Sunday Night Sad

Wrecked myself on Saturday night, spent all sunday hung over in oppressive heat, got a migraine and slept like shit last night, and now I have the monday morning furiously angry fed up with trying and failing at everything sads.

I did that yesterday... I think I've bumped my calendar up a day somehow.

feel incompetent at job, compounded by seeing my nemesis (someone who did nothing worse to me than being mildly dismissive and good enough at our job to leave it for a better-paid one, and whom I should really not still regard as a nemesis a year later)

argued protractedly w/boyfriend over I don't even know what mildly un-reciprocal relationship expectation, confirmed things I knew but would rather not be sure of, couldn't sleep for hours then dreamt of imaginary bad work situations last night

(office space voice) someone's got a case of the sundays!

blah.

your enemy probably isn't doing that well, you just aren't there to supervise their misery

I like your thinking - was just a bit annoyed that they were out with coworkers from the better-paid job I thought they wouldn't last a month at if they cut the same corners nobody else noticed them cutting at my job, but oh well

also, hi DG

hi dere

co-workers are probably corner-cutting assholes too

*shudder*

I have found that the solution to having sunday night sad is to not have a job to go to on monday (or tuesday, etc.). However this turns not to be a good solution for earning any money.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GETMvF2WS00

i haven't been in work for 5 or 6 weeks and i went to speak with my line manager on Thursday and told her i thought it was best if i resigned, because i couldn't promise my head would ever be in a place to consistently turn up and do what was needed of me, and i was ashamed at jerking everybody around. i've broken a bunch of conditions of my effective employment because in the weird semi-holiday of the summer i didn't contact anybody to tell them i was ill and i haven't been to see a doctor in months - it seemed pretty pointless, i've had all the ineffective "help" i'm gonna get, i don't even want to identify as ill any more.

but i said i'd go in and work until we'd talked things thru with Personnel because there's all sorts of financial implications depending how i go and secretly i hoped they might find me something i cd do that i cd cope with - tho i think what i can't cope with right now is offices and their horrible vibe of rectitude and gossip

so i don't even really know what the fuck i'm gonna do tomorrow and the dread is pretty massive especially multiplied out thru sunday night alone - weird how much twilight and isolation can creep inside you like something very primal, pre civilization, cast out from the camp fire

it isn't work it's the people who organize work and tomorrow the sun'll come back and it'll be ok, kind of, for a bit

dammit Analord is perfect sound for Sunday evening but otoh Tinker Tailor's on in an hour

Good luck, NV. You might have mentioned this elsewhere and I missed it, but are there any working from home possibilities?

Also, you've reminded me to watch Tinker Tailor.

i doubt it

film was good tho

also fuuuuuuuuuck everyboooooody who doesn't get me

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IMPMiLddsuE

good luck tomorrow NV <3

yes, good luck <3

was Sunday-night-sad earlier, now I am just staying up past my bedtime pretending it can be Sunday forever and never turn into Monday

best of luck NV. if it helps, all of the worrying and speculating about what might happen tomorrow is likely to get you more worked up than the actual event will. Hoping things turn out well for you.

I ought to be grateful that I've got a job to go to tomorrow. And that I just had a great vacation at the beach. But....

I get this a lot and sometimes even worse on Saturdays, although this weekend has been decent. In addition to the impending dread of going back to work, I often get very negative if I feel like I'm letting my little slice of free time slip through my fingers, so keeping myself occupied one way or another is key.

Fuck me I've been working (from home) all weekend and I forgot until just now that it's Sunday night and that I did absolutely nothing to enjoy this weekend.

Bleurgh...
A week into this temp IT support gig and I'm already counting the days until it's over.

A week and a bit of this shite to go, and then I'm freeeeeeeeee again. I mean, unemployed again.

sunday night anxious

actually got tomorrow off to do something i've been looking forward to, but i meant to spend all weekend working to make up for my day off since i have a horrible deadline looming for something i've realised too late that i'm totally out of my depth with. of course, i didn't, although i forgot to relax instead, i just spent all day alt-tabbing unengagedly between work-related pages and guilty peeks at ilx. hope i can manage to spend my day out tomorrow in the moment and not thinking about work.

good luck snoball, although i don't know if i'm wishing you luck with the job or the hunt for the next one (shh... freedom, yes)

Saturday night sad lately. Everyone's going out, spending moneys. Being happy and shit

This is p much every night when you're unemployed. :-/

The weekend was beautiful. Then I thought about work on Monday, and my mood plummeted to somewhere around the center of the earth.

branwell otm, the coalescion of this feeling in the employed around dread-of-monday disguises its fundamental nature imo; unemployment gives yr entire life the sunday-night quality of leisure that cannot be enjoyed, leisure you arw spending wrong

whole thread otm tho

For some reason I get this worse during the summer. If I'm not going out anywhere it's "oh where's all the fun and good times?". If I am out somewhere, there's that nagging feeling that I should be doing something productive. But then if I am at home, and it's too hot to work on personal projects, I feel totally apathetic.

A precursor for SNS is waking up with a start on Sunday morning and thinking 'oh shit I'm late for work' before realising that it's Sunday. It's happened to me two weeks in a row now.

I seem to have this worse when the weather is nice.

Like right now.

Damn you, Sunday Sads.

Sunday night sunsets are awful, so depressing

WHO ELSE DOESN’T FEEL GREAT

I started drinking too early today,and then I drank too much and still don't feel like I will sleep tonight, when I break the "not before 6" rule my functional alco routine completely falls to pieces!

i don't feel great

good vibes homies

yesterday i read over two-hundred pages, and today was just weird

i have been bummed

i also went into the forest

i should have read two hundred pages

it's not hard to do when you're reading knausgaard. my struggle is easy as shit to read

yeah probably easier reading than political sociology of ussr but 200 pages is better than 0 by any measure

heh

Sad tonight cos my favorite radio show is having it's last show ever.

if that is in reference to trís' college radio show then i quite agree

vraiment un jour tríste

No, it's the final show of Jet Lag on WRAS 88.5 FM, but will pour one out for all radio shows ending tonight.

I'm havin the blues tonight tho often that's related to having to go back to work tomorrow (which I don't hate at all, but who wouldn't 'never work' if they could?).

fighting the urge to go out and hang with people versus just chillin' cos I have a whole week ahead of activities ahead

imho Sunday is the best day of the week to lock yourself in your room and do whatever it takes to distract yourself from thoughts of death and dread and personal failure (books/internet/food/sleep/music are all suitable activities) though you might find yourself running out of ideas around dinnertime, and you'll find that you've napped too much during the day to go to bed early in the evening, so you'll end up staying up until 2am and showing up for work half-asleep on Monday morning. that said, it's still one of the better days of the week.

:D

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