Blue Saturday

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objection over-ruled

i wd be in a pleasantly wistful mood but i've either got a bad back or a bad kidney, no idea how to tell. it feels more to one side than right on my spine. either way i'm supposed to be going to watch kids do Kiss Me Kate tonight. seats better be comfy.

ouch, hope you feel better soon. Enjoy KMK but yeah, school production (if that's what it is) locations not noted for their comfortable seating arrangements I guess.

Learning irregular German verbs will keep your mind plenty busy! Better than Solitaire, at least. (I have such a Solitaire addiction, I've had to uninstall it from any computer where I've ever worked. I can play that game for days when my head gets a bug for it.)

YES. I had to delete Freecell and then I had to delete sol.exe and then I had to delete Spider Solitaire and now I'm just playing sodding Threes, which doesn't even bring the satisfaction of "winning" occasionally. Why can't I at least make myself write a Threes-alike instead, which would be good practice? Nooo.

Sometimes I feel like I procrastinate because useful tasks don't keep my head mindlessly busy enough to keep thoughtworms out, but that doesn't make sense, since Freecell lets them all wriggle about all over the place. But there's still a feeling that if I turn on Thoughts Mode to do some actual useful thinking I'll get rumination instead.

(I feel uselessly ashamed over something that happened yesterday and I have a work task that makes me want to die when I think about how much of it is left to do so I've been avoiding it for weeks and I have some other stuff that would just make ILX go "told you so" because indeed you did and indeed I told myself so too and I still fell for it.)

Why can't I at least make myself write a Threes-alike instead, which would be good practice? Nooo.

Ha, this is totally me. Watching silly 80s computer graphics demo videos on youtube when i 'should' or 'could' be making my own shit with openframeworks.
I've gotten better at trying to lasso myself when i do happen to have a measurable amount of motivation. It's really easy for me to just slide back into procrastination but lately i've been working on just 'grabbing myself' and thinking "No! Let's do this! I feel slightly up for it at this specific moment, let's get going before the feeling is lost!". Like a random jumpstart.

now I'm just playing sodding Threes

i like to mix it up with a little 2048 sometimes

Stopped awhile this morning on my way back home
I had to realize this time that I'd be all alone

Labour-run Dover town council said it was hoped the wave-shaped benches would deter "extended sitting".

The benches, which are made of seven curved strips of metal to blend in with the shape of the waves, do not have a back or armrest so that shoppers only sit on them for a few minutes.

The chair of the community and services department, Councillor Sue Jones, said: "If they were too comfortable, we would have the gentlemen and ladies of the day lounging on them. They discourage antisocial behaviour."

maybe wire them up to produce a mild electric shock every 5 minutes

this fucking country is dead to me

just spent half an hour extended sitting in the Peace Garden, in the sun

it was good, and i'm ok, and life is a thing. but

this fucking country is dead to me

they march right on in time
and straight into the pool
oh so quick and cool

would recommend Mike Davies' City of Quartz for great analysis of that kind of hostile urban design Dover are apparently going for

duly googled, pdf entering my "avoiding work" folder as we speak

Also, Joel Garreau's 'Edge City'.

ooh nice, we have that in our library, picking it up!

Doesn't surprise me that it's Dover. Presumably targeted at the refugee population. It's increasingly common elsewhere, though.

They've been doing uncomfortable-on-purpose seating ever since I can remember: the McDonalds booth benches calibrated to make you fidgety after five minutes just from the angle of the seat, the park benches with weird spikes or armrests in so nobody can lay down on them, et cetera, forever...

While getting lunch in the midst of interviewing for that awful job, I had the misfortune to try to find a place to sit and eat lunch in West Kensington. No benches. All the parks private and key only. Stoops with those awful iron work spikes. I ended up finding a church, thinking that I could sit in the graveyard - even that was cordoned off. There was literally one ledge of the church that had clearly been designed for a bench, but the council had whacked a great street sign in front of it so that you could not sit there. I ended up sitting and eating my lunch perched behind the street sign.

But then again "this country". Like you imagine it's better elsewhere.

our city council which undoubtedly has its faults has put in these very comfortable wooden sun loungers directly in front of the beach, you can stretch out on them in the sun and close your eyes and listen to the surf rolling onto the sand.

I have to say, free deck chairs on Brighton Pier = pretty damn civilised.

It's one of the things that's most notably missing from Britain - an urban "outside" culture. Weather is a factor in making it practical but there's definitely a suspicion of being outdoors and not a)in park or b) paying to consume something. We tend not to congregate, promenade, hang about on front steps, etc - and then complain about not knowing our neighbours.

