Blue Saturday

bleeee saturday :)

New display name; thanks, Estela!

:D

adults shouldn't have "crushes"

why is win locked out

Thank fuck I'm not an "adult", eh?

soi-disant online hardman explains maturity, sweet sign me up

It's a day for gin. Or white port, with a decent tonic. Not gonna have any, I'm being stupid but it's not like I'm an idiot or anything. Drinking nice light ales. Once I get to bed I'll be right, & get back on the abstinence thing.

It's Barrett's Cambridge today, def. There is no other day.

Haha this pub is playing dub side of the moon, that album is sick

seem to be childless this weekend and that and the sunshine are calling me out to play but i really don't wanna have to pal up with Mr Wonga so i guess i'll just get a few things to eat and sit it out here playing games

But that's the great thing about a sunny day isn't it, that you don't really need any of those extra things. Just be outside with a book or whatevs, bring your own food

Yes! Today has been me going to the newly refurbished library and coming home with SEVEN BOOKS none of which I paid a penny for, then sitting in the park in the dappled sunshine, reading (Angel by Elizabeth Taylor at the moment) and all for FREE GLORIOUS GLORIOUS FREE. Screw you, Capitalism. Who needs ya.

went to the shops - it's clement, but not warm. the light is wintry - strange, silvered and misty. i got some chores done today so i can feel almost content with 5 Live on the radio and the fish and chips i just bought.

It's basically summer here, not to gloat we're lucky with our weather

BB I used to check out that many books but now there's no way I'd be able to read them all before they were due :-(

Thats the wonderful thing about unemployment; I can read 7 books a week if I feel like it!

I wish I could do that. But with, you know, my salary. Is that too much to ask?

apparently yeah. i've asked. and my salary's shit.

Mine is good maybe I think, its above what I earned at t€$co and I don't think I lived a much meaner existence then

I like my job a lot but jobs are a bad deal

I've had a really good day but I will be violently sick later, I'm on my 4.5th pint. I'm moving like a sloth too, this happened before a bit after I was diagnosed, a kind of physical depression I'm not used to

It is one of the great unfairnesses of this world that no one gets paid to read (or write) books all day long.

word

I was gonna start a thread on reading while drunk: that point where there is 100% comprehension but barely any retention. What the fuck is that about

Like I could read 10 chapters now, and take it all in, and think about it, but I would have to read it again tomorrow.

truth, the prose goes crystal clear for a little while but don't bother trying to remember what you've read tomorrow

tbf i'm sure all my conversations are cogent and well-reasoned while i'm drunk too

Ive gone through education that way i think

Xp, maybe, idk

The worst thing is when you read it the next day there is this irritable "yes ive already READ this" from yr brain even though you haven't remembered it you recognise it so it feels a waste of time

ILX

wouldn't know I don't read it I just post

What should I watch or listen to when I get home. I have spotify netflix and amazon <3film

(sorry at some point I should have migrated to the Friday/Saturday chitchat threads but I feel blue so)

drunky maudlin rambles is pretty much our raison d, come on

Oh if you have Netfix please can you see if How Art Made The World by Nigel Spivey is on there?

(granted this is no help if UK Netflix is different than US, but still.)

Also it's really good and maybe I'll watch it myself tonight.

Will do

UK netflix is kinda shit, I assume it's better elsewhere

Oh god I could get on a train and join my friends at Lawrence pantha du prince &c there is a spare ticket

kinda refuse to believe mandy contributes to liver damage, its the other stuff

I am HOME. I am in my room in my house. I will get a takeaway and then sleep forever.

yesh he said yesh

seriously thinking about going out for a bit in my slobbing round the house outfit, dressing gown and all, thus killing the yearning for alcohol and human company without raising the bar of expectation

k so i just found out Hannah is on a 13-mile walk in the dark with a little troupe of scouts for company and no direct adult supervision. am gonna sit in and fret instead.

Yes that will definitely make things better.

half-joking, i just never realised how extreme today's Scouts was

I am sure we did mad things like that at scouts and came home fine and happy-exhausted except for bramble scratches.

i'm chill, she just seems v. little all of a sudden

granted Han will be probably be the one giving orders and dragging other kids etc

I mean, exactly. C'mon now.

I wish I could stop my overthinky brain from thinking myself out of feeling good with insecurities and self doubt.

Forgot the A-number-1 rule yesterday. Pop stars are not your friends. Music is your friend. Music is your boyfriend. Pop stars make music which fills up all the holes in your emotional life. But pop stars themselves, are just the Signifier and not the Signified.

Anyway. A shoot of what seems like good news...

Headhunter called me today about the first role where my ears pricked up and I said "Yes, that is what I do, and that is what I want to be doing!" and then when they told me the organisation I actually thought "YES. THAT IS THE KIND OF ORGANISATION I WANT TO WORK FOR." Please cross fingers and hold thumbs that it is what it is represented as being, and that the they are Good People and that I can get this job. Yes.

digits crossed

Tick

And this is how I get seduced back into ~life~ and ~work~ all over again, when really I just feel kinda done with it.