what the fuck am i getting myself into with this grad school stuff

me :(

a paper was due friday before spring break it is now tuesday after spring break and i have not done it. the guy said he didn't really care when we hand it in but the main reason i can't do it is it's stupid like "tell me how you feel" shit. i can't do this anymore!!!!

I am the worst at writing "tell me who you feel" papers. Are you graduating this May Harbl, or are you going on into next year still?

i am losing my mind

i am graduating which makes it 100x harder to do anything. i do about 20% of my reading for classes now i think!

I wish my school would subsidize the 2+ years of rehab I'm going to need after I graduate.

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck man, fuuuuuuuuuuck.

in part because i've realized that i *hate* the way the curriculum is structured here. ours is one of the most traditional, lecture-only curricula in the country (from what i gather), and it's extremely frustrating. it's not that the material is hard (the stuff you learn in med school isn't ~that~ difficult, it's mostly that there's a lot of it and it covers a lot of ground), it's that the pace is sorta breakneck and pedagogically antiquated.

lol liberal arts major from some new england college

would so much rather be working on a thesis/project than str8 memorizing shit for a multiple choice test

oh see that is the exact opposite of me (much to my surprise!)

(ps still not in grad school; I am doomed to be a BA for life)

actually, what i'd really prefer is an actual Problem-Based Learning curriculum, but unless they let me design my own i'm sorta SOL

adviser wants to know how my thesis is coming. i don't know how to tell her 'it's no different than the last time we talked because i was out of town/otherwise occupied for a week and a half. ps you are insane for making me make massive changes to it at the last minute you big jerk.'

would so much rather be working on a thesis/project than str8 memorizing shit for a multiple choice test

Yeah, I'm with Dan - At this point I'd trade working on my thesis for just about anything in the world. I guess the grass is always greener.

it is kind of really hitting me now, that thing they ("they") say about this inertia-ish thing: so much stuff about law school everyone goes "i hate this" "this is pointless and should be done this way" "why are we doing this" and there is basically a consensus about it but like when you leave there's no longer any point in changing it or getting rid of it so every student has to go through the same thing. namely (1) the last semester or two of school where no one is learning a thing and (2) law review which is some big prestige shit when you get on it your second year and then your third year you're like fuck this

prob goes in law school thread. anyway i wish instead of going to class the last year you could just have a full-time job.

My thesis is due in a month, and I am on PAGE SIX.

Wait - hold the phone...now I'm on PAGE SEVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it is kind of really hitting me now, that thing they ("they") say about this inertia-ish thing: so much stuff about law school everyone goes "i hate this" "this is pointless and should be done this way" "why are we doing this" and there is basically a consensus about it but like when you leave there's no longer any point in changing it or getting rid of it so every student has to go through the same thing. namely (1) the last semester or two of school where no one is learning a thing and (2) law review which is some big prestige shit when you get on it your second year and then your third year you're like fuck this

prob goes in law school thread. anyway i wish instead of going to class the last year you could just have a full-time job.

sorta the same in med school, except that it's also coupled to this bootcamp/vicious cycle mentality where ppl are like "it's med school, it's SUPPOSED to suck." whereas me and most of the older students are like "y'all are crazy, i used to have a life, etc." I mean, i'd rather spend twice as much time doing my pre-clinical stuff if it meant i had time to be a normal person

i don't even really mind it sucking as long as i'm getting something out of it. i learned a lot in the first half but now i'm like ????

I am afraid that the night that I finish my thesis I will party so hard that I'll end up in county jail.

After all, Andrew W.K. did not party hard until he finished his thesis - then he spiraled out of control.

i just have to finish this damn thesis (which should have been DONE by now @#(*U% which makes me not want to do it at all) and host 1 panel discussion at the end of the month and kinda show up for class once a week to listen to other panels. i am skipping tonight because i am getting sick and also because i couldn't bear the thought of going, so yeah, feelin u, harbl.

i am kinda staggered that someone can ask a multiple choice question with a straight face in graduate school.

Maybe it's one of those multiple choice quizzes where you have to circle all of the correct answers for each question. Those are a little more difficult.

doing ok for now but expect a GOD AGH FUCK EVERYTHING post from me in ca. 2 weeks

i am kinda staggered that someone can ask a multiple choice question with a straight face in graduate school.

― caek, Tuesday, March 31, 2009 6:51 PM (34 minutes ago) Bookmark

it's med school. they can get away with it because that's how the USMLE (board) exams are structured.

yeah i think you can get away with them in any professional school (like are MBA's smart enough to write essays lol jk). we have had legendary ones such as 150 mc questions, 2 points off for wrong answer, +1 for right answer, 0 for blank. i actually love those exams as much as it's possible to love an exam but people tend to leave them in tears ;_;

mbas are the most disgusting savages in the world imo, etc.

rly i'm just jealous i didn't go for a recognized major.

can I just

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My brain is scrambled, my anxiety is through the roof every minute of every day, I have dreams about my thesis almost every night, and my personal life is falling apart.

what the fuck did i get into with this grad school stuff FUCK

Fuck, I mean I didn't even remember that I already posted this months ago

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lol sucks to be you

j/k good luck :)

month of hell begins now

i turned in my heavily revised thesis on tuesday. my adviser is out of town for a funeral of someone v v close to her (she was so distraught she didn't even stick around for our class that evening), and was to read our theses on the plane and then call us. i understand that she is going through a difficult time but i have not heard a peep from her since tuesday and if she decides to go all crazy on me again, i need this time to be 'fixing' shit! argh@)#(**

good luck, students.

aw, you guys. you should maybe take a day off if you can.

what i mean to say is, even if it seems like you can't, you probably can and should.

i think the problem at this point is that i am taking days off when i'm supposed to be working because adviser's personal life is interfering with our production schedule, as it were. tbh i think this is unfair bc i had a whole mess of personal things to deal with while i wrote/edited but did not let it make me miss deadlines or anything.

Unequal power relationships are often unfair to the person with less power.

yeah, it's pretty much the most frustrating thing about grad school. they run your life but ignore you at will. i'm sorry, tehresa!

i know, i mean the whole thing is basically like an ego-booster for adviser/way to suck up to the department at this point. i just want it over.

i am so bored of school right now, and then i feel guilty for feeling bored

i'm done this fall. . . i can't fucking wait, i have had it

i'm done in december, looking forward to it but kind of frightened

ha, i start this fall (library science). totally excited about the classes but i already know that the homework is gonna get old and be a total drag like 2 weeks in.

i've just never really been a person who's been excited about being in school, even though i usually do pretty well. from the beginning, this has been about getting a new career, not "going back to school," so it's hard for me to stay excited about stuff that seems barely related to the practical side of librarianship

doing ok for now but expect a GOD AGH FUCK EVERYTHING post from me in ca. 2 weeks

― i want an internet that has fun arts and crafts to do at home (donna rouge), Tuesday, March 31, 2009 7:54 PM (2 weeks ago) Bookmark Suggest Ban Permalink

GOD AGH FUCK EVERYTHING LOSING MY MINDDDDDDDDDDDDD

(man, right on time)

mark you're doing library science??? where are you doing it?

xp yea i agree - what i'm most excited about is the increase in earning potential after the degree

destroyer - simmons

i just got that degree and i can't get a fuckin job