recognize the progress i've made and not be too hard on myself, but jesus, ouch

it's so good knowing everything is your fault, alone, away from all sympathy including your own, hating what you're doing and watching it get worse. just sinking, resenting everyone who isn't, running out of patience, waiting for things to get to the point at which you snap and burn your bridges. the more important and essential it is that I do things, the more I feel myself just melt into the air

i hear you

only I could fuck me up this much

the chain of decisions that all seemed, if not sensible, then either reasonable or enjoyable at the time, until they add up to jfc what happened?

at times like this i like to think about shooting horse botherers

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FNmzc_B2XNI

just momentarily overwhelmed more than surprised. it's the totally predictable consequence of not being invested in My Life, all my goals were just to get things to a level where i could think about that stuff as little as possible, so its mostly inertia, then making some misguidedly optimistic bad decisions that i hoped might address the underlying malaise and shift me into a better way of being. but no, i've just done a lot of damage, and now i have a lot more work to do from a worse position and some of the time it feels like it's not going to end well. this is all a lot of rubbish and i will feel better later. but sometimes all you can think about is shooting that guy, no matter the consequences

just been emailed a job ad for a lighthouse keeper on spurn head. felt like this was the one job i was cut out for until i read it and it's mostly about meeting and greeting the public amd not so much being stuck up a tower being idle and desolate all day long :(

Spurn does get cut off in the winter tho

http://www.sixthtone.com/news/lonesome-honor-keeping-lighthouse-legacy-alight

“No people; simple, repetitive work; bad air; and the seawater is not blue,” Ye says, pointing to the smoking chimneys across the water that, when the wind blows a certain way, fill the air with the smell of rotten eggs. “It’s just not what I thought it would be.”

“Lighthouse work is very easy nowadays,” Fan says. “It’s kind of like being retired. It’s just a waste of time for young people.”

Ye and his mother are Christians, and Ye met a woman at church whom he dated for a while, but things didn’t work out between them. “I react slowly; I don’t know how to express my thoughts, and sometimes my thinking is too simple,” he says. His parents and relatives made further attempts at matchmaking, but most women did not look favorably upon his career prospects and salary.

mate. <beats heart with fist emphatically>

ah, the end of the holidays and the age-old question arises: work or suicide?

answer never gets any easier

would take the lighthouse job in a heartbeat

should I spend 90 quid and my entire weekend on a John Grant curated Scando-tweetronica festival, I am v torn

https://www.hull2017.co.uk//app/uploads/2017/04/North-Atlantic-Flux-schedule-and-map.pdf

I mean Lindstrøm vs Cobby & Litten is quite aggravating

I wanna rave but I also could go see Toni Erdmann tomorrow, watch Joshua-Klitschko in the pub and eat a lot of pizza all weekend

city of culture biting me hard for the first time this year

nah that's a simple choice isn't it? Lindstrom unlikely to ever play Hull again.

North Atlantic Flux looks great but can't justify the cash this month.

the cash is a big part of my reluctance, plus I really have other domestic things I could do rather than a 4 day freakout

my inner completist won't let me just do the 2 days

leaning quite hard towards doing this anyway, I suspect it's undersold because at one time there was supposed to be a third tranche of tickets at £120+ and that's disappeared

C&L on earlier on the Saturday afternoon too by the look of it.

sleep and pizza and boxing and video games are good tho.

the fact that Gate Number 8 is ten minutes walk from my house is a lure

"He bid me lie in green land down"

do it nv, you can always take a break later

I cracked a tooth at lunchtime, second time this week, which is giving me pause in case I end up with raging toothache at some point over the weekend.

I always forget that much as I love sweet twinkly music I kinda hate gigs

I said twinkly

ambushed by an unexpected dose of the deep blue blues

the sky's beautiful today, beautiful enough to wanna fall off the earth

even when my rut is as clean, cosy and comfortable as it can be, it still looks like a rut

what the world needs now is more books by and for norms who wanna fuck with the language of enlightenment

Satori in a Suit; or How to Increase Your Productivity and Your Karma All At Once. Written in a Light Friendly Humorous Tone So There's Nothing To Be Frightened Of

http://www.abhinayacademy.com/images/mudra.jpg

During this period, it is necessary to reach the target bodyweight and flock uniformity to prepare the birds for the
production period. A special care has also to be given to the development of the digestive tract in order to prepare
for the fast increase in consumption at the beginning of the production period. A well-managed rearing period has
positive effects on:

Egg production (peak of lay and persistency)

Egg quality (egg weight, egg uniformity, shell strength)

Liveability
To achieve those objectives, it is necessary to respect the following basics:

Management (stocking density, drinker and feeder space, water, temperature, beak trimming…)

Lighting programme

Monitoring bodyweight and uniformity

Nutrition

Biosecurity and vaccination

A very beautiful woman had a husband. He was a very skilful fellow. Once he went to the mountains, and disappeared. But at night he returned, bearing a deer on his back. After feasting on the deer, they went to bed. But in the middle of the night, the woman wept and screamed, saying: "This man is not my husband. Though with shame, I will declare the fact as it is. His penis is so big, so big, so big, that it will not get into my vagina; and if it did get in, I should die."

Alarmed by her cries, the neighbours ran out, and came into her house; and one strong fellow took a stick, and beat the husband, saying: "You must be some sort of devil," whereupon the husband turned into a horse, and ran away neighing. Afterwards he was beaten to death.

same

otm

you cant do right for doing wrong

i enjoy the ambiguity in the final sentence as to whether it was big-dicked horse-man who was beaten to death or the strong fellow who called big-dicked horse-man a devil

makes u think

there was a third paragraph I left out cos it was boring, obviously the Ainu had a deep-seated suspicion of horses

horses: always trying to fuck your wife

and in a very real way Jesus is like that