suicide

because one of the main drives of humanity is to keep everyone else suffering

some days my dog and my family are the only thing that keep me going

now that i've typed it out though i imagine a lot of people would say the same

NGGGGGGGG WHY AM I STILL FUCKING ALIVE?

hey, idk who you are but if you want to talk to someone and don't have anyone -- something that would happen to me when i was depressed -- feel free to PM me. i'm just chilling tonight.

lemme know if you do that on this thread though bc i usually don't check that email address. best of luck to you. if you think what you're dealing with is more serious than just needing to vent please contact a professional.

and if you hate me PM another friend or ilxor. one on one ilxors are a caring bunch.

life can be some bullshit sometimes, that's for sure

one on one ilxors are a caring bunch.

this is totally true ime

"User does not exist in the database" ?

: (

if any of you on here are close with and have a phone number or contact info about Emily please get in touch with her, her recent Facebook posts are very worrying and I am hoping that someone can reach out and shed light

Emily if you are reading this please stay with us and don't harm yourself further

she has contacted a friend

:(

thanks for that, I'm sorry if this was alarmist, but I was worried

friends get in touch with her tho and let her know you care and try help.

Im glad you did dr3w, I felt helpless and didnt know what to do as i dont know any of her irl friends. Thankfully she contacted one.
I'm still haunted by what happened to bimble.

yeah it's weird/sad/ironic to think about the overlay of all of these online forms of connection and conversation and intimacy and that really deep isolation and loneliness and alienation can still be a basic emotional reality for people despite that

what we can offer each other is the sheer raw fact of care and concern, which may not be enough to counter the reality of how it feels to deal with depression, but . . . it's not nothing, and when someone is posting and saying "no one cares about me and I mean nothing to other people" the very least we can do is to testify that that is not true

Emil.y if u are reading this I know the admiration of people on message boards is a paltry thing but I know I am far from alone in my admiration of u

bump similar to tune is space's post

yeah if you know emil.y irl please call her, this is scary

bumping this to keep it visible; emil.y, if you see this, please stay with us

bumping again just to keep it at the very top, anyone on here able to get in touch with people who know her irl?

her friend posted on fb that they are in an ambulance on their way to the hospital

Craigo says on fb that they're en route to the hospital.

sending good vibes

aw man, hope she she's OK

oh god I was so worried- I'm glad someone is with her and they're going to the hospital

she shared a photo of a lot of pills and said she was going to swallow them all

please know that there are people who don't want you to do this emily

Yes, all possible best wishes.

I hope she is all right!

i hope you find what you need emil.y

:((

i don't want to stigmatise suicide as it is a valid choice

but emil.y you're great and we all need you here

Good luck, Emily — I hope it gets better.

Fuck fuck fuck

Craig if there is anything I can do to help, just shout okay?

Best wishes and maximum comfort to you emil.y. If you ever need to speak about anything, I, and I'm sure a lot of your friends on here will be happy to stay and talk through it with you.

emil.y I was just thinking about you yesterday while listening to lots of indie bands and thinking it would be great to see you at Indietracks again this year. So can we try and make that happen please? Ta.

I hope you get better Emily, I love talking with you on ILX, and I most certainly wish you won't be gone forever. I wish you get all the support and love you deserve.

all my best to emil.y and everyone who cares about her

Emily please stay with us we love you

emil.y, if you get a chance to read this, I wish you the best and that you can somehow find a way to simultaneously exist AND be without pain.

hoping Emily is ok

ditto what everyone else has said. I don't know you very well emil.y, but you're the coolest and I hope you're ok.

Get well, emil.y. I always thought you seemed like one of the coolest and most sophisticated ilxors -- the sort of person who clearly has a vast amount of knowledge but is able to wear it lightly. Anyway, that's a quality I admire. When I first started posting you were nice to me and it motivated me to continue posting, for good or ill.

I don't have anything profound to say, just get well and come back soon, emil.y.

Please stay, Emil.y

emil.y you are fantastic to have around and we all really really want you to stay around.

Best wishes Emil.y

just saw the tweets - simultaneously frightening and heartbreaking. hoping you can get the help you need, emil.y. nobody should be forced to live through such pain.

Pajo's attempt was just about exactly a year ago, and it was so harrowing to watch that unfold in real time. It's also amazing to see his move toward gratitude in the months after. I hope Emil.y has started the first steps out of the woods.

god bless it, i saw some of her posts on ilx that hinted at this, i'm sick. i hope she's ok.

Have there been any updates?

Craig said on Facebook yesterday that she was OK and all was calm, but she was being kept in for monitoring. Someone else (don't know if it's someone from here, I don't always recognise real names) has asked for a further update, will let you know if I see anything else.