Blue Saturday

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bloodclaat oranjes

Hi wins sorry 2 read of hepactic or other miseries obv

Got those fat, shit, jittery fraud of a human being blues

Nice ref

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blauw savery

So blue I could

Surrounded by my d(e)ut(s)ch atavars

Interminable public house front groaned liver mit libidinous allthoughts.

Could do so much better than apologizing to square pegs for the prevalence of round holes

don't drink and Finnegans Wake kids.

eh, maybe just don't drink.

maybe just don't never anything.

Id like to say something about why Love is so important to SVP and physics in general (not to forget our own lives). So many engineers and scientists Ive met have been needlessly turned off by our use of this four letter word - Love. They need not be repulsed as Love is more or less the same force orthodoxy calls the "strong force" with the main exception that this force is not restricted to nuclear realms as is commonly thought.

The whole concept is wrapped around the Law of Assimilation which is simplistically stated as:

MacVicar writes: "Every individualized object assimilates itself to itself in successive moments of its existence and all objects tend to assimilate one another." Keely and His Discoveries

In modern parlance this "assimilation" is what weve been calling "mutual attraction". Russell refers to it as simply attraction and/or gravitation. He uses many other synonyms such as "electricity" or "electrical attraction" of the electrical stream and "assimilative force". In short everything assimilates (is attracted to) everything else. In view of Bjerknes Effect this coming together in harmony was clearly illustrated. All objects in nature have this characteristic. They come together when their frequencies form unisons or harmonics of unison. Hence atoms and molecules are held together by mutual assimilation (Love) and societies are held together by the same naturally occuring dynamic. Love, then, as assimilation CREATES the physical universe and holds it together.

In their common perusal of books, singling out the errors and defects, the nauseous, the fulsome, the dull, and the impertinent, with the caution of a man that walks through Edinburgh streets in a morning, who is indeed as careful as he can to watch diligently and spy out the filth in his way; not that he is curious to observe the colour and complexion of the ordure or take its dimensions, much less to be paddling in or tasting it, but only with a design to come out as cleanly as he may.

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Then Imperial Prince Oasazumawakugo no Sukune declined, saying, “By some misfortune, I was long sick, and am unable to walk. Previously I had wanted to cure the illness, and without saying anything to the emperor secretly mutilated myself to cure the illness, but still it did not change. Therefore the previous Emperor reprimanded me, saying, ‘Because you were sick you mutilated yourself, and there is nothing greater than this. In the long life you live, you will never be able to succeed to the great endeavor.’ Therefore my two older brothers, as Emperors, thought me foolish and treated my lightly, and all of this the myriad ministers knew. Now, the realm is like a great vessel, and the imperial throne a great task. He should be the father and mother of the people, this is the occupation of a sage and wise man, how can a low fool take up this post? Therefore choose a clever prince and set him up, for how can I dare to do this?”

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Then you come shyly through the garden gate,
Wearing a blood-soaked bandage on your head;
And God says something kind because you’re dead,
And homesick, discontented with your fate.

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ASPIRING TO SUPPORT THE VISITOR ECONOMY

in the heart of the Hibernian metropolis

western values so reified you have to struggle through them every day like lead bead curtains. English language now indistinguishable from advertising. ball, kick, street.

doing a CSI on Saturday night, found a receipt for a kebab but there is no kebab, outside my front door there are minute traces of onion and doner meat tho, the mystery continues

also i swear i used to have glasses

read an old nakh post upthread and now i want oranges

but i am too scarred and unsightly to make the walk to Tesco Express tbh

<3 man

Hang in there NV <3

thanks guys, but y'know, i'm an idiot. keep repeating the same dumb shit that's fucked me and a bunch of other people over all my life. important to remember that and try to do something about it.

join the club. then leave it

Dregsit

Spencer Tunick's Blue Saturday in Hull

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i know! i really wanted to do it, but self-hatred won out.

