Babygirl, unpack yr sweaters and get FABULOUS in FALL gay homo queer &c 2012

i'm of two minds about the sort of liberated sacred sexuality, because i'm not about to criticize anybody for their search for spirituality, community, and support as long as they're not hurting anybody. on the other hand, do you really need all that witchy paraphernalia if you wanna have a circle jerk? i don't want to question alleged spiritual motives but i think you have to.

Some people are into leather and chains. Others are into pollen.

yah i mean i think its just the theatre of it. sexual practices that supplement the body, new possibilities of pleasure with strange parts of the body. also i think its sortof hard to think this outside the aftermath of an AIDS discourse, a desire for reparation and healing. like AA Bronson's recent work definitely gestures toward a rad fae space. invocation of the queer spirits. In the sky and in the eye and

lol, love the idea of reparative f***ing

I am owed.

i had about as gay a weekend as i possibly could've

"Golden Girls" marathon and strawberry daiquiris?

Faerie frottaging and cottaging?

gay zine launch party, gay awards gala (feat. a partial restoration of 1919 german silent film 'anders als die anderen'), gay bar after a poetry reading last night, a gay friend's birthday party, and an opera where i totally fagged out over NETREBKO and the cute gay polish baritone. and um, other things.

tonight i am planning on doing absolutely nothing

guy i slept w saturday texted me to say hes got crabs

informative text or accusatory

i love crabs gossip it's like tag

ugh that is horrible!

me irl btw:

http://www.peteykins.com/sparklepics5/NancyPanel18.jpg

agh plax/lol stevie

guy i slept w saturday texted me to say hes got crabs

this happened to me about twelve years ago ugh

here's the thing: rad fae stuff is HUGE out here, and in the end, i can't help but see it as an excuse to be a slut. that's fine, i love sluts, but don't dress it up in a bunch of new age yippie language and appropriated imagery.

and here's the thing: while i haven't seen too much of the more recent work, i pair AA Bronson with people like Elijah Burgher and bands like Coil or THC in my head, and that sort of sexual magick (more satan less pagan) is fine with me.

also, sorry plax. :-(

i haven't had enough coffee, sorry for my repetitions in that first post.

xp what's so horrible? isn't it just a shampoo and you're done? it's not like lice or bedbugs or scabies, no?

shave yr pubes off, it is the thing for 2012

2012?

Seems kinda 2004 to me.

it would seriously take me hours to shave all my body hair so there's probably no point depubing unless i was gonna do everything else and im not. i just hope they don't get in my beard because i have six months growth and i don't wanna start from scratch. really my beard is the only thing thats troubling me right now.

but lol thanks for the good wishes

also the pharmacist asked me if i got it from sleeping with a child O_o like actually wtf???

I cannot stress how wretched you will feel after your pubes are shaved, unless you're standing beside a cute guy and you scratch your nuts just so.

The only time I got crabs it took four months for them to go away, despite repeated shampooing. It was with the second guy I slept with too :/

really? i apologize for my cavalier response b/c all my sexy friends are like "ha ha yeah, got them last night! they're gone now."

only gay thing i did all weekend was jo while thinking about dudez :(

poor T, I hope you do not have the krabz

obv I was kidding abt shaving the pubes; that is one of the absolute biggest nagl's of all time, duh

speaking of beards, this is potentially my halloween costume this year:

http://www.english.illinois.edu/maps/poets/g_l/ginsberg/images/portrait_t.jpg

If you take it srsly you'll have to accessorize with a couple 15-year-old boys.

Just got out of third chemo session so of course I'm walking better than I have in a week. (It doesn't last.)

Apparently I'm talking even more like Wm Burroughs, at least on the phone, since I got sick. I should use the cane and find someone to play William Tell with on Halloween.

lol morbz. many warm wishes yr way.

You wont need the gun, Morbs -- stick with the cane. Keep hobblin'.

crossover 'your terrible (gay) ideas' post: tell your indie rapper not-too-close friend about how you have been thinking lately about 'stuff' and came to the conclusion that he's your platonic ideal for a bf, wondering if it has ever occurred to him to go out with a dude. ME, for example.

If necessary, I would just opt for a drunken grope. (no anticipation of success obv)

No don't do that.

don't do it.

Do it!

No wait. I mean, don't do it!

hah I need to start a journal because now that I wrote that (for the world to see, too bad) I feel a bit better. I always had this problem where you take all your time to pick the smartest and most attractive kid in the room to become your best / usually only friend, but being sooo repressed I never ever realized what was I actually doing, this stuff still confuses me a lot.

Wonderfully brave and heartfelt in theory, probably inadvisable in practice.

he's probably a touch flattered tbh i wouldn't sweat it, so long as there were no tears and/or gropes

I have taken the "Well, any chance you are interested?" leap once w/ no damage, but this was with perhaps the most pansexual person I have ever met.

fuck. ph1l just had an insane conniption fit and threw ~50 papers of my notes around the room.

i wasn't the target of the rage but i'm fucking shaken right now.

probably should not post about it here, just feel like i have to tell someone

i just hope it blows over by tonight, but i suspect it won't.

:(