Blue Saturday

Probably a laundrette tbf

i think the only people i can communicate with are at the other end of a computer network

but this is probs my fault

tho it seems sometimes that i want some kind of interaction that most people aren't bothered about?

i dunno i love my kids but it's in the nature of kids often to be closely wrapped in their own thing and that's all good, you don't save yrself by grabbing hold of another swimmer and wrestling them down

ow m y head

there is a core of blue in every soul maybe but opinions differ on the seemliness of sharing that out

WHAT ABOUT PHILOSOPHY CLUB

it's next week

i think i want coconut and pineapple and just one (1) fucking cuddle for fuck's sake

anyway this record exists

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Te3AA0NOTUU

everybody shd just

we were at risk of drowning once and the aul fella grabbed the two young bucks and left me and the older fella to it and we did our fuckin best to kill the other fella but siblings is different than kids obv nb we didnt drown but we sideyed each the other the rest of our days and the aul fella too

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8DWeVs-tDXA

lol i was just contemplating posting "god i'm so lonely and i've wasted my life" on here

i contemplated posting exactly EXACTLY those words (including quotation marks for attempt at ironic distance) to the drunk instructions thread recently

Unbeknown to me my phone ringer has been set to silent for about a year

I had wondered why I never heard it ring

― Finn McCoolit (wins), Tuesday, April 7, 2015 1:39 PM (30 minutes ago) Bookmark Flag Post Permalink

lol i was just contemplating posting "god i'm so lonely and i've wasted my life" on here

but fuck it you're right it's sunny

i don't have to drink

i'mma go commune with what passes for nature round here

― week of 'puter action (Noodle Vague), Tuesday, April 7, 2015 1:40 PM (30 minutes ago) Bookmark Flag Post Permalink

this series of posts really resonates with me for some reason

I'm back at the laundrette. My stuff is in dryer 11 but I pushed the button to start number 2 because I thought it was Roman numerals

machines confuse me sometimes too.

although they don't scare me really, the way sometimes other things do.

Oh def

I think in general I'm ok with being a bit shit

I carry a diary everywhere I go it has nothing written in it

i love carrying one tho

i have one that is pretty and green and shiny

small too

i walked round the park, it was pretty but busy, then i bumped into a friend's wife who told me he'd died in December. fucking cancer. left a beautiful daughter around Han's age too. then i went for a walk round the block, smiled and nodded at loads of strangers. there was a huge queue at the new gelato shop on Newland so i didn't get icecream, went to Lidl instead. got nice food. sun still shining. tomorrow Han's coming round.

we get by, don't we?

Ayuh

yes

we do, somehow

:) love you guys

haha FEEL THE INNER GLOW NV

definitely feel the inner glow

such a bogus world-view mourning the things you don't have

they had a copy of this

http://ecx.images-amazon.com/images/I/51TE8T974HL._SY344_BO1,204,203,200_.jpg

in Oxfam and like a fool i didn't get it. might have to go back tomorrow.

Eh I wouldn't spend a lot of time having feelings about it, the world is p much designed to encourage us to focus that way. Resistance and getting free of it where we can is the holy joy.

you mean like breaking the mold?

Sure! Idk what I mean, whatever it is for you I guess.

I am a contrary motherfucker so I feed on that kind of thing.

resistance is a v. necessary trait and not contrary imo

:)

yeah i like it. the world is such a weird place - you need to make it your own! grab a hold of it!

Did u read that clouds post in what are you into thread, that was great stuff

clouds is excellent people too

no where's the post - can u post?

i'm into this ONE HUNDRED PERCENT CONFIDENCE kick i've been on lately -- i have spent so much of my life terrified of being seen as queer, weird, ridiculous, etc. but... I AM ALL THOSE THINGS but also realizing (i mean i've sort of known but never really internalized it) that this is the very quality that people who like me appreciate.

also just putting more energy into looking cute/not dressing like a bum/not being fearful of standing out in any way.

like, i've done all the homework you know? i've spent years and years exerting so much effort to not offend, telling myself the lie (and believing it) that i was doing it out of some feeling of obligation to "make society better" and not merely a seeking of approval coupled with a fear of being hurt or singled out. sometimes it's liberating to be... kind of a dick!

tl;dr right now i am into being looking, feeling, being MAGNIFICENT <3

― clouds, Sunday, 5 April 2015 01:02 (2 days ago) Bookmark Flag Post Permalink

it's really a life ethos. i appreciate it, very much, as an idea. you have to know what you have. to really know what you have to offer.

http://cdn.realscreen.com/wp/wp-content/uploads/2012/10/river-monsters-3D.jpg?3ccae2";An A-Z of Roguish Britons Through the Ages"

"Roguish Briton" strikes me as something of an oxymoron on the same level as "extreme angler."

http://cdn.realscreen.com/wp/wp-content/uploads/2012/10/river-monsters-3D.jpg?3ccae2

does Briton mean British person?

Donaldson who wrote the book was an interesting guy, ran thru several fortunes, probably a pig to know personally, wrote v funny spoof letters to the great and good in the guise of a retired wet fish dealer called Henry Root.

also i love River Monsters

yeah Briton is the correct form of Britishes

oh nice

Christopher just discovered River Monsters. I don't mind it. It's always a catfish tho rite?

glad thread picked up btw it is the best drying day of the year so far and I'm home early

i've got to put my heating on to dry clothes at the moment, window of opportunity in my back yard is short. god i hate hanging out clothes, it's the worst bit of washing

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lol it is frequently a catfish but there was a great giant salamander ep one time

it is, let's be fuckin clear here, the worst part of anything

Did you know they recently discovered a salamander the size of a CAR

no they recently manufactured a car the size of a salamander I think it was