I'm sad

was it good for you

it's a harris teeter cheese pizza that i customized with green peppers, onions and tomatoes and cayenne pepper. i took a pizza that was a 2/10 and made it a 4/10. *insert pizza std joke*

dunno if you are joking, but i have bought frozen pizzas before at the supermarket that are labeled "individual serving" or whatever, and i felt way too self-conscious about it, like is the cashier judging me for being single? which is completely fucking insane, but whatever. i only have so much control over the thoughts which pass through the dell highway

i say re-flickr/fb the pic of you at the overnight protest

that sounds pretty good zach!

this is a full size pizza. when i eat pizza i eat as much as possible so that i don't have to think about eating again for as long as possible

this is possible as long as it is possible

customizing supermarket frozen pizzas is a sign of hope/progress.

this is a full size pizza. when i eat pizza i eat as much as possible so that i don't have to think about eating again for as long as possible

i also do this

So sorry Zs <3

Deems otm though. It's no consolation right now, but her moving on will make you move on faster too, ultimately

when i eat pizza i eat as much as possible so that i don't have to think about eating again for as long as possible

u skinny fucker

when I eat pizza I eat as much as possible because it's pizza

i think part of it is that although i "moved on" earlier, the whole moving on process has been marked by this terrible feeling, like "this girl is nice but things are nowhere as good as they used to be, not even close." whereas this picture of her looks like she's back on top of the world. i can't even imagine feeling like that right now, and she's got this look in her eye like everything is perfect again.

ya it's like whipping a racehorse

xp sorry mood changed again

there were probably a bunch of crappy pictures she deleted

do you have time to read that whole new errol morris book about how photographs are non-"realistic"/deceptive, feel like it could be both immersive & helpful

Don't be mislead by a picture on the internet though. People don't put photos of themselves feeling melancholy, or when in an argument with their (new) flame on the internet. The picture hits hard because it's a distorted portrayal of reality (as any picture is). So I don't think "everything is perfect" again, for her, either.

xpost i might, actually, i'm just finishing American Pastoral and was about to start Neuromancer, but i could put that off for a while. is it Believing is Seeing you're talking about, I guess?

People don't put photos of themselves feeling melancholy

well, some people do. like me. ha. but yeah, i get your point. i'm just glad i deleted the feed and i'll never see shit like that again.

i wouldn't project perfect happiness onto her situation either zach, iirc she wasn't in a great place a few weeks back. Getting over each other isn't a competition. And there'll be other perfect times for you, i don't think you're over the hill just yet

a) you're generating mad (if understandable) ideas
b) based on my limited knowledge of the situation, i wouldn't put it past her to post such a pic to fuc w/u
c) it is pretty obvious that ladies love cool z_s
d) what are u drinking

the first time i saw my last srs ex with another guy, she was in full leather climbing off the back of his motorcycle, taking off helmet and shaking her hair in slo-motion. istr alice cooper playing in the background but that may have been subliminal tbh. I was outside tesco in my checkout uniform. It felt awes.

d) nothing good. i bought the first thing i saw in harris teeter (sam adams). i should have invested more than 2.5 seconds in the decision.

haha

xp

sam adams is pretty decent

oh god, dmac. in full leather?

"sam adams is pretty decent" was pretty much my exact reasoning. i was like "ehhh....well ok"

full leather

when she left me, three months previously, she was a trainee accountant. A FUCKIN ACCOUNTANT.

accountants can wear leather too!

iirc she had a leather watch strap

tbf she married the dude last year so clearly it wasn't just a setup to punk me. It just felt that way.

climbing off the back of his motorcycle, taking off helmet and shaking her hair in slo-motion

this is such a storied cliche that my ex (who was not such at the time) sent me a video of her doing this dismounting a moped in croatia

i still have it; it is called formyhusband.avi : /

we need a thread for whiskey and wine and reminisces of exes

Maybe this is that thread i dunno

pretty mucu

my ex-boyfriend married a girl with the same name as me. It's weird.

janet or vegemite?

lol Snakehole

nast

xpost i might, actually, i'm just finishing American Pastoral and was about to start Neuromancer, but i could put that off for a while. is it Believing is Seeing you're talking about, I guess?

― your pain is probably equal (Z S), Thursday, 5 January 2012 02:08 (8 hours ago) Bookmark Suggest Ban Permalink

(ha; was sorta kidding, just in that its premise seemed relevant, but obviously you totally could read it, i hear it's interesting; it's based on some times articles (like) so you could skim to see if it seems intriguing. (believing is seeing, yes, btw))

agh, there are people with more serious problems than me, by far, but i'm so fucking tired of this

oh dude i feel you. i had the sorta day thats just filled w/minor irritations and small mistakes but adds up to wanting to crawl into a hole and die

yep

i was just out in bars for 5-6 hours, giving the glances and receiving half glances and just generally feeling like the very worst that humanity has to offer

I love u, guys <3

for real <3

i mean it, i think it's so important to remember as frequently as possible that we're all struggling. everyone.

every single person.

even married people too!

no, married people are happy to the day they die, and esp. the children are happy CONSTANTLY

particularly when listening in on arguments sfrom the banister

:(

but then they sing together

i have been listening to way too much of the smiths recently, it's possible this has affected things

so fucking stereotypical but there it is