Blue Saturday

If they made a Jurassic park I would be there opening day

Heck if they made a dodo park! Or elephant birds. THEY WERE REALLY BIG BIRDS MATES

getting things dodone

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chillness index 6/5

keep off sign is unchill

i misread it as "Keep Out"

what the hell dinosaur people?

if I saw that down the park I wouldn't just keep of the grass I'd probably quit the drink as well tbh

The eyes light up at night for extra wtf

How we roll in MI

where is it located, is that a park?

http://www.kampvilla.com/

y'all come and hang. i'll make a giant okonomiyaki.

i shd save my pennies for a world tour

i shd save my pennies for a bagel

or a Louis Vuitton bag, always wanted one of those things

q: wonder how much carefully combed-thru angst is just shortage of beer money and freedom?

possible answerhole 1: otoh, if you hadn't always spent everything on beer maybe you wd be more fulfilled and accomplished in other ways

q: srsly? seems unlikey

possble answehole 2: when you've doubled down long enough on failure it really makes no sense to back out. either you reject aspiration from sound moral prinicples or this is deathbed chickening . nagl.

q: i guess whne all the gumps are done achieving the void will be with us still but o god the path is scary enough, satori really looks downhillll from everywhere. nobility of abgnetion

that hurts doubly cos an attack of cramp in each thigh halfway through a school sports day 100m (still won obv) and a similarly shaped head to hanks did actually lead to me being called bump at school for a year

fuckin phone

possible a 1: i suspect you have always been predicated on "being somewhere else" but alkohol has usually been the nearest somewehre else

xp: pure gump chance. it's the successes i feel sorry for

there was a guy behind me essentially acting as an NFL blocker tbh, I'm told it was quite the viewing experience

it occurred to me this week, a propos of very little, that a lot of old guys - and by old i guess i mean my age and up at this point - that you (i) talk to in pubs have only got one mode of discourse re: politics and it is immediate radge near-threatening towards any idea that might be considerable as less than hundred percent toughness

I think its important to get out and about away from ILX political discourse -earnest, liberal to a fault, concerned to near patronising extent, all that stuff- and into the real world for idk ten mins every month before retreating back to ILX and thanking god its there at all

i enjoy my round the bar conversations but god i keep my mouth shut for a lot of it, not from fear so much as the sake of my ears. the weirdness of it is, these lads are usually comfortable in their skins and lives but convinced that some foreign communist of a sexually ambiguous persuasion is gonna snatch it all away at the first sign of weakness

actually i think what i fist noticed and what is most fun is its the same spittle-radge vehemence even when they're agreeing with you about some small beans roadworks

all political violence is local

gd wish i was there

what's the coffee like at ur local

i'd imagine it's adequate but as i intimated tbh this is a dilemma of financial rather than mental/physical health dimensions

i dunno i don't care if i had enough to just wobble my way down the rest of the rd i wd gladly take it right now, peace that passeth any standing

it gets wearing scraping the money together for enough to drink often enough, shit got so expensive

the price of drink would drive you to drink obv

I thought yesterday was payday and that I was doing well this month, rong, rong. ah well.

next thursday, but it's not like it alleviates much

bus pass, bye (to butcher Yeats)

i think maybe with pub too i feel bad when i do and bad when i don't

finding the wrong kind of company tbh, tho i cherish it

yay i remember now why i don't drink

might kill myself later when i've got the strength

nobody cares tho, they enjoy my drunken presence but nobody ever says "hey jim you stopped doing this do you think you shd stop again now because you've been here for at least 12 hours and tbh you look a bit crusty and spittly and grungy and ffs dude you are essentially wrecking yrself yeah?"

i am now gon' run thru SNA posting "X otfm" for a bit or something

i't's kinda im[rressive or depressive how much monet you can run thru once the wheels drop off

ime ppl just want the expected you and don't rly care if yr habits are self-destructive bc it's what they expect. some kind of foucaultian panopticism shit. for evidence of this watch ppl's reactions when you tell them about some big life improvement yr'e making, like "i decided to stop eating meat" or "i'm starting a course of religious austerities" and see how alienated they become

yeah. and tbf most of my friends like a drink and i wd be argumentative if i were encouraged to stop mid-session.

but there's gots to be more than this, love/hate it as i do

some big life improvement yr'e making, like "i decided to stop eating meat"

ah here now

i recently quit being 100% veg and got the same kinds of reactions fwiw

None of my friends are judgy about my diet in any direction, and if they are they keep that shit to themselves, this is the way I would keep it for the same reason I hope nobody ever says "hey jim you stopped doing this do you think you shd stop again now because you've been here for at least 12 hours and tbh you look a bit crusty and spittly and grungy and ffs dude you are essentially wrecking yrself yeah?" to me

My name isn't Jim for one

I mean supporting me in changes I decide to make is one thing

btw guys playing that Morton Feldman and John Cage in conversation video over a loop of the Animal Crossing music is probly the best thing i have ever devised

yeah. and tbf most of my friends like a drink

sigh ... it often makes me wonder if i should get different friends

looking forward to vomiting in a bit

btw guys playing that Morton Feldman and John Cage in conversation video over a loop of the Animal Crossing music is probly the best thing i have ever devised

the closest semi-successful thing i've done like this was play eno's "neroli" layered over "thursday afternoon"

good sleep music

i am planning a 900 person dinner

just fyi it's in 5 days

almost panicked just thinking about that

thank you

In your HOUSE?