Blue Saturday

I haven't - but C/Kipling's Wireless were what I was thinking of. I like opening section of C as much as I've liked anything I've read in recent years. might revisit as am feeling possibly I undervalued the latter parts (post dogfight sections).

you're all making me want to read C quite a lot. and fizzles you're making me sad you didn't submit anything to the writing submissions thread

i still kick myself for not picking up a 50p copy of C in one of those Book Cellar shops a few years back. so many books tho.

alongside Mason & Dixon it was the most surprising thing i'd ever seen in a clearance shop

raise you a stuffed otter playing a violin

dude i can't compete with Connacht

If I had not
a place of profit that forces me to go to church said Inflammable
Gass. Id see the parsons all hangd a parcel of lying __ O said
Mrs Sisgtagatist if it was not for churches & chapels I should not
have livd so long _ there was I up in a Morning at four
o clock when I was a Girl. I would run like the dickins till
I was all in a heat, I would stand till I was ready to sink
into the earth, ah Mr Huffcap would kick the bottom of
the Pulpit out. with Passion. would tear off the sleeve of
his Gown, & set his wig on fire & throw it at the people
hed cry & stamp & kick & sweat and all for the good of
their souls, __ I m sure he must be a wicked villain said
Mrs Nannicantipot a passionate wretch. If I was a man Id wait
at the bottom of the pulpit stairs & knock him down & run
away. __ You would You Ignorant jade I wish I could see
you hit any of the ministers, you deserve to have your ears
boxed you do.

on reflection, to submit yourself to feeling half the unhappiness i've felt these last two years, well, you must have been very unhappy before. i get it now.

i've cried so much today that my eyes are closing involuntarily from sheer exhaustion

<3

myrrha knows what's up

fuck, c i'm sorry

shit will work out in the end

today is not my best day but i did just see a dachshund with the largest lengh to leg size ratio i have ever seen running ever so slowly along, which improved things for a few seconds

oh it would

sending you kind thoughts clouds

thanks, i appreciate it.

my boyfriend and i have decided to break up. i'm going to stay until the end of the semester (mid-december) so he can find a second part-time job and a roommate to help with the rent. i'm probably going to give my cat away too.

i've basically failed in every way possible.

two years wasted from a wasted life.

it doesn't mean something was a waste simply because it didn't last forever

idk it's different to say things right now that don't sound like bromides but i'm fairly confident that is true

we should exchange some more weird techno tracks soon anyway

different/difficult

nakh otm

ending /= failing

so sorry to hear that though clouds :(

i know. i tell myself that after this is over, i'll at least be free to be myself again. i don't want to feel like a martyr.

today all the women i know seem to be implying that i'm a bit pathetic

i dunno what to do with this info. i'm just trying to be the best me i can be. can't even tell where thoughtfulness turns into feebleness tbh.

okay i may be reading stuff in there that isn't exactly there but i know a lot of people who see a lot in black and white and my greyness makes them dismissive. i'm okay with grey i guess. i just feel a bit like "can't cut it in the real world fuck you"

even when there's a bit of me that just wants to EFF YOU RIGHT BACK i feel a sense of uselessness about it and just swallow it up

what kinds of things are they saying?

fyi I will fight them if u want me to, as a favor for this upcoming season of giving

i shdn't've started moaning if i'm just gonna be elliptical so i dunno

i work with people who are very black and white when it comes to managing difficult staff, and today not for the first time i felt this vibe - probably just in my head - when i was arguing about the best way of dealing with people whose performance was less than ideal. there's a lot of "just bloody get on with it" in my office/department and i feel like that must echo back on me, like what were people saying/thinking for all those weeks when i cdn't get it together to leave the house?

then tonight i just had a phone call from the mrs to vent about our daughter's admittedly not great behaviour, but nothing i could offer to do and no support was any good, which, fair enough, you want to vent, i'll listen, but kind of getting at me because i didn't have a master plan that didn't involve patience and understanding and just keep trying, until i'm genuinely worried about what she's telling me but i'm not allowed to be worried or express worry, i'm just no use really

i mean fuck it some of this is probably perfectly true and i don't wanna be a delicate little snowflake but what a fucking week. i dunno if i can't concentrate cos i'm useless or cos shit keeps happening that wd throw anybody off their stride, apparently i'm all overdrawn at the feeling sorry for myself bank so

i just had to vent and this was really the only hole i had to shout down

what were people saying/thinking for all those weeks when i cdn't get it together to leave the house?

well at least it appears that they have moved on to other targets

anyway i just got the traditional semi-apology from nom so forget it, i'm all good, nothing to see

i really need to take a break

I wouldn't bother yourself with what the worst type of judgemental arseholes are going to think of you, it usually is as bad you think it is but fuck 'em fuck 'em fuck 'em.

right

All criticism is a valuable opportunity 4u to improve imo -_-

An article reportedly written by the composer appeared in the Moscow newspaper Vechernyaya Moskva a few days before the premiere of the Fifth Symphony. There, he reportedly states that the work "is a Soviet artist’s creative response to justified criticism." Whether Shostakovich or someone more closely connected with the Party actually wrote the article is open to question,[18] but the phrase "justified criticism"—a reference to the denunciation of the composer in 1936—is especially telling.[19]

http://www.hulldailymail.co.uk/Hull-thug-got-drunk-mum-bashed-men-Benjamin/story-20089575-detail/story.html

the best headline

that's not a headline, that's a modernist poem

http://songandsin.files.wordpress.com/2013/01/gilles-deleuze.jpg

Fedora or Borsalino?

"10 habits of highly defective people"

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Quick search kinda a kick in the teeth in context

got those "several minor things to be anxious/sad about and it's dark and cold and i've been stuck in here alone for the last 2 days" blues

which i know will be gone in the morning, so

i hope all you ILXors who Thanksgive are gonna be somewhere that makes you happy tomorrow

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on the way to work this morning. the Christmas star on top of Maizecor flashes on and off.

good philosophy club sesh on Wittgenstein's language games last night

led to the observation that a group of strangers are far more comfortable discussing their pain with each other than their sexual experiences

I'm out of the house! This week suddenly got very Blue Saturday, but at least there is a small amount of work (when I don't forget to go to it)

good stuff

it's always Blue Saturday, just that Blue has a lot of different moods in it

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:The_Blues_Moods_of_Spain_cover.jpg

or even

http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_GQtuh1Q_luQ/TLpyN9UaczI/AAAAAAAAEyY/4iie_dskPRI/s1600/Spain+-+The+Blue+Moods+Of+Spain+-.jpg

was contemplating changing the title to Blue Slatternday

that would be a siren call to me.

ah well in that case

i believe in fair warnings.

Blues at a day

w8 I fucked that up

Blues at ur day clearly

Blue saturnday, in which the noted planet could be coloured blue (lights? Paint? Digital trickery? Mass delusion? Work on this later) as a marketing measure covering brands as diverse as brmingham city, everton, coventry city and the popular velvet market by david lynch