suicide

bumping again just to keep it at the very top, anyone on here able to get in touch with people who know her irl?

her friend posted on fb that they are in an ambulance on their way to the hospital

Craigo says on fb that they're en route to the hospital.

sending good vibes

aw man, hope she she's OK

oh god I was so worried- I'm glad someone is with her and they're going to the hospital

she shared a photo of a lot of pills and said she was going to swallow them all

please know that there are people who don't want you to do this emily

Yes, all possible best wishes.

I hope she is all right!

i hope you find what you need emil.y

:((

i don't want to stigmatise suicide as it is a valid choice

but emil.y you're great and we all need you here

Good luck, Emily — I hope it gets better.

Fuck fuck fuck

Craig if there is anything I can do to help, just shout okay?

Best wishes and maximum comfort to you emil.y. If you ever need to speak about anything, I, and I'm sure a lot of your friends on here will be happy to stay and talk through it with you.

emil.y I was just thinking about you yesterday while listening to lots of indie bands and thinking it would be great to see you at Indietracks again this year. So can we try and make that happen please? Ta.

I hope you get better Emily, I love talking with you on ILX, and I most certainly wish you won't be gone forever. I wish you get all the support and love you deserve.

all my best to emil.y and everyone who cares about her

Emily please stay with us we love you

emil.y, if you get a chance to read this, I wish you the best and that you can somehow find a way to simultaneously exist AND be without pain.

hoping Emily is ok

ditto what everyone else has said. I don't know you very well emil.y, but you're the coolest and I hope you're ok.

Get well, emil.y. I always thought you seemed like one of the coolest and most sophisticated ilxors -- the sort of person who clearly has a vast amount of knowledge but is able to wear it lightly. Anyway, that's a quality I admire. When I first started posting you were nice to me and it motivated me to continue posting, for good or ill.

I don't have anything profound to say, just get well and come back soon, emil.y.

Please stay, Emil.y

emil.y you are fantastic to have around and we all really really want you to stay around.

Best wishes Emil.y

just saw the tweets - simultaneously frightening and heartbreaking. hoping you can get the help you need, emil.y. nobody should be forced to live through such pain.

Pajo's attempt was just about exactly a year ago, and it was so harrowing to watch that unfold in real time. It's also amazing to see his move toward gratitude in the months after. I hope Emil.y has started the first steps out of the woods.

god bless it, i saw some of her posts on ilx that hinted at this, i'm sick. i hope she's ok.

Have there been any updates?

Craig said on Facebook yesterday that she was OK and all was calm, but she was being kept in for monitoring. Someone else (don't know if it's someone from here, I don't always recognise real names) has asked for a further update, will let you know if I see anything else.

thank you for that update, good to hear.

Thanks ailsa.

Thank you.

sending love

all the best to you emil.y

Pulling for you

cheers for the update, best to all :)

glad to see the good news, and also the consistent support offered to emil.y these last four years, on this thread.

Thanks for the update, I've felt awful all day not knowing what's her situation, so I'm glad to hear she's at least physically okay. And Emily, I can't pretend to understand what's going on in your life, but you seem like an awesome person, and I do hope you find it acceptable to stay on this planet and live on. And I hope you get all the love and support you deserve, and whatever small support can be provided through the words on the screen on this site, never hesitate to ask.

emily, you are a lovely person.

I agree with Morbius.

Missed Craig's update on Facebook earlier, but she's out of hospital and doing OK.

Just reading back upthread:

and when someone is posting and saying "no one cares about me and I mean nothing to other people" the very least we can do is to testify that that is not true

is great advice, but I'd go further and say continue to testify it even when they're NOT saying it, because they're probably still thinking it, and it helps to look back on the nice random things people did and said at random and not just the things said when you asked people to say it when you feel that no-one cares.

So, with that in mind, emil.y, I won one of your CDs in a raffle at a gig this weekend. And it reminded me of your hilarious and shambolic gig in Glasgow years ago, and it made me smile. And I might even listen to it soon :-)

emil.y, you are in the top tier, the shortlist of online presences who make the internet worth looking at for me. I hope you find a way forward in this life with pleasure instead of pain.

Emily, I love you.

I wish I could help out IRL, like bring you some food or tidy up your house or read to you...I'm not good with words, just gestures, to show I care. But I would do anything to help ease your pain. It is fucking crummy you feel that shitty. Please never kill yourself.

Emil.y, I can't know what you've been going through, but I know what it's like to struggle with self-hatred and suicidal urges. However you feel about yrself, yr life is precious and a lot of people care about you and want you to find a way through this.

I wish I could help out IRL, like bring you some food or tidy up your house or read to you...I'm not good with words, just gestures, to show I care. But I would do anything to help ease your pain. It is fucking crummy you feel that shitty. Please never kill yourself.

^^^^

emil.y I don't know you and I'm not sure I have directly interacted with you, but I enjoy your presence here, the strong and specific points of view. I always get the sense of you as someone with very high standards, which I like even when I don't share them. Many good thoughts to you.

yeah i feel hopelessly lacking in words here but ^^^^ to everything everybody's saying

You're a very special person, emil.y. It is heartbreaking to see you in so much pain. I have struggled to find words for fear of saying the wrong thing, but you mean a lot to me.