hi wins
― Peeking at Peak Petty (Sufjan Grafton), Thursday, 21 August 2014 23:51 (nine years ago) link
are these gentlemen bother you? just let me know.
I've learned to rise above the bullying
― a spectrum is taunting ur OP (wins), Thursday, 21 August 2014 23:53 (nine years ago) link
http://2012.campbestival.net/media/thumbs/Breakfast-With-Henry-Henry-Rollins-Spoken-Word_1_1327623216.jpg
― Peeking at Peak Petty (Sufjan Grafton), Thursday, 21 August 2014 23:54 (nine years ago) link
✓
― Treeship, Thursday, 21 August 2014 23:56 (nine years ago) link
Spectrum is very... demonstrative and loquacious in his descriptions of his own travails, to the extent where the attitudes therein overwhelm his actual comments and complaints
nakh is pretty much full of comment but where imago tries to paint a vivid picture using extensive wordplay, nakh hides his points and barbs in word camoflauge
I mean, to my understanding
also, wins otm
― mh, Friday, 22 August 2014 00:05 (nine years ago) link
Nakh is still somewhat mysterious to me. I don't have a good sense of who he is outside of his ilx persona and am interested in learning more about this.
― Treeship, Friday, 22 August 2014 00:06 (nine years ago) link
he's a 72yo grave digger irl
― Mordy, Friday, 22 August 2014 00:07 (nine years ago) link
http://robpetkau.files.wordpress.com/2013/07/spike_and_chester.jpg
l-r: nakh, imago
― mookieproof, Friday, 22 August 2014 00:25 (nine years ago) link
I was concerned that I somehow sparked a meta-clusterfuck but that image from mookieproof has clarified everything
― heck (silby), Friday, 22 August 2014 00:38 (nine years ago) link
yeah, alright, i took this a little too far. not a good few past months for me.
― Spectrum, Friday, 22 August 2014 01:30 (nine years ago) link
i hate all of you
― linda cardellini (zachlyon), Friday, 22 August 2014 01:48 (nine years ago) link
if you thought i was making light of your depression then i quite understand why you would be upset
im sure this is just a case where you alluded to depression in one of your fairly lengthy posts alongside some unrelated lamentable nonsense and criticism of the latter was taken for mockery of illness
theres nothing unreasonable in criticizing someone for saying something untowards in an otherwise confessional context, just as in orbit criticized your use of 'tranny', although in that instance i did not criticize you because it related to a traumatic experience
― tao lin commentboxing (nakhchivan), Friday, 22 August 2014 02:14 (nine years ago) link
i didn't read all these posts, but i'm pro-nakh & pro-clusterfucks
― markers, Friday, 22 August 2014 02:26 (nine years ago) link
merdes as a rare nonworthless poster who raised criticism of that thread id suggest you missed some managed disingenuous there in getting people to restate things
oh i didn't mean criticism, it was more a general comment on the arabesque stylistic traits of you and lj alike vs the cold hard precision of communicational necessity, and not to come down on the side of the latter
― Merdeyeux, Friday, 22 August 2014 02:45 (nine years ago) link
hah alright
― tao lin commentboxing (nakhchivan), Friday, 22 August 2014 02:47 (nine years ago) link
Sounds like my undergrad thesis
― Treeship, Friday, 22 August 2014 02:47 (nine years ago) link
if you thought i was making light of your depression then i quite understand why you would be upsetim sure this is just a case where you alluded to depression in one of your fairly lengthy posts alongside some unrelated lamentable nonsense and criticism of the latter was taken for mockery of illnesstheres nothing unreasonable in criticizing someone for saying something untowards in an otherwise confessional context, just as in orbit criticized your use of 'tranny', although in that instance i did not criticize you because it related to a traumatic experience― tao lin commentboxing (nakhchivan), Thursday, August 21, 2014 10:14 PM (3 minutes ago) Bookmark Flag Post Permalink
― tao lin commentboxing (nakhchivan), Thursday, August 21, 2014 10:14 PM (3 minutes ago) Bookmark Flag Post Permalink
yeah, i'm aware i post a lot of lamentable nonsense, this is a work in progress. thanks for being cool.
― Spectrum, Friday, 22 August 2014 02:57 (nine years ago) link
or rather, "I do post a lot of lamentable nonsense." i think i keep missing the finer points in things.
― Spectrum, Friday, 22 August 2014 03:00 (nine years ago) link
nakhnkosiurhf is obviously a highly intelligent person
― brimstead, Friday, 22 August 2014 03:16 (nine years ago) link
xp reading that over, i just want to point out that i wasn't always this bad. i mean, i was always a little socially awkward, but nothing like over the past few years. i've had pretty much straight depression for 10 years now and it has turned my brain into mush. this is definitely not something you want to leave unchecked.
