Should I go fishing or get a friend to hang around? Celebrated GAY Summer 2012

if there were a horror movie about my life it would open with me holding a spray bottle

i am getting kind of a belly, is this a good thing y/n

yyyyyyyyy

Sorry, I guess I crossed the boundary between talking about and talking about.

Anyway, flowers from TJ can be fine, though I stick with long lasting ones like sunflowers and alstroemeria.

xp - y

I don't currently have a belly and don't really want one, per se, but arguing against them is obv nagl.

i blame a sedentary lifestyle and ice cream. i don't really care either way, i just don't feel the need to kill myself with exercise.

I have had a petite belly for a while and have grown to not really mind it.

Happy Friday everyone! http://skatebush.tumblr.com/

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I started being thinking feeling when I was 18, at which time I weighed 130 and had a 29" waist. These days I usually look at my body and think I'd definitely do me, and the numbers are far different. I'm definitely thick and I've got a belly and full cheeks, but I think I must have been delusional - and fucking frail twig - at 18 and b/c the even with addition of ~70 lbs and 5" no reasonable person would call me obese.

yes, yes and yes.

When you see a young man in the coffee shop and think he's cute but then realize he's probably ten years younger than you and won't even make eye contact with you and you enter into a tiny state of panic and start thinking about weirder more indirect overtures you could make i.e. offer him a job? offer to pay for his coffee? and the panic compounds when you realize What you are Doing, which is Behaving like an Troll-- and you feel guilty about it b/c you're happily partnered and looking just fine and anyway you didn't even try anything. What do you call that?

I have the tiniest hangover, practically undetectable, maybe it was just a moral hangover or something

you call it being a guy

yesterday a man moved seats to sit next to me, then picked my train, and took of his buds, and i still did not say "are u stalking me" all cutesy

he was cute

i was dumb

guys.

I am strangely adept at initiating conversation with cute strangers when I'm the teensiest bit stoned.

But otherwise I'm too shy to even glance in their direction.

I "toked on a j" last night with my two fabulous 60-something lady cousins. They drink and smoke and party, pretty cool cousins.

I don't smoke pot like ever, it dried my mouth out, I don't think I would've made any smooth moves had the occasion arisen

When you see a young man in the coffee shop and think he's cute but then realize he's probably ten years younger than you and won't even make eye contact with you and you enter into a tiny state of panic and start thinking about weirder more indirect overtures you could make

he's being shy and you should make an overtune because he's cute and will probably make out with you because you're cute, duh.

surm's train story is another lesson in similar things.

i would elaborate but i am going to a park in london to hang out with puppies now.

there is a puppy parade.

I highly advise you to obtain a v large sound system and play this on repeat at great volume

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hMtQne6L3F8

The puppies will love it.

i was devastated by my train

i mean it was like the universe was begging

and i said no

bc i was thinking about other things, had i been one beat faster i woulda done it

one time when i had taken a pill i was at the coffeeshop and i had huge sunglasses on and the guy was like did i see you at the thing, the studio

and i was like no but i'm going to a kids music class now

that's the end of the story

So pissed that there's a puppy parade happening only an hr and a half away from me and my puppy aren't there to take part.

*and me AND my puppy..

Sound system is wimpy, but otherwise I'm doing as advised.

Being sick + exhausting workload + cold meds resulted in my posting numerous word salads like this yesterday

I started being thinking feeling when I was 18, at which time

Gah. :(

xp puppy parade!? I want that!

i started being thinking feeling when i was 18 too tbh

Was supposed to say that I started thinking I was fat when I was 18.

I was gonna say, I didn't achieve existential awareness until at least 21.

i went shopping and got a shirt today, i've been into penguin, and i got jeans by DKNY

Second date with the boy last night: drinks and my place. We listened to Stevie Nicks and Wild Flag and made out a fair bit before we took a shower together.

How hygenic of you!

so was the shower

Nice!

(the date story, that is. though I'm pleased yr shower is clean too.)

go alfred go alfred go go go go go

On the bus back from Toronto for six hours. The boy just skyped me on my phone because he was feeling wound up and wanted an audience. Surprised/exhilarated/glad that I managed to shield my screen from the nice old Asian couple behind me.

Of course now I'm all pent up for the next four hours. But whatever.

I've never pent out on a bus or airplane. I suppose it's been done.

I didn't end up dancing last night anyway Alex, I sat around in a weird mood moving waveforms around pretending I was getting shit done.

Tonight though my big gay housemate is doing a BBQ on a little gas stove he just bought, I am so excited

I've never pent out on a bus or airplane. I suppose it's been done.

it has.

alex what is your boyfriend's name

J34n-Fr4nc01s

I haven't de-pented on a bus or plane. I am just pent up. Without any foreseeable release until 11 or so.

Stevie had a wonderful greyhound story iirc.

Sad to hear you were feeling out of sorts Owen but we will find another opportunity to hit the town. BBQs are fun.

omg where is my dealer

the eternal question

word. he just got here with his girlfriend who is like super nice. (he's really hot so i'm not surprised) and we talked about mariah carey

apparently he used to have a supercrush on her when he was a kid (again not a surprising thing)