Blue Saturday

today all the women i know seem to be implying that i'm a bit pathetic

i dunno what to do with this info. i'm just trying to be the best me i can be. can't even tell where thoughtfulness turns into feebleness tbh.

okay i may be reading stuff in there that isn't exactly there but i know a lot of people who see a lot in black and white and my greyness makes them dismissive. i'm okay with grey i guess. i just feel a bit like "can't cut it in the real world fuck you"

even when there's a bit of me that just wants to EFF YOU RIGHT BACK i feel a sense of uselessness about it and just swallow it up

what kinds of things are they saying?

fyi I will fight them if u want me to, as a favor for this upcoming season of giving

i shdn't've started moaning if i'm just gonna be elliptical so i dunno

i work with people who are very black and white when it comes to managing difficult staff, and today not for the first time i felt this vibe - probably just in my head - when i was arguing about the best way of dealing with people whose performance was less than ideal. there's a lot of "just bloody get on with it" in my office/department and i feel like that must echo back on me, like what were people saying/thinking for all those weeks when i cdn't get it together to leave the house?

then tonight i just had a phone call from the mrs to vent about our daughter's admittedly not great behaviour, but nothing i could offer to do and no support was any good, which, fair enough, you want to vent, i'll listen, but kind of getting at me because i didn't have a master plan that didn't involve patience and understanding and just keep trying, until i'm genuinely worried about what she's telling me but i'm not allowed to be worried or express worry, i'm just no use really

i mean fuck it some of this is probably perfectly true and i don't wanna be a delicate little snowflake but what a fucking week. i dunno if i can't concentrate cos i'm useless or cos shit keeps happening that wd throw anybody off their stride, apparently i'm all overdrawn at the feeling sorry for myself bank so

i just had to vent and this was really the only hole i had to shout down

what were people saying/thinking for all those weeks when i cdn't get it together to leave the house?

well at least it appears that they have moved on to other targets

anyway i just got the traditional semi-apology from nom so forget it, i'm all good, nothing to see

i really need to take a break

I wouldn't bother yourself with what the worst type of judgemental arseholes are going to think of you, it usually is as bad you think it is but fuck 'em fuck 'em fuck 'em.

right

All criticism is a valuable opportunity 4u to improve imo -_-

An article reportedly written by the composer appeared in the Moscow newspaper Vechernyaya Moskva a few days before the premiere of the Fifth Symphony. There, he reportedly states that the work "is a Soviet artist’s creative response to justified criticism." Whether Shostakovich or someone more closely connected with the Party actually wrote the article is open to question,[18] but the phrase "justified criticism"—a reference to the denunciation of the composer in 1936—is especially telling.[19]

http://www.hulldailymail.co.uk/Hull-thug-got-drunk-mum-bashed-men-Benjamin/story-20089575-detail/story.html

the best headline

that's not a headline, that's a modernist poem

http://songandsin.files.wordpress.com/2013/01/gilles-deleuze.jpg

Fedora or Borsalino?

"10 habits of highly defective people"

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Quick search kinda a kick in the teeth in context

got those "several minor things to be anxious/sad about and it's dark and cold and i've been stuck in here alone for the last 2 days" blues

which i know will be gone in the morning, so

i hope all you ILXors who Thanksgive are gonna be somewhere that makes you happy tomorrow

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on the way to work this morning. the Christmas star on top of Maizecor flashes on and off.

good philosophy club sesh on Wittgenstein's language games last night

led to the observation that a group of strangers are far more comfortable discussing their pain with each other than their sexual experiences

I'm out of the house! This week suddenly got very Blue Saturday, but at least there is a small amount of work (when I don't forget to go to it)

good stuff

it's always Blue Saturday, just that Blue has a lot of different moods in it

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:The_Blues_Moods_of_Spain_cover.jpg

or even

http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_GQtuh1Q_luQ/TLpyN9UaczI/AAAAAAAAEyY/4iie_dskPRI/s1600/Spain+-+The+Blue+Moods+Of+Spain+-.jpg

was contemplating changing the title to Blue Slatternday

that would be a siren call to me.

ah well in that case

i believe in fair warnings.