― Spectrum, Friday, 22 August 2014 03:27 (nine years ago) link
yeah me too, i hear ya
― brimstead, Friday, 22 August 2014 03:30 (nine years ago) link
Spectrum, this site is a lot of great things but it's not always a safe space to be vulnerable, at least once you venture into certain threads. I had a hard time with this too at first, but I don't think you should be hard on yourself. Just try to remember what ilx is and what it isn't
― Treeship, Friday, 22 August 2014 03:40 (nine years ago) link
Also feel free to PM me whenever
― Treeship, Friday, 22 August 2014 03:41 (nine years ago) link
― Spectrum, Friday, 22 August 2014 04:27
i sympathize and i am glad this shitfight has given way to something more lucid
i don't generally comment on threads like the depression thread, which i don't always read regularly in any case, and where i can imagine the (unlikely, hypothetical) consequences of someone taking advice that i give without any special insight and that turns out to be poor advice in the long run
that said i would like to express the uncontroversial hope that you find a good psychoanalyst/psychotherapist, and are able to work with them in the medium to long term if necessary, and that while the straightforwardly curative model of physiological medicine might not obtain, there is from what i have read of psychoanalysis (not a huge amount since reading about ten volumes of the collected freud years ago) the eminent possibility of success, with the definition of that success being half of the therapy
― tao lin commentboxing (nakhchivan), Friday, 22 August 2014 03:43 (nine years ago) link
you should post that aon the depression thread
― the late great, Friday, 22 August 2014 03:48 (nine years ago) link
― Treeship, Thursday, August 21, 2014 11:40 PM (5 minutes ago) Bookmark Flag Post Permalink
yeah spec, if you ever need to be "vulnerable" remember you can always just make a sock and then be an obnoxious asshole with it in every single thread you wish to ruin
then when people figure it out you can just revert to your old pass-ag naive innocent chasing-butterflies persona and act like it never happened!
― linda cardellini (zachlyon), Friday, 22 August 2014 03:51 (nine years ago) link
sry forgot thread rules ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
― linda cardellini (zachlyon), Friday, 22 August 2014 03:52 (nine years ago) link
wait how is that being vulnerable? Or "vulnerable" even?
― Peeking at Peak Petty (Sufjan Grafton), Friday, 22 August 2014 03:59 (nine years ago) link
vulnerable is not quite accurate.. I believe the concept is "not super fucking smart"
― brimstead, Friday, 22 August 2014 03:59 (nine years ago) link
yeah i'v heard psychoanalysis can be successful too! only from what i've read, though
― brimstead, Friday, 22 August 2014 04:01 (nine years ago) link
not from any actual people, though. They all agree that it's pseudoscientific crapshit
― brimstead, Friday, 22 August 2014 04:02 (nine years ago) link
and we're all jihadists
― brimstead, Friday, 22 August 2014 04:03 (nine years ago) link
this cluster is too complicated
― Peeking at Peak Petty (Sufjan Grafton), Friday, 22 August 2014 04:05 (nine years ago) link
now i feel guilty again
― heck (silby), Friday, 22 August 2014 04:09 (nine years ago) link
Xp that's what the selbsportrait series is for
― brimstead, Friday, 22 August 2014 04:10 (nine years ago) link
I, II, VI
― brimstead, Friday, 22 August 2014 04:11 (nine years ago) link
Actually, zachlyon is sort of right that my less than awesome ilx behavior was due to immature reactions to difficult life circumstances I wasn't dealing with.
― Treeship, Friday, 22 August 2014 04:13 (nine years ago) link
wait we talkin franco here?
― Peeking at Peak Petty (Sufjan Grafton), Friday, 22 August 2014 04:15 (nine years ago) link
Yeah thats what zach was referring to
― Treeship, Friday, 22 August 2014 04:16 (nine years ago) link
But i meant that and other stuff. Just in general, i relate to the regret Spectrum expressed in his posts, want him to know that other people have felt like that.
― Treeship, Friday, 22 August 2014 04:17 (nine years ago) link
franco did ruin that one thread where everyone was trying to guess who gets it
― Peeking at Peak Petty (Sufjan Grafton), Friday, 22 August 2014 04:28 (nine years ago) link
my less than awesome ilx behavior was due to immature reactions to difficult life circumstances I wasn't dealing with.
Dude, FWIW, this could probably be a permanent board description.
― Two Scoops of Plump, Juicy Raisins (Old Lunch), Friday, 22 August 2014 05:24 (nine years ago) link
i would like to report that nakh acted a smug little shitwad today, but that i've always admired the vocab. go spectrum.
― Adding ease. Adding wonder. Adding (contenderizer), Friday, 22 August 2014 05:50 (nine years ago) link
mookie otm
― i was a downy lad, and twee (stevie), Friday, 22 August 2014 08:43 (nine years ago) link
can anyone summarise ilm clusterfucks if any
― genderification: gone too far? (darraghmac), Friday, 22 August 2014 08:48 (nine years ago) link
nah but I would like to observe the irony of stevie shitheadedly seconding mookie's depiction of seconding
― imago, Friday, 22 August 2014 09:43 (nine years ago) link
clusterfuck bummery corner more like.
― Scary Darey (dog latin), Friday, 22 August 2014 09:47 (nine years ago) link
haha this thread sucks so bad
― lag∞n, Friday, 22 August 2014 12:14 (nine years ago) link
thanks for the support and uhhh, minding the personal crisis in the clusterfuck thread. to wrap up some ilx lore, i used to post as burt_stanton, which was like 6 years into this mess. by that time my mind had gone completely out the window, which might come as a surprise to you all, and there was an actual person underneath all that crap. like, things were so bad for me that i was afraid sweaters were wussy!! like, what the hell is that? i don't even know where all that stuff came from. but i'm going to get this shit checked out because i'm done with this. anyway, i think i've had more than my fair share of time bleating about my problems.
― Spectrum, Friday, 22 August 2014 13:31 (nine years ago) link