Yeah I chickened out too, semi-regretting it now.

wet grey summer's day. video games or drinking. drink for company, no matter how high the cost, since drinking has left me with so little other company. circle of "life".

reviews list of "self-care tips for depression", rolls eyes, too much effort

even my planned structural analysis of where I am and where I want to be is just too much pfaff

to the untrained eye not being able to focus or settle on anything looks a lot like being bone idle

can't tell if I've got a pantheon of internal voices or just one bad impressionist doing silly accents

the sky is pleasingly blue/black this morning, can't decide whether to storm or swelter, one tone shading into another

there's just no point of engaging medical support, that conversation is played and futile

edit pfaff

I liked pfaff as pfaff

the p lends it exasperation

Regrette

sorry for indie (I have linkified rather than embedding this Pfaff-related video as it may not be up to the usual Blue Saturday musical standard but hey I used to love these guys)

to the untrained eye not being able to focus or settle on anything looks a lot like being bone idle

and the eye of the faffer is not necessarily trained; I would quite like some kind of objective test for "am I just being lazy or is there too much brain-interference to get things done" because I genuinely don't know if I'm being too easy or too hard on myself

I know, I know - or even "too hard on myself but in ways that excuse me for going easy on myself"

also this is a play whatever music you like space because I don't do "taste"

also weren't Quickspace more LJ-Prog than indie trundlers?

def over to the Stereolab/post-rock end of the axis yes, indie in the fanzines and badges and 7"s sense rather than... whatever it means now

I am not v good with shifting genre goalposts, I spent the eurotrance explosion of the mid/late 90s wondering what had happened to the Trance Europe Express vibe (nothing much, it just got reclassified into other genres)

I think maybe I've been so frightened of feelings I've spent my life lotus-eating to try and avoid them

If only our brothers from West Punjab realize that their heroes are not these plunderers but their own ancestors who faced up to these "Jehadi" conquerors known in Islamic terms as "Gazis". Here are some of the brave Punjabi ancestors who gave befitting response to the ambitions of invaders:

Raja Porus - the Khatri king of West Punjab who almost defeated Alexender the Great and forced Greeks in to retreat out of Punjab.
Jasrat Khokhar - the chief of the Khokhar Rajput clan from West Punjab who led the reply to the Turkic Barbarian Tamerlane.
Raja Jaypala - Ruler of Janjua rajput clan from Lahore who responded to the plundering invasions of Gazanvi and committed suicide after losing in battle.
Raja Anangpal - Son of Jayapala and Janjua king of Punjab who fought all his life against numerous incursions by Gaznavi, and died at the battle of Sirhind
Prithviraj Chauhan - Rajput ruler of Bhatinda who defeated Ghori six times but lost the seventh battle
Dulla Bhatti - Legendary warrior of Bhatti Rajput clan fom Sandal-Bar who fought against the Mughals of Lahore.
Sardar Jassa Singh Ahluwalia - Leader of Sikh Misls who rescued 20,000 Punjabi women from Abdali's goons.
Maharaja Ranjit Singh - Sikh Emperor of Punjab who ended the series of invasion of Punjab forever and ruled Lahore on behalf of all Punjabis.
Sardar Hari Singh Nalwa - Sikh warrior of Uppal Khatri clan who plugged the Khyber pass where all invasions of Punjab occurred
Sham Singh Atariwale - who fought till death at the battle of Sabhraon against the treacherous East India Company.

you can't go because who comes in and finds you
you can't go because you feel for who finds you
you can't go
i can see my friends but not who they were when somebody found them
blue bloated
can't go because who finds me but i can't stay h-h-h-h-ere

achers of grey spotty flesch

parents/gparents not doing well and my coping skills vanish. so it's fireball and nikki sudden round these parts tonight.

leaving god alone

friday night (u.s. blue saturday) is now apparently the night when gloom descends on me and i fritter the hours away being anxious about being of no use or interest to anyone

i would rather write

i appear to have been conducting a scientific experiment to prove i can't afford to drink myself to death

i really like you guys, i don't wish the blues on youse, i shd try and apply the same logic to myself