Blues at a day

w8 I fucked that up

Blues at ur day clearly

Blue saturnday, in which the noted planet could be coloured blue (lights? Paint? Digital trickery? Mass delusion? Work on this later) as a marketing measure covering brands as diverse as brmingham city, everton, coventry city and the popular velvet market by david lynch

not having the Brummie Bashers in this thread thankuverymuch

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cb9Zjz28-fg&list=PL8C2DF1AC388990DB

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QSjA3xzHUKE

Suddenly, however, he was horrified at hearing the most dreadful screams, evidently the result of great terror, proceeding from the direction in which his son had gone, and he hastily threw down his tools and ran to see what had happened. Tracing his path by the sound, he met the little boy, who was running headlong, and was evidently terribly frightened, and on questioning him the man elicited that after picking a posy of flowers he felt tired, and lay down on the grass and fell asleep. He was suddenly awakened, as he stated, by a peculiar noise, a sort of singing he called it, and on peeping through the branches he saw Helen V. playing on the grass with a "strange naked man," who he seemed unable to describe more fully. He said he felt dreadfully frightened and ran away crying for his father. Joseph W. proceeded in the direction indicated by his son, and found Helen V. sitting on the grass in the middle of a glade or open space left by charcoal burners. He angrily charged her with frightening his little boy, but she entirely denied the accusation and laughed at the child's story of a "strange man," to which he himself did not attach much credence. Joseph W. came to the conclusion that the boy had woke up with a sudden fright, as children sometimes do, but Trevor persisted in his story, and continued in such evident distress that at last his father took him home, hoping that his mother would be able to soothe him. For many weeks, however, the boy gave his parents much anxiety; he became nervous and strange in his manner, refusing to leave the cottage by himself, and constantly alarming the household by waking in the night with cries of "The man in the wood! father! father!"

Two men disguised as Wild Men, the one in brushwood and moss, the other in straw, were led about the streets, and at last taken to the market-place, where they were chased up and down, shot and stabbed. Before falling they reeled about with strange gestures and spirted blood on the people from bladders which they carried. When they were down, the huntsmen placed them on boards and carried them to the alehouse, the miners marching beside them and winding blasts on their mining tools as if they had taken a noble head of game.

Happy Birthday!

thank you :)

Tim Finnegan lived in Walkin Street, a gentle Irishman mighty odd
He had a brogue both rich and sweet, an' to rise in the world he carried a hod
You see he'd a sort of a tipplers way but the love for the liquor poor Tim was born
To help him on his way each day, he'd a drop of the craythur every morn

Whack fol the dah now dance to yer partner around the flure yer trotters shake
Wasn't it the truth I told you? Lots of fun at Finnegan's Wake

One morning Tim got rather full, his head felt heavy which made him shake
Fell from a ladder and he broke his skull, and they carried him home his corpse to wake
Rolled him up in a nice clean sheet, and laid him out upon the bed
A bottle of whiskey at his feet and a barrel of porter at his head

Whack fol the dah now dance to yer partner around the flure yer trotters shake
Wasn't it the truth I told you? Lots of fun at Finnegan's Wake

His friends assembled at the wake, and Mrs Finnegan called for lunch
First she brought in tay and cake, then pipes, tobacco and whiskey punch
Biddy O'Brien began to cry, "Such a nice clean corpse, did you ever see,
Tim avourneen, why did you die?", "Will ye hould your gob?" said Paddy McGee

Whack fol the dah now dance to yer partner around the flure yer trotters shake
Wasn't it the truth I told you? Lots of fun at Finnegan's Wake

Then Maggie O'Connor took up the job, "Biddy" says she "you're wrong, I'm sure"
Biddy gave her a belt in the gob and left her sprawling on the floor
Then the war did soon engage, t'was woman to woman and man to man
Shillelagh law was all the rage and a row and a ruction soon began

Whack fol the dah now dance to yer partner around the flure yer trotters shake
Wasn't it the truth I told you? Lots of fun at Finnegan's Wake

Mickey Maloney ducked his head when a bucket of whiskey flew at him
It missed, and falling on the bed, the liquor scattered over Tim
Bedad he revives, see how he rises, Timothy rising from the bed
Saying "Whittle your whiskey around like blazes, t'underin' Jaysus, do ye think I'm dead?"

Whack fol the dah now dance to yer partner around the flure yer trotters shake
Wasn't it the truth I told you? Lots of fun at Finnegan's Wake

Whack fol the dah now dance to yer partner around the flure yer trotters shake
Wasn't it the truth I told you? Lots of fun at Finnegan's Wake

http://www.ctb.ne.jp/~noodle/img/noodle_l_birthday.jpg

happy birthday to you, nv.

thank you, sorry about the failed thread title change

it's okay, i appreciated the effort, i forged ahead and had a blue slatternday anyway.

"a"

may the sprites of winter bear thee to thy mirth, nv

Happy birthday!

happy bday noodly wave

Happy Birthday, Noodles. I think you're swell.

thanks everybody :D

just pondering how i can have such a shitty shambolic life and still be such a great learning mentor, but maybe i'll work that out one day

it's a good thing by the way. i feel composed and ever so slightly optimistic today, all things being equal

tiocfaidh ár breithlá

I echo what Darragh said.

Hope you have had a lovely day.

glad tidings to you on your day of birth, noodie!! <3