I am lucky to live right by several very benchy parks (including one with a bench dedicated to a late ILXor). If you are a Londoner who actually wants to meet neighbours, the best way is to have a dog. On the walks, you'll meet many of the people who've committed to living in your area for the long-term (yes, it's a Kenny day here in Bloomsbury).

BB that para is kinda shocking to me. i'm (inordinately) fond of this city and one thing i'm grateful for is the number of places to sit and ponder, inside and out. but yeah, as SV says, "always be consuming" seems so internalised everywhere

god i can't moan without cultivating some kind of bourgie "i'm better than you sheeple" aspect and i hate that, it isn't true, people are just doing their things and it's my tired and bitter that taints the view

and today i don't feel bitter, just tired, and tired of the spiteful and the vengeful and the bad karma England's accrued thru its centuries of exporting blood and slavery and cash nexuses

and a red admiral's been following me around all day which is cool really, i dunno why my glass is so empty except my usual boorish habits obv, i need a big ice bath to drop my brain in for a week i think

this one?

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/e/ef/Kuznetsov1.jpg

It was just a bit of a shock to me, because my part of London is very big on public parks and spaces and places to sit. Granted, a lot of that on the high street is "cafe culture" and you have to pay for a drink. But the commons are, well, *common* and you can't move for benches or places to rest. It just reminded me why I particularly hate West London.

(I am trying to work up the courage to hit "send" on an email and failing miserably right now.)

((I fear that in being self effacing, I have hit an ugly note of "faux naif" or whatever, but I genuinely do feel, well, "I do these stupid sketches, maybe you want some, maybe you don't" and I think that's a more honest approach, when "my stuff ROX0Rs, you poxy F00Ls" seems to be the preferred approach for the rest of the fucking world, but really, fuck that attitude.))

Always Be Closing - even when you're the product

meanwhile just in case anybody doesn't know here is the Secret Museum of Mankind:::

http://ian.macky.net/secretmuseum/index.php

It's one of the things that's most notably missing from Britain - an urban "outside" culture.
― Yuri Bashment (ShariVari), Friday, 11 April 2014 13:24 (1 hour ago) Bookmark Flag Post Permalink

Ha tell that to old leatherchest over the road from me with his sofa in the front garden.

I LOVE THIS CITY

last time i was around kensington my friends and i got yelled away from the stoop we were sitting on by the homeowner, was good to feel teenage again.

If you close all of the parks, and provide no street furniture, where on earth do you expect people to sit?

Oh! Don't want people sitting anywhere near you? Maybe you shouldn't live in London.

Ugh.

I hit send, and now I have to avoid my email until the end of time.

Oh well. I bought ice cream. I'll eat that in the sunshine.

happy belated birthday bb

also hb to wins

did i miss birthdays? feel like i've been a long way up myself for the last fortnight. hb to u boths

Thank you, Estella! Also TY NV.

Is today Wins' birthday? HB, wins.

This was my moms fav song. RIP mom, we will always love you.

<3 Ogmor

ty branwell

no kids. again. feel like going for a loooong drink. gonna try hard not to. learning slowly, it's only less lonely for a few gone moments, and chicks don't dig zombie-shambling bozos. inside solitude is, at least, affordable.

[countdown to pulling boots on and rushing out the door T-minus 30 minutes]

nahhhh

the part of me that usually trolls about booze is mostly trolling about burgers recently, I would f'in love a burger. I know just where to go to get a good one.

I missed the birthday wishes upthread btw, thanks guys

i missed the bday iirc hb wins

i've slept about ten hours since last sunday, neighbours and criminals are tag-teaming me ito sleep deprivation trolling. can't imagine doing any of the college stuff that needs done for tomorrow deadline or study for exams next week. the room is spinnin here.

sleep deprivation is the absolute worst if you need to do anything with yr brain

i'm cooking chicken and rice and listening to the football, the food shd keep me on the straight and narrow for a while anyway

oh ya football, college'll wait

sleep deprivation is the absolute worst if you need to do anything with yr brain

for at least four and a half years after i graduated college, i was fucking with my sleep. two and a half weeks ago or so i fixed it, meaning i'm usually getting close to eight hours a night now. that, coupled with some changes in diet and other things, has worked miracles. if you don't actually have insomnia and can find a way to get regular sleep, every night, around the same time, do it. seriously. do it now.