what the fuck am i getting myself into with this grad school stuff

unfortunately, concerning your predicament, i don't have any suggestions that you probably haven't already thought of.

so i'm done with this shit, hallefuckinglujah

ugh. it's like, i have spent 2 years rounding out my skills as a professional in this field, and it should be a GOOD thing that i can identify this stuff and find solutions as, to me, it means i may be prepared/ready to take on these challenges (in this org or another one). i feel like it hurts my professional credibility to make it some 'this was all roses and fantastic and if i HAD to choose 1 bad thing it would be that maybe the water in the bathroom is a tiny bit too cold when you first turn the tap on!'

like what if a future employer asks to see it? and this shit will be on file @ my college for all eternity, for anyone to look at.

Hahaha, ytth, no names to be mentioned of course but I can guess among numerous candidates. (My argument has long been that Derrida was a clever humorist but that a lot of people missed the humor...)

zing?

zing = he's dead now.

i am quite enjoying my program right now! being taught by some of the best...

now if only the admins would stop being such quacked fools

my adviser left me two five-minute long messages today about problems with my thesis. the "problems" she refers to were there in the first draft, which she said was excellent and well-written. i am so livid i don't know what to do. she has just cost me 4.5 weeks.

THESIS gawwwwwwwwwd.

On one hand, it's the bane of my existence. On the other, I'm 99% sure no one will except for my adviser will ever read it, ever. EVER. So maybe I should just shit it out and get it over with.

I am loving this so much, I am trying to line up a phd.

i'm going into a phd program next fall, for sure. kind of excited about it. i won't even have to move that far.

i've mostly planned on stopping at the MA but i found out about a ph.D program i might conceivably be into this morning and now i'm not sure. but i should really concentrate on the next year-and-change first

ed, we all feel that way for the first few months. just wait.

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck

Who else is completely losing their mind?

me :(

a paper was due friday before spring break it is now tuesday after spring break and i have not done it. the guy said he didn't really care when we hand it in but the main reason i can't do it is it's stupid like "tell me how you feel" shit. i can't do this anymore!!!!

I am the worst at writing "tell me who you feel" papers. Are you graduating this May Harbl, or are you going on into next year still?

i am losing my mind

i am graduating which makes it 100x harder to do anything. i do about 20% of my reading for classes now i think!

I wish my school would subsidize the 2+ years of rehab I'm going to need after I graduate.

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck man, fuuuuuuuuuuck.

in part because i've realized that i *hate* the way the curriculum is structured here. ours is one of the most traditional, lecture-only curricula in the country (from what i gather), and it's extremely frustrating. it's not that the material is hard (the stuff you learn in med school isn't ~that~ difficult, it's mostly that there's a lot of it and it covers a lot of ground), it's that the pace is sorta breakneck and pedagogically antiquated.

lol liberal arts major from some new england college

would so much rather be working on a thesis/project than str8 memorizing shit for a multiple choice test

oh see that is the exact opposite of me (much to my surprise!)

(ps still not in grad school; I am doomed to be a BA for life)

actually, what i'd really prefer is an actual Problem-Based Learning curriculum, but unless they let me design my own i'm sorta SOL

adviser wants to know how my thesis is coming. i don't know how to tell her 'it's no different than the last time we talked because i was out of town/otherwise occupied for a week and a half. ps you are insane for making me make massive changes to it at the last minute you big jerk.'

would so much rather be working on a thesis/project than str8 memorizing shit for a multiple choice test

Yeah, I'm with Dan - At this point I'd trade working on my thesis for just about anything in the world. I guess the grass is always greener.

it is kind of really hitting me now, that thing they ("they") say about this inertia-ish thing: so much stuff about law school everyone goes "i hate this" "this is pointless and should be done this way" "why are we doing this" and there is basically a consensus about it but like when you leave there's no longer any point in changing it or getting rid of it so every student has to go through the same thing. namely (1) the last semester or two of school where no one is learning a thing and (2) law review which is some big prestige shit when you get on it your second year and then your third year you're like fuck this

prob goes in law school thread. anyway i wish instead of going to class the last year you could just have a full-time job.

My thesis is due in a month, and I am on PAGE SIX.

Wait - hold the phone...now I'm on PAGE SEVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it is kind of really hitting me now, that thing they ("they") say about this inertia-ish thing: so much stuff about law school everyone goes "i hate this" "this is pointless and should be done this way" "why are we doing this" and there is basically a consensus about it but like when you leave there's no longer any point in changing it or getting rid of it so every student has to go through the same thing. namely (1) the last semester or two of school where no one is learning a thing and (2) law review which is some big prestige shit when you get on it your second year and then your third year you're like fuck this

prob goes in law school thread. anyway i wish instead of going to class the last year you could just have a full-time job.

sorta the same in med school, except that it's also coupled to this bootcamp/vicious cycle mentality where ppl are like "it's med school, it's SUPPOSED to suck." whereas me and most of the older students are like "y'all are crazy, i used to have a life, etc." I mean, i'd rather spend twice as much time doing my pre-clinical stuff if it meant i had time to be a normal person

i don't even really mind it sucking as long as i'm getting something out of it. i learned a lot in the first half but now i'm like ????

I am afraid that the night that I finish my thesis I will party so hard that I'll end up in county jail.

After all, Andrew W.K. did not party hard until he finished his thesis - then he spiraled out of control.

i just have to finish this damn thesis (which should have been DONE by now @#(*U% which makes me not want to do it at all) and host 1 panel discussion at the end of the month and kinda show up for class once a week to listen to other panels. i am skipping tonight because i am getting sick and also because i couldn't bear the thought of going, so yeah, feelin u, harbl.

i am kinda staggered that someone can ask a multiple choice question with a straight face in graduate school.

Maybe it's one of those multiple choice quizzes where you have to circle all of the correct answers for each question. Those are a little more difficult.

doing ok for now but expect a GOD AGH FUCK EVERYTHING post from me in ca. 2 weeks

i am kinda staggered that someone can ask a multiple choice question with a straight face in graduate school.

― caek, Tuesday, March 31, 2009 6:51 PM (34 minutes ago) Bookmark

it's med school. they can get away with it because that's how the USMLE (board) exams are structured.

yeah i think you can get away with them in any professional school (like are MBA's smart enough to write essays lol jk). we have had legendary ones such as 150 mc questions, 2 points off for wrong answer, +1 for right answer, 0 for blank. i actually love those exams as much as it's possible to love an exam but people tend to leave them in tears ;_;

mbas are the most disgusting savages in the world imo, etc.

rly i'm just jealous i didn't go for a recognized major.

can I just

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My brain is scrambled, my anxiety is through the roof every minute of every day, I have dreams about my thesis almost every night, and my personal life is falling apart.

what the fuck did i get into with this grad school stuff FUCK

Fuck, I mean I didn't even remember that I already posted this months ago

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lol sucks to be you

j/k good luck :)

month of hell begins now

i turned in my heavily revised thesis on tuesday. my adviser is out of town for a funeral of someone v v close to her (she was so distraught she didn't even stick around for our class that evening), and was to read our theses on the plane and then call us. i understand that she is going through a difficult time but i have not heard a peep from her since tuesday and if she decides to go all crazy on me again, i need this time to be 'fixing' shit! argh@)#(**

good luck, students.